March 19, 2013, 12:09 p.m.
It's not gonna be pink: Thoughtful Conversations...
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Thoughtful Conversations...
For the new students, December was referred to as the best and worst month of the semester. Best, because they only had three weeks of class; worst, because half of that time was spent dealing with end-of-the- semester exams, which were taken very seriously - especially if you were a senior filling out college applications.
Kurt had almost panicked when he recalled how the exam schedule worked. Instead of just attending your class like usual, each day of the week was split into three hour blocks to accommodate for what was considered a 'proper exam'. Somewhat lucky for him, since he had only been at Dalton for a few weeks the year before, he missed out on most of the chaos.
Last year, they had gone in order of the class schedule. Day 1 was for the first class of the day, Day 2 was the second, etc. This year, they wanted to try a different tactic. Instead, each day was for a particular subject, so Day 1 was Math, Day 2 was Science, and so on. It was determined that keeping everyone in similar mindset could maybe help relieve the tension - and some disagreements - that had occurred the last few years.
Kurt, Sebastian, and most of the new students had no idea what sort of disagreements could result from the old schedule. David and Nick had told them of the stories they'd heard back when they were freshmen. Apparently study groups used to be set up and formed in various locations on campus, so people in different grades and courses could help each other out. Well, one year there had been some 'issues' and commotion had reigned for two days.
Another problem was the flaw in the design of the school. Dalton had hallways that were designated by subject, but they all met up at major intersections, for lack of a better explanation. Since each day was devoted to a different class period, there was constantly people coming and going all over the building. Last year there had been a few teachers that had let classes out early, which unintentionally disturbed classes that were still testing.
So it was decided this year to try something different.
Each subject would meet in the cafeteria or gymnasium, instead of their individual classroom, in order to get one entire subject done and over with for the semester. Most students were all for trying it out because change could be good. Some didn't get why, but were going with it anyway. The Warblers had already made plans with each other and friends to organize mass study groups. They were looking forward to just focusing on one subject at a time, instead of rotating through their load of classes.
The only one who had a problem with this idea was Kurt.
He hadn't thought much of it at first, but when they'd been discussing it amongst themselves, Kurt realized that all of them would be testing at the same time. Even though they had different courses between them - algebra/geometry/trig/calculus as a math, for example - each day of the week everyone would be busy with their given class, Kurt included.
Which meant that no one would be free to babysit Zoe.
Blaine hadn't thought about that either until Kurt brought it up the week before finals were to start. Blaine had assumed that some of the younger Warblers could keep an eye on her during their testing time. Kurt pointed out that while they would be testing with the juniors in the gym, the freshmen and sophomores would be testing at the same time in the cafeteria. Dalton was a big school, but there weren't that many students.
And it wasn't like Kurt could ask the New Directions to help since they would be in school too. All of the adults that Kurt normally entrusted Zoe with - Burt, Carole, Paul, Matt, and Neal - had work or their own kids to worry about. All of the teachers would be dealing with finals, and there was no way he'd be allowed to bring her to the testing sessions. He had never expected there would ever be a time when literally everyone he knew would be unavailable.
The only option Kurt could see was requesting an alternate testing period. For the semester, Kurt had only skipped two days of classes because of Zoe - how only two, he had no idea. Otherwise, Kurt had perfect attendance. Kurt was hesitant to do so because while alternate arrangements could be made, it wouldn't be fair on his teachers to have to make separate tests for him. Kurt didn't want to become a hassle but he was quickly running out of ideas.
Blaine was on his way to pick up Kurt from the last French tutoring session of the semester. He had held onto Zoe earlier because Kurt was anticipating an extended session for those last minute desperate questions for help that he was sure he was going to have. By looking at him, even Blaine would've had a hard time telling that Kurt was anxious about something. Blaine was so busy staring at Kurt, he didn't notice someone else in the room.
"So, you come here often?" Blaine jumped and turned around to see Madame Moreau.
"Madame Moreau? What are you doing here? Kurt's never mentioned seeing you during these sessions."
"Probably because he doesn't know that I do, or rather, when I do." Blaine stared at her for a second and admitted that he was a little confused. Katelyn laughed and explained.
