Aug. 3, 2013, 1:40 p.m.
Candles: Chapter 12: Somewhere Only We Know
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Chapter 12: Somewhere Only We Know
Kurt didn’t get much sleep the night he left Dalton, he missed Blaine so much. He woke to a text from Blaine Morning Kurt, How’d you sleep? Miss you! ~Blaine
He smiled at his text and replied Morning Blaine : ) Sleep? Well, I didn’t…not really. I miss you too So much! ~Kurt
Are you nervous? ~Blaine
He groaned Oh my god, like you wouldn’t believe! I just don’t want to run into Karofsky and I know that I will probably end up seeing him and it just scares the shit out of me. ~Kurt
It’ll be okay Kurt! I promise, Courage ;) ~Blaine
That’s all Kurt needed to hear Okay, thanks babe. Courage ~Kurt
If you need me text me okay? We still on for coffee after school?~ Blaine
He smiled How did he end up with a guy like him I will thanks Blaine. Of course we are!~Kurt
Great, I’ll talk to you later okay? COURAGE! ~Blaine
Okay, bye .~Kurt
Kurt got himself ready for school he decided on a black shirt and vest with black pants and a white jacket and a top hat. He went downstairs and saw Finn eating cereal. Finn smiled and said “Morning Kurt! How you feeling?”
He sighed “Excited, nervous and petrified.”
Finn sighed “Hey man, Don’t worry about it we’re not gonna let anyone touch you.”
His eyes widened “Wait…you didn’t tell anyone did you?”
Finn shook his head “No, the only people who know are Me and Mercedes.”
He nodded “Good, I want to surprise them.”
Burt walked in with his coffee. “Morning boys!”
He smiled “Morning Dad, and that better be a de caff coffee you’re drinking.”
Burt nodded “Yes Kurt, it’s de-caff. How are feeling you nervous?”
He shrugged “Yeah, but excited and scared too. But I know Finn’s gonna keep an eye on me. But still.”
Burt nodded. “It’s gonna be okay kiddo.”
He sighed “So, what time is our meeting with Principal Figgins?”
Burt sighed “At nine, and some lady from the news is gonna be there too.”
Burt paused “Her name escapes me but we met her before.”
Kurt and Finn looked at each other and said “Sue Sylvester?”
Burt nodded “That’s the one!”
Finn chuckled “Have fun with that one bro.”
He sighed “Finn, I actually don’t have a problem with Coach Sylvester. She actually let me pick my nick name.”
Finn groaned “Aww lucky! I didn’t get to pick mine! I’m Frankenteen and something else…”
He chuckled “I’m Porcelain it was either that Gelfling, or Tickle Me Doughface.”
Finn chuckled “Tickle Me Doughface? Seriously?”
He nodded “Yeah.”
Carole looked at her watch and sat with Kurt. “Finn, you gotta get going You’ll be late for school!”
Finn nodded. “Ok.”
He looked at Kurt. “See you later bro.”
He nodded “Bye Finn! Don’t say anything to anyone!”
Finn sighed “I won’t!”
Kurt chuckled as he watched Finn walk out the door. He looked at his phone to see what time it was 8:05, he sighed knowing that Blaine was suffering in Chemistry without him.
Burt sat at the table with Kurt and Carole and said “You really miss him don’t you?”
He nodded and said “It’s only been a day and I feel just like I did when I was in McKinley, alone.”
Burt sighed “Kurt, we know that you don’t want you to go back to McKinley. We know that you’re scared. And buddy we feel so bad that we couldn’t keep you in Dalton.”
Carole nodded and added “I tried to get more hours at the hospital but I couldn’t we tried sweetheart. We know how much you care about Blaine.”
He smiled “I love him…”
Carole and Burt smiled at each other and Carole said “That’s great sweetheart! We kinda knew.”
She took Kurt’s hand “We are so sorry we couldn’t keep you at Dalton sweetie.”
He smiled and gave her a hug. “It’s okay Mom, I understand.”
He froze, realizing what he had said but it felt natural. Carole’s eyes widened, that was the first time Kurt had ever called her mom. He smiled “Yeah, mom…nice ring to it.”
