Jan. 3, 2012, 12:19 a.m.
A Romance Like No Other : Failure
E - Words: 4,490 - Last Updated: Jan 03, 2012 Story: Complete - Chapters: 154/154 - Created: Dec 02, 2011 - Updated: Jan 03, 2012 341 0 0 0 1
Kurt heard the whimper coming from Blaine making him smile still biting down hard on his lip, he felt Blaine’s hand decrease in pace and putting even less into it making him whimper himself, he took his hands from Blaine’s hair in another attempt to tease him and also because he didn’t want to hurt him.
Blaine heard Kurt’s own whimper, smiling in satisfaction, until his hands went out of Blaine’s hair, when he whimpered again. “Kurtttt, none of us are happy nowwww.” He said as he slowed down the pace to almost nothing, trying to get Kurt’s hands back in his hair and to get a reaction from him before he sped up again.
Kurt heard Blaine whimper, then speak, he was confused what did he mean “none of us are happy”? He was happy, well mostly the thing with Jack still upset him but he was still happy, unless Blaine wasn’t happy. He felt Blaine’s hand slow all the way down, next to nothing. He looked at him and sighed “what’s wrong?”
Blaine looked down, regretting what he said instantly. Kurt must have taken it literally, he only meant that now they were both being teased beyond belief. He repeated that thought to Kurt, moving his hand faster to prove to Kurt that nothing was wrong. He leaned back down to kiss him again, knowing that he probably wasn’t getting a moan now or his hands back in Blaine’s hair, but as long as Kurt was okay and believed him, he was okay with that.
Kurt listened to what Blaine said with a mixture of that, his hand moving faster and the kiss he was convinced, he kissed him back well did his best to. He put his hands back on the bedsheets where they were, so they wouldn’t hurt any part of Blaine. To show Blaine he was okay he stopped biting his lips and released the moans he was holding in, he moaned audibly into Blaine’s mouth worried that Jack would hear.
Blaine felt Kurt kiss him back, making him happy because it probably meant that Kurt believed him. He was even more happy and beyond relieved when he heard Kurt finally moan, what he had been hoping for this entire time. He increased the pace of his hand even more, continuing to kiss Kurt even though he couldn’t kiss back very well because of the moans, not that Blaine minded that.
Kurt smiled as the pace was increased, not long now. He gripped the sheets more and moaned more into Blaine’s mouth still trying to kiss him, he didn’t want to tease Blaine anymore and he hoped that Blaine wouldn’t tease him. His eyes remained shut since they were hard to open, he wanted to put his hands on Blaine’s neck and pull him down for a deep kiss, which is what he did, he reached up and pulled Blaine in for a long deep kiss before putting his hands back where they were before.
Blaine was done teasing Kurt now that he got moans out of him, plus he didn’t want Kurt to have to suffer anymore. He felt Kurt moan into his mouth, and he absolutely loved the sound and feel of them against his lips. His hand never stooped moving and went even faster when he felt Kurt pull him in by the neck to give him a deep kiss, which he instantly responded back and gave Kurt a just as deep kiss. Blaine started to put the most into it that he could, smiling as he kept kissing Kurt.
Kurt was happy when he felt Blaine kiss him back just as deeply, feeling the hand on him put the most in that he could, he knew it was going to be soon, very soon. And then his little problem would be fixed and he’d be even happier. He moaned into the kiss even more feeling Blaine smile making him smile.
Blaine literally could not put any more into it, so he just increased his kisses to Kurt instead. Feeling the moans that Kurt had been holding back this entire time made him smile even more, especially after he felt Kurt smile with him. He didn’t know how much longer Kurt was going to last, but he knew that after he was done the problem would be solved and everything would be that much better for Kurt.
Kurt could feel Blaine put everything into it, any minute now he thought to himself. He kept on moaning and trying to kiss back when he felt Blaine increase the kisses. He felt Blaine smile more making his smile grow too, he loved it when Blaine smiled especially after the upset not long before. He put his hands back onto Blaine’s neck keeping them together otherwise he’d pull away when he came. He gave Blaine a deep kiss and moaned Blaine’s name loudly into his mouth as he came, he gave Blaine a couple of quick pecks after that and pulled out of the kiss to smile at him. “Thank you”
Blaine knew when it was over, and he returned the deep kiss, letting Kurt peck him a few times as he smiled down at him. “Anytime.” He said, smile growing larger. Blaine lifted up Kurt’s hips and pulled back up his boxers and sweatpants so that he would be more comfortable, before falling back on the bed next to Kurt, not sure if Kurt wanted to snuggle up against him or if Blaine could go back to being held by Kurt.
