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Hoping for the impossible: Chapter 5


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Story: Complete - Chapters: 13/? - Created: Oct 28, 2013 - Updated: Oct 28, 2013
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Author's Notes:

So what do you think? I love all your reviews and I'm so happy people are fav/follow this story, it means the world to me. So please continue being so amazing!

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Chapter 5

 

Blaine gets into the car again and drives home, thoughts exploding in his head, anger still boiling in his body. Blaine shuts the car door hard behind him and finds his keys to open the door. With his surprise, the door is already open. He walks inside and looks around.

 

"Hello?" he asks and hears someone in the kitchen.

 

For a second he thinks someone has broken in, but then he hears his mother soft voice telling him its only her.

 

Blaine walks into the kitchen and finds his mother, Danielle Anderson, making lasagna. Blaine narrows his eyes. Every time his mother is making something, they are either having guests or telling Blaine they are going on a trip for a week or more. Its usually the latter.

 

"Whats going on…?" Blaine asks carefully.

 

"Hey honey," Blaines mother smiles and puts the lasagna in the oven, "how was your week?"

 

"Fine…" Blaine lies and waits for an answer.

 

"Honey, go get dressed, the Berry's are coming over in an hour. I already have some clothes on your bed."

 

Blaine is about to protest, but stops himself from doing so. He doesnt need another fight today.

 

Blaine walks upstairs and sits down on the bed, ignoring the black suit on the bed. His phone suddenly rings, and Blaine jumps in surprise. He looks down at it and sees its Rachel.

 

"Hey…" Blaine answers and hears Rachel sighs.

 

"Thank god! Ive been calling you all day!"

 

"Sorry I was busy," Blaine mumbles, trying not to think about Kurt and last night.

 

"Are you okay? I heard me and my dads are coming over in an hour, I need to find a dress. And we are still pretending to be dating right? We dont have to if you are ready to face your parents, but you chose when to, no pressure. I know-"

 

"Rachel!" Blaine interrupts, his head spinning, "shut up. We have to pretend little longer, I cant think about what they will do just yet, have some other stuff to figure out first."

 

"Thats okay Blaine, I told you to take your time."

 

"Thanks Rachel."

 

"So how was last night? Did you have fun?"

 

Blaine can hear a little smile for on Rachels face as he quickly answers, "no! Nothing happened! Was actually really boring!"

 

"Are you okay Blaine? Did something happen?"

 

Blaine is about to answer, but something distracts him. Did he take that away? Blaine thinks as he looks at the floor.

 

"Blaine? Are you there?" Rachel asks when Blaine doesnt answer.

 

"I have to go!"

 

Blaine ends the call and looks around his room.

 

Shit!

 

His mom has cleaned his room… Normally thats not a problem, but after last night its definitely a big problem.

 

He didnt clean anything up this morning. He thought his parents werent coming back home before tomorrow, so he thought he had good time to clean everything up. His clothes Kurt had eagerly taken off are not on the floor anymore and the bed is changed. And… Blaine closes his eyes in horror. The condom isnt there anymore. And he knows he didnt take that away. Who would even touch something that disgusting?

 

Blaine falls down on the bed and groans loudly. Why did this have to happen? What is she going to think now? Blaine sits up, what if she knows its not Rachel he slept with. Blaine groans again and grabs the suit.

 

He just needs this evening to get over and he can ignore his parents. His mom probably has already told his dad…

 

Blaine groans again, getting angrier at Kurt by the second.

 

xXx

 

The doorbell rings and Blaine sighs before walking down. He sees his mom opening the door and greeting the three with a big smile. Blaine cant help but notice the look his mom is giving Rachel though and Blaine feels like throwing up on the floor right in front of them.

 

"Blaine!" Rachel says with a big smile and walks over to hug him.

 

Blaine forces a smile and pretends to not be surprised when Rachel kisses him on the mouth.

 

After saying hello to Rachels parents, they all find a chair around the big table and sit down. They eat while Blaines father and one of Rachels dads, Hiram, talk business and Blaines mother and Rachels other dad, Leroy, talk about a book they both read recently. Blaine and Rachel are quiet though. Well, Blaine is, Rachel is trying to figure out what is wrong with him, whispering in his ear to tell her what is going on. Blaine tells her they can talk about it later and Rachel stops asking.

