April 13, 2013, 3:56 a.m.
Shattered: 20th of June
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20th of June
Oh. My. God.
I… Wow.
Just –wow.
I… can’t…
What just happened? Did that just happen? Oh my god it did? I can’t believe this.
Okay. Get yourself together Kurt. Breathe. I can’t. I freaking can’t because that just happened.
Ehem… Okay.
So. What just happened was that… Okay I can’t write it. I can’t this is so not happening. How is this real?
Okay. I have to write it down.
Blaine kissed me. He kissed me!
And not on the cheek or forehead or anything. He kissed me. On the lips. On the lips! Just like that. It actually happened.
Oh god I’m freaking out again…
I mean whaaaaaaat. I’m so sorry I’m freaking out and can’t use proper grammar and spelling but I don’t care because Blaine kissed me and hallelujah life is wonderful and I don’t know what to do
Okay. I’m gonna go and come back later when I’ve calmed down a little.
(Later…)
Okay, (I use ‘okay’ way too often today..) I think I’ve calmed down now.
But I still can’t really get it into my head what happened.
Like, when he said he wanted to stay here and just… hang with me for a day or so I couldn’t believe what was happening. He slept here for two nights and stayed here for about three days if you put everything together. (Like, wow?) And… I haven’t been so happy in… I don’t know how long.
How is it possible that he can make me feel this way?
And, even more important, how can I make him feel this way? It… it doesn’t fit. Someone like him… how is it even –?
I mean, before, when I was still sort of healthy and still knew how to socialize and stuff, then I could understand at least a little bit better. But now? I’m nothing now. I’m practically just dead weight to everyone.
But apparently he doesn’t feel that way. Apparently he thinks I’m still special.
Apparently he still loves me, apparently he never stopped. Or so he told me. Right after he kissed me. He pulled me into a tight hug and whispered in my ear,
“I love you Kurt. I love you so much and I never stopped. And I want you to get better. It hurts to see you like this.” (That was actually spot on what he said, I swear. I can hear it in my head so clearly. If what he said was a YouTube video, I would’ve raped the replay bottom, so to speak….)
So I will get better. I swear. Now I’ll work a thousand times harder than I did before.
Because I know now that you still love me. And that proves that there really is something called miracles and that they sometimes happen.
Comments
So Kurt and Blaine never dated before Kirt got sick of whatever happened to him?
Okay. I'll try my best to explain... The two dated throughout their junior year. Kurt still had some 'problems' back then. But he still managed to function enough to go to school. But the closer to the end of the school year, Kurt felt how things got worse (became weaker, more intense pain and so on) so he broke things off with Blaine becuase he felt like it was the right thing to do. So yes, they did date. But it happened when Kurt was sick, not just as 'intense' as it is now. I hope that cleared stuff up for you? :) Thank you for asking, and feel free to do it again if I confused you or if there's something else. ^^