"Since Kurt doesn't actually attend French class, his tutoring counts as his grade. That, and the fact that this helps with his eligibility for financial aid. I check periodically in person to see how he handles the students' questions, and it helps me plan my lessons differently. Last year showed a huge improvement for French over the previous year. I wish I could keep Kurt here."
Blaine hadn't realized that Kurt was that good at teaching. "I had no idea it was going so well. I mean, I know some of the younger Warblers have mentioned how much fun they have, and I have to admit, I've certainly started to pick up a phrase or two...or twenty."
Katelyn laughed. "I'd be shocked if you hadn't. Kurt's able to do something that not every teacher, in any subject, is able to do."
"What's that?"
"Appeal to different types of learners. Foreign languages are learnt by memorization and lots of practice. Kurt does things in a certain way that helps everyone stay on the same page. You know how some teachers only lecture and some like to write across a board and say 'that's it'? Or even the ones that think writing lines is the only way to go? Kurt combines everything so effortlessly that, frankly, I'm a little jealous."
Blaine knew how much this tutoring job meant to Kurt. While he hadn't been to many of the sessions himself, Blaine had attended most of them at the end of the previous school year when Kurt was further along. He'd been to enough of them to notice that Kurt enjoyed them just as much as the boys that showed up. What Blaine often thought was funny was that all of the students that took French came at some point - even if they didn't need any help at all. Apparently, Katelyn had noticed the same thing.
"I actually asked a few of them why they come - it's not mandatory. They said that even though they didn't need help, they liked the atmosphere and decided to take advantage of it. Many of them come and use this time as a study period to get their work done. I can tell when someone came just by looking at their homework."
"How's that?" Blaine asked.
"I don't have any corrections to make," she said with a smile. "Kurt looks over their work and lets them know if there are any errors, but most of the time, he won't flat out say what is incorrect. He gives hints, but it's up to the students to figure out what's wrong...unless they're really struggling. More often than not, that leaves me with some free time from grading."
"I didn't realize it was going so well. I mean, Kurt is always talking about what he wants to do during the sessions, and I've noticed how well he gets on with everyone. He really seems to enjoy it."
"Have either of you decided what you want to do about college; thought of a major yet? Because if not, I may start attempting to convert Kurt to becoming a teacher. He has such talent, and it'd be a shame to waste it."
Blaine watched as Kurt read from the textbook, pausing every now and then to ask for answers from the group. Blaine wasn't sure what anyone was saying - he didn't understand that much French - but from Kurt's reaction, everyone was doing well. He was so focused watching, he almost missed Katelyn's next comment.
"In any case, I'm going to be so bored until it's time for the French exams. This new testing schedule is interesting and annoying at the same time."
"Why will you be bored? Don't you still have to make the test up or something?"
"I already finished writing the tests, but the foreign language block isn't until the end of the week. I'm about to offer my services to help moderate some of the exams. I've heard that some of the teachers are taking personal days. Who knows - I might do that."
A light bulb went off for Blaine when Katelyn said that. He looked down at Zoe, who was sitting in her carrier, and then looked back at Katelyn, who was now staring at Blaine in confusion.
"Blaine? Are you alright?"
"Madame Moreau, would be willing to do Kurt and I a favor?"
Kurt dismissed the group and finished collecting his things, finally noticing his three surprise guests. He made his way over to the trio and for a moment, almost left the room at the cheshire grins on Blaine and Katelyn's faces.
"Okay - out with it. Why on earth are you two grinning like that; it's a little creepy."
"Kurt, Madame Moreau is the answer to our dilemma." Kurt looked at Blaine, wondering where this was going.
"Alright, I'll bite. What dilemma are we talking about?"
"Our 'lack of babysitter during exams' dilemma. Madame Moreau has kindly offered to watch Zoe when we need to sit for our exams. And since you don't have to take hers, you can keep Zoe while I take my Italian exam."
Kurt's jaw dropped. He had been planning on telling Blaine that he was going to talk to Professor Dippet the following day to arrange for alternate testing.
"Wait, what?"
"I was just telling Blaine that I was going to be bored out of my mind waiting for my block, so he asked if I wouldn't mind keeping an eye on Zoe for a few hours while you are testing. I said I would, because, really, who could pass up babysitting a sweetheart like your little girl?"
"You're serious? You don't mind?" Kurt was seriously flabbergasted, while Blaine looked like the cat that ate the canary.