 

Dinner is torture. Blaines mom is watching Blaine and Rachel like a hawk; Blaines dad is still speaking about business, well he never talks about anything else, and Rachel is looking at Blaine worriedly. After Rachel swallows the last bite of cake, Blaine stands up.

 

"I need to ask Rachel about something. School work! And my computer is upstairs… can we be excused?"

 

Blaine looks at his mom and dad and his dad nods before continue what he was talking about. Blaine grabs Rachels hand and brings her upstairs.

 

When Blaine closes the door, Rachel doesnt waste any time.

 

"Blaine whats going on?" she asks worried.

 

"First of all, my mom thinks we are sleeping together and-"

 

"What?" Rachel asks with her mouth wide open.

 

"Well I believe she thinks so; she hasnt said anything to me. But I notice this morning she had cleaned my room, so what else is she supposed to think Im sleeping with?" Blaine takes a deep breath.

 

Rachel is looking at him like he is crazy before finally saying something, "You… What…" she tries to find her words, "why would she think we are sleeping together just by cleaning your room?" she looks at Blaine with a confused look.

 

"Oh…" Blaine blushes, fuck he didnt think about that, "well… I kinda had a… condom here," he mumbles the last party, his face burning.

 

Blaine shouldnt be saying this to Rachel, they used to date. What would she think about him now?

 

Rachel is still looking really confused, "Blaine if your mom saw a condom in your room doesnt mean that she thinks we would use it."

 

Blaine doesnt say anything. He cant tell her that he slept with Kurt last night.

 

Rachel gasps slightly, "It wasnt used right…?"

 

Blaine looks down, sighing, and sits down on the bed. Rachel will find out sooner or later anyway.

 

"Blaine?"

 

Rachel sits down beside Blaine.

 

"It was… I didnt think mom and dad would come home today so I didnt stress about cleaning anything up… When I got home my room was clean," Blaine closes his eyes, hoping everything will just go away.

 

Rachel is silent, which surprises Blaine since she always talk. So this has to be a really bad sign.

 

Blaine looks at Rachel, "Im sorry for telling you this; I just thought that you should know in case mom asks you about it. I know we just broke up and its too soon to hear this…"

 

Rachel shakes her head, "its fine. Im okay. But are you?"

 

Blaine looks away, blushing, "Not really… I cant believe I did this," Blaine shakes his head, feeling like crying again, "I just got so drunk last night…"

 

"It wasnt with Claire was it? I know she really wants you and shes been a bitch to me ever since we got together."

 

Blaine frowns, "no, no its not her."

 

"Then who…?" Rachel asks.

 

Blaine sighs and whispers "Kurt…"

 

Rachels mouth drop and it looks like she is trying to take in what Blaine just said.

 

"Oh… wow I didnt expect that. So are you sure youre ga-"

 

"No! No Im not," Blaine says quickly.

 

Rachel sighs and hugs Blaine, "Im sorry."

 

"Its not your fault," Blaine mumbles and hugs Rachel back, "I should be sorry… I slept with someone I hate not long after we broke up."

 

"Its okay Blaine, like I said Im your friend. And I kinda went out with Finn last night…"

 

Blaine pulls away, "oh, yeah thats good. Thats great. I… You deserve to be happy, Rachel."

 

Rachel smiles, "so do you, Blaine."

 

Blaine sighs and falls on his back on the bed, "yeah I wish I could."

 

Rachel looks down at him, "was it good?"

 

Blaines eyes grow, "what?"

 

Rachel chuckles, "you heard me."

 

Blaine sighs again, "I dont know..."

 

Rachel lifts an eyes brow and Blaine rolls his eyes, "fine, it was amazing. But its only because I was drunk. It doesnt matter though; its not going to happen again."

 

"Are you sure?"

 

Blaine nods, "yes, it was a mistake and I cant even believe I did it. I thought I liked him, but I was wrong, Im not gay."

 

Rachel doesnt say anything so Blaine continues, "Im never doing anything with him again and I made that really clear to him. Im done."

 

oooo

 

Welcome back Monday! Ive missed you… Kurt thinks ironically to himself as he drives to school, mumbling to himself how useless school is. He would be lying if he said he wasnt still a little mad at Blaine for coming to his house to yell at him in front of his dad.

