Chapter 13

February 2015

Dear diary.

Time flies. Holy hell. It's already February again and I'm in full stress-mode. Planning and creating Tina's wedding dress, planning and creating Blaine's, dad's, Finn's, Elliot's and my suits for Tina's AND our wedding. Carole's dress, Rachel's, San's and Britt's dresses for both weddings. I'm in hell. Well, Blaine and I don't have a date yet. So the clothes for Tina's and Mike's wedding come first, of course. But we have to have different suits for both occasions. I mean, the suits we will wear on our own wedding have to be spectacular but I don't do boring suits for Tina's wedding. And I got promoted at work and they want to hire me after graduation. WTF? I'm in heaven. Yeah and in hell. I have so much to do. I barely sleep at the moment. In the evenings after classes and work I work on the clothes for Tina's wedding and in the night, I need a few hours to get my ideas on paper for Blaine's and my wedding. When I have a late morning class I start sewing. I'm tired. I'm moody, I'm hungry, I'm tired. Oh I wrote that already. Well I am. Blaine says I will overwork myself and then I'll have a breakdown. I know he's right but I won't let anybody else do the clothes. It has to be me. Maybe I should talk to Blaine about a date. We'll be 21 this summer so maybe September next year? Then we'll be 22 and done with college. I think that will be reasonable. But we have to find a location and we need to discuss how many people we invite. We could save some money when we hire the New Directions for the music. I bet most of them would agree to do that. Nice idea. Maybe even Blaine and I can do a duet or something. Rachel already told me that she and Carole will do the wedding cake. I mean, not that we can't afford our own wedding. Blaine gets his trust fund this year when he turns 21, but we agreed that we would save as much as possible for our own place after the wedding and maybe for when we plan to have kids. Mhhh what a thought. I can't wait to marry Blaine and then in a few years to have kids with him. I knooooooooow, I'm already dreaming again of our future, but this time I have a feeling that it will be exactly like that. Gosh, I'm babbling and babbling about so many different things at once. I'm so tired. It's 3am and Blaine sleeps like the dead. Okay, we had sex around midnight and he's exhausted, but I did all the work. I have to get at least one more sketch done tonight. Have to work now. See ya, Kurt

“I remember one of those nights when I woke up because you weren't with me and I spotted you at the desk, head on your latest sketch, slightly snoring and charcoal on your face. You looked so pretty. And so tired. I have no idea how you got all that work done in time. I was and still am so proud of you, darling,” Blaine gushes and I groan.

“I have no clue how I did it, to be honest. I felt that the whole world came crashing down on me but I somehow had to manage to stay strong. For all of you and for me too, of course. When I look back, I am proud of myself too. It was an exhausting year, but we made it,” I say and grin proudly.

“That we did, my darling. Another one before brunch?” Blaine asks and I turn another page.

April 2015

Dear diary.

Holy hell...

Another 2 months since my last entry. Sorry again. I'm so fucking busy. Still. I know. But it's less then 2 months to Tina's and Mike's wedding. The clothes are nearly done. Thank god. Blaine gives me everything I need and don't even know that I need it. He's so supporting, loving, and more than ever he's patient with me and my outbursts. I am difficult right now. I know this. And Tina is sooooooooo bitchy at the moment. She came over here for spring break to get her dress done and I nearly kicked her in the shin when she asked me to make some more changes. But hey, she's the bride and I saw too many movies about weddings and brides. I know how they get. Hopefully I won't become a groomzilla. OMG. Blaine has the permission to scold me if I do. Ugh. Well. Mike is so calm though. He just let's Tina have her way. Blaine is the same way. Ha! Good for me.

