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Love me, not him: Chapter 10


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Story: Complete - Chapters: 24/24 - Created: Jun 21, 2012 - Updated: Sep 10, 2013
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Author's Notes:

Here it is! Sorry it took a while! So this will be the last chapter from Blaine's POV for a while. So I hope you like it!

Enjoy xxx

Chapter 10

 

"Blaine, look at you! You look so much older, looking more and more like your father every day." Blaine's aunt, Rebecca, says to Blaine when he comes down the stairs.

 

Blaine gives the woman a stiff smile, trying not to glare at her. "Thanks." He mumbles, going down the last step and walk over to the guests.

 

He says hello to them all, with a forced smile on his face.

 

Almost everyone was here, everyone except his mother's parents, who were actually nice.

 

On his father's side, Aunt Rebecca and her husband, Carl and their three kids, Tyler, Peter and Julia.

 

His Aunt Rebecca is a nicely enough woman, reminding him of Blaine's father Jack. She has the same dark hair, but much curlier and hazel green eyes. She is not very tall and not very slim either.

 

Her husband, Carl, is a kind man. He is really shy, but when you got to know him he's actually very friendly. He is a tall man with black short hair.

 

Their two boys, Tyler and Peter, is younger then Blaine. The twins are 10 and really annoying. Blaine has never really liked them. They always find a way to make these parties a lot worse…

 

Carl's daughter, Julia, is the same age as Blaine. Julia's mom died when she was young. The scary thing is that she looks just like her step- mother. Blaine always gets freaked out about that. The problem about Julia is that she likes Blaine. Like, like like… For Blaine that is just disturbing to even think about! He thinks of her as family. Them being together would just be so wrong! But Julia seems to think otherwise…

 

"It's good to see you again Blaine. How have you been?" Julia asks, resting her hand on his upper-arm.

 

Blaine shivered in disgust.

 

Blaine gives Julia a quick answer, before moving over to some other family members.

 

"Hello Blaine, how are you?" His uncle asks grumpily, clapping him on his back a bit too hard.

 

"I-I'm good" Blaine says looking down at his feet.

 

His uncle, Alan, is a tall big man. He reminded him of his father, just slightly more intimidated. His wife Susan, mom's sister, left her husband and children last year, so he is alone with four children now. Blaine can't blame his aunt for leaving her husband, but leaving with her children… Blaine couldn't understand how she can do that. After his wife left, he had gotten scarier for every time Blaine saw him. He has become just… darker…

 

Their four children, Sophie, Hannah, Dominic and Noah, are really only the nice children. Dominic and Sophie are only 9 and 11, Noah is 14 and Hannah is one year older than Blaine and Julia. Hannah is the only one that Blaine can really enjoy being with. She is really nice and she understands him. She knows about him being gay, and she actually told him that she is too. She was actually about to tell her mother, but before she got the chance, her mother was gone… Blaine was the one that helped her trough her pane and ever since they have been really close. And when Blaine told his parents… (Yes he did actually tell his parents. He told them and they freaked out. Well his mother started to cry and his father started to yell at him. After a few month and they hadn't even spoken one word to him, he told them that he was over it and that he is straight… It was on of the weakest moments in his life, but he just couldn't handle them being like that anymore. They smiled at him and after that pretended that it never happen…) Hannah was there for him. So it's great to have someone in his family he can talk to, not judging him or anything.

 

"Blaine, don't stutter when you talk to our guests. And keep your head up." Blaine's father says, coming out of the kitchen.

 

Blaine looks over at his father. His dark brown hair and green eyes boring into his. His is big and tall. If you would see him in the streets, you would already be scared of him.

 

"Of course, father. I do apologize." Blaine says politely.

 

His father stands beside Blaine and his uncle, Alan. The two men start to talk about some stupid business stuff so Blaine excuses himself.

 

He walks to the bathroom and when he is inside, he can finally breathe.

 

After a few minutes in the bathroom, he gets back to the party, the mask back on.

 

"Blainey!" Someone yells at him. And he knows who it is without looking. The only one that calls him that… Cooper, his older brother.

 

Blaine looks up and sees Cooper walks over to him with a big smirk on his face. Blaine smirks too, rolling his eyes. Everyone had heard Coopers yell and was now watching the two boys.

 

"Cooper! Don't yell in my house!" Their father tells Cooper with a stern voice.

 

Now it's Coopers time to roll his eyes.

 

Cooper threw himself over Blaine and squeezes him hard.

 

"Don't call me that!" Blaine whispers in his ear, Cooper just laugh.

 

"Nice to see you little brother!" He says jolly, finally releasing Blaine.

 

"You too." Blaine mumbles.