 

His dad hadnt said a word to him since Blaine had been over.

 

Kurt rolls his eyes at the thought; some people just dont know how to have fun and stop worrying about everything.

 

Kurt gets out of the car and walks towards the school, grinning when he sees the football player from the party with a black eye. Kurts eye isnt anything as bad as his. He winks at the football player and walks into the school.

 

Kurt walks down the hall and when he walks around a corner he sees Blaine walking towards him. Kurt quickly turns around and starts walking back. What is he doing? He is Kurt Hummel, he doesnt avoid guys. Kurt turns around again and starts walking towards Blaine. They make eye contact for a second before both of them looks straight ahead. They walk pass each other like they dont know each other.

 

Kurt ignores this stupid feeling he suddenly gets in his stomach. He didnt have time to eat breakfast this morning, so he is probably just hungry.

 

"Hummel!"

 

Kurt turns around and sees Quinn coming towards him.

 

"Hey, whats up?"

 

Quinn shrugs, "nothing, just wanted to say good morning"

 

Kurt frowns a little but nods. They walk down the hall together and to class. They find a seat in the back and waits for this day to be over.

 

Blaine walks in just before the teacher walks in and all the seats are occupied, except one. Kurt rolls his eyes; of course it has to be the one beside him.

 

It looks like Blaine hates the idea too, but sits down. They dont look at each other, but Kurt cant keep his eyes away for long. He looks at Blaine in the corner of his eye. Blaine is looking at the teacher and his pencil is between his lips, as he sucks slightly on it. Kurts eyes grow at that and imagine himself in Blaines mouth. He is wearing his football jacket and tight black jeans, really tight. Kurt swallows at the sight. Pictures of Blaine under him, moaning, come back and Kurt can feel his cock twist.

 

No, hes supposed to be mad at Blaine. But angry sex is always amazing… Kurt shakes his head, trying to get the thought out of his head. It doesnt work though; pictures are running in his head like a movie. Kurt looks at Blaine again and remembers how good that ass was. Kurt swallows a moan and starts flicking his tongue so his tongue ring his clicking against his teeth.

 

Blaine moves in his seat, looking uncomfortable, and Kurt frowns. Maybe Blaine is thinking about it too… Kurt groans slightly and Blaine looks at him with big eyes. Fuck, he is so thinking about it too.

 

"Are you okay?" Quinn whispers on the other side and Kurt nods, getting up.

 

"Where do you think you are going?" the teacher asks and Kurt quickly tells her he is going to the bathroom.

 

Kurt breaths heavily and walks towards the bathroom. What is going on with him? He is never like this. Yes he has dreams, but he never just look at someone and gets this hard.

 

Kurt washes his face with cold water and looks under the stalls to see if someone is in here. He is alone.

 

Kurt looks down at his bulge and bites his lip. Can he do this here…?

 

Before he can decide, the door opens. Kurt is surprised to see who walks in though.

 

"What is wrong with you? You cant just do that in a classroom!" Blaine says angry and walks closer to him.

 

"Do what?" Kurt asks, not sure if they are thinking about the same thing.

 

"You know what! Flicking your tongue so it makes that sound."

 

Kurt lifts an eyebrow; he didnt know Blaine liked that, "what about you? Sucking your pencil and wearing that!"

 

Kurt looks down at Blaines jeans and can see Blaines bulge. He swallows hard at that. Blaine is hard too.

 

Blaine doesnt say anything, just looking at Kurt with an angry look. Kurt looks back with an angry look too.

 

"Fuck I hate you so much," Blaine says and kisses Kurt hard on the lips.

 

Kurt kisses him back, running his tongue inside Blaines mouth making him moan. No one has ever liked his tongue ring this much before. Kurt grabs Blaines ass and push him closer, their erections hitting each others. Blaine gasps and pulls Kurts hair hard.

 

Kurt pushes Blaine backwards until he hits the door on the other side. He kisses Blaines neck and locks the door.

 

"Fuck me," Blaine moans and kisses Kurt, biting his lip.

 

"You sure? Last time you yelled at me in front of my dad" Kurt says, but is already pulling Blaines jacket off.

 

"Just shut up and do it," Blaine says and opens Kurts pants.

 

Kurt takes off Blaines t-shirt and runs his tongue over his chest, sucking on one of his nipples. Blaine moans and tilts his head back, his mouth wide open.

