March 9, 2013, 1:01 p.m.
Some Things Are Uncontrollable: One Condition
E - Words: 886 - Last Updated: Mar 09, 2013 Story: Closed - Chapters: 17/? - Created: Aug 13, 2012 - Updated: Mar 09, 2013 438 0 3 0 0
I set my book down on the desk that I had been previously occupying. I stood and made my way slowly to Kurt's desk, where he was still seated, his head arched up slightly, keeping his eyes on me. I could tell that he knew what was happening. Something in his eyes told me that he wanted this just as much as I did. I wanted to feel him close to me. As I made my way towards him, I asked myself, why Kurt? Why was it this boy that I decided to fall for? What about him was so addictive? Why was I so hooked? But once my lips came down, catching his between them, I remembered. The sweet smell of him filled my nostrils as I inhaled deeply.
He pulled away, standing up, coming in close to me. I could feel the rise and fall of his chest against mine as we stood there, just taking in eachother's prescence.
"Kurt..." I broke the silence.
He crooked his head, allowing me to continue.
"I have one condition..."
"What? What is it Blaine?" His breathing was beginning to get heavy as I noticed the buldge forming in his pants.
"I need you to know that this...this isn't...love...this is purely lust. I can't do the whole...relationship...thing." I tried to meet my lips to his but he pulled back harshly.
"What the hell do you mean...this whole relationship thing? I thought that we just covered that I wouldn't tell anyo-"
"That's not what I mean. What I'm trying to say is that...for right now...I need to figure a few more things out, okay. I need to...I still want you...I want to be with you..."
"But you don't want to actually be with me in the emotional sense?"
"I...Everything is happening really fast. A few days ago...I didn't think anyone was ever going to find out about me. I thought that I was going to have to keep myself hidden away...and I'm pretty sure that I am still going to have to do that...except for when I'm with you."
"Blaine...I want you to feel like you're safe with me...like no one is going to judge you...but I want you to be able to feel like that all the time."
"That's never going to happen...so everything that happens between us...stays purely between us. No friends. No parents."
"But my par-"
"If your parents know...then they might tell my parents that I'm letting people know that I'm gay and Kurt...in my family..."
"It's unacceptable...I know."
"So...can we still..."
"Blaine...I like you. I don't know why I do. I mean...you are an asshole. You really really are. But for some reason...I want you to feel like you have somewhere, someone to go to. I know, that when I was considering coming out...that I was all I wanted...someone to talk to. Someone that knew what I was going through...someone-"
"To just get me. And Kurt...you - you get me. Better than anyone else. And I have no fucking idea how that is possible but you do. I have known you for a few weeks and you get me better than people that I have known for my whole life."
"I just want you to know...that my dad has been amazing with all of this...accepting me and trying to understand me. I know how important it is to have a fatherly figure that you can go to. So if you ever think that it would be okay, I'm sure that you would be able to come and talk to him and I can honestly promise that if you explain to him everything that you have to go through with your family, he won't tell a soul."
"I don't think-"
"Well then stop thinking and just do."
"That isn't that easy-" And in that moment, Kurt had his lips pressed firmly, hungrily, against mine. I let a sound, somewhere between a sigh and a moan, escape my lips. I was pretty sure that there was no way I would ever tire of kissing this boy.
Kurt pulled away as we both glanced back up at the clock. Figgins would be back in the room at any minute.
"Looks like it's about time for you to go resume your position." Kurt smiled at me as I made my way back the back of the room.
The moment that I took my seat, Figgins came back in, allowing us to leave.
~~~~~~
Kurt was opening the door to his car when I stopped him, "Blaine...what's up?"
"I...I know a coffee shop outside of Lima, I'm pretty sure that no one we know would go out that far for a cup of coffee, but since tomorrow is Friday and all..."
"Blaine, are you asking me on a date?"
"Ummm...yeah, I think that I am. Yes. Kurt Hummel, will you go on a date with me?" Smoothe Anderson.
"I would be honored."
"It's called the Lima Bean. I'll text you directions, give me your phone."
I put my name and number in his contacts as I handed the phone back to him.
"After detention tomorrow...maybe we can even work a little on our project...if we get bored."
"I doubt we'll get bored, Blaine."
"I know, just throwing it out there."
"Well, then I look forward to your text."
I leaned my head back, hoping Kurt would know what I was asking for.
Apparently he did. He leaned down, pressing his lips softly to mine. No rush, no worry, just a beautiful, innocent, perfect kiss.
I couldn't wait for our date.
Comments
do enjoy reading this story :-) xm
Thanks hon!!!
This was really good. I am glad that they were able to come to some sort of agreement about their feelings for each other and that Blaine worked up the courage to ask Kurt out. I can't wait to see what happens next.