2014, still

"Do you know what the most important thing in a relationship is? Communication.

Kurt and I learned that the hard way. We didn't have a fallout, but we talked. Ever since he found out about the website, thing have been tense. I think we're on the road of recovery now. I told him everything I told you. I told him I don't like the way I feel about myself anymore.

This is not a competition.

I need to remember that.

This is not a competition.

I've always known he is right, but I guess my insecurities just made me forget that. My instrument is not out of tune. But Kurt's also right about the fact that he doesn't need me to protect him. He has shown that he's capable of protecting himself. He also told me that I need to tell him the things that are bothering me. I tried to tell him twice, but sure.

We went out with Sam and Artie afterwards to talk about the awful new diet plan. Artie is working on his first short movie called Bags in the Wind. He wants me to star in it, but I need some time for myself, you know? He was a bit disappointed, since he's also been through a lot this week, but he understood. His school is planning on submitting the movie to Fort Lauderdale International Short Film Festival, so Artie is excited.

Artie and I are going to have an amazing next week. I promise you that."