April 17, 2023, 11:12 a.m.
Ljubim te: Convergence
T - Words: 1,263 - Last Updated: Apr 17, 2023 Story: Complete - Chapters: 24/24 - Created: Dec 01, 2022 - Updated: Jul 15, 2023 214 0 0 0 0 Warnings (Story): Internalised homophobia
Woah! We’re halfway there!
*cough* Ahem, sorry. Hi. Long time no see, I know. Well, it hasn’t been that long, but it’s been a while. I am definitely going to finish this fic, preferrably before the 2023 Advent. I just haven’t had a lot of time for fic writing because I started working on my master thesis and that takes a lot of time, so when I am writing these days, I am writing academically about the representation of queer women in TV and film, so I have no clue when the next chapter will be up.
So. Uh. Sorry in advance.
When Kurt opens the front door to his building, he takes in Blaine’s appearance. He looks terrible. Blaine didn’t really explain what was going on over the phone. Kurt pushes his own wish for distance aside and he hugs Blaine.
“Come on in,” Kurt says during the hug.
Kurt’s place isn’t glamorous. It’s a normal four story house that got turned into four shitty apartments for students. Kurt lives on the fourth floor with Sunil, André and a Slovakian guy who Kurt’s never talked to.
“Sorry for the mess,” Kurt says when they arrive on the right floor, “Let’s just go to my room. Everywhere else is… questionable.”
“Thanks,” Blaine says quietly and he follows Kurt upstairs.
Once they’re in Kurt’s room, Blaine drops his bag to the ground and he sits on Kurt’s bed. It makes sense, since Kurt’s office chair and his tiny desk are farther away, but it still makes Kurt feel weird. It’s weirdly intimate, even though that is not what is happening.
Kurt stays at the door. Blaine has his head in his hands.
“What happened?” Kurt asks, sounding worried. He wonders why Blaine is in such a state.
When Blaine explains what happened at his work, Kurt’s stomach drops. Blaine did the right thing and yet he is being talked down. That’s messed up.
Fuck it, Kurt thinks again and he walks to the bed so that he can sit down and give Blaine another hug. Blaine leans into the touch. He really needed it. Kurt can feel Blaine relax in his arms.
“What did Tadeja say?” Kurt asks.
“I don’t know. I kind of ran off.”
“I’m certain she is on your side. Screw Dejan.”
Blaine nods against Kurt.
“Yeah. I wonder how she’s feeling. This isn’t fun for her either.”
“You can give her a call?”
Blaine nods again and to Kurt’s dismay, he lets go of Kurt so that he can reach for his bag. He still looks a bit shaken, but now that he’s offloaded his thoughts, he seems to be more calm and Kurt is happy that he could help.
“Can I?” Blaine nods towards the door.
“Use my room,” Kurt says, “André is home. I’ll be in the kitchen, getting something to drink.”
Kurt does exactly that. He leaves Blaine in his room and he goes to the kitchen. He formulates a plan to cheer Blaine up. He makes a tray with snacks and two glasses with something to drink.
He passes André on his way back to his room, who, to Kurt’s surprise, gives him a thumbs up. Did André hear Blaine come in? And if so, then what is he implying?
Kurt waits at the door, listening. He hears Blaine saying goodbye to Tadeja and once Kurt’s sure the conversation is over, he goes back into the room.
Blaine looks pleasantly surprised when he sees the tray.
“What is all of this?” he asks.
“I don’t have anything to do today,” Kurt says, which is true. He is a bit ahead of his coursework, so he has time to hang out with Blaine. Hanging out with Blaine sounds fun. It’s been a while since it was just the two of them and Kurt knows he’s the one who tried to put distance, but he’s missed Blaine.
And Blaine needs him now.
They decide to watch a movie and when Blaine tells Kurt that he’s a fan of RENT, Kurt’s heart skips a beat.
Kurt doesn’t have a designated seating area. His room is too small for that. Heck, there isn’t even a shared living room in this house. So instead Kurt moves his desk chair towards the bed and he balances his laptop on it. The bed will have to do as a replacement couch.
The two have a great time. They try not to sing along, since they don’t want to annoy Kurt’s roommates, but sometimes they can’t help it. When Blaine sings a part of Out Tonight, Kurt playfully puts his hand over his mouth and Blaine giggles. They laugh, they cry, they have both seen the movie multiple times, but it’s just fun. That’s what Blaine needs. He’s more relaxed than before.
Kurt notices that Blaine’s moved closer to him, but he doesn’t comment on it.
When they reach the end of the movie, they’re a fucking mess. Blaine has dried most of his tears and Kurt has a smile on his face, because he is a sucker for a happy ending. Call him hopeless, but he’s a romantic.
The two of them watch how love prevails and Kurt shoots a look towards Blaine.
To his surprise, Blaine’s looking at him, not the screen. Kurt wants to ask Blaine why he’s staring, but he can’t, because all words die out in his throat when he sees the way Blaine is looking at him. Blaine’s eyes are wide and he looks so entranced by Kurt.
Maybe it’s the convergence of a romantic ending and the way Blaine is staring, because Kurt suddenly feels overwhelmed. It’s too much. Kurt looks away and he’s about to say something casual about to movie, to move away from whatever small moment just happened between them, but the next thing Kurt knows it’s that Blaine’s hand is on his cheek. Blaine turns Kurt’s face towards him and Blaine leans in.
Blaine is kissing Kurt.
Blaine is kissing Kurt.
The rational part of Kurt’s brain knows that something is up, because Kurt’s straight best friend who he has a crush on shouldn’t be kissing him, but Blaine’s lips against his feel so good that he doesn’t care about rationality anymore. Instead he wraps his arms around Blaine, to pull him closer, and Kurt kisses back.
It’s so good. Kissing Blaine shouldn’t be this good. Kurt opens his mouth so that Blaine’s tongue can slide in and fuck, it is so good. Blaine’s other hand is on the back of Kurt’s head and he’s potentially ruining Kurt’s hair, but Kurt doesn’t care. This is exactly what Kurt has wanted. This is everything he dreamt of. This is-
This is what he didn’t allow himself to think about, because Blaine has a girlfriend.
“Wait,” Kurt says against Blaine’s lips, “Wait.”
Kurt pulls away and Blaine tries to chase him, but Kurt puts his hand on Blaine’s chest.
Blaine’s eyes snap open and Kurt can see the realisation sink in.
“I…” Blaine trails off and he slowly takes his hands off Kurt’s face, “I… uhm…”
“Blaine-”
“I need to go.”
“Blaine!”
Blaine jumps from the bed and Kurt tries to go after him, but Blaine slams Kurt’s bedroom door shut in his face. Kurt’s left alone with his thoughts. What just happened?
Ooooh! Livin’ on a prayer!
But uh, yeah, sorry for the cliffhanger 👈(゚ヮ゚👈)