“Thanks Mom. Do you want to hold him for a few minutes before Kurt has to feed him?”

“No I'll wait until Kurt feeds him cause I might not want to put him down,” Collette said smiling.

“Have fun peeling him away from Kurt when he gets back with the coffee,” Blaine laughed.

“How are you holding up,” Collette asked as she shifted in the recliner to make herself more comfortable.

“I'm really glad you could come Mom,” Blaine sighed, “all of this has been the best and worst four days of my life. I have been trying to stay calm for Kurt and Cole, but sometimes I just feel like I need to break down. If it wasn't for you coming in and Burt and Carol getting here as fast as they did I might have cracked already and so might have Kurt. Fortunately for us little man hasn't had any set backs, and the nursing staff believes it is because of the around the clock kangaroo care we are doing. Burt and Carol are staying through the first week of January and so are you and Dad so that is going to help out a lot but when all of you have to leave and I have to go back to school I don't know what we are going to do. I can't have Kurt sitting up here all day and all night. I know he will ”

“Well I talked to your dad and decided that when he leaves if you still need me to stay that I plan on staying as long as you need me too.”

“Thanks Mom,” Blaine replied smiling as he noticed Kurt coming back with a large cup of coffee.

Kurt smiled when he walked over to Cole's isolette and saw Blaine with him in his arms. He also noticed the petite woman sitting next to him. She looked to be in her late forties, and she had the same striking features as his fiance, and she was stroking their son's tiny features. Before she could say anything Kurt smiled, “Hi Collette, how was your flight?”

“Really tiring. How are you feeling,” she asked as she stood up to give Kurt the seat.

“Overly tired and still sore, but the doctor says I'm healing well, and as for the pain from the breastfeeding that's getting better. I'm going to feed him now and then when he's done do you want to hold him,” he asked as he picked up Cole gently from Blaine.

“That sound's like a good idea,” Collette smiled as she looked on at her son and his new little family with awe.

**

The next week passed quickly between the NICU visits and trying to get things together for a small Christmas celebration at their apartment. They had had a long day at the hospital and Kurt had some mild pain so they welcomed the break when his mom agreed to split the evening with Burt and Carol so they could rest as well.

“Lets get married this weekend,” Blaine said as he laid back on the bed.

“What,” Kurt looked at him with shock, “why?”

“We can have the big ceremony in a few months when Cole is better, but I want to be your husband and life partner. I'm tired of calling you my fiancee. We have been through so much in the last week with you and Cole, and it would be nice to have some more happy moments.”

“But Blaine it's so close to the holidays will we even be able to do a ceremony anywhere.”

“They should be able to do it one afternoon at city hall. We can go one afternoon during shift change that way if it runs a little later than the normal hour we know Cole will be extra taken care of. That way to your parents and my mom can come along.”

“This isn't how I imagined it though, and I want it to be special not rushed.”

“Fine”, Blaine snapped, “we don't have to do it.”

“Blaine, it's not...,” Kurt tried to explain.

“Stop,” Blaine cut him off, “Kurt you don't want to rush it we won't rush it.”

Kurt sighed he felt awful for hurting Blaine. He wanted to marry the man of his dreams, but didn't want to feel like they were rushing. He wanted the day to be everything special that he had thought of the night Blaine proposed not just a quick ceremony to give themselves a happy moment.

“Blaine, I love you,” Kurt whispered as he reached out to touch his fiancee's shoulder, “I'm sorry. I know it came out like I didn't want to get married at all.”

“It's okay, I overreacted. I love you too,” Blaine said as he rolled over and spooned his body up against Kurt's.

**

“Hey Dad,” Kurt smiled as he saw Burt snuggling with Cole.

“Hey where's Blaine,” Burt asked as he stood up so Kurt could sit where he was.

“He's getting coffee. He wants us to get married this weekend.”

“Why don't you it only makes sense.”

“Well we argued about it last night and I just told him that I didn’t want to feel like we were rushing anything,” Kurt sighed.

“But you aren't. I know you have visions of a grand ceremony in a hall with candles and table linen, but there is nothing that says you can't have that when Cole is well.”

Kurt chuckled. He knew his dad was right. Now he just had to convince Blaine of how stupid he had been the night before.

About that moment Blaine walked in and Judy walked over with another younger gentleman who looked to be in his early thirty's with dark hair, tan skin, and hazel eyes. He was wearing a lab coat with a suit underneath so it was obvious that he was one of the NICU specialists however they had never seen him before.

“Are you excited for Christmas,” the older woman asked smiling.

“Yah we will probably cook a small meal at our apartment then come up here. I wish he was able to be going home,” Kurt said.

“Well he will before you know it. In fact that's why I came over. This is Dr. James he is one of the new pediatric respiratory therapists.”

“Nice to meet you,” Burt said sticking his arm out as he wrapped his other around Kurt as a sign of support.

“Mr. Hummel and Mr. Anderson, I have some news. We want to take Cole off CPAP tonight to do a lung maturity test with the nasal cannula. He has minimal pressure through CPAP and we want to see if he can breathe without the pressure.

“Can we hold him during this time, ” Blaine asked.

“For about the first 5 minutes we are going to want to leave him in his isolette to get used to the change and then depending on how stable he stays then you can hold him. You are both welcome to touch him though once we go through the process of removing the CPAP.”

“What will happen if he can't breath or is struggling to breath,” Kurt questioned as he rubbed tiny circles on Cole's back as he slept.

“We will put him back on CPAP, but with the history of early breastfeeding and almost twenty four seven skin to skin contact I have a feeling he will do fine,” the young doctor replied.

“I hope,” Kurt whispered as he smiled at Blaine and thought about their son's future.