"Really, I don't mind at all. It's been a while since I got to watch Madeline, so you'd be helping me fill my babysitting urge until I see her during break."
Kurt was so happy that he couldn't resist jumping up to hug Katelyn. "Thank you! Thank you! You don't know how much that will help us out. I really didn't want to have to go about getting special accommodations made because that is so unfair to the teachers."
"From what Blaine was telling me, you've run out of options. I admire the fact that you had several back-up plans. But keep in mind, school policy requires us to allow for special circumstances, and with the fact that you did everything possible to avoid it shows you're not just trying to get out of exams. Consider that kind of attitude good for brownie points."
Kurt felt some of his anxiety melt away as he realized that he could take his exams with everyone else, and Zoe would be nearby and taken care of. More so now than ever, he was so glad he transferred. Kurt was sure that if he was still at McKinley, they wouldn't be anywhere near as helpful. And as Kurt watched Katelyn tickle Zoe, he knew that the two of them would be fine while he and Blaine were testing.
Nick was bored and frustrated. Jeff was off somewhere with some of the guys studying, and Nick had had quite enough for one day, thank you very much. He was currently in his dorm, throwing a ball against the wall and counting down the minutes to when his beloved boyfriend would come back. Although if his clock was right, he still had to wait another 86 minutes.
That explained why he was bored. The frustration was about what he was going to get the blond for Christmas. Nick knew he was running out of time, considering the holiday was just under two weeks away, but he was stuck.
Unlike some of the plans the other guys were making for their significant others, Nick wanted to do something different. Most were planning fun time with family and friends, dates to expensive restaurants, or jewelry. None of that was going to be good enough for his Jeff.
For one thing, Jeff was more of a home-cooked meal kind of guy. Sure, he loved their dates but he loved their little romantic dinners more. Jeff wasn't into jewelry, of any kind really, so that was out. The Sterlings had already made a point of sending a letter and package - which had to be intercepted once again - stating that they would be going to the Caribbean for the duration of the break.
That wasn't really a big deal, as Jeff was already spending the break with him and his family. Nick had already made arrangements for Brandon and Robin to come over for a few days, since Jeff hadn't seen his brother and sister-in-law for a while. Nick had told Blaine about it and had said that it was a nice gesture and Jeff would be happy with that.
But Nick still wanted to do something special for Jeff...something completely unexpected.
The best he could come up with was a romantic night for the two of them - dinner, a movie, making out - which was all fine and good, but it wasn't anything amazing. There weren't any movies, books, games, or clothes that Jeff had an eye on, and giving a gift card seemed like taking the easy way out.
Maybe there was something Jeff wanted and he just didn't know about it. He had asked his mom for advice, and though Jeff considered her a mom, even she said that he was better off asking Kurt. Nick knew that Jeff had attached himself to Kurt hard and fast, but it worked well between the two of them. Jeff was by no means a baby, but especially when you spent most of the year at a boarding school, everyone wanted their mom at some point, and his mother obviously didn't care enough.
Nick almost missed catching the ball as it bounced back at his head. Everyone needs a mom, he thought. Jeff already calls Kurt 'mama', so why don't we make it 'official'?
Nick shot off of the floor and ran out of the room, intending to find Blaine and asking for his input. If he thought it was a good idea, he'd talk to Kurt and make it happen.
It would be the best Christmas present Jeff would ever get.
"Nick, remember in health class when they told us that breathing an essential necessity to live? You need to stop jumping up and down so I can understand what the hell you just said."
"But Blaine! It's the best idea ever! And Jeff is gonna love it, and that means I'm gonna love it cause he'll be so happy, and I wanted to tell you first and see if you think Kurt would agree with it, so I can ask him if he'd do it, and I don't have a lot of time left 'cause Christmas is just around the corner and -"
Blaine had finally tackled Nick onto his bed, surprising the other teen, who hadn't noticed how lightheaded he'd become since he had ran into the room.
"Okay, we're going to try this again. First things first: don't talk until I tell you to and take a few breaths. You seem to forget that when you get overly excited you are prone to fainting."
"But -"
"Nope, no talking. And no 'I don't faint, I pass out'; they're the same thing. Now, I'm going to let you go, but the minute you get hyper again, I will beat you with a pillow. Is that understood?" Nick nodded, and as promised, Blaine let him go. The twosome sat on the bed against the headboard and Blaine waited until the red in Nick's face faded.
