Tuesday the 17th of March 2009

"I'm gay."

The words left Blaine's mouth slowly, while he eyed his parents who were sitting on the couch. His mother looked shocked but didn't move a muscle. His father grunted. 

"Okay." his father said evenly. "Good to know."

Blaine let out a deep breath.

"I just-" his mother began, but stopped when she met his eyes. "I love you."

"I love you too, mom." Blaine said and the side of his mouth twitched. "I thought you should know."

And that was that.

Tuesday the 9th of November 2010

"Oh, excuse me. Um, hi. Can I ask you a question? I'm new here."

"My name is Blaine." the dark-haired boy said and held out his hand toward Kurt.

"Kurt." Kurt replied, and shook it.

Kurt thought the whole thing must have been a dream. The hand-holding, the running down an empty hallway, the song, the guy… 

Friday the 10th of April 2009

"Blaine." his father said as he led a girl inside the house, followed by two of his parents' friends. " This is Isobel Mayer."

"Hi." Blaine said and offered his hand politely. "I'm Blaine."

"Call me Bel." the girl with the black hair and nose piercing said and shook back.

"So, um… I've been at your parents' place a few times, but I've never seen you before." Blaine said, awkwardly trying to get further away from the smoking girl in the Anderson backyard.

"I'm a foster-kid. Moved in a few months ago." Bel put the cigarette out against the bottom of one of her black boots. "It's a shame we haven't met earlier." she said and smiled.

Blaine hadn't seen her smile until now. Inside, during dinner, she had only sat quietly as the grown-ups talked among themselves. She was pretty, for a girl. But a lot of people probably didn't see past her ripped jeans and black band t-shirts. She was probably a bad-girl, as people called it. But she had been nice to Blaine so far.

Wednesday the 10th of November 2010

Kurt had not expected the coffee, or his own tears, or the supportive words from Blaine.

Neither had he expected to get Blaine's phone number and the supportive text messages.

But most of all, he had not expected Dave Karofsky to kiss him.

Saturday the 23rd of May 2009

"Oh my God, I'm dying!" Blaine gasped. He was laughing so hard at a joke Bel had just said, that he couldn't breathe.

"Breathe, Blaine." Bel chuckled, placing a hand on his shoulder. "Don't die on me." 

They were sitting on the ground at the park in the sun. They'd seen each other at least once a week since they met. Blaine considered Bel his closest friend by now. She really was amazing.

He took a few deep breaths and wiped the corners of his eyes.

"Blaine?"

"Yes, Bel?"

"You're awesome." Bel said, squeezing his shoulder a little.

"You too." Blaine grinned.

"Would you go on a date with me?" she asked, looking more self-conscious than Blaine had ever seen her. He would even swear there was a glint of fear in her eyes.

"But I'm-"

"I know. You like boys. Whatever." she said, her walls going up immediately. "But you like me."

"I-" Blaine began, looking around in slight panic.

"You've never dated a girl. Or a boy. Maybe you'll like dating me?" Bel fished.

She was good at that. Fishing to get what she wanted. Blaine had noticed it a lot, even in the little time they'd known each other.

"Okay." Blaine said, and Bel smiled.

Thursday the 11th of November 2010

Kurt couldn't believe Blaine agreed to come help him confront Karofsky. He had sounded hesitant at first, but after making another phone call he'd promised he'd come.

Kurt was amazed that he had actually shoved Karofsky when he went for Blaine. 

And Blaine buying him lunch? That had been unexpected, but very appreciated. Even though Blaine had hurried back to Dalton afterward.

Tuesday the 2nd of June 2009

Blaine actually enjoyed himself. Dinner with Bel was delightful and the movie afterwards was exciting. Holding hands in the theater had felt strange, but he'd pushed through it. He could at least try, for his parents' sake.

Monday the 22nd of November 2010

It was nice to talk and hang out with Blaine. Someone like Kurt himself, someone who understood what he was dealing with. Even though the harassment still continued in school. Blaine was a safe place. They shared interests. Like coffee, Vogue and gay rights. Though they both still had interests that they didn't share. Like Kurt's taste in fashion, or Blaine's fascination with football.

It all seemed manageable. Until-

"'Cause if you do… I'm gonna kill you."

Thursday the 1st of October 2009

Blaine and Bel we're having their 4 month dating-anniversary tomorrow, so Blaine had been allowed to stay late at Bel's house that evening. Her foster parents were both asleep when the movie Blaine and Bel were watching ended.

"Let's go to my room." Bel said and turned the TV off.