Carole laughed and hugged him again. Burt smiled he didn’t think Kurt would ever call Carole ‘Mom’ but he did and he couldn’t be happier about it. “Kurt, does Blaine know you love him?” asked Carole.
He sighed and shook his head “No…I was going to before I left but he had to go bring our friend James to the airport because his grandmother had died. So, no he doesn’t know, but he will soon.”
Burt smiled “I’m really happy for you son. Blaine is a really nice guy and he cares about you, I’m pretty sure the kid loves you. And he makes you happy that’s all I care about.” He smiled Blaine did make him happy, he’s happiest with him.
His phone went off a text from Blaine. Kill me now! Mr.Green gave us a project…already!~ Blaine
Kurt chuckled Aww I’m sorry Blaine. I actually just did something I didn’t think I’d ever do…~Kurt
Oh? And what might that be? ~Blaine
He looked at Carole smiling as he texted I called Carole Mom…Idky or what came over me it just happened. It felt weird…but then again it felt almost natural.~ Kurt
Aww :3 That’s great babe! Carole must’ve been shocked lol~ Blaine
Kurt laughed and replied She was but she was happy too. I wish you could’ve seen the look on my dad and her faces when I said it. It was PRICELESS! Well, I’m sorry you have to do a project by yourself but I have to go. Our meeting with Figgins is in a few. I’ll text you later ~ Kurt.
Ok, have a good day! :) COURAGE! ~ Blaine
Carole tapped his shoulder “Are you ready to go sweetie?”
He nodded “Yeah mom, I just need to grab my bag and I’ll be ready.”
She nodded “Okay, go and grab it and meet your father and I in the car, we’re taking my car.”
He nodded “Okay.”
He ran to his room opened his bag to make sure he had everything. Doing a mental checklist “Pens, Pencils, notebooks, folders, binders. Blaine’s picture. Yup got it all. ”
He grabbed the bag and went to Carole’s car and his dad asked “Are you ready?”
He sighed “Not really, but yeah.”
Burt nodded and they drove back to McKinley. He hadn’t been back to McKinley since the benefit and ran into Karofsky. “It’ll be okay sweetheart, I promise.”
He nodded “Okay.”
They got back to McKinley and walked in the doors and fear swept up Kurt’s body. Carole rubbed his back and said “It’s ok sweetie.”
They walked into the main office where they waited for Principal Figgins. “Kurt relax, it’s going to be okay. You’ll have Finn there to keep an eye on you.”
He nodded. Principal Figgins walked in smiling “Mr. and Mrs. Hummel, nice to see you again. Come in.”
They went into Principal Figgins office and Figgins looked at Kurt “Kurt, how are you?”
He sighed “Truthfully?”
He nodded “Terrified, and excited but mostly terrified.”
Figgins sighed “Kurt, I know that after what David has done to you, the bullying and the death threat. Which I just recently learned about myself, you’re scared. That’s perfectly understandable.”
He looked at Figgins and raised and eyebrow as he asked “Is that supposed to make me feel better?”
Burt looked at him “Kurt..” he said warningly.
“Kurt, I looked a little bit into Dalton Academy, and their zero no tolerance bullying policy. It’s enforced there, since you transferred I’ve been trying to get the school board to do the same. However, they’re not budging.”
He sighed “Oh...I-I see.”
Principal Figgins sighed and said “Kurt, I know that you’re terrified of David, but I’ve personally made sure that you aren’t in any classes together.”
He breathed a sigh of relief “T-thank you Principal Figgins.”
Figgins nodded “Now Kurt, is there anything that I should know about or want to ask before I give you your schedule?”
“Um…yes. W-will I still be able to be in Glee Club, considering the fact that I was part of the Warblers and they lost at Reigonals?”
Figgins nodded “Absolutely.”
He smiled “Okay. I really don’t have anything else to say really…”
Figgins nodded and handed Kurt his schedule and smiled “Welcome back Kurt. McKinley missed you.”
He returned the smile. “Thanks, good to be back.”
Figgins sighed “Well, Coach Sylvester wants to talk to you in her office for a few minutes.”
Kurt nodded “Thank you.”
