Kurt was lying on his bed staring to the ceiling.

So it was really happening: Blaine was watching a movie. With Sebastian. In a dark theater. Right now. Would Sebastian try to kiss Blaine? Would Blaine let Sebastian kiss him?

Kurt's stomach clenched and he felt sick, like really sick. Like he'd have to vomit. He sighed and got off the bed. It was already dawning outside and it was dark in Kurt's bedroom. He checked his phone. Still no new message. Shouldn't be Blaine home by now? Wouldn't he be calling Kurt when he was home? Should Kurt call him?

Kurt's head felt empty and his stomach began to hurt even more. Maybe he should just go to bed and wait for Blaine to call him. Kurt got himself ready for bed and did his skin care. He took his phone in his hand, went over to the window and took a seat on the window sill. He looked at his phone one last time and turned it off. He leaned his forehead against the cool glass of the window and looked outside. It was dark now and it was raining, the sky was heavy with clouds.

Maybe he could sit here all night. Kurt enjoyed the cold of the window against his too warm forehead. Maybe it would also make the feeling of sickness go away.

Kurt just sat there for minutes, forehead still pressed against the glass, eyes closed. He began to shiver from the cold so he got up and decided to go to bed instead. He got under the blanket which already felt to warm so he unwrapped himself again and sighed. He closed his eyes and waited for sleep to come but it didn't. Images of Sebastian, Kurt didn't even know what he looked like but in his imagination he was absolutely gorgeous, kissing Blaine crossed his mind every time he tried to keep his eyes shut. So Kurt just lay there in silence, staring into the darkness with tears welling in his eyes. He hated to cry but nobody was there who could see him, nobody was there who wanted him to be strong. So he just let the tears blur his vision and run down his cheeks. He just cried quietly, lying there in the dark until his exhaustion took over him and he fell asleep, his cheeks still wet with tears.

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As Kurt woke up the next morning, he felt terrible. Everything hurt. His stomach was still clenching painfully, the feeling of sickness was still there and he had a very bad headache. And everything felt ever more worse than yesterday. Kurt moaned in pain and held his hand in front of his eyes to avoid the contact with the light from the window. He didn't feel like getting up so he just closed his eyes again and drifted back to sleep.

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Kurt was standing in a beautiful garden. The sun was shinning warmly down at him and he felt uncomfortable warm in his black suit. Wait, why was he wearing a suit? He looked at the suit more closely. This was definitely a Alexander McQueen suit, he thought, so this had to be something special. He looked around and saw a lot of people standing there in suits and nice dresses. He was still looking around when suddenly Tina appeared in front of him, herself wearing a beautiful purple dress.

“Kurt”, she called. “We need to go inside!”

Before Kurt could ask anything she dragged him inside. Inside -a church- Kurt realized surprised. What should he do in a church? He didn't go to church, he didn't even believe in God. So why was he here?

But at the moment he was inside, he realized why he was here. The church was full. Kurt could see everyone from the Glee club and even a few teachers. Everyone was dressed nicely and looked excited. A few little girls stood at the beginning of the long carpet with little baskets which had flowers in it.

This had to be a wedding, Kurt realized. But who was going to get married? He? No, then he wouldn't be here already. He looked around but he still had no idea.

“Kurt”, Tina called again and Kurt looked at her. “We've to go to the altar where the other witness are standing! Come on!”

Witness. He was a witness for a marriage but for whom? He followed Tina towards the altar and stood with her on the one side of it. On the other side were standing two boys he didn't know. He looked to the people sitting in the church. He was surprised as he saw his Dad, Finn and Carole sitting there as well. What were they doing here? Who could the person who would get married today be?

But at the moment the music began and everyone turned to the entrance, he already knew the answer before seeing the person. A young man was walking inside with a woman on his arm.

It was Blaine. And, Kurt guessed, his mother. In Kurt's imagination she looked just like Blaine. She had the same eyes, the same tanned skin and the same curly hair.

Blaine would get married today. To someone who wasn't him, Kurt realized and gulped. His stomach began to hurt and he began to feel sick. Blaine and his mother went slowly towards the altar until Blaine got up the stairs and stood next to him. He smiled widely down at him and Kurt pulled a grimace as he tried to smile back through his pain.

Kurt looked to the entrance again where another boy, blonde and tall and definitely good looking, came towards the altar. He also had a woman on one of his arms. She was blonde and as gorgeous as her son. When they arrived at the stairs, the boy stood next to Blaine in front of the priest. Blaine smiled at him and took his hand. Kurt felt a sharp pain in his heard as he watched the two boy which looked lovingly at each other. When the priest began to speak, Kurt caught an evil glance from the blonde boy before he looked to the priest. Kurt's breath caught in his throat and he heard the priest only quietly through the clouds in his head.

“Today we came here to dispose Mr Blaine Anderson and Mr Sebastian Smith of in marriage. We...”

That was the last thing Kurt heard before his legs couldn't hold him anymore and he fell to the ground. His vision was black and everything hurt.

“Kurt.Kurt”, someone called but he didn't care he just wanted to lay here and never get up again.

“Kurt”, someone began to shook his shoulders.

“Kurt”, the voice said. “What's wrong?”

Kurt slowly began to open his eyes and his vision cleared. His Dad was standing in front of him, looking down at him with a worried expression.

“Is everything alright?”, Burt asked. “Did you have a nightmare? And why are you still in bed? You normally would've gotten up hours ago!”

