Aug. 3, 2013, 1:40 p.m.
Candles: Chapter 11: So Hard to Say Goodbye to Yesterday
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Chapter 11: So Hard to Say Goodbye to Yesterday
Blaine smiled at Wes’ reply to his text message Wednesday night as he went to bed
Sure no problem! He can have the solo, we’ll do it Friday.~ Wes
He woke up the next morning feeling a bit depressed, he only had three full days left with Kurt before he returned to McKinley. He was determined to make every second he had left with him count.
He smiled at Kurt has he straightened his tie. “Are you about ready Kurt?”
Kurt nodded “Yeah although, I really don’t want to go to chemistry.”
He chuckled “Baby, I don’t think anyone ever wants to go to Chemistry.”
Kurt nodded “Especially with his finals. Do I even have to take it?”
He nodded “Yeah I would just to be safe.”
Kurt groaned and said “Ugh Fine!”
He chuckled “I know you hate finals. They’re like dementors they suck your happiness away and steal your soul!”
Kurt stared at him. “A Harry Potter reference Babe, really?”
He nodded “Hell yeah! I speak the truth!”
Kurt shook his head and kissed his cheek and they walked to chemistry. Mr. Green was irritating as usual.
The day went by agonizingly slow for both of them. Wes went ballistic with his gavel during the three hour warbler practice. They returned to their dorm and Kurt was fuming. “I swear to god if he bangs that gave at me one more time, I’m gonna break the damn thing!”
Blaine shook his head. “You obviously haven’t seen him angry.”
He looked at him and said “No, and he doesn’t scare me.”
Blaine chuckled “Oh yes you will be if he does. That gavel is his baby! Besides you’ll be gone and I’m gonna have to deal with him. Please don’ make me go through that…again.”
He smiled ‘Oh have experience in that area dear?”
Blaine nodded “Yeah unfortunately.”
He sighed “Care to talk?”
Blaine sighed and said “Well, in the beginning of the year Wes got his gavel. The first month was pure torture! So Jake, Nate and I stole Wes’ gavel and hid it on him. Well he was annoyed after the first time we did it. Then after Wes walked in on us while Jake was ‘flushing’ it down the toilet well sort of. He was furious I swear steam came out of his ears! He screamed at us and chased us down with it and hit us with it. It was scary shit!”
He laughed “Wow, serves you right! But there’s a difference between us Blaine.”
Blaine looked at him curiously and asked “Oh really? And what might that be Kurt?”
He smiled “I wouldn’t get caught! Plus nobody ever expects me.”
Blaine sighed and said “Kurt I am begging you. Please do not do anything to that gavel! I’ll be the first person Wes will suspect! He’ll take away my hair gel!”
He laughed “I won’t unless he bangs it at me again.”
Blaine smiled, he loved Kurt’s laugh and his smile. His smile faded as he remembered that he wouldn’t be able to hear him laugh every day or smile after Sunday. Kurt noticed Blaine’s smiled fade and moved to sit with him on his bed. “Hey Blaine, I’m not gonna do anything to it I promise.”
Blaine didn’t say anything. He put a hand on his shoulder. “Hey are you okay baby?”
Blaine shook his head. “What’s wrong?”
Blaine looked at him. “You know what’s wrong Kurt.”
He sighed. “It’s about me leaving isn’t it?”
Blaine nodded “Are you ready to talk about it Blaine?”
He shrugged. Kurt made Blaine look at him. “Blaine, time’s running out to talk about it.”
Blaine nodded “I know you’re right. Do you want to talk about it?”
He nodded “I’d like to yes. That way we can enjoy the last few days together.”
Blaine nodded “Yeah”
Blaine looked at him. “Kurt, I’m sorry I haven’t talked to you about this. It’s just-“
He wrapped his arms around Blaine and finished “Too painful to think about?”
Blaine nodded “Yeah.” Blaine sighed and said “I-I don’t even know where to begin.”
He smiled “Do you want me to?”
Blaine nodded. “Blaine, I want you to know that I’m conflicted with all this. Part of me wants to stay at Dalton with you, and the other wants to go back to McKinley and be with my friends.”
