Blaine didnt know how he survived the next two weeks until his auditions. They couldnt come fast enough, but at the same time he was dreading them. Getting a place in a school of his choice and with any luck, even a scholarship, could shape his life the way hed always dreamed. Fail.. and he may be forced to follow a career path that had no interest in whatsoever. He knew that academically, he was more than capable of following a career in business, but he had no desire in doing so. He just wanted to do something he loved and was passionate about.


Hed had to listen to several lectures at home these last weeks about how music and theatre were great for a hobby, but not a sensible career. Blaine knew that part of his parents opinions on the matter stemmed from the fact that theyd allowed Cooper to pursue acting, and while he had a regular amount of work, hed never really had the break through he needed to be successful. From that perspective he couldnt blame his parents, he guessed, but he wasnt Cooper… and unlike Cooper he wasnt seeking fame and fortune… he just loved music with a passion. Blaine had hoped his mom might have relented, bearing in mind she had initially supported his plans to study music… shed called up NYADA and found him Kurt after all… but it seemed that after hed done the unforgivable, and lied, there was just no turning back. Surely your parents were supposed to give you second chances, even if no one else did.


In the end Blaine had decided to try and forget the importance of the auditions, just trying to relax instead. He wasnt going to do himself any favours by laying awake worrying half the night. Hed try and deal with each problem as it came along; worrying about things before they even happened was going to end up spoiling his audition performances if he wasnt careful. He knew he was well prepared and all he had to do was to believe in himself. Speaking to Kurt regularly helped too. Helped Blaine to realise that New York and Kurt was real and not just a dream.


Blaine had managed to sneak a couple of hours with Kurt after his auditions. A valuable piece of time before his train home and Kurt having to rush off to get ready for his final performance of the show he was in. Blaine would really have loved to have gone and watched Kurt but thought it might have been pushing it too much to ask permission from his parents to stay at Coopers for the night, not wanting to rock the boat any more than he already had. It could be argued that he was eighteen and could do what he wanted, but until he graduated he really couldnt risk it, not wanting to upset the current fragile situation at home. After graduation he hoped hed be able to be the person he wanted to be, but hed bide his time until then.


Kurt was already seated in the coffee shop where theyd arranged to meet when Blaine arrived rosy faced and wide eyed. Hed never felt more alive. "Hi," he breathed as Kurt got up to greet him, a small, sweet kiss on the lips before Blaine went to join the line to get his coffee.


"How did it go?" Kurt asked eagerly as Blaine arrived back at the table, settling down opposite Kurt with his coffee.


"Okay I hope," Blaine smiled. "I think it all went well.. but its hard to tell. Everyones so serious and you cant read any expressions on their faces after youve performed. Who knows if they liked me!"


Kurt nodded. "Im sure theyll have loved you, but the competition for places is fierce," he confirmed. "Youve got a good chance though, I mean you look comfortable on stage and are really good without looking like youre trying too hard."


Blaine blushed at the compliment. "Well all I can do now is wait and see," Blaine commented, cupping his hands around his coffee.


"How are things at home?" Kurt asked, smiling softly. He knew how difficult Blaine had been finding things at home from the conversations theyd had at night.


Blaine shrugged his shoulders. "Same as ever really," he sighed. "My mom seems to have completely sided with my father now, whereas before, shed kind of managed to persuade him to consider what I wanted. Its like I had my chance and I blew it…"


Kurt looked on sympathetically. "You were an idiot," he smiled. "Although we did have a great time…. I admit. I just think you should have thought a bit more with your head instead of your dick…"


"Hey," Blaine admonished. He looked up at Kurt under his long eyelashes. "You love my dick… I know you do... because as soon as you touched it Kurt… you came so hard…" he whispered quietly, leaning in, not wanting the whole coffee shop to hear.