Kurt Carole and Burt walked to Sue’s office and knocked. “Coach?”
She looked up and motioned for them to come in. “Hey Porcelain it’s good to see you. Have a seat.”
He sat down next to his mom and dad. “W-what is it you wanted to talk to me about coach?”
She smiled “Well, first of all Welcome back how are you feeling nervous?”
He sighed “Yeah and excited but terrified.”
Sue sighed “That’s what I wanted to talk to you about.”
Kurt stared at her. “You, wanted to talk about my feelings?”
Sue shook her head. “No. But I did want to talk to you about Karofsky.”
He winced at the name. “Porcelain, during school hours, I am going to be out there keeping my eye on the hallways. If Karofsky touches you, you come straight to me. I want you to know you’re safe here now.”
He nodded “T-thanks coach. I-is that all?”
She nodded “Yeah, for now. Ok you can go. Lunch is gonna start soon so.”
He nodded and thanked her.
He looked at his parents. “You gonna be okay kiddo?”
He nodded “Yeah, thanks for coming with me.”
Burt nodded “Of course. I expect you’ll be seeing Blaine after school?”
He nodded “I’ll be home probably around 5-ish.”
Burt nodded and hugged him. Carole gave him a kiss on the forehead and they left. Kurt made his way to his locker and got everything situated he put his picture of Blaine and the word Courage underneath it and smiled. “I wish you were here Blaine.”
He looked at his phone, it was 11:50, he needed to go get into position for the surprise.
Mercedes checked her phone before she walked down the stairs to the courtyard and Blaine and Kurt had both texted her. I’m waiting where you told me to ‘Cedes. Can’t wait to see you! Xoxo~ Kurt
We’re here where do you want us?~ Blaine.
Go to the bleachers outside on the right. Kurt’s on the left side. This is gonna mean so much to him Blaine.~ Mercedes
The New Directions were standing in front of Mercedes in the courtyard at lunch. Puck walked over confused and asked “What the hell is going on?”
Mercedes smiled and said “Well my fellow glee clubbers,” She paused to look at her watch and continued smiling “it’s noon. Which means…it’s official.”
Sam was as confused as everyone else and asked “What’s official.”
Kurt smiled and came up and yelled “My transfer!”
Everyone looked up and smiled as he continued “Kurt Hummel is back at McKinley!”
Everyone cheered as Kurt ran down the stairs. He hugged Mercedes who took his hat and hugged Tina and Brittany and said “Let me breathe, let me breathe.”
He looked at his friends smiling and said excitedly “Let’s get ready for Nationals!”
Mercedes took his shoulder and said “Not yet. See there’s a reason we’re meeting here today. There were some people who wanted to say goodbye to you Kurt.”
Kurt looked up and saw Blaine, Wes and David walk down the middle of the bleachers in uniform. He smiled at Blaine love struck and surprised. Blaine smiled and said "Kurt, Dalton's going to miss you. You were a great addition to the Warblers, you made us a better team."
Kurt blushed a little and looked down with a shy smile. "I'm sad to see you go, but we all know this is something that you really want. And I'll still have you after school and on the weekends,"
Blaine gestured to Wes and David and continued “but these guys wont. So we wanted to say goodbye.”
Wes added with a smile “And thank you Kurt.”
Kurt looked like he was gonna cry, when he realized why Blaine was here, he was gonna serenade him in front of the entire school, well those who were out for lunch.
I walked across, an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
All of the other Warblers started pouring in from where Wes, David and Blaine had entered and some students were watching them but they didn’t really care as they walked toward New Directions and the band played behind them. Kurt was already tearing up a little bit.
Oh Simple thing, where have you gone?
I’m getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when,
You gonna let me in?
I’m getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
In Warblers fashion, they began walking down the bleachers together. Blaine stared at Kurt obviously trying to hold back tears and Kurt realized that. He started running, and ran right past Kurt to the piano, and began playing along. He sang more passionately and his voice full of emotion.
And if you have a minute why don’t we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don’t we go, somewhere only we know?
Kurt hadn’t really noticed but the warblers had all gathered around the piano and Blaine walked up to Kurt and grabbed his hands bringing him down so the warblers could say goodbye to him as everyone continued singing.