"Now you may talk."
"Sorry, Blaine. I was just hanging in my room because Jeff's off studying somewhere, and I realized that I didn't have a Christmas present for him. I know he'd be content with nice night, just the two of us, but I want to get him something awesome too."
"Well, what did you have in mind? And how does Kurt factor into it?"
"I was talking to my dad earlier and was telling him what my brother and sister want, so my parents get the right new toy. We've made arrangements with Brandon and Robin, so they're going to stop by for a few days to hang out with us - you know how much Jeff misses seeing them all the time."
Blaine nodded, and motioned for him to continue.
"Well, Dad didn't know what to tell me, but then he suggested asking Brandon. Since my siblings talk to me, maybe Jeff did something similar. I'd already talked to Brandon and he didn't have a clue. I was getting ready to hang up, but then Mom got on the phone and said 'maybe you should ask his "mama" if he's mentioned anything; you know how well he and Jeff get along'. And then it hit me."
"What did?" asked Blaine.
"What if Kurt adopted Jeff? They're practically family already, so why not make it kind of 'official'?"
Blaine stared at Nick and had to admit the idea had merit, but he was still a little confused. "How were you planning on going about this, Nick? You do realize that Kurt can't actually adopt Jeff...right?"
"Oh, I know, but I think the meaning behind it would be enough to get the point across. I had to intercept another edible treats package from the Sterlings again. Not only was there those damn cookies, but they had thrown in some candy too, most of which also contain coconut and dark chocolate - and you know how much Jeff hates dark chocolate."
Blaine scoffed, "Sometimes I really wonder what would have happened to Jeff if Brandon wasn't around. He could've been killed a long time ago. Even when Kurt made all of those cookies a couple of months ago, he made sure everything else was baked and packed before he made macaroons. Hell, Sam remembered about his allergy and they'd only known each other for barely a year!"
"I know, believe me, I know. This is more of a symbolic thing than anything else. Kurt takes care of Jeff and treats him like a parent should. You and I both know that no one here minds it, and it's not like Jeff calls him 'mama' all the time. But when there's days when he just feels bummed out and can't talk to me about something, Kurt is the first person he goes to - and that's fine. Jeff's told me on more than one occasion that if people could pick their parents with no restrictions, Kurt would be on the top of his list...my parents being the next best thing.
"Remember what happened during movie night before school let out?"
--Flashback--
"Why did I let you talk me into this?" whined Jeff.
"Because it's Warbler movie night, and we do not skip movie nights," said Nick.
"We do when it involves scary movies."
"Sweeny Todd is not scary."
"He slits people's throats, lets a crazy lady put the body parts into her pies, and inadvertently makes the townspeople cannibals without them noticing," Jeff deadpanned.
"It won't be that bad. Just cuddle when you don't want to see anything. Besides, you like the songs."
Jeff did like the songs; he just wasn't a fan of everything else. And he enjoyed Jonny Depp, just not when he was evil or creepy. If they were watching Finding Neverland or any of the Pirates movies, it would have been fine. Luckily he wasn't the only one that wasn't a huge fan. Kurt, and surprisingly Beatz, were like him; they enjoyed the music, but the plot - not so much.
That night had gone by as expected. Jeff tried to block out most of the movie cuddled into Nick; Beatz was using Trent as a shield for parts of it; and Kurt just so happened to need to use the bathroom at the worst scenes. When the group had split, Jeff wasn't in the mood to go to bed, but didn't have much of a choice, since it was almost curfew.
Jeff woke up with nightmares barely halfway through the night. He was surprised that Beatz hadn't woken up, and he was both grateful and upset about that. He tried to call Nick, but remembered that his phone was more than likely still off. Nick had forgotten to charge it the day before, so had warned Jeff that he would probably forget it was off until morning.
Jeff knew he wasn't going to be able to get back to sleep anytime soon, and with the way both Blaine and Nick slept, knocking on their door would get no results either. Then he had a thought - Kurt. Kurt had been telling Jeff the other day that sleeping had become almost impossible, and he was often finding himself sleeping when he could; sometimes he slept better during naps throughout the day. He also slept better with someone nearby, at least according to Blaine.