It was Kurts turn to blush. "Thats really not in question," Kurt said quietly, "It was the fact that your dick was allowed to plan your weekend, instead of sensible, proper Blaine…"


Blaine shook his head with a smirk. "I cant believe were having this conversation… especially not here…"


They were silent for a while as they drank their coffee, initially smiling into their cups at the conversation theyd been having in the middle of the busy little coffee shop. "So…. " Kurt looked over at Blaine a little cautiously, "what do you think youre going to do about college then, assuming you get offers from everywhere you applied?"


Blaine raised his eyebrows in surprise. "I thought you knew what I wanted to do….. come to New York of course. Ive applied to NYU as well for a combined course that could lead to a teaching qualification if I cant do exactly what I want, but without a doubt Ill definitely be back here in a few short months." Blaine thought Kurt had understood… hed really thought Kurt knew.


"What about your parents though.." Kurt asked hesitantly leaning forward, his elbows on his knees. "Do you think theyll let you do that? I mean I know what theyre saying to you right now, but do they mean it?"


Blaine felt a small rumble of annoyance bubble under his skin. He and Kurt had spent hours over the last few weeks discussing this very thing… and Blaine started to wonder if Kurt had actually listened to him. "They mean it Kurt. Theyve already put some wheels in motion with regards to me going to Harvard.. after all it is my fathers old college. Several professors are his old college friends.. my names down for the best accommodation…." Blaine pursed his lips, breathing out purposely through his mouth.


"College is really expensive," Kurt said, looking down at his cup, rather than at Blaine. "Is it a good idea to come without the support of your parents?" As soon as hed spoken, Kurt realised hed probably said something he shouldnt.. but it was to late to take it back, so he ploughed on. "Its really hard even with some parental support, so I dont see how youd manage…."


Kurt heard, rather than saw Blaine bristle in his seat. Hed never actually seen Blaine looking angry before, but he looked as if he were ready to explode. "Id manage," Blaine said convincingly, pressing his lips together.. "You know what? Im just gonna go…." Blaine stood up, grabbing his bag. "I thought you at least would understand… but thanks… Im glad I know where you stand… before I make an even bigger fool of myself."


With that Blaine headed off to the door. "Blaine." Kurt called out after him, frowning when he refused to turn round. "Please dont be childish…"


Blaine only turned round and glared at him before speaking from the shop doorway. "Childish? Im glad I know what you think of me. Thanks for your support… and well, yeah, just thanks.." With that he headed off outside.


Kurt sighed picking up his own bag from the floor, ignoring the faces all watching him. His face rigid and his head held high, he made his way out of the door after Blaine. Hed needed to go and scrape his and Blaines relationship back up off the floor before Blaine was on the train home and he had to head off to the college theatre for tonights performance, with no chance to repair the damage.


Luckily Blaine had only made it as far as a small bench a little bit further down the sidewalk, sitting a little despondently as he hugged his bag tightly on his lap. Kurt cautiously made his way over, sitting a distance apart from Blaine on the seat. At first Kurt wondered if Blaine had even noticed him, his eyes staring straight ahead, until he heard a small sigh escape Blaines lips. Beyond that there was no acknowledgement.. and although the silence they shared should have been uncomfortable, somehow it wasnt.


"Im glad you were my first," Blaine said eventually, his voice barely audible as he still looked straight ahead. Kurts head spun round, surprised to hear Blaine talking. "I want… I wanted everything with you… and not only has New York been my dream since I was twelve, but then meeting you made it all feel so right.. but now…" Blaine tailed off.


"Im sorry…" Kurt said quietly, reaching tentatively for Blaines hand and when he didnt meet any resistance he linked his fingers over the top of Blaines. "I feel it too… I felt it from that first time you came to apartment." Kurt took a shaky breath, "It was like Id been waiting my whole life to find you… and then suddenly.. there you were."


Blaine looked up at Kurt, his eyes wet with unshed tears. "I know Im young, but I know were meant to be together Kurt. Its not that I dont think we could survive four years apart if we had to… but I just dont want us to spend four years apart. I dont want to be stuck in another state doing something I dont even want to be doing. Theres so much wed miss out on.. Id miss out on…."


