Sept. 3, 2012, 10:30 a.m.
Blackout: Chapter 6
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The song in this chapter is called "Walking Away" and I wrote it one day on a whim. Hope you like it!
Kurt sat next to Quinn in the arena they were at where Blaine was playing. Rachel had sat on the other side of Quinn knowing to leave Kurt alone. His pass was hanging around his neck but he couldn't do anything until intermission. Quinn had also managed to get a pass to go back with him since she was on the same label as Blaine. That was something he was not pleased with though.
“Don't worry Kurt. We'll go back together...” Quinn said reaching over for his hand. He sighed and waited for the show to start. Half an hour later and Blaine was coming out onto the stage. He looked good compared to the videos of him that had been on TV and the internet. Blaine walked out onto the part of the stage that split the crowd. Everybody was standing up so they did too.
“Welcome! It's amazing to see all of you! Thank you so much for coming to my show!” Blaine said. Quinn clapped but he was not feeling it right now. Blaine looked down and his eyes connected with Kurt's. Kurt swallowed the bile that rose in his throat and he looked at Quinn.
“I'm sorry babe...” she said. Blaine started playing his guitar and the band behind him picked up too. Kurt knew the song all too well and Blaine started to sing the first verse of Forever. It felt like everybody's eyes were on him as he sang. He looked up and saw Blaine was staring at him as he sang. It looked like he was more upset than angry and it broke Kurt's heart. When that song ended Blaine started up another song.
“Another day, another fight. Another leave me alone, I don't want to talk. Another baby I love you and don't be mad. Another it's been a rough day I don't mean to take it out on you, I love you too much to do that. It's the same old story and I'm sick of reading the same chapter. I really want to turn the page but you keep holding me back...” he started.
“Walking away is all I can do but I can't seem to let go of you. You have me so wound up around your finger and as much as I fight it I can't deny it I'm still in love with you. I'll put up with whatever you do to me and I won't pick up and leave because I know you'd hurt and hurting you is the last thing I want to do. Walking away is the first thing on my list but also the last...”
Kurt had listened to the song on the CD the other day. It was one of the better songs on the CD and he really did like it.
“Another night, Another empty bed. Another phone call to you wondering where you are. Another call me back, let me know you're okay. I've been told you're out with someone else but I just can't seem to wrap my head around it. I don't want to believe it but I know something is going on and I can't stand it anymore,” Blaine sang as he played his guitar.
“Walking away is all I can do but I can't seem to let go of you. You have me so wound up around your finger and as much as I fight it I can't deny it I'm still in love with you. I'll put up with whatever you do to me and I won't pick up and leave because I know you'd hurt and hurting you is the last thing I want to do. Walking away is the first thing on my list but also the last...” Blaine sang as he looked at Kurt. This song wasn't directly at their relationship but it was close enough.
“Another day, another hey, how've you been. Another night, another wish I could have held on tight. Another I miss you but it will only be whispered. You may have walked away but I won't let go of who you are and what we were...I'll be holding onto your memory...Walking away is all I can do but I can't seem to let go of you. You have me so wound up around your finger and as much as I fight it I can't deny it I'm still in love with you. I'll put up with whatever you do to me and I won't pick up and leave because I know you'd hurt and hurting you is the last thing I want to do. Walking away is the first thing on my list but also the last!”
He sang the chorus once more and then the song ended. The show went on until intermission. They asked the security guard to go back to see Blaine and showed him their passes and who they were. He led them back behind the stage and to a hallway. They let them in a room that had another door in it with Blaine's name on it. Kurt felt a little pride in himself knowing he was part of the reason Blaine was here.
“Now you're just somebody that I used to know,” he heard Blaine sing. Quinn looked at him and he looked at the closed door. Kurt listened to the music play behind the door and he started singing.
“Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over. But had me believing it was always something that I'd done. But I don't wanna live that way reading into every word you say. You said that you could let it go and I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know!”
“But you didn't have to cut me off. Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing. And I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough. No you didn't have to stoop so low, have your friends collect your records and then change your number. I guess that I don't need that though now you're just somebody that I used to know!” Kurt and Blaine sang together. The music stopped and the door opened slowly. He looked into Blaine's hazel eyes that were filled with tears.
“Kurt? What are you doing here?”
“We moved to Cali...Quinn got signed onto a new label and then Rachel bought us tickets for your concert...”
Blaine just stared at him. Kurt could see the anger, pain, and hidden joy in his eyes. He wished he hadn't told him to go. He wished he'd come with him when he had the chance. It was too late now though. He'd never get his Blaine back.
“Get out of here.”
“Why?” Quinn asked. She came up to stand next to Kurt.
“Because. I don't want either of you here, especially you,” Blaine said looking at Kurt. Kurt recoiled at the words and bit his bottom lip.
“Blaine...we've noticed what you're doing with your life...we want to help you,” Quinn said.
“No. I'm fine. I don't need your help or anybody's help. And anything that's gone wrong in my life is because of him. I'm not doing this, Quinn. Just go. I'm happy with my life.”
“Are you really though?” Kurt asked. He looked at Blaine one last time and turned on his heel and walked out of the room. He heard Quinn say something to Blaine and then she was next to him. The security guard led them back to their seats. Kurt sat down but wished they could leave instead. He didn't want to be there after he confronted Blaine.
“I wish things had gone differently. Why didn't I come with him when I had the chance?” Kurt said as he laid his head on Quinn's shoulder. She turned and wrapped her arms around him and held him to her. The show started again and the first song that played was Somebody That I Used To Know.
The last song Blaine played was Our Love Song. Kurt couldn't stay for that and as soon as he heard the music start he walked out of the arena and into the warm air of LA. He sat on a bench outside of the arena and pulled his knees up to his chest and felt the tears slide down his cheeks.
He'd never missed Blaine this much. He'd never wished he could have him back as much as he was now. He never thought he'd care this much to fight for Blaine after what he did.