 

"So you like my tongue baby?" Kurt asks with a grin and run his tongue over Blaines exposed neck.

 

"Fuck…" Blaine sighs and brings Kurt closer, hugging him while Kurt sucks on his neck. Its weird, Kurt thinks, this feels so different.

 

"I bet my tongue would feel amazing here," Kurt whispers and opens Blaines tights pants and hold him in his hand.

 

Blaine moans and nods, "yes! Fuck please."

 

Kurt grins and kisses Blaine, ignoring that stupid feeling in his stomach again. He really needs to eat soon. Blaine pulls him away and forces Kurt down on his knees. Kurt chuckles slightly and pulls down Blaines pants.

 

Wow, Blaine is a lot bigger than Kurt remembers… Kurt moans slightly and looks up at Blaine. He is looking back into Kurts eyes and the stupid feeling comes back. They need to hurry so Kurt can eat; this is starting to get annoying.

 

Kurt runs his tongue up Blaines cock and Blaine moans loudly.

 

Kurt stands up, "if you dont want the whole school to know what you are doing right now, you shouldnt scream. I love a screamer though," Kurt whispers and kisses Blaine.

 

Blaine kisses him back before pushing Kurt down on his knees again. Kurt grins up at Blaine before taking Blaine in his mouth, sucking. Blaine moans and grabs Kurts hair for support when Kurt starts to bob his head and sucking harder.

 

Blaine gasps, "fuck that piercing…" he whispers and pulls in Kurts hair, moving his hips. Blaine starts whimpering over him as he moves quicker with Kurts movement. Kurt runs his tongue over Blaine and Blaine responds that hes about to---.

 

Kurt swallows it all and stands up, looking at Blaine breathing heavily with closed eyes. Kurt kisses him, pushing his tongue inside Blaines mouth so he can taste himself. Blaine moans, sucking on Kurts tongue.

 

"I still hate you," Blaine whispers and tilts his head back so Kurt can kiss his neck.

 

Kurt smiles and lets his lips touch his neck, "keep telling yourself that baby, but we both know youre lying. You have never felt anything like this," Kurt runs his hands down Blaines back and ass, "and you never want to stop" Kurt kisses Blaines neck and Kurt can hear him sigh, "no one can make you feel the way I can, so just stop worrying and come with me," Kurt kisses Blaines neck again.

 

"Where…?" Blaine sighs, pulling Kurt closer.

 

Kurt grins, "Anywhere you want baby. I dont think anyone is at my house right now…"

 

Blaine pushes Kurt away and he frowns.

 

"Of course you only think about that," Blaine says shaking his head, looking disappointed.

 

"What did you think I meant baby?" Kurt asks, moving closer to Blaine, wanting to be close to him for some reason.

 

Blaine pushes him away again though and pulls his jeans back on, "I dont know. And for the record, I know many that can make me feel better than you can," he says and puts on his t-shirt.

 

A new feeling in Kurts feeling comes. This isnt anything like the other one, this one makes him warm and angry. Maybe he is getting sick.

 

"Are you sure about that baby?" Kurt says and moves closer to Blaine again, pushing him against the door.

 

Blaine gasps slightly and it looks like he is about to kiss Kurt again. He doesnt though, so Kurt does.

 

He pushes him closer with both hands on Blaines cheeks. Blaine kisses him back slowly and Kurt feels strange. He tries to deepen it or bite Blaines lip or just do something, but Blaine wont let him do it. He only kisses Kurt slowly and… sweet.

 

Kurt pulls away, not sure what just happened. He looks at Blaine and he looks back, both with surprised, confused looks.

 

"I… we should get back to class," Kurt mumbles, looking into Blaines hazel eyes.

 

Blaine nods, but they dont move, just looking at each other. Without even thinking, Kurt moves his head closer and Blaine does the same. They kiss softly and Kurt has never done anything like this. Its a weird feeling, but not a bad one. Blaine puts his hand on one of Kurt cheeks and the other one around his neck, pulling him even closer.

 

The feeling comes back in his stomach, not the same as the last one though, the first feeling he got this morning. The… good one. Maybe he isnt hungry…

 

What is he doing? Why is this so different then what he usually does? He cant do this, whatever this is.