So Jeff decided to take advantage of that, and hoped that Kurt wouldn't mind. He didn't bother leaving a note because the chances of Beatz waking up before he got back were pretty low. He left his phone charging and grabbed his room key, and slowly made his way out of his room and down the hallway to Kurt's room. He wasn't too surprised to hear a soft 'come in' when he knocked.
He poked his head in the door and noticed that Kurt was awake, reading a book. "Um, hey Kurt...can I come in?" Kurt waved him in. Jeff wasted no time and slipped into Kurt's room, closing the door behind him. He turned around and saw Kurt place his book on the nightstand.
"Hey Jeff. What brings you here at this time of night? Not that I mind; obviously sleeping isn't exactly happening for me either."
"That's kinda why I came here. I remembered you saying that you don't sleep through the night anymore, and Beatz didn't wake up when I did, and Nick won't answer his phone, and neither him nor Blaine will hear me knocking on the door, and - "
"Jeff," Kurt stopped him. "Come over here; I promise I won't bite." Jeff blushed and made his way over to the bed, where Kurt had already pulled the blankets back to let Jeff slide in. It wasn't nearly as awkward as it could've been; Jeff had gotten used to cuddling Kurt around his baby bump. Although it had certainly become more difficult, as he was now eight and a half months pregnant.
"Now let's try this again. I understood the part about the boys being heavy sleepers, and me still being awake, but why are you doing up? Couldn't sleep either?"
"I had a nightmare and I didn't want to try to go back to sleep. I didn't know what to do, so I decided to take a walk and see if you were up and wouldn't mind some company."
"Well I'll never say no to having you for company. I can't get comfortable, and the baby is moving too much tonight, so I gave up and grabbed for whatever book was close by. The book I really wanted was under the bed and I couldn't reach it." Jeff did laugh a little at that, which earned him a light slap and a laugh from Kurt.
"Do you still want the book? I can get it for you."
"No, that's alright." Kurt started carding his hands through Jeff's hair, and was happy to see that he was finally beginning to relax. Kurt had a feeling that Jeff was a bigger non-fan of the movie than he thought.
"Nothing's gonna harm you, not while I'm around. Nothing's gonna harm you, no sir, not while I'm around. Demons are prowling everywhere, nowadays, I'll send 'em howling, I don't care, I got ways."
"I bet you got ways, Mama," murmured Jeff, "you're the best mom ever."
Kurt chuckled, "We'll see about that when the baby gets here. Go to sleep Jeff, I'm not going anywhere." He picked up from where he left off. "No one's gonna hurt you, no one's gonna dare. Others can desert you,not to worry, whistle, I'll be there." Soon enough both boys were asleep, and stayed that way until morning.
At least until Nick woke them in a panic a few hours later.
--End flashback--
"You scared the hell out of them when you ran into Kurt's room. I was sure he was going to kick your ass, pregnant or not."
"I was worried about Jeff, and it was his own fault for not leaving a note. Beatz started the whole thing anyway. He woke up to Jeff missing, looked for him and found me when he didn't. Then the two of us looked everywhere and forgot to check Kurt's room. Although they did look pretty cute, all cuddled together. I had no idea the movie bothered him that much."
"Well, Kurt's not the best fan either - why do you think he kept leaving to go to the bathroom?"
Nick rolled his eyes. "Because he was pregnant, duh. Why else would I look into that more? And don't say anything about the intense cuddling you two were doing - you're both as bad as me and Jeff."
Blaine then rolled his eyes. "Whatever."
"Even before we met Kurt, getting Jeff to open up about his feelings was difficult at best, and my mom is the queen of getting people to open up. I was glad that Jeff had someone to keep an eye on him, considering I was no help."
"They really helped each other, I think. Before Kurt started to get all maternal on Jeff, there was a point when he was convinced that putting Zoe up for adoption was better than keeping her. Mind you, that idea didn't last very long."
"What changed his mind?" asked Nick, "I honestly can't picture how things would be without our mini-Warbler."
"Jeff helped Kurt realize he was good parent material. If he could take care of an emotionally-regressed teenager, a baby shouldn't be that hard. I hope you've noticed by now that your boyfriend turns into a toddler when his parents or his emotions get the best of him."
"Oh, I've noticed, believe me. That's why this crazy idea is gonna be so awesome."
"So how were you going to do this?" asked Blaine.