 

Before they can say any more, their mother tells all the guests that dinner is ready and asks them to take a seat. Blaine hurries over to where Hannah is sitting, trying to get away from Julia.

 

They sit down. Luckily Blaine found a seat beside Hannah, but Julia manages to get a seat right over him… Damn it!

 

Cooper sits down beside Blaine, still with a big smile.

 

Cooper Anderson is the best brother Blaine could ask for when he comes from a family like this. Cooper is seven years older than Blaine. Yes, it is a big age different, but they are like best friends. He asked his parents once why they waited so long between their first and second child. His father mumbled something about an accident, but his mother would say:

 

It's wasn't an accident, sweetheart. Your father and I just wanted one more perfect boy in our family.

 

But Blaine is smart enough now to understand that that is a lie…

 

Anyway, Cooper is really a good brother. He is a big disappointment to his father, since he won't take over his company. Cooper lived in LA for a while trying to become and actor, but after almost getting broke, he moved back to Lima and is now living in a little apartment. His brown hair is longer than last time he saw him. It's long enough to get in his green eyes now.

 

"So how are you Blainey? We haven't talked in ages!" Cooper says to Blaine beside him.

 

Their father, who is not sitting fare away from them, sighs at how loudly his oldest son have to be.

 

"I'm good Coop…" Blaine mumbles, not as loud as his brother.

 

Suddenly Cooper's face turns serious when he sees Blaine's expression. He leans closer so only Blaine can hear him.

 

"What's wrong? Are you having trouble at school again? Is it dad?" Cooper whispers with a concerned voice.

 

Blaine shakes his head slightly, "No I'm fine." He whispers back.

 

Cooper pulls back to look at Blaine. He can't see anything that says otherwise, so he lets it go.

 

"So, what-"Hannah starts to say on his other side, but Blaine's father interrupts her.

 

Blaine's father clears his throat before standing up and starting his tradition speech.

 

"First I want to thank everyone for coming. It's always so nice to see everyone again-"

Cooper scoffs loudly and everyone looks over at him. Blaine with big eyes, his father with angry eyes and the rest with confused looks.

 

Cooper looks up at his father, "What? Oh I'm sorry! You were saying…?" Cooper says innocent.

 

Blaine bit his though for not to smile at the scene in front of him. He really loves his brother.

 

"Anyway…" Jack says looking right at Cooper, who is just smiling.

 

Xx

 

"Mary, this was amazing!" Aunt Rebecca says when they are done eating.

 

Everyone is sitting around the big table chatting happily.

 

Cooper, Hannah and Blaine are talking about a new movie they need to see this weekend.

 

Blaine takes some drink and when he is about to swallow, he feels a foot move up his leg.

 

Surprised, Blaine coughs and tries not to get the water in his mouth all over the table. Cooper and Hannah looks at him with big surprised eyes, before trying to help him.

 

After stopping his coughing and has dried his hands, he looks over at Julia. She is looking at him with a big smirk and lustful eyes. For some reason, she reminds him of Sebastian.

 

Blaine shivers again.

 

"Are you okay sweetheart?" His mother asks when he finally is calmed down.

 

In the corner of his teary eye, he sees his father shake his head.

 

"I-I'm fine mother. I just swallowed wrong…" Blaine explains.

 

Hannah is rubbing his back and looking worried at him.

 

Blaine sees this and assures her that he is fine.

 

"So Blaine," he hears his uncle Carl begins. Here it comes… he thinks. "How is it going at Dalton?"

 

Blaine looks up at his uncle, sitting right beside Julia, and smiles his charming smile. "It's going really great. I recently became the lead soloist in the glee club there, so I really like it there." Blaine tells them with a smile.

 

He meant what he said too. He loves it there. Well, something isn't that great, but he can't say that. If he did he would be out of this house less than an hour.

 

"How exciting!" His aunt Rebecca says jolly.

 

Blaine just nods, still with his charming smile.

 

"But I have to say, I don't think Dalton is the best place to be." His aunt continues

 

Blaine frowns and his smile drops, "Why do you say that? Dalton is a really great school."

 

"Oh I don't mean it's not a good school, but it's an all boy school. How are you gonna get a girlfriend while staying there every week? Or maybe you have found one?" his aunt smiles at him.

 

Blaine force on a stiff smile, "No I don't have one. But don't you think education is more important right now?" Blaine tries to say without getting angry, a very difficult task!

 

"Of course school is important, but it doesn't hurt to have a girlfriend, does it?" His aunt is still smiling lovingly at him.

 

"I agree with that!" Julia says, looking at Blaine with a smirk.

 

Everyone around the table is looking at Blaine. He feels himself getting hotter.