 

Kurt rocks his hips into Blaine, "mine or your house?"

 

Blaine pushes Kurt away again, "youre sick you know that right?"

 

Kurt rolls his eyes, ignoring the pain in Blaines eyes, "oh come on, you know you want the same. Can you just stop worrying and accept that youre gay?"

 

"Im not!" Blaine says angry and gets his jacket, "if you dont believe me, let me prove it to you."

 

With that he walks out of the room.

 

Kurt sighs and puts on his pants again. What did he mean by proving it to Kurt? Making out with Kurt is a good enough proof that he is gay.

 

Kurt walks out of the bathroom, ignoring the bad feeling in his stomach.

 

oooo

 

"Hey," Blaine says and leans against the lockers, putting his sexiest smile on his face. If Kurt doesnt believe him, he just has to show him.

 

"Hey," Claire says as she closes her locker, biting her lips slightly.

 

Blaine moves closer, ignoring what his conscious is screaming at him, "do you want to get out of here?"

 

"What about your girlfriend?" Claire asks, but everyone can see she doesnt really care about Rachel.

 

"Do you see her here?" Blaine says, looking at her with what he hopes is sexy.

 

Claire shakes her head and Blaine smiles, walking out of the school. Claire walks after him and gets in the car with Blaine.

 

Blaine starts the car and starts to drive. Blaine is supposed to have one more class, but he needs to do this now.

 

He isnt sure what he is doing, but after Rachel told him Claire likes him and with what happened with Kurt, he got an idea. Maybe he wasnt gay, but just didnt like Rachel. That happens all the time. So why not try with someone else? Claire is hot and she sleeps with anyone that asks. Blaine is done with what happened with Kurt, it meant nothing. That was one thing Kurt was right about, sex doesnt mean anything. Blaine isnt gay, so why would this be a big deal? He just needs to make sure and the only way to do that is to bring Claire with him home.

 

"So what are we doing?" Claire asks, bringing her hand to Blaines thigh.

 

Blaine looks down at it and feels a strange feeling in his stomach, "youll see."

 

Blaine stops the car outside his house and they get out. Blaine takes a deep breath before he opens the door and lets Claire inside. He closes the door and walks into the kitchen.

 

"Can I get you anything?" Blaine asks and is about to open the fridge when Claire shakes her head no.

 

She moves closer, "so why did you bring me here?"

 

She presses her body against Blaines so he gets pressed against the kitchen sink and run her fingers over Blaines chest.

 

"Fuck youre drunk," Kurt says and shoves me towards the bed, his hands burning against my chest. His dark eyes are making me so fucking hard.

 

Blaine swallows and looks into Claires silver eyes. She smirks up at him before kissing him hard on the mouth. Blaine kisses back and turns them around, pushing Claire against the kitchen sink this time. She groans slightly and pulls off Blaines shirt, running her finger over the naked skin, making him shiver.

 

Kurt mumbles something before he kisses me again, pulling off my shirt before he takes of his own. His skin is so soft… it feels like silk.

 

Blaine presses Claire against him and moves them to the table behind him. He lifts her up so she is sitting on the table and she wraps her legs around Blaines waist, bringing him closer. Blaine starts rocks his hips slightly towards her, both of them moaning slightly. This feels good, right?

 

I moan loudly and fall down on my back, thrusting up to meet Kurts hard movements; eyes rolling back with pleasure and I just wants to scream. I look up at Kurt and feel like passing out, he looks so hot.

 

"Blaine…" Claire moans, bringing Blaine back to reality, and takes off her cheerleader top, only her skirt left on. Blaine eyes grow when he realizes she isnt wearing a bra. He isnt sure what to do next, he have never seen this before.

 

"Touch me Blaine… please baby" she moans and tilts her head back.

 

Blaine takes a second to look at her. She is beautiful. Her long wavy black hair falling from her head and touching the table, her skinny body with two big round breasts moving slightly with her movements and her slim legs wrapped around his hips. She really is beautiful.

 

Kurt pulls off his pants and I cant help but stare. Shit, thats hot. Kurt was longer than me and I feel like coming just the thought of that thrusting inside of me, going so deep. Fuck Kurt is so hot, I want him now.