Blaine followed her upstairs and they laid down on the bed, cuddling like they sometimes did.

"Blaine?" Bel whispered while tracing a finger around Blaine's knee cap.

"Yeah?"

"Do you love me?"

"Of course I do. You're my best friend, AND my girlfriend." Blaine whispered back, smiling into Bel's hair.

"Do you…" Bel flattened her hand against Blaine's knee and started running it up and down his thigh. "Wanna try something?"

"Try what?" Blaine said, obliviously.

"This…" Bel ran her hand up his thigh and onto his-

"Oh!" Blaine shot into a sitting position. "Um… I don't think I-"

"Blaine, please? We've been dating for months. And you love me!" Bel said, pulling Blaine back down onto the mattress. "Just once. If you don't like it, I promise I won't ask you again."

Blaine was panicking. He did love Bel, and it did feel good when she touched him there. But he did not picture his first time to be with a girl.

"Please?" she pleaded, moving her hand back onto his-

"Okay." Blaine breathed, feeling heat pooling in his belly.

"Kiss me." Bel ordered, already working on getting Blaine's pants off.

It had been fast. Really fast. Bel had muttered something about not asking him again afterwards, and Blaine had had to leave to be home before curfew. He'd cried the whole fifteen minute walk home, and sobbed into his pillow when he got home. He was never doing that again. She was a girl. He didn't want a girl. And now he was absolutely sure.

Thursday the 25th of November 2010

Kurt was beyond happy when his dad and Carole announced that they were getting married. He started planning the moment he found out. And Karofsky getting expelled in the middle of the planning was great. The wedding went by and everything was good.

Friday the 2nd of October 2009

Blaine met up with Bel the next day after school, as usual. She was standing in the parking lot, smoking.

"Hey Blaine." she greeted when he walked up to her. But she noticed his face. "What's up?"

"I'm breaking up with you, Bel." Blaine said shakily. "I know now for sure that I can't be with a girl. That I don't WANT to be with a girl."

Bel was silent, just throwing her cigarette on the asphalt and stepping on it. "Okay." 

"You're not mad?" Blaine asked, surprised.

"No. I kinda figured after last night." she said, looking at the ground. "But I still love you and I am still your best friend. Okay?"

"Okay." Blaine smiled.

Monday the 29th of November 2010

Karofsky would be coming back, tomorrow. Which meant Kurt wouldn't.

Burt and Carole talked him into letting them pay for him going to Dalton, and Kurt knew it was his only safe option at the moment.

Saturday the 14th of November 2009

Blaine and Bel had hung out as usual lately. And tonight was movie night. They had prepared with pizza for dinner and all the snacks they could think of before the movie begun.

"I'm so fucking hungry." Bel said, plunking down on the sofa and putting her feet up on the coffee table in the Mayer family's living room.

"Bel!" Blaine hissed.

"Oh, come on! I'm seventeen. I can say whatever I want." she said and opened the lid of her pizza box.

"Yeah, but I'm just sixteen. My ears are sensitive." Blaine grinned and opened his pizza box as well.

"Dork." Bel said and elbowed him in the ribs before practically inhaling her first slice of pizza.

They watched some action movie with lots of explosions, car chases and buff guys in it. Bel had picked it out, but Blaine enjoyed it too (mostly because of the buff guys). They stuffed their faces with a pizza each, plus a bag of chips each. By the end of the movie Blaine was about to vomit. Bel however, ate another bag of chips plus some chocolate bars.

"How are you still eating?" Blaine grunted when the credits started. "I'm so full I'm pretty sure I'm going to explode any second."

"Meh." Bel shrugged. "I'm fine. Wanna watch some CSI?"

"Sure." Blaine said, but stood. "I just gotta pee first."

"TMI, Blaine." Bel said and waved him off.

Blaine went into the bathroom down the hall and did his business, but just as he unlocked the door he realized he almost forgot to wash his hands. So he went back to the sink and turned on the water. When he had finished rubbing his soapy hands and put them back under the spray, Bel burst through the door and collapsed on the floor in front of the toilet. She started puking and Blaine winced. He hated when people threw up. He quickly dried his still slightly soapy hands on his pants and went over to her and held her hair out of her face. He pointedly watched the ceiling as Bel's pizza and chips came back up.

When she leaned back against his legs Blaine let go of her hair and helped her stand.

"Are you okay, Bel?"

"I'm fine. Just ate too much." she sighed, starting to rinse her mouth out with water. 

"Obviously." Blaine said and rolled his eyes.