Yesterday I had so much fun taking Blaine's measurements again. I mean I didn't need to because he didn't gain any weight. On the contrary. He lost a bit but he gained muscles in all the right places. Mhhhh. Oh, I'm getting distracted. His waist is a bit smaller, his biceps grew a bit and he gained more abs and pecks because of his work-outs. So I told him that I need to check on his measurements for the suits and when he lost his clothes to only his boxer briefs I took my time to measure him everywhere and thoroughly. Haha... I touched his thighs softly and stroked over his belly while on my knees in front of him until I heard him gasp. I looked up to him innocently with the pencil between my teeth and I saw his beginning arousal. I tried so hard not to smirk. Must have worked because Blaine worked his fingers through my hair until I hummed and took the pencil out of my mouth to kiss and lick his abs. Well, as he started to beg me to do something, I really smirked and stood up just to say that I had my notes and he could put his clothes back on. First I got a shocked look, then he threw me a glare and then he smirked in return and smacked me on the butt. I laughed and he chased me through the apartment until we were back in our bedroom again. I surrendered and threw myself on the bed. I tried to look sexy but I had to laugh so hard as Blaine tried to strip out of his underwear and fell over his own feet. It just looked ridiculous. Our mood was great and we had a nice couple of rounds of awesome sex. Another addition to my favorite list: playful sex. With laughing and giggling and chasing and changing positions every couple of minutes to last as long as possible. LOVE IT! And it always feels new and special with Blaine.

So, everyone is fine right now and nobody that I know of broke up or has someone new. Everything is perfect. Work is perfect, the girls are perfect, Finn is perfect, dad and Carole are perfect, Elliot and Ben are perfect, Mercedes and Bobby are perfect and Blaine, my wonderful wonderful Blaine is the most perfect of them all. <3

See? I am crazy emotional right now. And soooooo in love...

Have to get Blaine's suit done now. See ya hopefully sooner next time, Kurt xo

“Gosh, you are such a sap!” Blaine whispers and kisses me hard on the mouth.

“Ha! Says the professional sap,” I retort and giggle. “Come on, you love me even more when I am sappy, so hush.”

Blaine kisses me again and nods.

“Another one?” I ask and already turn the page.

May 2015

Dear diary.

Holy fuck.

I think every entry begins with me swearing.

Ow. Ow. Ow.

I have such a hangover. I can't stomach anything. Not even water...

Yes, I turned 21 yesterday and the girls, Finn, Elliot, Ben and Blaine thought it would be a great idea to get me as drunk as possible. Legally. Oh god...

I can't even remember a thing after my second cocktail. But unfortunately everyone filmed our little party at the club. I am a slut... Well not a slut with other men, but I nearly had sex with Blaine on the table in the middle of the club. But let me start earlier:

I knew that we would party at the club we frequently visit. Everyone accept Finn and Blaine were already 21 and they have a fake ID so no problems here. Shhhhhhhh I didn't say anything. I could finally show my own ID at the door and the doorman just smirked. We started with a sparkling wine and moved to cocktails. The first one was great and it made me giggly. I danced with the girls and Blaine and the boys watched us from the bar. Elliot then handed me a new cocktail, when we returned to the bar 20 minutes later. That one was really strong and tasted sour. But hey, I'm no prissy and I downed it in 2 gulps. Then everything went fuzzy. So the rest I'll tell you is evidence from various videos. YES VIDEOS... Oh god...