Kurt cried as one by one the warblers either hugged him clapped him on the back or said goodbye. Wes Thad and David were the last in line. The New Directions joined in at the last part. The last few people to hug him were Mercedes and Finn. He couldn’t believe Blaine did this.
If you have a minute, whey don't we go
talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
so why don't we go somewhere only we know?
He took a deep breath and looked at Blaine who slowly walked over to him and sang the last two lines by himself
Somewhere only we know
Somewhere only we know.
He couldn’t believe that Blaine had serenaded him in front of everyone. All eyes were on them after Blaine finished the song. He saw tears in Blaine’s eyes and hugged him. “That was beautiful Blaine. I-I can’t believe that you did that…in front of everyone. ”
Blaine sighed “So can I safely say that this was better than my first attempt of serenading someone?”
He laughed “Yes. You can.”
He looked into Blaine’s eyes, they were full of sadness and something else…love? He smiled “B-Blaine”
Blaine sniffled “Yes?”
He sighed “That was b-beautiful I loved it and-and. I love you.”
He leaned in and kissed him not caring that anyone was watching. He heard a few cat calls, awww’s a few slurs and a “Get some Hummel!” from Puck.
Blaine looked at him in shock and said “W-what did you just say?”
He blushed “I said, that song was beautiful and I loved it and I love you.”
Blaine was shocked. Kurt smiled and quickly added “It’s okay if you can’t say it back…I-I just want you to know how I feel.”
Blaine wanted to say something but when he opened his mouth nothing came out and he felt tears fall as he heard Wes say “Blaine, time.”
Kurt hugged him tightly and they both cried there for a moment and Kurt whispered in his ear. “I’m never saying goodbye to you.”
The parted from the hug and Kurt smiled at him sadly and he walked away form Kurt.
He went up the stairs and turned around and took one last look at his boyfriend. He was getting a group hug from his friends and he couldn’t help but smile, he knew he was happy and that’s all he wanted for him, to be happy.
He walked the rest of the way up the stairs and felt someone pat him on the shoulder. He looked up and there was Jake smiling sadly and asked “You okay Blaine?”
He shrugged. “I- I don’t know.”
They walked together back to the bus and Blaine sat up front with Jake. “Blaine, you’re being awful quiet. It’s ok if you wanna cry ya know.”
He looked at Jake and said “Jake, I don’t really feel like talking right now. Can you just let me be for now. Thanks for being there though. I’ll talk to you when we get back, I just need some time to think.”
Jake nodded “Of course, you need a shoulder”
Jake pointed to his shoulder “It’s right there for ya.”
He smiled “Thanks Jake but I’m okay for right now.”
Wes did a head count and Blaine looked out the window as the bus left McKinley, as he left Kurt. He was silent, which concerned Wes, David, Thad and Jake. Jake received a text from Wes, who sat three rows behind them.
Is Blaine okay? He’s been really quiet and we’re concerned.~ Wes
He said he didn’t know…and that he doesn’t want to talk to anyone right now and he needed time to think. He said he’d talk to me when we get back though…~Jake
Yeah but we all know how Blaine is…he doesn’t really talk about his feelings…whenever we needed him to talk about something that was bothering him we went to Kurt...We can’t do that now. What if he doesn’t talk??? ~Wes
Jake didn’t think of that one…Well that’s an easy fix. Just got into his room steal his Redvines, Harry Potter Movies & Books. That’ll get him to talk >:D~ Jake.
OR we could just get Kurt to have him talk to us. ~Wes
But that’s no fun! :C ~ Jake
We’ll see what happens. I want you to room with him until James comes back though okay? ~Wes
Kurt already told me he wanted me too plus, I was gonna do that anyway. But yeah we’ll see. I’ll text you if we need Kurt. ~Jake
Will do ;) ~ Wes
After a strangely silent two hour ride, the Warblers returned back to the school. Blaine got out first, he had to go open the doors. Wes took this opportunity to say a few things. “Okay, warblers listen up!” he looked and made sure he had everyone’s attention. “First, great job today, and Jake wanted to tell you guys something.”