By the middle of the CSI episode Bel was shoveling chips into her mouth again, with the excuse "I just barfed everything out, so I'm hungry again!". Blaine just laughed at her.

Tuesday the 30th of November 2010

Kurt's first day at Dalton went amazingly. Guys he'd never met before greeted him and introduced themselves in the hallways, the teachers actually taught him something and… Blaine was there.

His first Warblers meeting was that afternoon and he was welcomed into the group, even receiving a small, yellow bird. Even though his ideas were shot down, he was really happy about being in a place where he didn't need to be afraid. Kurt became fond of Pavarotti right away. He even felt better after talking to him when Blaine rushed off in a hurry after rehearsal.

Wednesday the 1st of December 2010

In the morning Blaine caught Kurt by the grand staircase and told him he'd been offered to audition for a solo for Sectionals. He was ecstatic and drove all the way to McKinley to practice with Rachel.

He thought his solo went fine, except for that he apparently shouldn't have waved his arms around like a crazy person. That was probably why he didn't get the solo.

But Blaine had of course made him feel a lot better, just by talking to him.

Friday the 3rd of December 2010

Sectionals came really fast. Just a couple of days after joining the Warblers, Kurt was standing on a stage singing with them. It made him happy. And both the Warblers and the New Directions getting to go on to Regionals… Absolutely fantastic.

Monday the 6th of December 2010

To: Blaine
Message: Help! Can you come meet me? Please.

It took almost fifteen minutes until Blaine came to meet Kurt. But what he had to say was very reassuring. Pavarotti luckily wasn't dying. But then Blaine hurried off just as quickly again.

Thursday the 9th of December 2010

Blaine sung a flirty Christmas-song as practice for a supposed duet he was singing during Christmas break with Kurt. Kurt was in love with Blaine, and it became more painful every time they spent time together, but nothing ever happened between them.

And not seeing Blaine for all of Christmas break was going to suck.

Friday the 24th of December 2010

To: Blaine
Message: Merry Christmas, Blaine!

From: Blaine
Message: Merry Christmas, Kurt!

To: Blaine
Message: How's Dalton?

From: Blaine
Message: Hectic. How's home?

To: Blaine
Message: It's boring, but nice.
Message: Wait… What's hectic at Dalton? Not much should happen when you're only 4 guys there, and you know none of the others. And we have no homework.
Message: Oh God, did I miss some huge assignment for after Christmas?

From: Blaine
Message: Don't worry. You didn't miss anything. =) But I'll tell you later, okay?

To: Blaine
Message: Okay. =) Gotta go, dinner's ready.

From: Blaine
Message: Bon appetite!

Monday the 7th of February 2011

Kurt had survived Christmas break, mostly because of Blaine's texts and phone calls. Getting back to school and seeing him every day was badly needed until he finally got to. Blaine still only wanted to hang out in the areas of school that everyone were allowed to use, which Kurt found rather odd but accepted. Maybe Blaine's room was really messy. Or in an ugly color scheme, that he didn't want Kurt to see.

But Kurt was still glad, because they had rehearsals and coffee at the Lima Bean often.

When Rachel and Mercedes left the coffee shop Kurt stopped Blaine before he got into his car to drive back to Dalton.

"Do you really want to come to the game?" he asked.

"Yeah!" Blaine said and put his hand on the car door's handle.

"Great." Kurt smiled, rolling onto the balls of his feet happily.

"I'll meet you at your house tomorrow, alright?" he said and got in the car, waving as he drove off.

From: Blaine
Message: I might not be able to come tomorrow.

To: Blaine
Message: Why? =(

From: Blaine
Message: Oh. Never mind. =) See you tomorrow!

Tuesday the 8th of February 2011

Blaine arrived five minutes early to Kurt's house and made pleasant small talk with Burt and Carole the whole car-ride to the game. Kurt loved how giddy Blaine was during the whole game, and how he laughed so much his face scrunched up.

Friday the 11th of February 2011

Kurt was tired of the tiptoeing around the subject. So he told Blaine about how he felt. Blaine had apparently been clueless, but now he knew.

"I don't wanna screw this up."

And Kurt bought Blaine coffee. That was that, and they continued on as usual.

Friday the 25th of February 2011

To: Blaine
Message: Hi Blaine! Do you want to come with me to a party at Rachel Berry's house tomorrow?

From: Blaine
Message: Let me just check a few things. It'll take like half an hour.

To: Blaine
Message: Okay. =)

From: Blaine
Message: Yeah, I can come! I'm excited. What time is it?

To: Blaine
Message: At five, I think. I can pick you up?

