Chapter 16

~2 months ago~

Blaine woke up in the computer room and at first he couldn’t understand what he was doing there. He couldn’t remember where the blanket came from but it must have been Jeff’s doing. Feeling fortunate to have such a good friend Blaine checked the time and decided to go and take a quick shower before breakfast even though he wasn’t feeling hungry.

“Good morning,” Kurt said cheerfully once Blaine entered the apartment. “You look awful.”

Blaine giggled. “Thank you. I will go take a shower,” he said and went into the bathroom.

Then he saw himself for the first time that morning and cursed. He was pale and it highlighted his reddened eyes. Though it was difficult to say whether he had been crying or hadn’t had enough sleep. Hopefully he would be able to convince everyone that he had a busy night working on something.

Blaine stepped into a shower and set a mild temperature. He didn’t want a cold shower even though it might have helped him. But he had something else in mind and cold water would ruin everything. He remembered the taste of Kurt’s mouth, the feeling of the boy’s bulge next to his. For a few minutes he just stood there thinking about Kurt, his eyes closed, hands on the wall. He felt himself getting hard and one hand found its way to his cock.

At first it just a careful, tentative touch. A thumb massaged the tip of his cock and the fingers finally wrapped around, squeezing lightly. It moved along the length in a torturously slow pace. But at the same time it was perfect. He bit his bottom lip otherwise he would have started moaning. The pace quickened and his breath became uneven. He wished it was Kurt’s hand…

That moment the realisation hit him – his both hand were still on the wall. He opened his eyes and snapped head to his right to find Kurt standing next to him, lust in his eyes. If Blaine wasn’t so aroused he would have scolded himself for not feeling someone coming in and not realising that it wasn’t his hand stroking him.

“Don’ think, Blaine,” Kurt said in a low voice and Blaine could swear it was the hottest thing he had ever heard in his life. “Just don’t think.”

And Blaine did that. After another second of looking into the other boy’s eyes he lowered his head and closed the eyes. He simply let it go and when Kurt came closer and hugged Blaine from behind the boy moaned loudly at the feeling of Kurt’s hard naked cock against his lower back. Kurt started thrusting, meeting the pace of his hand and the feeling made Blaine press back into Kurt, to provide him more pressure. Kurt moaned into his ear and started nibbling it. Blaine lost it.

“Oh… god…” he moaned and felt the knees shaking.

Kurt noticed how close Blaine was and moved his other hand to cup his balls while quickening the pace once more. It was all it took for the boy to completely lose it. With a final strong stroke he was coming all over Kurt’s hand and the wall. He was still not out of his high when he felt a sticky liquid on the back once Kurt came a few moments later.

“I…” Blaine tried to think of something to say, still not looking at Kurt. “We need to talk.”

Kurt nodded even though Blaine couldn’t see him. He took the shower head, washed all the come and sweat off of himself quickly, and left.

Blaine tried to process what had happened while taking a shower. Yesterday he made out a bit with Kurt on the billiard table, he said he had no feelings for him, then Jeff was all pissed at him, he cried a lot, and now he had just had the best handjob in his life.  He had to figure out what to say to Kurt once he got out of the shower. Maybe that’s why it took longer than usually. After all, people say that best decisions are born in the shower.

“I can’t believe it just happened.”

“You want him. He wants you. You both want each other. Go and take him!”

“He said yesterday that he just missed his boyfriend. I don’t want to be used for a release.”

“Kurt would never do that.”

“What if he did? I don’t know him that well.”

“Fine, what if he did? You enjoyed it.”

“Okay, I did. But I already fell too hard for him. It wouldn’t help me.”

“Better sex and no feelings from him than jerking off at the image of him in a boxing room.”

“That doesn’t change any of the arguments I told Jeff.”

“For god’s sake, go there, tell Kurt those fucking arguments, and see what he thinks. This decision is not yours only.”

Kurt was sitting on the couch when he exited the bathroom and went into the bedroom to put some clothes on. Talking to the boy with nothing but a towel on wasn’t the best idea. So he quickly put some random clothes on and went to the sitting room and sat down next to Kurt, leaving a bit space between them.