"Like what?" Kurt asked a little mischievously, suddenly noticing that theyd drifted closer together, their thighs pressed against each others.


Blaine looped his arm around Kurts shoulders, pulling him in closer. "Oh I dont know," Blaine whispered for only Kurt to hear. "I mean no amount of phone sex or Skype sex will be as good as you begging me to take you over the desk, or fucking you against the tiles in the shower... or you riding me into the mattress as an early morning wake up call….."


"Ok…ay. Ok…ay…" Kurt chuckled, his cheeks pink… and he had to admit, his jeans a little tight. "I get it. Although, trust me, youll be the one wholl be begging…."


"I rest my case," Blaine said triumphantly, wishing for a moment that they were actually in Kurts apartment right now. "And Im sure theres lots of things you could teach me….. lots of things I want you to teach me…"


Kurt rolled his eyes. "I just need to go and make a quick phone call," he said, giving Blaine a quick kiss on the lips before standing up, "preferably from somewhere a bit quieter than here… and dont you dare go away.. Ill be right back." With that, Kurt headed back into the relative quiet of the coffee shop with his phone in his hand.


Blaine sat pensively waiting for Kurt to return, suddenly feeling exhausted. His emotions were in turmoil. The euphoria after the auditions, so quickly deflated by his small disagreement with Kurt, which he had to admit was probably his own fault, but everything just felt so out of control at the moment. Not the way he liked it. He liked to have his life planned out, but he realised he was just going to have to take things as they came and hope beyond hope that everything would turn out alright in the end.


Kurt arrived back after a few minutes, smiling broadly as he plopped himself back down next to Blaine. "Come on. Lets go," he virtually sang, laying his hand over Blaines. "Weve got somewhere to be.."


"Huh?" Blaine questioned eloquently. "What… where are we going? I have to get the train soon…"


Kurt shook his head, no. "I phoned your mom… " Kurt started. "Dont worry everythings fine," he added, noticing the slightly alarmed expression on Blaines face. "I um.. used my charm… and I just told your mom how much it would mean to me if you could come and see my final show tonight. Youre here anyway.. and she agreed you can stay over tonight and see my show this evening…"


Blaine was lost for words.. so he tangled his fingers into Kurts hair, pulling him in and kissing him deeply.


******


Kurts fingers twisted helplessly in his bed sheets as he received his reward for being utterly beautiful and amazing up on stage tonight. His toes curled into the mattress as he spread his legs, his cock in the tight heat of Blaines wicked mouth… and all Kurt could do was moan and cry out as he writhed on the bed. He hadnt realised how desperate they both were for this until theyd stepped inside the apartment tonight, stripping each other out of their clothes before theyd even got to the bedroom. Thank goodness Rachel wasnt around because he hadnt even thought to check on the fact before they got back.


Kurt wanted this…. someone to share his life... and his bed with. What was the point of any other successes in his life if he didnt have someone to share it all with? He knew he wanted to meet the right person, but he just hadnt realised what a big void there had been in his life before Blaine came along.


"Blaine," Kurt cried out with a shudder. "You have to stop… or this is all going to be over very, ve..ry soon." Blaine stilled, gazing up at Kurt beneath his long eyelashes. "I mean it.." Kurt added, in case Blaine had missed Kurts trembling thigh muscles beneath his fingers.


Blaine pulled off slowly, giving Kurts cock a final suck on the tip, lapping up the pre come with his tongue. "Mmmm, you taste amazing, Kurt," he smirked, wrapping his hand tightly round the base of Kurts throbbing cock."


Kurt reached down and hooked his fingers under the leather bracelet which he had been delighted Blaine had decided to keep on. He could almost come with the thrill of seeing Blaine wear it on his otherwise naked body, the dark leather a striking contrast to the hue of his skin. He pulled Blaine up for a hungry kiss, his hand still wrapped round the wrist where the bracelet was clasped. He didnt want to control or dominate Blaine in the bedroom, at least not at this stage of their relationship, but it was literally the thrill of knowing that Blaine wanted to wear it for Kurt that gave him an indescribable feeling.