Jake stood up. “Okay, Blaine’s probably not going to be himself for a few days, until he gets used to not having Kurt around. So I wanted to say, if he says leave him alone or he doesn’t want to talk about it listen to him. This is going to be hard enough on him without everyone on his case Dan, Ethan Nathan.”
Nate sighed “We’ll leave him alone damn!”
Jake continued “So just give him space for a few days, if he says something about Kurt to you then talk to him about it. I’m going to be spending the next few days with him, I’ll let him know you’re all there for him, which I know you are so yeah…if you need to talk to him don’t mention Kurt. Am I clear?”
They all nodded “That’s all.”
Jake finished just in time cause Blaine came back on the bus.
“Ok, Mr.Lewis is holding the door so let’s go.”
They all filed off the bus and Jake pulled him aside and said “Hey, If you want…since I’m basically alone now. I can room with you until Jake get’s back, or you can room with me.”
He smiled “Thanks, that’d be great. I don’t know which I’ll do but either way…I think I’m gonna need my best friend. Let’s go up to my room first I guess…”
They walked up to Blaine’s dorm and he opened the door and sighed as he looked at Kurt’s empty bed. “That’s depressing…”
Jake looked at him “Wait…didn’t you sleep here last night?”
He shook his head “No…I couldn’t I roomed with Wes and David, slept on an air mattress.”
Jake patted his shoulder. “It’s gonna be okay man.”
He shrugged “I know, it’s gonna be hard, sleeping in this room by myself…”
Jake sighed “I’ll move back in with you if you want.”
He shook his head “No…James can’t be by himself right now. He just came out and his grandmother just died, and from what Kurt’s told me he was really really close with her so he’s going to need someone. That’s where you come in.”
Jake sighed “But I suck at helping with that sort of stuff!”
He chuckled “Really now? Cause if I remember correctly, you helped me when my great grandfather died, who was really the only one in my family who truly accepted me for being gay.”
Jake nodded and said “Yeah but you had been out for over a year! He just came out!”
He put a hand on Jake’s shoulder and said “Hey if you need help just call me.”
Jake nodded “Okay, I will.”
Blaine walked over to his bed and noticed there was a letter on his bed. “What’s this?” he asked.
Jake looked at him and said “That my dear friend, is an envelope, it holds letters, cards and bills.”
He shot Jake a look “I know what it is smartass but who’s it from?”
Jake laughed “Open it and find out!”
He opened the letter enclosed was a picture of them from a few weeks ago and the letter read;
“Blaine,
I know that you had to go help James out and I understand that completely, even though I really wanted you there to see me off. Since I’m not going to be there with you ever day and we’ve grown used to it, I want you to room with someone for a week or so, in case you need someone to talk to. I can’t believe I’m saying this but I talked to Jake and he’s more than willing to room with you until James comes back from Kentucky, he’s not staying there permanently because I don’t think it’s wise for James to be by himself after just coming out and losing his grandmother who he was close to. Honey, I know that you like to keep your feelings bottled up but that’s not healthy. Believe me I know I was the same way after my mom died and after I realized I was gay and I ended up snapping at my dad. I don’t want you to end up like that. I care too much for you ! I can’t believe I’m saying this but I want you to talk to Jake about this okay? Cause I know Wes wouldn’t really help and Thad and David are never around and Jake has no social life. Plus besides me he’s your best friend and know it’s okay to cry. I can’t tell you how much I cried after you left to bring James to the airport. So please don’t bottle everything up and talk to Jake about this. Please, for me? I will talk to you later, call me text me doesn’t matter. Just because I’m not at Dalton doesn’t mean my feelings for you will change, they NEVER will. So I’ll talk to you later. Oh
All my love,
Kurt
P.S.~ Now this letter’s done, TALK TO JAKE!
“What did he say?” asked Jake.
He put the letter back in the envelope and put the picture next to the picture frame he had and said “He doesn’t want me to keep everything bottled up and wants me to talk to you about it.”
Jake nodded “He told me that he wanted me here with you.”
He sighed and said “He mentioned that…”
Jake sat next to him on his bed. “So, do you want to talk about what you’re feeling?”