Kurt smiled as Blaine pulled his boxers and sweatpants back up, he was more comfortable now. “Oh I know” he grinned when Blaine said “Any time”. He watched Blaine fall onto the bed next to him, he scooted over and turned onto his side putting his arms around Blaine, leaning his forehead against the side of Blaine’s head. He kissed his cheek and smiled at him, just being with Blaine always made him feel better and happier.
Blaine grinned when he felt Kurt’s arms go around him and a kiss on his cheek. “I’m not sure which way to turn… if I turn myself one way we’d be spooning, and if I turned the other way I’d be facing you and looking at you. Tough tough decision….” Blaine said, turning his head to look at Kurt. “Which one would you prefer?”
Kurt smiled as Blaine spoke, he released his arms and gently pushed Blaine so his back to him, he wrapped his arms back around him and rested his head on the side of Blaine’s, like they had done when Blaine was sick in hospital. “I like this, i like holding you, especially when i know you’re sad”
Blaine laughed when he felt Kurt push him to his side and wrap his arms around him, he loved it when Kurt just held him. He leaned fully back against Kurt, listening to what he said and putting his hands on the arms around him as he snuggled even more into Kurt. “I like this too. It’s comforting.”
Kurt smiled as Blaine leaned back into him putting his hands on Kurt’s arms. He held him close and looked down at him, “i’m glad you find it comforting because my baby needs comforting”
Blaine closed his eyes and sighed, he was extremely comfortable, lying there like that with Kurt. He nodded a little when Kurt said he needed comforting, because he did. “Yeah…. thank you for that babe. I just…. I don’t even know why he would say any of that….”
Kurt turned his head a bit to look down at his fiancee better “I do, like i said earlier he had your full attention for six years and now i’m here getting your attention and he doesn’t like it, he doesn’t like sharing you. He said to me earlier that i took you away from him. I know i haven’t cut he doesn’t see it like that. I get it, it was like it with me and Finn, when Finn joined the family and dad bonded with him, i didn’t like it. This is kinda like it”
Blaine kept his eyes closed as he listened to Kurt, stroking his arm as he spoke. What Kurt was saying made sense, but Blaine still didn’t like how Jack didn’t like Kurt because Blaine did, and how he said he didn’t want him to marry Kurt. He sighed when Kurt finished talking and opened his eyes look up at him, turning his head slightly. “Why are you so smart?” He asked with a smile, craning his neck to give Kurt a quick kiss before putting his head back on the pillow and closing his eyes, thinking.
Kurt smiled as Blaine stroked his arm and returned the quick kiss. “Well one of us has to be” he teased as Blaine put his head back down and closed his eyes, he looked in thought. Kurt sighed. “I just wanted one kid, just one to like me and it seems i can’t even have that”
Blaine’s eyes shot open at what Kurt said, and he turned his head again to look at him. “Hey, don’t say that. The whole reason he says he doesn’t like you is because of me, so don’t feel bad. You just haven’t been around kids as much. Trust me, I know a few kids back home who would adore you.”
Kurt listened to Blaine and shook his head. “No its not because of you its because of me, he just doesn’t like me for the reasons i said before i met him, kids just don’t like me and the kids you know won’t adore me.” he closed his eyes. “And i wanted to be a dad, how can i be one when kids don’t like me”
Blaine put his hand over Kurt’s mouth to get him to stop talking like that. “Kurt. Stop talking like that. The reason Jack doesn’t like you is because you have my attention, it has nothing to you with you personally. I bet if someone like…. let’s say I brought a friend up here, like Reed, he would hate them too. Jack is just like that. Like I said before, you haven’t spent enough time around kids to come up with something like that. You’re going to be an awesome dad, especially since you have Burt to model after.”