"There are sites online that show you how to write up legal documents, so I thought just a little something like that, or even a paper that looks realistic would do the trick. We can even have a little party or something too, just the small group of us. I just want Jeff to feel loved."
Blaine was quiet for a moment. "That's really sweet, Nick. Jeff's lucky to have you. But you do know what this means, don't you?"
"What?" asked Nick.
Blaine smirked, "If Jeff is Kurt's son, that basically makes me your father-in-law."
Nick just groaned and pulled a pillow to his face, leaving Blaine to fall off of the bed in laughter.
Jeff walked into Kurt's room some time later. He'd finished studying and was about to look for Nick when he got a text from Kurt to come over when he was free. He found Kurt playing peek-a-boo with Zoe on the bed.
"Hey Kurt, I got your text message. What's up?"
"I wanted to talk to you for a minute about something." Jeff saw the way Kurt blushed, and wondered what on earth he'd have to ask him.
"Well, I'm free for now. I'm done studying for the day and I haven't gone looking for Nick yet. What did you want to talk about?"
"Sex."
Jeff's jaw dropped, as the blush on Kurt's face deepened further. His own face felt a little warm, but he had to admit he was a little perplexed. Kurt had a baby, so it's not like he didn't know what sex entailed.
"How about you put Zoe down for a nap, and then we'll talk." Kurt accepted that and a few minutes later, Zoe was falling asleep on her own.
"Okay, let's try this again. You want to talk about sex?"
"Well, not exactly. I know what sex is and how you 'do it' but the only experience I have, is something I never want to deal with again. I understand if you don't want to talk about this with me, but I know that you and Nick are active - you told me about it right before school started."
Jeff remembered that conversation a little too well. Right before they moved back into Dalton, Nick and Jeff had made love for the first time, and it had been amazing. They'd talked about it for ages and waited until both of them were ready to for something so intimate.
"Jeff?" Jeff had gotten lost in a daydream, and shook his head to clear it. He looked back at Kurt and was surprised to see that the normally confident Mama Bear had become unsure and shy.
"Sorry Kurt. Yes, I remember telling you about it, but why the sudden curiosity?"
"I don't know how to start a conversation about this with Blaine. Most of the time we just make out and kiss like there's no tomorrow. I want to be more intimate with him, and I know he's ready for it, but I'm afraid that I'll disappoint him."
"You never have to worry about disappointing him. In case you haven't noticed, that boy is completely in love with you. Yes, he may very well be ready to go all the way with you, but he's waiting for your okay. He knows, better than the rest of us no doubt, just how hurt you were. No one's first time should happen the way yours did."
"How should I talk to him about it, then? I don't have anyone to really talk to about this. This is not a topic to discuss with the New Directions or any of the other Warblers; I'm not all that comfortable even talking to you about it. No offense."
Jeff waved him off. "The first thing we need to clear up is that there is a difference between sex and making love. What me and Nick, and you and Blaine have - we're strong couples that care a great deal about each other. When Nick and I do it - and it's not like we do it all the time - it's not just sex to us. We take our time and make sure the other is comfortable; we use protection; and we never regret it."
Kurt sat there quietly contemplating what Jeff had just said, and almost missed his last point.
"And not to make it sound like a bad thing, but your first time may not be the best night of your dreams."
"What do you mean?"
Jeff laughed, "Well look at us: Nick and I were virgins, and only had some clue as to what we were doing. It may take a while to both find a good rhythm and make sure that the other isn't hurt too badly."
Kurt's eyes bugged out a little bit. "Does it always hurt?" Because his first time hurt - a lot.
Jeff placed a hand on Kurt's knee, "It's always going to hurt a little at first, but as long as you're prepared right and you take your time, it's the best feeling in the world...and totally worth it.
"You know, the first time I met your dad, he said something to us that meant a lot to me, Blaine too if I recall."
Kurt looked up and asked, "What was that?"
"He offered us an adult ear to listen to, if we ever needed to talk. He spoke to us like we mattered, and for Blaine and I especially, it was something that wasn't ever offered by our parents. When you and Blaine are ready to go all the way, it'll be because you matter to each other and want to share that part of you with the other. Don't just plan to do it one night; let it just naturally happen. That's how Nick and I went about it, and we're closer than ever."
"That actually helps a lot Jeff. Thank you. Any more sage advice?"