 

Claire gets off the table and kisses Blaine again, her tongue running along his teeth and tongue. Blaine closes his eyes and puts his hands on Claires hips, bringing her closer. Claire pushes him backwards and Blaine gasps before he falls down on a chair. Claire takes off her panties and is only in her skirt now. Blaine looks at her and isnt sure what to think. Like he said, she is beautiful, but there is something that is missing. Blaine pushes the thought away and grabs Claires hips to bring her closer to him. This wasnt the time to think.

 

She moves her hands down Blaines body and stops at his pants. She opens them and tries to pull them down, but Blaine doesnt move. He closes his eyes, and sighs a name that he shouldnt be saying.

 

I moan and feel my pants opening, giving more room for my hard, aching cock. I sigh at the feeling and lift my hips up so Kurt can pull down my pants and underwear. I have never felt anything so good before.

 

"Im going to fuck you senseless baby, you will feel it for weeks," Kurt whispers darkly in my ear and licks it.

 

Blaine moans and Claire gives up, sits down instead. She starts rocking her hips up and down in his lap and Blaine gasps, eyes still closed and his mouth open.

 

"Fuck…Ku-"Blaine stops himself from saying it before it is too late.

 

He can do this. This feels amazing… Blaine opens his eyes and tries not to think about the memories, but he cant. They are like glued to his brain and they have been since that night. He dreams about it every night. And it didnt help that Kurt had touched him earlier today.

 

Claire kisses him, but again there is something missing. Blaine let his eyes close again and he lets his thoughts wonder again.

 

Kurt presses two fingers inside me and I feel like shouting. Tears form in my eyes and I try to not think of the pain. Is it supposed to hurt this much? I have never done this, so I have no idea what it should or shouldnt feel like.

 

Blaine moans and lets his head fall back, lips kissing his neck. He rubs his ass against the chair, trying to get the feeling back, but it doesnt work.

 

"I told you, you were gonna feel this," Kurt says and touches himself, sighing as his hand maneuvers lightly around his dick. His fingers making me feel something so good and different as they move inside.

 

Blaine opens his eyes and gasps, realizing what he is doing. He pushes Claire off his lap and stares at her with horror.

 

What is he doing? He is thinking about Kurt while making out with Claire. Who does this? He cant do this to her. She might be used to this, but he isnt. And he isnt going to treat her like that.

 

"Sorry, I just… I just remembered that my mom is coming home in a few minutes, you have to go."

 

Claire is about to protest, but Blaine finds her clothes and gives them to her. She sighs; rolling her eyes as she puts on her top. She turns around and Blaine can see her ass shoving into her pants, but he looks away quickly. Claire doesnt say anything as she walks out of the kitchen. He waits a few seconds before he hears the door close. He sighs in relief and sits down on the chair again.

 

This is impossible… He cant stop thinking about Kurt. He cant even make out with anyone without thinking about him.

 

Blaine walks up to his room and puts on some music. He lays down on the bed, looking up at the sealing and thinks about what to do. He comes to the conclusion that he has three options.

 

One, he can sleep with Kurt again. He knows he wants to. He wasnt sure if it was just because he was drunk that it felt so amazing and perfect, but after today he is sure. When they kissed… Blaine has never felt anything like that. Maybe if he sleeps with Kurt again, he will get that feeling back. And he want that feeling back, he needs it.

 

Two, he can just forget about Kurt and try with someone else. Rachel didnt work out, but that doesnt mean he doesnt like girls. Claire is really hot and good. He can try with her again and this time he will actually go through with it. Maybe if he sleeps with her, he will think about her instead of Kurt?

 

Or three, he can just let his feelings decide. He knows he likes Kurt, but he wants something more than just someone to sleep with. Kurt doesnt want that. He is satisfied now since they have slept together, so Kurt doesnt want anything more to do with him. But after today it looks like Kurt want more. More sex though, nothing more. But that kiss… Can something more happen?

 

Blaine lies in his bed for a while, trying to decide what to do. He knows number two is just pointless. He likes Kurt; he just has to except that. So its either one or three…

 

Blaine sighs and decides to get out of the house. Maybe that will help. He drives to a café and orders a coffee. He finds a seat by the window and looks out at people walking by. He sees a couple walking hand in hand and he instantly gets jealous. He wants that, holding the person he loves. If he is gay he can never do that public though. He cant have children; he will always have people looking at him with an ugly look or say something bad to him. And what will his parents think? Is it really worth it? Losing all that just because of his feelings?