Kurt smiled sheepishly, shifting on the couch so that he was facing Blaine now. “I’m sorry,” he said quickly. “I shouldn’t have done that. I wasn’t thinking. It’s just like yesterday…  I’m really sorry. I know you have no feelings for me and I wouldn’t want to be just fuck buddies but I just needed to feel you and… oh my god, what am I saying… I’m just–”

But Blaine didn’t care what Kurt wanted to say. The boy admitted he wouldn’t want to be just fuck buddies, he wanted something more. Just like Blaine. That’s why he grabbed Kurt’s face with both hands and pressed their lips together. Kurt’s eyes went wide but he relaxed in a second and kissed the boy back. Their lips moved slowly, both enjoying the perfection of the moment.

After a few moments they broke the kiss and just looked into each other’s eyes with disbelief but both smiling slightly. “How about your boyfriend?” Blaine finally managed.

“Broke up more than three months ago,” Kurt answered and leaned to kiss again. “What about not having feelings for me?”

Kurt spoke with his lips on Blaine’s and it tickled a bit. “I’m the biggest liar in the world,” he answered and deepened the kiss this time. Now that he knew that Kurt was single his conscience gave him a permission to ravish the boy’s mouth.

After a few minutes Kurt broke the kiss and Blaine whined silently, which made Kurt giggle. “If we don’t stop we will both be sweaty and need another shower,” he said.

“I don’t want to stop. Ever,” he said and pressed their foreheads together. “But–”

“Please, no ‘but’, Blaine,” Kurt pleaded. “I really like you. And you said you liked me. There are no ‘buts’ in here.”

Blaine swallowed hard. “I… You deserve someone better,” he said silently.

Kurt laughed softly. “There is no better because you are the best for me. Just tell me why you think you are not good enough and I will give you the strongest arguments in the entire universe to prove that you are wrong.”

Blaine tried to find any words to explain the situation. It was so much easier to tell those things to himself or Jeff. Now, when he needed all the reasons why they couldn’t be together, he simply couldn’t find words. Like all those arguments melted in the presence of Kurt.

The corners of Blaine’s mouth rose and he took Kurt’s hands into his. “Will you… be my boyfriend?”

Kurt squeaked and jumped on top of him, making Blaine fall on his back. Kurt pressed his lips onto Blaine’s and they kissed for a few minutes. Once they finally needed to catch some air, Blaine smiled at him. “Is that a yes?”

“Yes!”

<~*~>

“It’s surprising to see you late for breakfast, boys,” Sugar said once Blaine and Kurt came to the table with trays in their hands. She was sitting with Wes, Sam, Jeff and Santana.

“I overslept,” Kurt said sitting down next to Santana, while Blaine sat opposite him next to Sam. “Blaine always wakes me up but he left early this morning.”

Blaine felt Jeff eyeing him but once he looked at the other boy, he found him reading an article in some magazine. “I did apologise for that,” he said and started eating.

“I’m not accusing you for anything. Just stating the fact,” Kurt snapped and everyone felt the tension between the two of them. Jeff wanted to shake both boys and make them see how stupid they were.

“Sorry,” Blaine murmured and an awkward silence fell on the table. Neither Blaine nor Kurt saw the glances that Sugar, Jeff, and Santana exchanged.

<~*~>

“Why don’t we take the rest of the day off?” Blaine suggested after a month once Kurt finished the classes of the first half of the day and came into the music room where he and Blaine were supposed to practise guitar skills.

“No, Blaine. I have to learn and practise if I want to become a ‘purple’,” he said and went to pick up a guitar but Blaine didn’t let him.

“You are good enough. Come here, kiss me,” he said and wrapped his arms around Kurt’s waist, burying his face into Kurt’s neck.

“Blaine, come on,” Kurt tried to wiggle his way out of Blaine’s tight grip. “Blaine, let me go!”

Blaine did it instantly. “Why are you so obsessed with the Purple Squad anyway?” he asked angrily.