 

"See!" Hi aunt says happily to know she isn't the only one that thinks so. "I know a girl you would love! Her name is Alice and she-"

 

"Oh Blaine!" Hannah suddenly interrupt and Blaine can't be more thankful. "Can you please play the new song you have learned for us? I'm dying to hear it!"

 

Scratch that! This is not good! Blaine can't play in front of everyone!

 

Blaine glares at her and she looks at him with an apologized look.

 

"Oh Blaine, please do that! I love when you play!" His mother says with a big smile.

 

"Oh no-"Blaine tries to say, but everyone (except his father) tells him to play.

 

Blaine sighs before getting up. Cooper pats him on the shoulder comforting before he walks over to the piano. The piano is right beside the dining table, so everyone can see him.

 

Blaine places his fingers on the piano. He takes a big breath before he starts playing.

 

You've been on my mind

I grow fonder every day,

Lose myself in time

Just thinking of your face

God only knows

Why it's taken me so long

To let my doubts go

You're the only one that I want

 

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before

Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all,

You never know if you never try

To forgive your past and simply be mine

 

Just singing this makes Blaine think of Kurt. He never thought how perfect this lyric really is.

 

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only

Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms

So come on and give me a chance

To prove that I'm the one who can

Walk that mile until the end starts

 

If I've been on your mind

You hang on every word I say

Lose yourself in time at the mention of my name

Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close?

And have you tell me whichever road I choose you'll go

 

Blaine can feel the tears threaten to well over, but he force them to not run over the edge. He sings with all his heart, forgetting that he has an audience.

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only

I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms

So come on and give me a chance

To prove that I'm the one who can

Walk that mile until the end starts

 

He finishes the song and can hear applause behind him. He calms down before turning around and smiles at his family. He looks at some smiling faces, other concerned and one careless. Feeling the tears form in his eyes again, he excuse himself and runs up to his bedroom, closing the door behind him.

 

He falls down on the bed, face hitting the pillow. He just wants to scream and cry and just stop everything! He doesn't understand what is going on!

 

He is with Sebastian, but he has no feelings for the guy. He almost had sex with him and he knows that is everything Sebastian wants from him... And on top of that, he can't break up with him, because of his stupid treats…

 

And then we have Kurt. Kurt Hummel is the most perfect, kindest, most beautiful guy he has ever met. He is easy to talk to and so funny. He is perfect, even to perfect for him… At first he thought he actually had a chance on him, but when Sebastian said that Kurt had asked Sebastian out on a date, he lost all hope… Who would blame him? Sebastian is hot and charms everyone with his stupid smile. He doesn't have much of a heart, but Kurt didn't know that. So that's the reason Blaine was all over Sebastian… He couldn't let Sebastian get his hands on Kurt! He is not proud of doing what he did with Sebastian, but that go Kurt away from Sebastian! Well, and him… But suddenly Kurt is dating Ben! What's up with that? The world is really against him…

 

A nock on the door gets him out of his deep thoughts. He asks who it is, but he doesn't get an answer. Instead the door opens.

 

Blaine looks up from his pillow and sees Cooper walking over to his bed. He looks confused, but more concerned.

 

"Did I say you could come in?" Blaine says a bit too harshly.

 

"Oh come on little brother, don't be like that." Cooper lies down beside Blaine.

 

It's quiet for a few minutes, before Cooper decides to just say something.

 

"I really liked the song you played." It almost comes out as a whisper.

 

"Thanks" Blaine mumbles back, not looking at Cooper.

 

"Blaine?" Cooper asks.

 

Blaine looks up at him. That was not a good idea. Blaine feels tears threaten to spill over again.

 

Cooper sees this. "Hey, shhh…" Cooper scoops closer to Blaine and puts a comforting arm around Blaine.

 

Blaine lets the tears go over the edge and they can't seem to stop. He moves closer to Cooper and starts to sob into his shoulder.

 

Cooper is stroking his back and whispering comforting words into his ear. And after a while Blaine calms down, suddenly feeling very sleepy.

 

"Blaine?" Cooper asks,

 

Blaine just makes a hoarse sound of acknowledgement.

 

"Can you tell me what's going on? I'm really worried right now…" And that's how Cooper sounds like too. Blaine doesn't need to see his face to hear how worried he is right now.

 

Blaine pulls back, lying down so he can look at Cooper.

 

"I don't know what you are talking about." Blaine decides to play the 'act stupid' card.

 

Cooper rolls his eyes, "Blaine you've been crying on my shoulder for the last fifteen minutes. Please tell me. You know you can tell me anything."

 

Blaine knows this very well. Cooper was the first to know that Blaine is gay and had helped him through it all.

 

Blaine sighs, nodding. Maybe Cooper can help him.