Kurt pulled down the hand from his mouth, he looked down at Blaine, he knew what he said wasn't true. “You aren’t marrying Reed, that is much different to friendship. Wait hate? He hates me?” he sighed and buried his face in Blaine’s shoulder. “Hate is much worse than dislike. It just gets better doesn’t it? And me and my dad are two completely different people, just because he’s a good dad doesn’t mean i will be”
Blaine turned himself so he could wrap his arms around Kurt after he buried his face in his shoulder, the situation reversed from Blaine getting comfort to Kurt getting comfort. His thumbs stroked Kurt’s back as he spoke. “No no no, not hate, sorry wrong choice of words. He never once said he hated you, I just used the wrong wording. Sorry. Kurt, you’re going to be an amazing dad, trust me. You knew that Jack would’ve wanted me to go back downstairs to him, you reminded me about keeping him happy and acting like I was okay, and a lot of other things that you don’t realize. It’s true, you and Burt are two different people, but most adults parent in the way they were parented, and having Burt as your dad will do nothing but help you be the awesome dad I know you’re going to be.”
Kurt nodded as Blaine spoke his arms still around him, trying not to cry. “But you knew them things too, its just simple logic Blaine you know that. I just… i don’t know. I want to be good with kids, i really, really tried with Jack, i wanted to show you that i can, well try at least. I thought i was doing okay today and then he said that stuff and it made me realize i’m terrible with kids. You say i’m going to be an awesome dad, i don’t think i will be. I don’t even know how to put on a diaper, i don’t even know how to look after a kid or how to hold them, comfort them. I have no idea. I know we aren’t going to have kids for a while yet and i have time to learn but what if… what if i’m not good enough to be a dad, what if i’m going to be a failure?”
Blaine held Kurt close to him, desperately trying (and probably failing) to comfort him and wanting nothing more than for those thoughts to be out of Kurt’s head. “Okay, Kurt, listen to me. I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again. Jack didn’t like that you were getting my attention, it had nothing to do with your personality. If a tree was getting my attention like you are, Jack would go tell the tree he didn’t like it and try to push it over. You’re not terrible with kids, you haven’t even been around them enough to come up with that assumption. I can help you with the whole diaper deal and stuff with that, even though I’m not the expert. The only reason you think I’m good with kids is because I act like one around them. And the only kid you’ve seen me with is Jack. You won’t be a failure as a dad, you know why? The only way yo be a failure as a dad to a kid is to not be there for them or do stupid things like hit them or whatever, which you wouldn’t do in a millions years. Trust me Kurt, you won’t be a failure as a dad.”
Kurt listened to Blaine unable to hold to tears in any longer, he held onto Blaine tight nodding to what he was saying. He smiled weakly when Blaine said about Jack and a tree. “But he’s never done this with anyone else before has he?” he asked knowing what the answer already was. “You’re amazing with Jack, you don’t always act like a kid around him, you actually only act like a kid when I’m not playing I’ve noticed that. You’re just simply amazing with him, the way you’ve handled him today is just incredible, and you’re going to be an amazing dad. No you’re right i would never hit any one, especially not a kid, I couldn’t. I just want to make you happy, make you proud”
“No, he hasn’t done this with anyone else before because no one else has had my attention like this. Like you do.” Blaine half smiled at Kurt and lifted his hands to wipe away Kurt’s tears with his thumb. “I’m not amazing with him; if I was he wouldn’t have any of those hurt feelings he had. I only handled him the way you reminded me to, I probably would’ve let some sadness show if you wouldn’t have told me not to. You make me happy and proud no matter what you do, and even if you don’t think you’re good with kids, I know you’ll be amazing with Andrew and Elizabeth.”
“Every kid gets hurt feelings Blaine, no matter who it is, parents can still do it” Kurt weakly as Blaine wiped his tears away. “You are amazing with him, i don’t think you would have showed sadness, i think you would have been fine” he snuggled into Blaine. “We won’t know how good i’ll be with Andrew and Elizabeth for a few years yet”
“I’m not that amazing with him to be honest; I’ve just known him for six years so I know what he’s like and how to handle him in most situations. I probably would have shown at least some sadness, which would make him sad and we didn’t need that.” Blaine smiled as Kurt snuggled into him and wrapped his arms around him more so he would be more comfortable. “True, but I think you’ll be amazing with them.”