"Always have condoms and lube available. If you don't have either, it's just easier to not do it. Communication is highly recommended. Other than that, have a good time." Kurt threw a pillow at his face, keeping in mind to not get too loud with Zoe sleeping nearby.
"Hey! What was that for?" Jeff asked.
"'Have a good time'? You gave a well-thought out and meaningful speech and you had to end it like that."
"Hey I've seen Pinocchio - I know not to tell a lie. Can't have my nose grow too much."
"Uh huh..."
While Zoe was napping, Kurt was thinking over his conversation with Jeff. He'd made a lot of really good points and they had talked a little more before Nick called looking for him. Kurt had been left to his own devices for a little bit, and was dreaming a bit about how to talk to Blaine about it. He was so caught up in his thoughts that he didn't notice Blaine had returned until he felt the bed dip.
Blaine saw the thoughtful look on Kurt's face as soon as he walked in, and he wondered what his adorable boyfriend was dreaming about. It must have been something good, if the smile on his face was any indication. Blaine put his schoolbag down and climbed on the bed, at first settling next to Kurt. He apparently wasn't happy with that spot as the next thing Kurt knew, Blaine was straddling him and kissing him. Kurt's breath caught and he was surprised at how their gentle kisses could get so fiery, so quickly. Blaine was the first to pull away.
"That was quite the hello," said an out of breath Kurt.
"Well you know me - I like to make an impression," said Blaine. "Nick needed some help with a project, and you had requested a little quiet time for yourself, so I decided to multitask in the meantime." Blaine finished his sentence and gave Kurt another kiss, not as deep as the first one, but still just as passionate. "I missed you."
Kurt giggled, "I can see that. The feeling is mutual, as I missed you too. I was actually having a lovely chat with Jeff just before you got back." Kurt wrapped his arms around Blaine's neck and started to play with some of the loose curls.
"Oh yeah? Must've been quite the chat, since you had your deep-thinking face on when I came in. Everything alright?" Blaine saw a flash of hesitation in Kurt's eyes. "You seem worried about something."
Kurt bit his lip as he debated on talking now or waiting til later. He decided to grab the opportunity while he had it. "I needed his opinion about something and I wasn't sure who to talk to about it."
Blaine tilted his head to the side. "Okay, that's not vague at all." Kurt rolled his eyes. "Care to elaborate a bit more for me? Contrary to what Sebastian thinks, I have yet to master telepathy."
"Remember that day when Paul came over to meet Zoe, and Dad warned us not to even think about having kids?"
"Yeah..."
"And how you mentioned we hadn't quite hit second base yet?"
"..."
"I want to slide into home plate." Kurt had closed his eyes as he said that, afraid to see Blaine's reaction. After a minute or two passed by, Kurt peeked at Blaine and saw a look of pure shock.
Oh great, I broke him, he thought. Is he gonna say something or what?
"Um...Blaine? Honey? Say something...please." Kurt said the magic word, apparently, as Blaine shook his head and looked down at Kurt's expectant face. He was surprised to feel Kurt shaking at first, but he quickly realized that he had yet to answer him.
"Before I answer that," he started, "what brought this on?"
Kurt unhooked his arms from Blaine's neck and gently pushed himself up against the headboard. Blaine followed his lead and got off of Kurt, sitting next to him and pulling Kurt into him. Kurt curled up into Blaine's chest and sighed, knowing that Blaine was patiently waiting for him to figure out what he wanted to say.
"I love you, you know that, right?" started Kurt.
"I love you too, Kurt. I've never doubted that." Blaine was beginning to get nervous.
"You know how our anniversary is coming up?"
"Yeah..."
"Well, I wanted to do something special." Kurt blushed and suddenly Blaine realized where Kurt was going.
"And by special, you mean you wanna..." Blaine's mouth went dry as Kurt hesitantly nodded. "Wow."
Blaine had not been expecting to have this conversation with Kurt any time soon. Yes, he and Kurt had done plenty by now - they have been together for a year - but neither of them had talked about how far they would eventually go; it had just never come up. Blaine had considered that it could be a while before they would become that physical with each other - and he was okay with that. He would never push Kurt into doing anything more than he was ready for. If he was honest with himself, he was freaking out a little bit, too; this was a big deal.
"Kurt, are you sure you're okay with that? This is a big deal for us. We haven't really spoken too much about this."