He sighed “I-I don’t know Jake.”
Jake sighed “Blaine, you need to talk about it. Don’t make me take your stash of Redvines, and your Harry Potter Movies and books.”
His eyes widened “You wouldn’t dare!” Jake raised an eyebrow “Do you forget who you’re talking to?”
He sighed “Fine!” Jake looked at him and said “Blaine, it’s okay to cry you know…”
He nodded “I know…Kurt told me that. I’m ready to talk I guess…”
Jake nodded “So...do you want to talk about today?”
Blaine looked at the picture Kurt gave him, they were out in the snow with a coffee. He looked at the other picture of Kurt, he had the same jacket on that he had on today they were smiling that was one of the moments Blaine had realized he was developing strong feelings for him. He thought back to what Kurt had said “That song was beautiful and I loved it and I love you. It’s okay if you can’t say it back…I-I just want you to know how I feel.”
He sighed and asked “After I finished singing, did you hear what Kurt told me?”
Jake shook his head. “Uh…the only thing I could hear Kurt say was how it was beautiful and that he couldn’t believe that you did that in front of his school. Why did he say something else? ”
He nodded. Jake sighed “Well, what was it?”
He sighed and said “He said…he said he loved me.”
Jakes jaw dropped “Finally! Did you say it back? Please tell me you said it back.”
He looked out the window. “Blaine Joseph Anderson!”
He looked at Jake, he knew Jake only used the full name card when he meant business.
“Did you tell Kurt you loved him back?”
He shook his head. “No.”
Jake smacked him off the head “Why the hell not! You know you love him too! Do you know what that’s gonna make him think?!”
A tear rolled down his cheek. “Jake, don’t! He also said that if I couldn’t say it back it was okay and he wanted me to know how he felt. Do you think that I didn’t want to?!”
Jake pinched the bridge of his nose. “Blaine, do you want to tell me why you didn’t tell him that you loved him back?”
He sighed “Do you think that I didn’t want to?!”
Jake sighed “Blaine, that’s kind of what it looks like!”
He held his head in his hands letting the tears fall. Jake sighed “Dude, I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have snapped.”
He shook his head “It’s okay. I know it was stupid.”
He sighed and said “I wanted to say it back Jake…I r-really did!”
Jake sighed “Then why didn’t you?”
He wiped his eyes and said “I was going to I tried! But when I opened my mouth to tell him I loved him too nothing came out!”
Jake sighed “Oh…Blaine.”
He let his tears go and cried with his head in his hands. “Blaine…I-I don’t know what to say man.”
He shook his head. “I feel like shit for not saying it back! I love him so much and he thinks that I don’t! But I want to tell him that I do but the moment needs to be right. And I feel horrible because I think that he thinks I don’t care now. You said so yourself.”
Jake sighed and said “Hey I didn’t say that I said that Do you know what that’s going to make him think. So don’t you go putting words in my mouth!”
He looked down and then back up at Jake. “Jake, I don’t know what to do!”
Jake smiled sadly at him and said “Blaine, the only person who can really answer the question on what you need to do next, is you. I can’t make the decision on when you should tell Kurt that you love him. That’s all up to you!”
He sighed and said “It would be a hell of a lot more easier if you could.”
Jake shrugged and said “Well I don’t always have all the answers. But…I do know something for sure.”
He looked up at Jake curiously and asked “Oh, and what’s that.”
Jake smiled and said “That Kurt will always love you. And I know that you’re not ready to tell him yet, but I know that when you do, you will make Kurt the happiest person on the planet.”
He smiled at him. “You think so?”
Jake nodded “I know so. Did you not see the fact that he kissed you in front of his school?”
He chuckled. “Oh no I was there for that remember?”
Jake nodded. He sighed “Look, I’m sorry I’ve been a stubborn asshole who hasn’t told the man he loves that he loves him because he’s too chicken too. And thanks for being here for me Jake. You’re a great friend.”
Jake hugged him “No problem that’s what I’m here for!”
Jake and Blaine just sat and talked more about different ways to tell him and they finally found out how…the only question was how do they pull it off?