"Need you Blaine…" Kurt whispered, his voice gravelly, "Id love for you to ride me…. if thats something youd like…" He threaded his fingers into Blaines hair, pulling him up so they were face to face.


Blaine didnt need to be asked twice as rolled away to grab the lube and condom, passing the lube to Kurt with a questioning glance. "Yes. I can do that…" Kurt offered with a laugh, laying Blaine on his back as he knelt between his legs… hooking one of Blaines legs over his shoulder to gain access. "Youre so gorgeous…, " Kurt murmured as he began pushing one finger inside Blaine, lazily stroking his cock to distract him.


"More…" Blaine requested impatiently, bearing down. He needed Kurt inside him right now… going slow really wasnt an option. "Please right now!" he begged.


"Youre so impatient…" Kurt teased, placing a stinging slap on Blaines ass and pushing in a second finger, before Blaine could offer any more than an indignant yelp.


"I can get my own back you know…"


"Not now you cant," Kurt sassed, adding a third finger, pulling a small gasp from Blaine. Game on.


"Im gonna ride you so hard for that Kurt," Blaine breathed, "so hard."


"Ooh… Cant wait…." Kurt smiled, leaning down to kiss Blaine hard. He pulled his fingers out and chuckled when he noticed Blaine already had the condom unwrapped ready. "I love this so much… I just wish it could be like this.. always.."


"It will… one day," Blaine said softly, rolling the condom over Kurts purpling erection, Kurt hissing at his own sensitivity. "Well get there one day…"


Kurt could barely believe that already he was thinking of a long term future with Blaine, after only knowing each for a few short months. But he loved Blaine so much he could barely breathe sometimes, and although they hadnt said it to each other yet, he was pretty sure Blaine felt the same way.


"Kurt…" Blaine started, breaking him from his thoughts while liberally coating Kurts condom covered dick with the lube and wiping his hand off on the sheet. "Are you ready for me?"


"Can you face away from me to start with?" Kurt suddenly wanted nothing more than to be able to watch Blaine rising and falling on his cock… To see Blaines beautiful round ass spreading just for him. "Youll love it, I promise," he said gently, kissing Blaines neck as Blaine, already eager to be getting on with things, was busy getting himself in position.


Kurt managed to grasp Blaines hips to steady him as he sank slowly down over Kurt, both of them moaning long and loud at the feeling. "God. Kurt.. Oh my god," Blaine cried out as he began moving carefully, gradually speeding up as he got used to the stretch, until all that could be heard was their heaving breathing and the slapping of skin.


"I need… I need to see you.." Blaine whispered as his breathing and movements became laboured and uneven. Kurt, who wasnt faring much better flipped them both over, folding Blaines legs up so he could pound into him unreservedly, knowing that neither of them were going to last much longer.


They both came a few thrusts later, Blaine with his hand wrapped round his cock, jerking himself off to the rhythm of Kurts movements. Both of them crying out as Kurt came just a few seconds after Blaine let himself go, pulsing around Kurts cock deep inside him. Then there was kissing, slow gentle presses of lips as they came down, both trying to forget that they would be parted again in the morning.


"That was amazing… " Kurt smiled against Blaines lips, pointlessly brushing a bouncy curl off of Blaines forehead which immediately sprang back to its original place. "Youre amazing Blaine." Blaine buried his face in Kurts neck, unable to stop the few tears springing to his eyes. Another reminder of how much he would miss if he didnt manage to get to New York to study.


"Hey," Kurt said softly, holding Blaine tightly. "Things always turn out in the end. Were so good together… and no one can take that away… what we have." Blaine sniffed, trying not to be sad when they still had the rest of the night together… and Kurt was right… they were just so good together.


"Besides…" Kurt added, running a hand teasingly over the curve of Blaines ass, "I was kinda hoping you might be up for round two soon… if you fancied it, you know." Blaine giggled through his last remaining tears. He wasnt about to turn down that offer.