Blaine nodded and said “Kurt, Can I ask you something?”
He nodded. “Of course Blaine.”
Blaine sighed and asked “Is one of the reasons you’re leaving because New Directions are going to Nationals in New York?”
Kurt was shocked that Blaine would ask him that. “Are you seriously asking me that right now?”
Blaine nodded, he was curious. “Yeah, I just want to know.”
He shook his head in disbelief and said “Blaine, I can’t believe you’re even asking me this. The answer is no! The only reason I’m leaving Dalton is because my family can’t afford the tuition anymore. If I had a choice to be either here of McKinley I’d chose Dalton because you’re here!”
Blaine nodded “I’m sorry I asked.”
He shook his head “It’s fine.” Disbelief was still etched on his face.
Blaine looked at him with tears in his eyes and said “Kurt…”
He softened his expression. “What’s wrong Blaine? You can tell me anything no matter what!”
Blaine nodded “I-I’m so scared Kurt.”
Kurt wrapped his arms around him. “What are you scared of?”
He sniffled “Losing you, that’s why I’ve been afraid to talk about it. I can’t lose you Kurt, I can’t!”
Kurt sighed. “Blaine, you’re not going to lose me. I’m yours!”
He sighed and said “I think I’ve always known that.”
Kurt nodded he could tell that there was more to Blaine’s reason than he was letting on and he asked “Baby, I know you. That’s not all you’re worried about. What else is on your mind?”
Blaine sighed “I’m worried about how I’m going to be without you here. You changed me for the better Kurt.”
He sighed “Blaine, you’re going to be fine, I promise you that!”
Blaine sighed and said “Baby, I’m so sorry.”
He looked at him. “For what?”
Blaine looked at him ashamed and said “For being a selfish boyfriend. “
He looked at him in shock and said “Blaine Joseph Anderson, you are not selfish at all!”
He took Blaine’s hands and continued “Blaine, you are the most selfless person I have ever met!”
Blaine let a few tears roll off his cheeks and said “No, Kurt I’m not! You’ve been there for me when I was having a hard time.”
Blaine looked down and then back up at Kurt. “Through all this all I’ve been going on about is how hard this is on me. Not once did I think to talk to you about how hard this is on you. ”
He had tears in his eyes as he let Blaine continue. “A-and as hard as this is for me, it must be a hell of a lot harder for you! You’re the one leaving, and I’m sorry I’ve been basically ignoring that fact.”
He pulled Blaine into a kiss and said “It is reallyhard for me, like besides coming out to my dad and leaving my friends, this is the hardest thing I’ve ever done!”
Blaine wiped away Kurt’s tears as he continued. “It’s even harder now because I’m leaving you! You’re my world Blaine. And you have noidea how much it kills me knowing that this is hurting you!”
He paused trying to clam down so he could finish. “A-and I promised you that I would never hurt you and that I would never leave you. A-and that’s exactly what I’m doing!”
Blaine pulled Kurt into a hug. “Oh baby…is that how you really feel? That you’re breaking your promise?”
He nodded “Well yeah, that’s exactly what I’m doing!”
Blaine shook his head and said “No, No you’re not! Unless…you’re planning on breaking up with me.”
He shook his head “No, I’m not breaking up with you! But it still doesn’t change that fact that I’m hurting you, and us by leaving.”
Blaine sighed and said “Kurt, I’m going to be completely honest with you right now okay?”
He nodded and Blaine continued. “Baby, you leaving Dalton, is killing me as much as it’s killing you, we’re in the same boat.”
He felt his heart break as Blaine continued “I mean, I won’t get to see you smile at me when you wake up in the morning. I won’t get to hear you laugh. I love that laugh and the way your eyes light up when you see me after French. A-and hearing your amazing voice in Warbler practice. B-but most of all, I’m just g-going to miss being with you practically all day every day.”
He was shocked at what Blaine had said “B-Blaine, I-I don’t know what to s-say.”
Blaine wiped his eyes and said “I-I just wanted you to know how much I’m going to miss you when you leave on Sunday.”
He wrapped his arms around Blaine and said “I know baby, I know I’m going to miss you too, so, so much.”