 

"Before I say anything, can you promise me something?" Blaine asks carefully.

 

"Of course Blaine, you know you can trust me." Coopers gives a little smile to Blaine.

 

Blaine nods again, "Okay. Um, can you promise not to tell anyone about this, even how bad it is?" Blaine asks.

 

Cooper frowns, understanding this must be really big.

 

"Okay, good. And you promise not to judge me or tell me how stupid I'm being? You know what; just don't say anything before I'm finish…" Blaine says.

 

"Blaine, I promise not to judge you or anything like that, you can trust me buddy. And I'll keep quiet till you are finish." Cooper assures him.

 

Blaine nods one more time before taking a deep breath.

 

"Ok… Um, I know this guy. Eh let us call him… Rob." Blaine starts. He doesn't know if he should use the real names, so he just decided to change them.

 

Cooper chuckle a bit at what Blaine is doing, but lets him continue anyway.

 

"Ok so, Rob and I started to…date a few weeks ago. And it wasn't this big deal. I knew he just wanted to get in my pants, but of course I wouldn't let him get so far. So we started to date. It was okay at first, but then I got a roommate… Jason." Blaine has always liked the name Jason.

 

Cooper is just nodding. Frowning at some things Blaine is saying, but keeping his promise.

 

"That's when everything changed. A week before Jason became my roommate, Rob was getting really pushy. He tried to get me to bed too many times, so I decided to end it. That's when he threaten me…"

 

"What?" Cooper asks, breaking his promise.

 

"I'll explain that later. It isn't that bad. I mean it isn't nice, but it's nothing really, really bad." Blaine assures Cooper.

 

"Anyway, when Jason became my roommate… I… I kind of fellinlovewithhim." Blaine says in a rush, not wanting to say this to his brother.

 

"What?"

 

"Stop talking! I said… I kind of fell in love with him…" Blaine blush, avoiding Coopers grin.

 

"Oh" Cooper says in a teasing tone, but when he thinks about the other things Blaine had told him, his fell.

 

"Anyway, since me and Se-Rob where only this fake thing, I thought maybe I had a chance with Jason… Well that was before Jason asked Rob out and since Rob said no, Jason now has a stupid boyfriend."

 

Cooper is frowning, not understanding much here.

 

"So now I'm stuck with this guy I can't away from and is in love with someone I can't have…I'm really messed up aren't I?" Blaine sighs. This is really a mess…

 

It's quiet for a while, Blaine in deep thought and Cooper trying to get all this new information in.

 

"Can I talk now?" Cooper asks finally.

 

"You just did." Blaine mumbles.

 

"What did this Rob guy threaten you with?"

 

Blaine rolls his eyes. "Well, he said that if I break up with him, he'll tell my parents that I'm gay. He even has proof…" Blaine mumbles, looking at his hands lying beside him on the bed.

 

Cooper feels the anger creep up and he breathes out slowly. He doesn't know what to say. What could he even do? How can he fix this? He knows Blaine can't tell their parents…

 

"I'm sorry" Cooper finally says and moves closer to Blaine again and hugs him tightly.

 

They just lay like that for a while, not saying anything.

 

The comfortable silence didn't last for long though, suddenly a harsh nock on Blaine's door filled the room.

 

Blaine moved away from Cooper, already knowing who it is. Just as they separate, Jack comes in.

 

He closes the door before saying, "What are you two think you're doing? We have guest down stairs, so it's no time for cuddling on the bed!" Their father says angry.

 

Cooper rolls his eyes, but doesn't move. Blaine sits still too.

 

"Blaine, stop being such a baby and get the hell down there again." Jack's face is red as his tie now and Blaine quickly makes a move to get off the bed.

 

Cooper grabs Blaine's arm and bush him back down on the bed, before getting up himself and walks right over to their father.

 

"Don't talk to him like that!" Cooper says to his father.

 

Jack just smiles a strange little smile, before turning around to go out of the room.

 

"Get you asses down stairs right now!" He says and then walks out of the room.

 

Cooper looks down at Blaine, "You okay?"

Blaine just nods and then gets up to walk back down again.

 

Before he walks out of the room he quickly looks in the mirror to see if he looks okay. Satisfied at how he loos, he walks down again, Cooper right behind him.

 

End Notes: So what do you think?? I really love hearing what you think of this! Next chapter will be back to Kurt's POV!! Hope you liked this one and see you soon! <333

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i love this book but i like kurt pov more i like blaines but i love to here from kurt and i love ben man is he sexy

Well we are back to Kurt for a while now! But we need to hear what Blaine thinks sometimes too, so he will have some more chapters. But Kurt is the main character! Haha yeah he is :P Thanks for reviewing xxxx