Jan. 22, 2013, 9:50 a.m.
Shattered: Chapter 23
E - Words: 783 - Last Updated: Jan 22, 2013 Story: Closed - Chapters: 30/? - Created: Jan 05, 2013 - Updated: Jan 22, 2013 199 0 0 0 0
“Hey Blaine,” Kurt said quietly as he lay on the grass looking up at the sky, he had his head resting on Blaine's chest, he didn't know how he had gotten there, but he knew it was comfortable and as Blaine hadn't moved him away, he guessed Blaine was comfortable too.
“Can I ask you a question?” Blaine nodded his head, a hand coming up to play with Kurt's soft hair. He felt Kurt lean against the touch, moving against him softly. He could feel his smile on his chest and he loved how it felt there. “Are nightmares real?” Blaine frowned at the question, he hadn't been too sure what he was expecting, but he knew it hadn't been that.
He shook his head, nightmares weren't real. “Promise me?” Kurt whispered, he sounded so lost and scared. Blaine hated him sounding like that.
“I promise you.” Blaine whispered, his voice barely there but the grin that he felt Kurt make told him that the young boy had heard him. “Why?”
“I keep dreaming about a big scary boy.” Kurt mumbled, playing with the material of Blaine's shirt. “And I wake up scared. And the boy that I keep dreaming about, I saw him.”
“In your dream?” Blaine whispered, he couldn't raise his voice, he wasn't used to it, it hurt just whispering.
Kurt shook his head. “No.” He mumbled. “At my old school.” Kurt snuggled against him more, he felt cold thinking about it, and he knew he couldn't talk to Finn. Finn went funny when he tried to ask him questions and he didn't want to make him sad. Finn had a nice smile and he should smile all the time. He didn't think he could talk to his daddy about it either. And he didn't know Carol. No matter how nice she was to him. He couldn't talk to her properly. Not yet. “But I saw him in my dreams before I saw him at the school. And I'm scared.”
“He can't hurt you in your dreams.” Blaine said softly, playing with his hair more. He didn't like him scared, he couldn't have him scared. “I promise you. Finn won't let anyone hurt you.”
“I know, he's strong and he tells me that every night before I fall asleep.” Kurt sighed. “But he's still there. How do I make myself not have bad dreams?”
“I don't know,” Blaine whispered.
“Oh.” Kurt mumbled. He thought Blaine would know everything. He was smart and pretty and he should know everything.
“I have bad dreams too.” Blaine whispered. Kurt gasped. How could Blaine have bad dreams? Blaine was perfect.
“Why?”
“I don't know why people have bad dreams.” He whispered, not willing to tell Kurt just what his dreams were about. He knew it would just make Kurt hurt and he knew he wouldn't really understand. “But when I have them, I know they're just dreams and I wake up and I think about what I've done that day. And that's normally sit with you, and that makes me smile.” He said softly.
Kurt felt his cheeks burn and he frowned wanting to know what that meant. Were his cheeks pink now like Blaine's? He looked at him and smiled softly. “I like sitting with you. That makes me smile a lot too. So does talking to you. Why don't you talk?” Kurt whispered.
Blaine sucked on his bottom lip. He had only started to talk because Kurt had sounded so scared and Kurt needed him to talk. His fear was gone now and so was the need for Blaine to talk, he gulped and swallowed, trying to moisten his throat. He wanted to talk, he needed to talk to Kurt. It was what his good dreams were made of. “Oh, have you stopped again?” Blaine sighed and nodded, he smiled weakly, hoping that he hadn't ruined the nice day they were having.
“That's okay. Finn said that sometimes you don't need to talk all the time. But only when things are important.” Blaine nodded softly. Finn was actually kind of smart. “But maybe when you want you can talk to me a little bit more.”
Blaine nodded, he really did want that. He hoped Kurt realised it. “Shall we go back to the tea table? Because Finn has had seven cupcakes and I made them especially for you.” Kurt whispered and jumped up, Blaine nodded and followed him, he couldn't help but smile. It had been his first conversation in over a year, and even though it involved a terrified Kurt, it still involved Kurt, and Blaine would remember every word of that conversation for as long as he could.