The Drive to lookout point seemed to take forever, Blaine wasn’t sure if it was the situation he was in or the situation that was expected to happen. He had been questioning a lot of things of the last couple of weeks, He’d started meeting with a therapist to help deal with his transition into his old life, but that was something he had kept from his family and even Kurt. It started when his Physical therapist grew concerned about the amount of stress was putting himself under trying to connect with his old life, so he offered to set him up with a colleague who could better help him in this area. The little 30 minute sessions had helped Blaine a lot to adjust to life, Dr. Criss even suggested that, if he was having doubts about things, look into it. All records are made public so its not hard to track down any original copies of filed and documents, even if its just to ease ones mind.

Blaine felt like it was harder to connect with Mia than some others, and he really couldn’t understand why he would Marry her if this is how he always felt. He couldn’t imagine himself ever loving her in that particular way. But after enough searching, he found their marriage License filled with the state department, meaning their wedding was in fact actual and legal, taking place just as he was told. One month before his accident.

He knew Mia wanted more from their relationship, but he wasn’t sure if he could give it to her. Since he verified what he had been told about the marriage already, he actually made an effort to try and rekindle whatever it was they had shared at one point.

“Relax Blaine, everything’s going to be ok. You don’t have to worry around me.” She reached across his seat and took his hand.

“Thanks Mia, its just… I don’t know if Im ready to do this or not.” The car pulled to a stop, and Mia cut off the engine. This was going to happen, she needed it to happen, or else she could lose him.

“Blaine, its really not that hard. In fact you can just sit there and let me do all the work.” She crooked a grin at him before sliding her tongue across her lips slightly.

“Mia really, I don’t feel that well. Maybe it was the food, lets just go back ok. We can pile up and watch a movie.. please.” Mia shook her head slightly, and Blaine knew there was no getting out of this. He felt her as she leaned across the seat, feeling her breath on his neck and she began to kiss a trail from his collar to his ear..

“ummm Mia.. please… can we just…uhhh” Mia knew she had him, he belonged to her now and nothing was going to stop that.

“Yes baby, tell me what you want.” She brought his ear lobe into her mouth sucking ever so lightly, and heard as a gasp left his mouth. “did you enjoy that?”

“please… just… not well..” she was overjoyed at the sounds he was making, he was like putty in her hand. She reached around caressing his face with her hand before turning his head and allowing their lips to meet. As their lips forcibly collided she took her other hand, sliding it down his chest before loosing his belt and sliding her hand inside his briefs.

“hmm, someones almost ready for me.”

“Mia….please…”

“That’s right baby, beg for me. “ She wrapped her hand around his hoping the extra friction would give him the blood flow she desired, but what she wasn’t expecting happened instead.

Before she knew, she heard a loud gasp before being hit in the face with vomit. Blaine couldn’t control it anymore, he told her he didn’t feel well but she just wouldn’t listen. He opened the car door and threw himself out on the ground as he finished throwing up, lifting his head to look back into the car. Mia simply just sat there shaking, vomit running from her face down her arm and hands. She was doing everything in her will power to not get sick herself, and was resisting the urge to scream.

“BLAINE….ANDERSON… YOU….YOU…. UGH!” she began to just scream at the top of her lungs. He got up off the ground and tried to get back in the car before she pushed him back out, pulling the door closed. Sliding the window down a crack she began yelling again.

“Do you have any IDEA what you’ve put us through.. HUH? Maybe you need to sit out here for a little while and think about shit.. “ With that said she cranked the car and left Blaine sitting atop the hill overlooking the valley. It was at least 12 miles back to town, and the October Air was getting to him. He really wasn’t sure what to do, or who to call.. so he just sat there for a moment, staring at the clear night sky.

+ + +
Kurt pulled off on the side of the road, something didn’t feel right. He had the strangest urge that he was going to be sick, but it passed as soon as he stopped.

“Dude you ok? You look a little green.”

“Im Fine Finn..I just need a moment.” Finn just nodded his head in agreement, the ride home so far had been extremely miserable. He could tell Kurt was depressed but he wasn’t sure about what. He watched as Kurt pulled out his cell and began texting someone. He waited as Kurt got this look of worry in his face when no one replied so he watched as his brother dialed a number instead.