Kurt felt Blaine’s arms wrap more around him as he wrapped his own more around Blaine. He felt something scratch on his arm, he looked up and saw a piece of paper, he read it. It was the note Blaine left him, he put it back down and rested his head on Blaine’s chest. “Did you eat?” he asked looking up into the beautiful hazel eyes looking down at him.
Blaine looked down at Kurt as he read the note Blaine had left him earlier, not taking his eyes off of his fianc�e. “Yeah, Jack and I had some cheese pizza. Lucky for me we had some frozen pizza in the fridge and I didn’t have to try and cook something, which you and I both know would’ve ended up disastrous.”
“You aren’t the greatest cook are you?” Kurt smiled, he remembered something that they said they were going to do a couple of days ago but never got round to it. “Hey baby… whatever happened to us watching the last Harry Potter film that you wanted to watch sooo badly?”
Blaine looked down at Kurt’s smile, making him grin because Kurt was crying moments earlier. “I’m not sure, babycakes…. do you want to watch it now? I could run downstairs and get it if you did. I’ve missed having to explain Harry Potter to you.” Blaine said the last part with a pout,deliberately using a pet name he hadn’t used before to see what Kurt would think of it.
Kurt loved the pet names that Blaine called him, all of them he loved, this one especially. “We can watch it now, I’ve missed you explaining it to me” he smiled. “You know, i love the names you call me. I hear them and I get tingles and butterflies, I love them” he leaned up and kissed the pout before rubbing his nose against Blaine’s.
Blaine grinned even more when Kurt said they could watch Harry Potter, and he lit up entirely when Kurt said he loved the names that Blaine called him. “R-really? I didn’t know what you thought of them, if they were too cheesy or no-” Blaine started but was interrupted by a real kiss right before an Eskimo kiss. He melted, returning the Eskimo kiss with the biggest grin yet. “I love you.”
Kurt watched as Blaine’s face lit up and his grin grow making his own smile grow large, and again even more when Blaine returned the Eskimo kiss. “I love you too” he gave Blaine a quick peck before pulling away just to smile at him. “Well you’ve called me them for a while now and I’ve called you them too, so yeah i like them, i love them. If i didn’t i wouldn’t call you them myself would i?” he kissed Blaine’s nose and rested his forehead against Blaine’s.
Blaine grinned even more when Kurt smiled and when he said that he loved the pet names that Blaine loved calling him. “Hmmm, guess not….” He said, closing his eyes and scrunching his nose up like Kurt would always do when his fianc�e kissed his nose. His eyes fluttered open again and he gave Kurt’s own nose a kiss, biting his lip when Kurt’s nose scrunched up. “I should probably go get that movie….”
Kurt’s nose always scrunched up when it was kissed, he found it amusing sometimes how Blaine mimicked it. “You probably should otherwise we’ll just lay here and have the motivation to move at all. Hurry back though, it gets lonely here without you and i love having my big Blainey here to snuggle against”
“You also said earlier how you loved having your big Blainey snuggle up against you, am I wrong?” Blaine said with a small laugh, leaning in to give Kurt a quick kiss before unwrapping his arms from Kurt and half-heartedly slipping out of bed. “I’ll be back soon, don’t miss me too much.” He teased, practically running out of the room and down the stairs to look for the movie.
Kurt grinned returning the quick kiss, he was tempted to pull Blaine back onto the bed when he slipped out of it but knew that the quicker he went the quicker he would come back. He watched Blaine run out of the room to look for the movie which he knew for a fact was still upstairs and in the very room. He climbed out of bed and went to the location of the movie picking it up and taking it back to bed stuffing it behind the pillow. “I miss you” he shouted down to Blaine.
