Jan. 22, 2013, 9:50 a.m.
Shattered: Chapter 24
E - Words: 756 - Last Updated: Jan 22, 2013 Story: Closed - Chapters: 30/? - Created: Jan 05, 2013 - Updated: Jan 22, 2013 206 0 0 0 0
Blaine tucked his legs under himself as he pulled out the newest book he was reading. It was Monday morning and he was sitting waiting for Kurt to come to the centre. Blaine didn't think he could remember a time when he had been here and Kurt wasn't here. The younger boy was always waiting at the door for him. Sighing, Blaine found it hard to concentrate on the words in his book and found himself looking at the door.
“Hey Blaine.” It was Sean's voice. Blaine looked up, he closed his book and waited for the man to talk. “Kurt isn't coming in today, his father just called. Kurt wanted you to know that he will see you tomorrow.” Blaine looked down. Kurt wasn't coming in. The thought saddened him and he looked down sighing. “You two are very close.” Blaine nodded slowly. “Well, he sounded sad not to see you. He has a hospital appointment. Just a check up.” Blaine nodded again. “Well, I'll be over there,” Sean pointed to where a few helpers were and before he could walk away, Blaine reached out and grabbed his arm and gestured for him to sit with him; something he had never done.
Blaine sucked his lip, he needed to do this. He had to. For Kurt. “Ready to talk.” He whispered. His whole body was shaking at the thought of talking to someone. When he spoke to Kurt it wasn't scary, it was easy and he liked that. He wanted that feeling with everyone.
Sean nodded softly, and sat down next to him. “Talk.” Sean smiled. “I'm here to listen.” Blaine nodded, he didn't know what to say. Being ready and knowing what to do was a whole different option. “Do you talk to Kurt?”
“I do.” Blaine found himself smiling. “On Saturday. We had a whole conversation.” He said, playing with his fingers. “He was scared. And he wanted my advice. And I helped him.” Blaine felt proud of himself for talking. He was whispering, he couldn't force himself to say anything loudly. Not yet.
“That's great.” Sean grinned, and Blaine could tell that the blond was happy for him. “Kurt looks up to you. I think you two are good together.”
“What do you mean?” Blaine frowned. Good together?
“It's clear there is something between you two.” Sean said softly. “Nothing bad. But something.”
Blaine nodded, he could feel it too. “He asked why I don't talk.” Blaine mumbled. “Not ready to tell him.”
“No one is expecting you to tell him. Not if you're not ready.” Sean said softly. “But I do believe you should tell someone. Just talk about how you're feeling.”
“Like who?” Blaine frowned. He liked talking to Kurt. Couldn't he talk to him more?
“Me.” Sean shrugged. “I'm here for you.”
“I...” Blaine worried his lip between his teeth and nodded slowly. “I'm scared.”
“Of what?”
“There not be a point in talking.” He whispered. “I screamed for help. And no one heard.”
“That's different than talking.” Sean said softly. “Did you know that when people witness something so tragic, instinct tells them to walk away.” Sean pressed softly. “In self defence classes, women are told that if they are being attacked, instead of shouting out rape, they should shout fire. People are more likely to help if they're not up against another human.”
“I know.” Blaine whispered. “But...They told me that if I told anyone what happened...they'd kill me if I said a word.”
“And you took it to the extreme. Choosing to literally not say a word.”
“I tried. But then words just wouldn't come. And then I thought no one wanted to hear them. Then I just stopped.” He shrugged and looked down. “Until Kurt came along.”
“He made you talk.” Sean smiled.
“No. He showed me he was there to listen.” Blaine smiled. “He's my best friend.”
“And you're his. He tells me every day when he's waiting for you.”
“Really?” Blaine felt himself blushing. He liked the idea of having Kurt think of him as his best friend. “Will...Will he ever get better?”
“I'm not too sure.” Sean said softly. “I think that his mind is getting there, but he's pushing it down.”
“He doesn't want to get better?” Blaine frowned.
“Like you with your talking, I think he's scared.” Blaine nodded, he believed that to be true. “For the record, I'm glad you're talking again.”
“Me too.” Blaine smiled shyly, he knew he wasn't fully there yet, but he knew this was a good start.