The second cocktail got the better of me and I lost all inhibitions. Fist I danced with Blaine on the dance floor seductively. Rubbing my butt on his dick while I grabbed the back of his neck to keep him close to me. He held on my hips and I started to grind backwards. I must have felt his erection because then my other hand grabbed behind my back to get a grip on his dick. I panted and my chest was heaving heavily. Blaine licked a long stripe from my collarbone to my ear. Apparently that wasn't enough for me so I dragged Blaine back to the table and slid on his lap when he sat down on his chair. We kissed wet and sloppy, I grinded down on Blaine's lap and he groped my ass. I shoved my hand under his shirt and played with his nipples until he slipped his hands down my pants (I went commando). Well I must have liked that a lot (duh...) because my grinding got faster and Blaine nearly threw me on the table and started to really dry-hump me. You can't hear much audio because of the loud music but whoever of the girls recorded that cooed and snickered like crazy. Could have been San, maybe. After Finn stopped us he gave us another round of cocktails until we cooled off a bit and on a later video I did body shots on Blaine's tummy. HOT like hell but hey, we ARE a sexy looking couple. Obviously nobody was in the mood to stop either Blaine nor me from making out like crazy and they decided to get us home. No clue what went down in the bedroom afterward, but Rachel said that she heard us moan the whole rest of the night. Hm, successful birthday I'd say. LOL. No laughing. Ow. Head. I think I'd better try to sleep for another couple of hours. Blaine is as hungover as myself. He's sleeping and out like a light. Was up once to pee and that was it. Going back to my fiancé. Good night. Or good day. Whatever. See ya, Kurt

“Oh god. Don't remind me. But we had so much fun. Although I don't remember much either. Do you still have the videos, darling?” Blaine asks innocently and I cackle.

“Honey, these videos were saved on multiple devices, clouds and so on. Of course I still have them. And no, we can't watch them now. You know what will happen and we have other things to think about, today. So let's go on and then get ready to snuggle on the couch until the twins come back and Aiden will be here. Shall we?” I ask Blaine.

“Of course, honey. You're right. As always.”

I just shake my head and roll my eyes playfully at my husband and put my nose back into the diary.

July 2015

Dear diary.

Finally. Tina's and Mike's wedding is done. It was beautiful. I have no other words. It was a wonderful ceremony and the reception was awesome. The food was great, the seating plans were perfect, the bride and groom were so happy and so beautiful and they smiled the whole time. The families were embarrassing, as it has to be. Sam, the best man, had made a funny speech, Tina's bridesmaid was hilarious and already drunk when the reception started and the former Glee Club members who had the time to come enjoyed themselves immensely. We shared stories and experiences, talked about the future and the current studying. Blaine and I danced a lot and I can imagine our own first dance as husbands already. Ugh, I'm sappy again. Weddings make me so cheesy. We had an amazing time back in Lima. Everybody gushed over Tina's dress and I got multiple requests for dresses already. Okay, maybe I will be a designer sooner than I thought. It felt good to get so many nice responses for the work I've done. Now let's focus on our own wedding. We have a date!!!!!

September 7th 2016. CAN'T WAIT!

And because the marriage equality just passed in all 50 States we will marry in Lima and we will have the ceremony and the reception in my dad's yard. It's big enough for the number of guests we plan to have and we won't have to look for an expensive and fancy location in New York. We both don't want and don't need it. Dad and Carole are beyond happy and proud that we want to do it there. Well, we need to start with seating plans, flower arrangement plans, color theme plans, music plans and … so much to do, so much to plan. But I am refreshed after the last week of being lazy. I am buzzing with excitement. Blaine keeps me sane though. My rock. He's the best thing, that ever happened to me. But I said it so many times already. You know how much I love him. Can't wait to get started now. We're back in NY already and Rachel's dads invested in air conditioning. THANK GOD!!! It's finally bearable in the apartment in the summer. Not that I'm really complaining, but last year was so bad and we had that big fight back then. Don't want to repeat that. So, I'm thankful and happy with how the things are right now. Okay, have to go. Finn is coming over for dinner tonight and I promised to cook. See ya, Kurt

I hum deep in my throat when I let the memories settle. “Tina's and Mike's wedding was really beautiful. Everyone was happy.”

“Yeah, it was,” Blaine says and chuckles. “And then my groomzilla came along. Oh, honey. You were the impersonation of the worst bridezilla's I ever saw. Holy dear. And I don't mean it in a mean way. It was kinda cute, but a bit frightening.”

I shoot him a death glare and cross my arms over my chest. “You have no idea how stressed I was in that year until our wedding. Work got so crazy, classes were cruel, the whole planning and all the problems and hard times we had to face. And you, mister, were no real help.”