Kurt looked taken aback .“Because they are the best of the best. And I want to be the best. I want to be in your squad, I want to be worthy of you,” he finished silently.

“Kurt, it’s me who is not worth you. I still can’t believe my luck,” Blaine said and smiled, suddenly embarrassed about his outburst.

“Why don’t you.. Oh my god, you don’t want me to be in your squad. That’s why we take these afternoons off, that’s why you aren'tt pushing me to my limits… And we are dating secretly because you are ashamed of me…” he said, his wide eyes filling with tears.

“God no, Kurt, it’s nothing like that! I promise, I swear! You just don’t unders­–”

“What don’t I understand, Blaine? Please, explain me. Or am I too stupid to understand?” Kurt snapped and crossed his arms on the chest.

“You are not stupid, Kurt… Please, don’t be angry…”

“You have the stage, Blaine. Put on a performance and explain me why you don’t want me to be ‘purple’.”

Blaine inhaled deeply trying to compose himself. “Being a ‘purple’ is not like what you see on TV. It’s dangerous and–”

“And you think I’m too weak to deal with it,” Kurt sniffed.

“Kurt, please, it’s not that. Just listen to me okay?” Blaine asked and Kurt forced himself to nod. “Thank you. It’s dangerous and there are things you do… things that others do to you… I would love to see you in the Yellow Squad because I would know you were safe. You mean so much, Kurt, you have no idea. This past month has been the happiest in my entire life. And the thought that things, that I had had to do or that had been done to me, could be a part of your life… it breaks my heart even to think about it. I don’t want you to get hurt, and hurt is a big part of being a ‘purple’ and–”

At that point Blaine was already sobbing and Kurt embraced him into a tight hug. He was crying as well because seeing his boyfriend crying was a painful stab in his chest.

“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry,” he said again and again, caressing his hair with one hand and the back with the other one in an attempt to soothe the boy.

<~*~>

Kurt was sitting with Blaine in a small room. Blaine was asking Kurt questions about fashion for his next class though it was completely unnecessary.

Tina: Hey, have you heard about Thursday?!

Kurt: Hey! Yes, we are having a day off. I’m planning on having a very long bath and staying in bed the whole day.

Tina: No, I was talking about London.

Kurt: What do you mean?

Tina: Our supervisors are taking us to do some sightseeing to take photos so that we could send them to our families as a proof or whatever.

“Have you heard anything about the trip to London?” Kurt asked Blaine, interrupting the other boy’s question.

“What?” Blaine asked confused and Kurt showed him Tina’s texts. “I was thinking about far more exciting things we could do on our day off.”

Kurt: That sounds good but I don’t know. I’ve been really tired lately not getting enough sleep.

Tina: Please, Kurt! That would mean so much to me. We would have so much fun. And I want to show you to my family.

Blaine smiled sadly. “Well, I think you should go. You would have fun and you could show your parents something more than your dorm room on skype.”

Kurt: *sigh*

Kurt: Fine. But only because you are asking.

Tina: Thank you, Kurt! It means so much to me!

Kurt: Aren’t I amazing?

Kurt: Is it mandatory for the supervisors?

Tina: No. But the more people the nicer it will look for parents.

Kurt: Give me a minute, I will ask Blaine.

“Will you go with me?” he asked, hope in his voice.

“I thought you would never ask,” Blaine laughed and kissed the boy.

Tina: Okay.

Kurt: Great, he is coming as well.

Tina: Can’t wait!

“What are you thinking about?” Kurt asked looking worried.

“We will have to be careful during the trip,” he answered.

“No problem here. We are professional at hiding. We won’t sit together on a bus, we will talk to the others mostly, we will simply avoid each other. Of course at a certain level. As always – not too much but not too little either.”

Blaine smiled and his phone beeped before he could say anything.

Noah: Part 1, step 2-2 – Gryffindor is DOWN.

“What is that about?” Kurt asked confused, once Blaine showed him the text.

“I have no idea…” Blaine said thoughtfully.