A nightmare. Kurt sighed. It had been a dream. A terrible dream. But still only a dream. Blaine wasn't going to get married to that Sebastian and he hadn't to be witness.

“I just don't feel very well”, Kurt said, his head hurting terribly.

“You look very pale.”, his Dad commented. “Well, paler than normally. Can I get you something?”

“No”, Kurt said tiredly. “I just want to sleep. Maybe it'll get better after another nap.”

Burt smiled sadly. “Okay, sleep well”, he said and closed the door.

Kurt sighed deeply and closed his eyes again because his head began to hurt even more from the light coming through the curtains. It didn't took long until Kurt drifted to sleep again.

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Kurt woke up by a knock on his door. He opened his eyes slowly and saw his father standing at the door.

“Uhm, are you feeling better?”, Burt asked and Kurt only shrugged. “Blaine asked if he could visit you!”

Blaine. Kurt felt shocked. He forgot to turn on his phone in the morning and he forgot about Blaine's date. His stomach clenched. He decided that he could call Blaine later.

“Hm, I don't really feel like seeing anyone now”, Kurt mumbled looking down at himself. “I've to look terrible!”

Burt laughed lightly. “You look like you're ill! Because that's what you are!”, he said and shrugged. “Okay, I just tell him that you really don't feel well and he could come back tomorrow.”

Burt was on his way to close the door when Kurt said: “Wait, Blaine is here?”

Burt shrugged again. “Standing outside on the front porch at the moment.”

Kurt sighed and tried to smile. “Then tell him to come in.”

“You sure?”, Burt asked looking unconvinced.

Kurt only nodded and Burt got out of the room and closed the door. Kurt quickly grabbed the little mirror on his nightstand and stared at himself. He looked like crap. And even paler than usual. He sighed and before he could think of anything he could do, he heard a soft knock on the door, before it opened. Blaine was standing in the doorway, looking a little bit unsure if he should stay there or come in.

Kurt tried to smile. “Hey”, he said, motioning Blaine to take a seat on his bed.

“Uhm, hey”, Blaine said, closed the door and seated himself on the edge of the bed and looked at Kurt. “Is it really okay for you that I'm here? If you don't feel well I can come back tomorrow or-”

Kurt held his hand up. “It's okay, really.”, he smiled. “I couldn't send you away when you come to visit me. Even if I look like living hell!” Kurt laughed quietly.

Blaine only sat closer to him and took his hand. “You look like you're not feeling well. That's everything.” Blaine squeezed his hand and smiled sweetly.

Kurt heart began to beat faster and he smiled back. “C'mon, I know how I look! I've got a mirror on my nightstand.”, he told Blaine. “You don't have to make me feel better.”

Blaine grinned. “Okay, you look like crap.”, he said smirking.

Kurt opened his mouth in played shock. “How dare you?! You just can't tell an ill person that he looks like crap. You just can't.” And with this he took one of his pillows and bashed it on Blaine's head.

Blaine laughed. “Stop it!”, he said still laughing. “I was only joking! Of course you don't look like crap! I don't think you're even able to look bad because you always manage to look good.”

Kurt snorted at that looking down at their entwined hands. He squeezed Blaine's hand before letting go to drink some of the water his Dad must have brought him.

“So, how was your date?”, Kurt asked a little bit curious.

Blaine immediately looked down in his lap. “It-it was nice.”, he said still looking down. “The movie was great. We should watch it together sometimes.” He hesitantly looked up to Kurt and smiled.

“Hmm”, Kurt hummed in response. Didn't Blaine want to tell him about the date? “Was he nice?”, Kurt asked looking to Blaine.

Blaine looked a little bit lost like his mind had wandered and Kurt had to bit his lip trying not to smile. “Who do- Oh,oh you mean Sebastian. Yeah, he's nice”, Blaine smiled shyly and looked everywhere but Kurt's eyes.

“Did he kiss you?”, Kurt asked before he could stop himself.

Blaine looked at him, his eyes wide in surprise. “Uhm, he-he actually tried to but....I told him that I wasn't ready for that yet and he was okay with that”, Blaine said blushing.

Kurt gulped. Sebastian had really tried to kiss Blaine. Kurt had wanted to do this for month but he hadn't had the courage and this Sebastian just did what he felt like. Kurt felt anger welling inside of him. This Sebastian couldn't just steel Blaine's first kiss like it was nothing. He couldn't just kiss Blaine!

Yes, he could, Kurt realized because Blaine hadn't got a boyfriend and that meant that in fact Sebastian could kiss Blaine if he wanted. Kurt gulped again.

Kurt realized that they had been sitting there in silence.

“Are you-are you...”, Kurt cleared his throat before continuing. “Are you two going to meet again?”, he asked.

Blaine looked at him surprised. “Well, he actually asked me to meet him at the mall on Monday.”, Blaine said. “I didn't agree yet, I still have to text him.”

Kurt chewed his lip. “Great”, he heard himself saying. “So,uhm, movie?”, he asked and Blaine's face lid up.

“Yeah, I actually brought a few movies”, he got up from the bed and took them out. “Which one do you want?”

Kurt laughed. “You're the expert! I chose the one you like the most!”, he told him smiling.

Blaine nodded, a big smile on his face. He put in the movie before sitting down next to Kurt on the bed. They just sat there like they always did. Close to each other, Kurt's head dropping down to Blaine's shoulder after a while. He immediately felt better and his head felt lighter.

Kurt sighed. Maybe not everything would change, if Blaine would continue to date Sebastian.