“Hey, that's not fair. You asked me for my opinion and when I told you what I thought you were pissed and did it nonetheless the way you wanted so I just let you make the decisions,” Blaine said defensively and pointed his finger in my face.

“Hey, don't imitate your brother! Fine. You're right. But you could have at least pretended to share my opinions, right?” I snicker and Blaine snorts in reply.

“Come on, get going. What happened afterward?” Blaine demands and I open the diary again.

August 2015

Dear diary.

Holy fuck....

Everyone is sick. Literally everyone in this apartment is puking and has the nastiest stomach-bug ever. The girls, Blaine and I can't be up longer than 10 minutes. I have no clue where this came from but I never felt more sick. We share one bathroom for gods sake. Do you have any idea how disgusting it is when you hang over the toilet and someone else rushes in and hurls into the sink or the tub because there is nowhere else they can go? Oh god, I'm getting sick again...

'M back. I feel sooooooo bad. Blaine is running again. Hopefully the bathroom is empty right now. You can only hear whimpers from every room in this apartment. I have no words. Better keep my mouth shut anyway. Will try to sleep a bit. See ya, Kurt

Blaine falls back against the pillows and starts to laugh. “Oh gosh, I remember our epidemic. That was so horrible. 3 days of total sickness. Ugh.”

“Don't remind me any further. Let's go on.” I say and turn to the next page.

October 2015

Dear diary.

Gosh, it's been long again since my last entry. Let me recall what happened in the last 7 weeks.

There was a lot of planning, of course. We decided on a cake, the catering and the flower arrangements and the color theme. The seating plan is still negotiable. Blaine refuses to invite his dad to the wedding. I have no idea what I should do. I thought about sending him the invitation myself, but I don't know what Blaine will do if he finds out. Cooper and his wife Penny are coming. We talked several times on the phone and on Skype already. They are very nice. Elaine, Blaine's mom wants to come but she doesn't know if she can when Blaine's dad Thomas won't let her go. This family is difficult. I know it will mean the world to Blaine if Elaine will show up on her son's wedding day. Good that we agreed to have a rather small wedding. Only the closest family and friends will be there. I think we'll have around 50 people coming. The invitations were sent out yesterday. So we'll see how many people will confirm in the end.

Anyway, what else...

Oh, Finn moved in for his senior year. Holy shit. We are 6 people now in this apartment. Blaine and I are really looking forward to moving out as soon as possible. We started to look for a 2-bedroom apartment but it's difficult at the moment. We don't even have time to meet with the realtor. So all we could do right now was look online. We found 2 or 3 which look rather good and are affordable. Blaine's birthday was 5 weeks ago and he got his trust fund. Holy fuck I had no idea how much he would get. Honestly I got a bit sick when I saw the amount of money on his bank statement. Nonetheless we need an apartment of our own. I love my girls like crazy but we're engaged and will marry next year and we need a place just for us to focus on our last year at college and then work. Blaine has a good chance to get a place at the New York Philharmonic Symphony Orchestra. He is incredible. His piano and violin skills are overwhelming. He has no real opportunity to practice at home but I accompanied him to rehearsals at college sometimes. WOW. I'm so proud of my man. And he has a special gift to write songs too. I'm looking forward to Blaine's career. Oh I just realized that I didn't really mention Blaine's career plans or skills earlier. I'm a bad bad boyfriend or fiancé who is only focused on his own career. Ugh. I'm sorry. I'm incredibly proud of Blaine. He will become a great musician in one way or another. Whether it's in an orchestra, or as a songwriter. I'm sure of it. And we found the most beautiful wedding bands. I'm so in love with them. I'll add a picture here. Can't wait to wear it. Not that I don't love my engagement ring. I do!! And I'll still wear it after the wedding. On my right ring finger. I think that was all I wanted to talk about for now. Have to sew for a bit, so I'll get going. See ya, Kurt xo