<~*~>

Blaine and Kurt sat down at the table for two in the ‘Shooting Star’ restaurant.

“First of all, this is one of the most romantic looking restaurants I have ever seen. Secondly, there was a reservation for two. Thirdly, what the hell?” Kurt asked as the waitress went to bring their ordered drinks.

Blaine giggled. “This is precious.”

“Could you maybe explain this to me?” Kurt asked frowning. “Unless it’s you who booked the table. Then I’m fine.”

“Unfortunately, it would have been too difficult to explain the others why I wanted to take you out for a romantic dinner. But I really wanted to,” he smirked.

“So they planned this… What for?”

“They want us to be together… Jeff suggested that the first day when I met you on the stairs. I told him I had met you and asked a few questions. And he said we would look nice together,” he smiled affectionately at the memory of their first meeting.

“We do look nice together,” Kurt giggled at took Blaine’s hand.

<~*~>

“Okay, Noah, set the snacks on the table while Blaine and I put drinks in the fridge,” Jeff said and Noah nodded taking a few bags from Jeff.

“That’s a lot of food,” Blaine laughed while they went to the kitchen.

“A lot of people,” Jeff smirked and opened the doors of the fridge. Meanwhile, Blaine took his phone and activated a small camera in his sitting room. He needed to know what Noah was doing in there.

“I still can’t believe I allowed you to talk me into this,” Blaine said giving Jeff bottles of drinks so he could place them in a fridge. “I’m quite tired lately.”

“Busy fucking Kurt maybe?” Jeff smirked and Blaine rolled his eyes. Jeff had no idea how close he was even though they hadn’t reached the actual sex yet. “Anyway, we could all use some fun.”

“Fine. We are all going to have some fun,” he grinned at the phone when Jeff wasn’t looking – he saw Noah with something small in his fingers, crossing the room.

<~*~>

They were all sitting in a circle playing spin the bottle. It was just a matter of time when someone would tell Kurt or Blaine to spin. Blaine approximated when it could happen and opened a ‘fake-a-call’ app. He was relieved when he heard his phone ringing at the moment Kurt spun the bottle. He apologised and went to the kitchen to ‘answer’. He wasn’t lucky enough and came back to a view he would never want to see again – Kurt kissing someone else. Even though it was just a game and it was just Tina, it still made his heart ache.

“Sorry guys, Tom called. We were being a bit too loud.”

<~*~>

“Kurt, could you, please, help me with the drinks?” Blaine asked and Kurt nodded.

They both went into the kitchen and Blaine turned around to face Kurt. “You owe me a kiss,” he smirked.

“Well, after the teasing during ‘guess who’ I don’t owe you anything. Did you want me to get hard in front of everyone?” he frowned.

“That would have been hot,” Blaine whispered and grabbed Kurt by his hips. “I want you so bad. I want you naked in our bed, all sweaty and not able to form coherent sentences. I want to suck you while my fingers are inside you, massaging that delicious spot. I want you to scream my name while you’re coming into my mouth.”

Kurt breathed heavily, getting hard in the pants. “Let’s get rid of everyone and do that,’ he said in a low voice.

Blaine smirked and retreated. “Okay.”

They went back into the room but it was empty, a slow song playing in the background.

“I find it adorable what they are doing,” Kurt said.

“Adorable indeed. But I find you way more adorable,” Blaine cupped his boyfriend’s face, and kissed him slowly.

“Do you think we should tell them?” Kurt asked breaking the kiss. Sometimes they talked about the possibility of not hiding their happiness anymore.

“Sure,” Blaine grinned and pulled him towards the shelves. Kurt frowned but Blaine didn’t say anything. They stood in front of the shelves – Blaine smiling, Kurt confused. “Guys, do you see this gorgeous boy?” he asked and wrapped his right arm around Kurt’s waist.

“Um, babe? You are talking to a shelf,” Kurt looked at him as if he was crazy.

Blaine giggled. “Let me introduce you. Shelf, this is my boyfriend Kurt. Kurt, this is Jeff and most likely Mike, Sugar, Noah, Tina, and Santana.”