“Hey you… yea its Kurt… are you OK? You sound like something’s wrong? Your where? Ok just wait their Finn and I’ll be there in about 30 minutes.”

Finn’s eyesbrows shot up, he hated when Kurt volunteered him for things.

“Change of Plans, Blain had a bit of car trouble and needs a lift, do you mind?” Finn wasn’t sure if he was feeling better or what, but at the mention of Blaine’s name he could almost see the sparkle in his brothers eyes again.

“No, in fact I could prolly help with the repairs. You know I’m smarter than I look right.”

Kurt just giggled, reframing himself form making the comment he wanted to say.

Blaine’s directions were easy enough to follow and they soon found him sitting on top of an upturned log overlooking the valley below.

“Blaine I don’t understand, where’s you car?”

“It left…with Mia”

“I’m sorry but WHAT?” from his puffy eyes and muffled voice, Kurt could tell that Blaine had been crying. It took every bit of force he could muster to stop himself from running to the boy

“S she said…that..this place..was the first place we….we ever.” He began to sob in between words now, Kurt say down on the log beside him and wrapped his arm around the boys shoulders. He was shaking, but he was only wearing Jeans and a T shirt, he could see Blaine’s Polo sitting on down a bit across the log.

“K-Kurt, what’s wrong with me? I try and try but its just not right, not righ in here.” He gestured to his chest. “ I don’t know how Im suppose to feel, I don’t know what I’m suppose to do or say, I can’t remember a damn thing.”

“Hey look here, Look at me.” He guided Blaine’s face up to look at his, lifting his chin with his fingers. “ There is absolutely nothing wrong with you, do you understand. Mia should not have tried to force you to do anything your not ready for. Come on I’ll get you home.” Blaine just stood angrily kicking the log he had been sitting on .

“Don’t you see Kurt! That’s just it, I am ready for this. I need this sort of comfort in my life right now, my body aches for it. But not from her! I don’t know what it is about her, but I just can’t bring myself to love her, Ugh Fuck it, Im so sick of this shit. I wish I had never woken up!” Blaine felt like his entire world was coming apart, the puzzle pieces of his life just wouldn’t fit into place for him. “ You know It would have been better if I had just died back the……” Blaine was cut off as he felt Kurts Hand make contact with his face. He could only stand there , as he face stung, and watch as Kurt began to let tears fall down his cheeks.

“I swear to god Blaine Anderson, if you ever utter those words again. I’ll…” In that one moment the entire world stopped, not because of Kurt slapping Blaine, not because Kurt could see Blaine’s temper rising high that it was, but becucase in that one brief period, Blaine had shoved himself in Kurt’s Arms as he brought his own lips to Kurts. As soon as they connected, everything just fell into place. All the fear, all the confusion, everything Blaine had been dealing with since he’d woken up was gone. He realized what he had done , but couldn’t bring himself to pull away, not now, not ever if he had a choice.

He didn’t think it was possible for anyone’s lips to be as soft as Kurts, he felt Kurt tense up now, so instinctively he placed his hands down and on both sides of the boys Hips as Kurt brought his arms up and around Blaine’s neck. He could fill Kurt’s tongue on the edge of his lips, begging for an invitation in, and who was he to deny them. They stood there for what seemed like ages, exploring each others mouths while roaming their hands through each other’s hair and body. After both were in desperate need of air, they finally split, pulling away from each other completely.

The second Kurts Warmth was gone Blaine felt a whimper leave his mouth.

“What…what just happened?” Kurt could barely talk, his kiss swollen lips ached for more but the whole situation seemed like a dream.

“umm… I think… I think I kissed you…and….I think I liked it!” Blaine began to blush now, and even in the moonlight you could see the red in his face. Kurt could only stand there and watch the boy, and was surprised to see him start laughing and shaking his head.

“what’s so funny? Oh God… was I that bad?” It was Kurts turn to look away embarrassed now. It only took a moment before Blaine was back, wrapping his arms around Kurt again, coaxing him to look at him.

“I’m laughing because this entire time I’ve been trying to force things to work with my wife, and not understand why. Now I do, God its so simple I don’t understand how I didn’t see this earlier. Kurt.. Im gay!”

“Yes.. yes you are Blaine.”