Blaine looked around downstairs for the movie, not seeing it anywhere, which confused him. He knew he brought it… maybe it was upstairs. He laughed to himself when he heard Kurt shout down to him that he missed him, Kurt was so adorable it killed Blaine sometimes. He ran back up the stairs, opening the door and starting to look around upstairs for the movie. “… it wasn’t downstairs…. and I can’t find it now… but I know I brought it…”
Kurt was trying not to laugh when he watched as Blaine ran around looking for the DVD that was hidden right behind him. “Oh i know you brought it, you showed it to me because we were going to watch it but you got sick, remember?” he grinned, his tongue poking out slightly watching Blaine look for the movie. “I know where it is”
Blaine turned around to face Kurt when he said he knew where the movie was, looking at how is tongue poked out and trying not to stare at it and lose track of the task at hand. “You do? Where is it?” Blaine asked, looking around him again, having no idea where the movie he wanted to watch with Kurt was.
Kurt watched Blaine trying not to stare at his lips, not noticing his tongue was poking out. “If i tell you, you have to give me something” he closed his eyes and tapped his puckered lips with his finger asking for a kiss.
Blaine grinned when Kurt asked for a kiss; it was like he could read his mind. He quickly went over to the bedside and leaned down to give Kurt a deep kiss, not pulling awayimmediatelyand grinning when he did. “So where’s this movie then?”
Kurt smiled as Blaine gave him a deep kiss, which he returned. “Its in a secret hiding place” he grinned getting himself comfortable against the pillow. “To get the secret hidden location you must give me something” he grinned.
“Oh gee Kurt that really helps….” Blaine said as Kurt got comfortable against his pillow. “What’s this other thing I have to give you to find out what another hint is?”
Kurt thought for a second, there are many things that Blaine could give him. “Hmmm i can think of a couple of things” he grinned. “If i tell you that’d ruin the fun” he smiled up at Blaine.
Blaine bit his lip to keep from laughing. “Really….. how do I know what to give you though since I don’t know what you will deem an appropriate gift…” Blaine stood back up, looking around the room for an idea.
“Well any gift you give me is appropriate, just because its you” Kurt said before laughing, he knew where the hiding place was and it was hard trying to keep that from Blaine, anyone else it would be easy but Blaine, it was different with him. He watched his fianc�e look around the room for ideas. “You won’t find any clues looking around the room; I’m your only clue”
Blaine looked back at Kurt, confused when he said that he was the only clue. “That still doesn’t help…..” He said, walking back over to the bed and hovering his head over Kurt’s. He had an idea to get Kurt to tell him where the movie was, but he wasn’t sure it was going to work. Blaine leaned down and gave Kurt a deeper kiss than before, hoping that was what he was talking about.
Kurt smiled and kissed Blaine backinstinctively wrapping his arms around his neck. When Blaine pulled away, Kurt’s grin grew, he loved this teasing. “Sooo you want to know where it is, if you want it you’ll have to give me another and make it worthy of giving it back” he bit his tongue gently still grinning.
Blaine laughed when Kurt said he needed another one before Blaine could know where the movie was hidden. The angle he was standing over Kurt was awkward, so he shifted his weight and laid down on top of Kurt, intertwining their legs even through the covers and his face still hovering over Kurt’s. A hand went up into Kurt’s hair as Blaine leaned down for another deep kiss, letting his lips stay a bit parted so Kurt could do whatever he pleased in the kiss.
Kurt didn’t expect Blaine to lay down on top of him but he was far from complaining, he felt Blaine intertwine their legs through the covers and his hand go into his hair as he leaned in for another kiss, which Kurt immediately reciprocated. He felt Blaine’s lips parted and quickly poked his tongue out and then back in again, giggling as he did.
Blaine expected for Kurt to barely tease him in the kiss, so he shook his head and grinned when he felt Kurt giggle into it. He started to kiss Kurt more deeply, keeping his lips parted as he expected another tease and the hand in Kurt’s hair starting to twist little strands around his fingers as he played with it.
Kurt kissed Blaine back as deeply as he was kissed; he felt the hand in his hair twisting strands of his hair around his fingers. He felt Blaine’s lips still parted and the grin on his face, he poked his tongue back out into Blaine’s mouth where it just poked at Blaine’s tongue. He felt Blaine’s tongue go to play back so he pulled it back out still giggling.
Blaine fell more onto Kurt when he felt his tongue start poking at his, and he whimpered quietly when Kurt pulled his tongue back into his mouth, making Blaine stop the kiss to look down at him. “Was that good? Do I get another clue now?”