Blaine looked so exhausted and he said “You look tired. You gonna go to bed early?”
He nodded. “Y-yeah.”
Kurt sighed “Me too.”
They both got ready for bed and fell asleep together.
The next morning was a bit hectic, Kurt had to get all his books and return them to his teachers. The classes really didn’t do anything since they had their mid-term exams yesterday. The one thing Kurt wasn’t looking forward to was Warbler Practice.
Kurt and Blaine walked hand in hand to the choir room and when they went inside the chatter immediately stopped and everyone’s attention was on Kurt. They went and sat together on the love seat. Wes, David and Thad came in and called the meeting to order.
“Well, we have one song we’re doing today but after it’ll basically be a goodbye day for Kurt, as it’s his last Warbler practice and as such Warbler Kurt will be singing the solo.”
Thad passed around the papers. Kurt looked at the song and looked at Blaine and whispered “Is he serious? It’s So Hard to Say Goodbye to Yesterday?”
Blaine nodded “Yep.”
Wes banged his gavel silencing the excited chattering Warblers. “Okay, so I’m assuming that you all got my text about this last night, and have done your part. So Kurt, are you familiar with this song?”
He nodded “Y-yes, but really Wes? It’s So Hard to Say Goodbye to Yesterday?”
Wes nodded “Hey I didn’t pick the song!”
He looked at Thad and David “Hey we didn’t either!”
He was confused. “If Wes, Thad or David didn’t do it…Then…”It clicked
“Blaine! Really?!”
Blaine smiled “I felt it was appropriate.”
He shook his head “It is but it’s like really depressing.”
Blaine nodded “I know but I felt that it described everything pretty well.”
He kissed his cheek “You’re right.”
Wes smiled and said “Ok everyone places!”
They all got into their places and began the warblers Oohed as Kurt sang
How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweighed the bad.
The warblers joined in with Kurt as he sang the chorus.
I thought we’d get to see forever
But forever’s gone away
It’s so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
The next part of the song really hit Kurt it was really relevant to how he felt.
I don’t know, where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we’ve been
And what we’ve been through
If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it’s worth all the wait
It’s so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
And I'll take with�with me (take with me) �the memories
To bring my sunshine after the rain
It's so�hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
Kurt felt the tears in his eyes as he finished the song
And I'll take with�with me (take with me) �the memories
To bring my sunshine after the rain
It's so�hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
He looked at Blaine and went into his arms and cried he could’ve sworn he had heard some sniffling. This is the last time that he would be singing with the Warblers, and he felt heart broken. He had made such amazing friends in the Warblers, including Jake. And most importantly it’s here he met Blaine. There was a knock at the door and Wes went to open it, and a student with a camera came in. “You wanted a picture?”
Wes nodded “Yeah, for the yearbook.”
He looked at him confused. “What, but yearbook’s not for months why do you want to do it now?”
Wes smiled “Because, we wanted to make sure that all the warblers were in it.”
He was touched. They all gathered around and they took the picture. After the picture was taken, Wes dismissed them.
Kurt and Blaine walked back to their dorm in silence after being forced to eat dinner and listen to Wes complain about how Mae’s been getting sick all the time. Both weren’t really happy with the situation at all and after their conversation yesterday there really wasn’t much more they could say. Blaine sat on his bed and motioned for Kurt to come and join him. Kurt smiled and went to sit with him. Blaine sighed and asked “How are you holding up?”
He sighed “As well as could be expected.” He looked up at Blaine and asked “What about you?”
Blaine sighed and said “Same. I’m going to miss doing this just cuddling and talking.”
He smiled sadly at Blaine “I know, I’m going to miss it too. But I’ll talk to my dad and see if I can spend some weekends up here with you and you can spend weekends with me in Lima if you want.”
Blaine nodded “I’d like that.”
He smiled “Good.”
They both fell asleep in each others arms.
The next morning Kurt and Blaine woke up at the same time around noon and smiled.
Blaine moved Kurt’s hair out of his face and said “Morning.”
He smiled “Morning.”
They both got up out of bed and got ready for the day. “So, what do you have planned for today Blaine?”