Blaine raised an eyebrow, suddenly confused once again. “You say that as if it’s not surprise to you.” He watched as Kurt looked away again. “Kurt.. what aren’t you telling me?”

“Maybe you should come back to Lima with me and we can talk some. I promise I’ll answer your questions, but not here.” Blaine thought about this for a minute, and realized their wasn’t even the slightest doubt in his mind anymore. Kurt was going back to Lima and so would he, that’s where he belonged now.

“By the way Blaine, that cologne your wearing. You should really throw it out, its too old and stuffy for you.”

“What cologn?” Blaine sniffed himself recognizing the scent now. “ Oh that’s not me, that’s Mia.”

“Your Wife wear’s men’s cologne?”

“Well kinda, she said it was mine before I disappeared and so she likes to wear it every now and then to remember us. I don’t really care for it that much, it reminds me of that stuff my father wears.” The boys got in Kurt’s Car and headed back to Lima, Finn oblivious to everything that had just happened between them.
+ + +

Jackson was down in the study reading the book Blaine had gotten him. He loved the whole idea of Hogwarts, and magic. They had read the first two books together, but Blaine had insisted that he finish the series on his own. He was up to the Triwizard Tournament now, and couldn’t wait for Blaine to come home so he could show him. It got lonely around the house, no one but Isabella ever paid him any attention until Blaine came home. It was getting late and he heard Mia come busting through the front doors, mumbling to herself. She didn’t see him but he watched as she went into his father’s office, he quietly sneaked over to the door hoping he could hear what was going on.

“Ok slow down this time Mia. What happened?”

“I’m sick of this Jonathan, no matter what I do, or say. Blaine will not open up and let me in. Do you see what I’m covered in, he fucking puked on me when I kissed him. How is that suppose to make me feel, his wife of all people?”

“Oh get off your high horse Mia, you know as well as I do that your marriage was arranged, and you both agreed to this for separate reasons, love not being one of them. Just relax, we’ll be making the announcement towards the end of the month, so I just need you to keep on the happy little couple show for the reporters when they arrive. After all this is done, you’ll thank me.”

“Thank you? I don’t screw with my Jonathan, I know damn well you’ve known he was in that coma in Lima. You’ve known for two years now, but yet you left him there. Why? Is it because you didn’t wanna take the chance that the world find out your son is a fag!”

“THAT’S ENOUGH OUT OF YOU! I didn’t see any need in moving him, he was already receiving the best possible care he could get so why endanger him by moving him to another location.”

“Bull shit! Whomever put Blaine in a Coma did you a favor, and you know it.” She stopped for a moment and took in a few deep breaths. “ Fine, We’ll keep this going and I”ll keep pushing through this. You’ll have the picture perfect family you want by the time the election gets here. But I have to ask.. you never told me, what was it you had over him to make him give up everything in his life and agree to our marriage at such a young age.”

“Not everyone can be bought like you Mia, I love my son, and want the best for him. But sometimes he doesn’t know what’s best for him.. I do! Don’t ever underestimate the thing I won’t do or give up for my children… a sentiment by the way that runs in our family!”

“Please, as if He and I will ever have kids. That would require us to actually fuck first. I hear Coop’s back in town, what do you plan on doing about that?” Jackson watched through the door crack even more so after hearing his brothers name mentioned. He watched as he his father walked around the desk to stand in front of Mia. He took his hand and moved the strand of her out of her face before resting his palm against her cheek.

“You let me deal with Cooper, you just worry about keeping Blaine in line.. ok?” Jackson oddly felt uncomfortable now so he ran back to his room shutting his door. He wasn’t sure what he heard or what it meant, but he knew that he loved his brother no matter what. He saw his cell phone light up on the table. He had begged mom and dad for a cell phone but they said he was to young, so Blaine had picked him up one of those prepaid phones on one of his doctor visits. No one had his number but Blaine and they would constantly text each other.

“Hey bud, I’m staying with a friend tonight! I’ll see you tomorrow. Love ya!”-B

“G’nite, promise me you’ll come home!”-J

“Of course I will, You know I’d do anything for you Jackson.”-B

He was glad Blaine would be away tonight, he didn’t like Mia and he especially didn’t like having her around. He piled into bed and was out like a light before long. Still clutching the Harry Potter book his brother had given him.