From: Blaine
Message: Great! See you tomorrow then. =D

To: Blaine
Message: Yeah! =)

Saturday the 26th of February 2011

Kurt thought the party went well. Blaine got tipsy, giddy and friendly. Kurt himself got a little more than tipsy, very dancey and overexcited. He didn't get to kiss Blaine during spin the bottle, but he did kiss Brittany. She tasted like Root Beer, and Kurt thought it tasted awesome.

Sunday the 27th of February 2011

"I'm very sorry, Mr. Hummel. I'll bring him home the moment he wakes up. Yes, sir. Bye."

Kurt woke up with a pounding in his head, and he was very disoriented. "Where am I?" he mumbled and moved the pillow off of his head, squinting and rubbing his tired eyes.

"Morning, Kurt. Your dad just called." Blaine said, holding Kurt's phone out toward him.

"Where am I?" Kurt repeated, his head falling back onto another pillow while he looked at Blaine through one squinted eye.

"You are in an empty dorm room. I took you here after the party last night." Blaine started to explain, moving to sit beside Kurt on the bed, and putting Kurt's phone on his back. "You were drunk. But I just talked to your dad and he wanted me to take you home. So Wes is driving us when you're ready." 

"Why don't you drive?"

"I drank too, Kurt." Blaine chuckled. "So come get me when you're ready. I gotta do something in my dorm." he stood and walked to the door, put stopped and pointed to another door. "The bathroom is in there." And then he left.

Kurt dragged himself out of bed and walked into the bathroom. He didn't dare look at his reflection, so he just straightened his clothes and rinsed his mouth out before going down the hallway to where he knew Blaine's room was. He knocked repeatedly and suddenly Blaine was in the doorway, looking a little annoyed. He stepped out of the room and closed the door carefully.

"You ready to go?" he asked and grabbed Kurt's elbow, walking away from the room.

"Uh-huh." Kurt mumbled, just following along.

Blaine stopped for a second and did something with his phone. Someone behind them opened and closed a door and it sounded like gunshots to Kurt. Then they started walking again.

Kurt probably fell asleep on Blaine in the car, because he didn't remember the trip at all. Also Wes kept snickering and Blaine blushing.

Monday the 28th of February 2011

Kurt and Blaine had just gotten their coffees at the Lime Bean when Kurt got a phone call.

"Hi Kurt! It's Brittany."

"Oh hi, Brittany." Kurt replied, grinning as he sat down with Blaine at a table. Blaine was laughing quietly, probably remembering the silliness of the weekend's party. "What's up?"

Brittany gave him a weird story before actually getting to the point. "Alright. I'll see you then. Bye."

Blaine looked questioningly at him after Kurt hung up. "Brittany just asked me out!" he said with a laugh. Blaine laughed along too.

"Wait a second… Why did you say yes? You can't lead her on." Blaine whispered, leaning forward.

"Who says I'm leading her on? When we kissed it- it felt good. What's the harm in going on one crummy little date?"

"You're GAY, Kurt." Blaine almost hissed.

"I thought I was, but I've- I've never even had a boyfriend before. Isn't this the time you're supposed to figure this stuff out? Maybe I'm bi, I don't know." Kurt stirred his drink.

"Bisexual is a term gay guys in High School use when they wanna hold hands with girls and feel like a normal person for a change." Blaine spat, almost angrily.

"Whoa, whoa, whoa." Kurt said slowly. "Why are you so angry?"

"Because I look up to you! I admire how proud you are of who you are. I know what it's like to think you're bi and for it to not turn out to be that way." Blaine said and looked truly hurt.

"I- I'm really sorry if this hurts your feelings or- or your pride or whatever. But however confusing it might be for you, it's actually a lot more confusing for me. If you're 100% sure of who you are, fantastic! Well, maybe we all can't be so lucky." Kurt spat back.

"Yeah. Yeah… I've had a lot of luck, Kurt…"

"I am- I'm searching, okay? I'm honestly just trying to figure out who I am. And for you of ALL people to get down on me for that? I didn't think that's who you were." Kurt said sadly, standing to leave. "I'll see you. I- I'd say "bye", but I wouldn't wanna make you angry." And then he walked out of the coffee shop.

Wednesday the 2nd of March 2011

From: Blaine
Message: Hi. I'm sorry about Monday. Okay?

To: Blaine
Message: Okay.

From: Blaine
Message: Really sorry. I can explain.

To: Blaine
Message: That'd be nice.

From: Blaine
Message: The Lima Bean at four on Friday?

To: Blaine
Message: Sure.

From: Blaine
Message: Thank you.