Blaine sighed “Well, I actually thought we could just spend the day on here talking and packing for you to go home. I really don’t feel like doing much of anything else. I just want to be with you.”
He smiled “That’s fine by me.” They got up and got the boxes for them to pack.
Blaine started in the side table,
Kurt looked over and said to himself “Shit.”
Blaine opened the drawer and said “Kurt, what’s this?”
He sighed “Well, I was going to give it to you tomorrow. Before I left but I guess that you can have it now.”
Blaine looked at Kurt and said “Aww baby, you didn’t need to give me anything.”
He smiled “Just open it.”
Blaine opened the package and it revealed a picture frame with a picture of them and underneath the word Courage.
“I’ve got one just like it.”
Blaine smiled “Kurt it’s perfect I love it!”
He kissed Kurt softly and smiled “Thank you Kurt.”
Kurt smiled “You’re welcome Blaine.”
They continued to pack his things and they ended up finishing by dinner which Wes brought up for them. They ate together as they watched When Harry Met Sally.
After they finished the movie they laid in Kurt’s bed an held each other and cried softly, knowing they wouldn’t be able to do this all the time as they have for the past three weeks. They were so used to waking up to each other and not doing that anymore will be a big change, and a frightening one at that. Eventually they fell asleep.
Blaine was woken up by James shaking his shoulders “Blaine! Get up Blaine! I need you!”
Blaine opened his eyes and looked up at the clock and then at James. “James, it’s 6:30 what’s wrong.”
James wiped his eyes “I-I”
He saw he was crying “Hey, it’s okay. What happened?”
James sighed “I-I need y-you to d-drive me t-to the airport.”
He looked at him confused “Okay…Why?”
James took a deep breath and said “My-My grandmother died this morning. The one in Kentucky.”
He gave him a hug. “Oh god, I’m so sorry! Of course I’ll drive you to the airport! When’s you’re flight?”
James wiped his eyes on his sleeve “At 10.”
His heart stopped, that’s when Kurt was supposed to leave. “Ten? That’s when Kurt’s leaving. C-can Wes Thad or Jake take you? Or get a later flight?”
James shook his head “I’ve asked everyone but they can’t do it, and no my parents want me home as soon as possible.”
He sighed. “Okay, go back to your room and try to calm down, I need to talk to Kurt.”
James nodded and left.
He looked at Kurt, he knew that Kurt wanted him to be there to say goodbye, but James needed him too.
He kissed Kurt on the cheek, and said “Baby, wake up I need to talk to you.”
Kurt rolled over and looked at him “Blaine, it’s like 6:45 what is it?”
He sighed “I- I need to bring James to the airport.”
Kurt looked at him still half asleep and asked “Um, why?”
He sighed “His grandmother in Kentucky passed away this morning and needs to go back.”
Kurt sighed “Oh no…what time is his flight? I’ll go with you.”
He sighed “You can’t, it’s at 10.”
Kurt looked at him, he was wide awake now. “Are you serious? Can’t anyone else take him?”
He shook his head “No, he’s asked everyone and nobody can. I know that you wanted me to be there when you left but, he needs to go baby.”
Kurt ran his hand through his hair and sighed. “Well, you really have no choice in the matter do you?”
He shook his head and said “Not really, no. I mean if he could get a later flight he would but his parents want him home as soon as possible.”
Kurt sighed. “Ok, I understand. You need to bring him to the airport.”
He sighed. “I’m so sorry baby really I am.”
Kurt shook his head. “It’s okay, call him and find out when you’re leaving.”
He called James and told him when he wanted to leave. He got dressed quickly and went to Kurt’s side.
“In about a half an hour, earlier if possible.”
Kurt sighed and got out of bed wrapping his arms around Blaine who pulled him close. Kurt completely lost himself knowing this was goodbye. “I-I’m gonna miss you Blaine, so much.”
He sniffled. “I-I know me too.”
He lifted Kurt’s chin and pulled him into tender kiss. “I’m sorry I couldn’t be here to see you off, you have no idea how shitty I feel about it.”
Kurt smiled sadly and said “It’s okay, I understand completely. You need to do what you need to do.”
He smiled “What did I do to deserve you?”