"Well, usually we're too busy taking our shirts off and kissing." Blaine laughed at the smirk on Kurt's face. "I was talking to Jeff earlier because I needed an outside perspective. He gave me some good advice."
"Oh yeah? What advice was that?"
"He said to talk to you first, see where we stand. Oh, and to let it happen at our own pace."
Blaine smiled. "Jeff's a smart cookie."
Kurt laughed. "Then he said to 'have a good time'."
Blaine buried his face into Kurt's hair. "Oh Jeffrey. So, so close." Kurt smiled and traced a pattern on Blaine's arm. "He certainly meant well. We had a good talk."
"Well," said Blaine, "I'm up for whatever you're up for, whenever you're ready. There's no rush; I hope you know that."
"I do, but that goes both ways." Kurt got quiet for a few moments. "I have a confession to make."
"Hmm?"
"I wanted to have sex with you months ago, but I didn't know how to ask." Blaine's mind momentarily shut down. Just the thought that Kurt wanted to have sex months ago...well, let's just say he was now thinking some very undapper thoughts.
"R-really? That's...unexpected. Um...why did you want to, you know..." Blaine was impressed he said that much clearly.
"Neal had warned me that I might start to have ...urges...at some point of my pregnancy. He told me that hormones are a bitch and that I could ignore those feelings or act on them; it was up to me how I wanted to handle it. I guess I got lucky that I didn't necessarily need to have sex; I'd been afraid of the whole idea for quite some time beforehand -"
"And for good reason."
" - but I did get, for lack of a better word - horny - during my last trimester." Blaine had finally pieced it together.
"That's why our make-out sessions started to heat up, isn't it? I thought it was odd at the time, but I certainly didn't mind." Kurt laughed again.
"Yes, although I have to thank the hormones for that; that's actually how I got the courage to do other things after I had Zoe. Those times you woke me up because you thought I was having nightmares? Not nightmares."
Blaine tilted his head again, "But you were moaning in your sleep and woke up gasping for air - oh. OH!" He blushed as another light bulb went off. "Why didn't you say anything then?"
"I didn't want to sound needy or pushy. Besides, those dreams were enough for me at the time; I could wait."
Both boys sat in silence for a few minutes, each lost in their own thoughts. Blaine thought the whole thing was kind of funny, and decided that that was it. He smirked as he thought of the best way to tell Kurt that he felt they were ready to move to the next step. So he started rocking Kurt in his arms and softly singing.
"I'll make love to you. Like you want me to. And I'll hold you tight. Baby all through the night." Kurt smacked him on the arm.
"What?"
"Really, Blaine?"
"It might be cheesy, but it's true." Blaine sighed. "Only one stipulation: Zoe isn't nearby. It's too early to traumatize our kid with our sexy times."
"Agreed. So what's next then? Jeff suggested that we don't plan a night to do the deed, you know, just let it happen. Considering I'm a little wary of doing anything here at school, and the chances of being home alone are pretty small during break...when would we have the time to do anything?"
"Maybe we shouldn't overthink it. We don't have to do anything like that for our anniversary. Tell you what: if we happen to get one-on-one time whenever, we'll just go with the flow. If we just happen to be making out - " Blaine kissed Kurt's head, " - and we happen to start taking our clothes off, -" an eskimo kiss, " - and we have supplies with us -" another kiss on his cheek, " - and we're both in the mood - " a deep kiss on the lips, " - then we'll do whatever we want."
"Can't argue with a fantastic plan like that."
The boys continued from where they left off earlier. Blaine was once again straddling Kurt's hips and Kurt had his arms wrapped around Blaine's neck. Blaine pressed his body closer, causing Kurt to moan in appreciation, only to have Kurt buck up his hips in retaliation, causing Blaine to moan louder. Just when they were about to lose control over their actions, Zoe started to whine from her place next to the bed. Both boys separated and stared at each other, taking in deep breaths and trying to cool off.
"Damn...she's more effective than a cold shower." Kurt let out a snort at Blaine's comment, before sliding out from underneath Blaine and tending to Zoe. He laughed a little as he stared at their daughter, prompting Blaine to ask what was so funny.
"What did we say the first step of that 'fantastic plan' was?" Kurt walked back to the bed and handed Zoe off to Blaine, who held her against his legs and smiled at her.