Kurt chuckled “Just by being there.”
He smiled and hugged Kurt close. Kurt sighed and said “You gotta get going, if James is going to make his flight.”
He pulled Kurt into a passionate kiss. When they parted tears were falling freely. “Give James my condolences.”
He nodded “Of course, I’ll try to make it back in time to see you off.”
Kurt chuckled “Baby, you won’t make it and I don’t want you to get pulled over trying.”
He nodded “Okay, fine.”
Kurt pulled him in for a quick kiss and said “B-bye Blaine.”
He sighed and said “Bye Kurt.”
They hugged quickly and Blaine took off, leaving Kurt alone in his dorm room and he just cried. He got dressed and waited for his dad to call him telling him that him and Finn were here to get him.
Finally he got that call and got his stuff ready to go. His dad came into his room smiling and hugged him. “Hey kiddo!”
Kurt smiled “H-hey dad.”
Finn came strolling in along with Puck. Finn gave him a bear hug and said “Great to see you man!”
Burt looked around the room and asked “Where’s Blaine?”
He felt tears start to burn his eyes but he blinked them away as he said “At the airport, he had to drive one of our friends there his grandmother died this morning and he had to go home and nobody could drive him so.”
Burt nodded “I see, well are you ready to go?”
He nodded “Yeah, I just have a few boxes so it’ll take us all one trip.”
Burt nodded and motioned for Finn and Puck to get a box and they walked out. Kurt looked at his and Blaine’s room one final time before leaving it behind.
He passed by Jake who pulled him in for a hug. “Bye Kurt! Take care okay?”
He nodded “Yeah I will. Take care of Blaine, especially today and tell him to call me when he gets back.”
Jake nodded and he followed his dad out to the truck and they left. He looked at Dalton as the left until it was out of sight and he let silent tears fall from his eyes.
Blaine rushed back into the dorms after he dropped off James he saw Jake and asked “Is he?”
Jake nodded “Yeah, you just missed him he left twenty minutes ago.”
Blaine groaned “Damn it!”
Jake pulled him into a hug and said. “Hey, it’s okay man. It’s gonna be okay. I promise.”
Blaine cried into his shoulder. “I-I can’t believe I missed him by twenty fucking minutes! ”
Jake sighed as he rubbed his back and said “I know it sucks man. It does I’m going to miss him too. He made you happy. I know that.”
He shook his head “I didn’t even get to say goodbye to him properly.”
Jake continued rubbing his back and didn’t notice Wes walk up and say “Neither did we Blaine.”
He looked up at Wes who was with Thad and David. “We have an idea but we need your help.”
He looked at him curiously “W-what is it?”
Wes sat down on James’ bed and said “Well, we all want to say goodbye to him properly and we didn’t get to so we were thinking.”
He looked at Wes and asked. “Are you asking to serenade him?”
Wes nodded “Yeah but not just you, all of us. We want to and I’ve already got permission from the headmaster.”
He nodded “Okay, so what do you need me for?”
David sighed “Do you know anyone from Kurt’s school? Like do you have their numbers?”
He nodded “Yeah, I have his friend Mercedes number.”
Wes smiled “Good can you give her a call and ask her to have Kurt meet in the courtyard tomorrow at noon?”
He nodded “Sure.”
He called Mercedes and asked her and they hung up. “She said yes. But what song are we singing?”
Wes smiled and handed a piece of sheet music to him.
He looked at the song and smiled “It’s perfect.”
Comments
Three chapters in one day! Christmas came early for me. Okay this chapter was definitely sad. Blaine not being able to see Kurt off broke my heart, especially when he missed him by twenty fucking minutes!! Oh my Klainer heart
I know! It broke my heart to write it!
SO SAD!! It's kinds funny, though, I got all the glee Dvds for Christmas and I've been watching them and left off at Born This Way, so everything is caught up right now, ha! Anyway, I really do love all these stories, they're like all the filler that RIB never showed us! I hope we get some happy soon, though? Like a weekend visiting?! Woo!!
I got them too! And I kinda wanted to Put the gaps that RIB left out as well as the plot of the story I'm glad you like it!!