 

Blaine is about to walk out when Kurt walks into the café. Blaine panics and tries not to be noticed. Mission failed.

 

"Well hello there baby," Kurt says and sits down.

 

Blaine doesnt say anything, just looks at Kurt. He has never really noticed, but Kurts eyes are really beautiful.

 

Kurt smiles, "So what are you doing here? Didnt you say something about proving something to me?"

 

"It didnt work out," Blaine says simply.

 

Kurt hums, not sounding surprised at all.

 

"You want to get out of here?" Blaine suddenly asks and this surprises them both.

 

Kurt grins and nods, gets up and walks out, Blaine follows after him.

 

They start walking down the street.

 

"Where do you want to go baby?" Kurt asks, finding a smoke.

 

Blaine makes a disgusted face, "you know it will kill you right?"

 

Kurt rolls his eyes, "yes, maybe I dont care. Its sweet you care though."

 

For some reason they end up at Blaines house. His parents arent home; he knows that, so it would be okay.

 

"And here we are again," Kurt grins as Blaine opens the door.

 

Blaine closes the door and in no time, Kurt is pushing him against it.

 

"Wait-"Blaine starts, but Kurt kisses him.

 

He kisses Kurt back, pulling him close. His stomach makes a big jump at the feeling. Can this become something more? What if they spend enough time together so that Kurt will fall in love with him? Maybe if they sleep together one more time he will start liking Blaine.

 

Kurt tongue ring runs inside his mouth and Blaine moans.

 

"Okay, okay, we need to stop," Blaine gets out and gets away from Kurt.

 

"Arent we passed this now? We want each other, so lets get upstairs."

 

Blaine looks at Kurt. Did he mean he only wants him for sex or more?

 

"How do you want me? A quickie before finding a new one to fuck?"

 

Kurt sighs, "why is it so bad to just want some fun?"

 

"Its not, Im just not like you; I dont want just a quickie and be done with it. Im still trying to find out who I am and I'm really confused because I like you. I know you thing it will never work with a relationship, but have you ever tried?"

 

"I…" Kurt shakes his head, "it never works. People always mess up and leave."

 

Blaine shakes his head, "you dont know that. What if I said I would never do that?"

 

Kurt shakes his head again, "you dont know that. And you dont even know me."

 

"I want to," Blaine says, moving closer, "look me in the eyes and tell me that you didnt feel anything when we kissed in the bathroom."

 

Kurt doesnt say anything for a few seconds, "I dont do feelings."

 

"I didnt ask about that," Blaine mumbles and kisses Kurt softly, just like in the bathroom earlier today.

 

Kurt kisses him back and Blaine cups his cheek.

 

"I cant-"Kurt starts, trying to pull away.

 

Blaine stops him though, "just shut up and kisses me."

 

Kurt moves closer and kisses him again, a little needier this time. Blaine wraps his arms around his neck and pushes him to the couch in the living room. He lies down and Kurt lies down on top of him, kissing him again.

 

What does this mean? Are they together? Does he only want sex? Should he stop? Should he ask?

 

Everything is spinning in his head, but he pushes them away, he can worry about that later. He has this extremely hot good kisses on top of him, he can worry later.

 

Kurt takes off his leather jacket and white t-shirt and Blaine notice a tattoo on his stomach and chest. He is about to ask what they are, but he kisses Blaine again, moaning slightly.

 

Blaine tilts his head back and Kurt kisses his neck, "what are we?" Blaine asks.

 

He cant just sleep with Kurt again without knowing what they are. He wants Kurt, so much, but he isnt sure his heart can handle it.

 

Kurt sighs, "Cant we just have fun baby? Do we need to put any labels?"

 

Blaine runs his hands up Kurts back, "either we are together or we are not, its that simple. We dont have to tell anyone if thats what you are afraid of; I dont want anyone to know actually, Im not ready for that."

 

Kurt sits up, "why does it have to be either way? Cant we just sleep together and have fun? I told you, I dont do relationships."

 

"Do you like me?" Blaine asks, biting his lips slightly.

 

Kurt sighs and gets up putting his clothes back on, "like I said, I dont do this."

 

"Well, if I like you and you like me… why cant we just try? Isnt it worth trying?"

 

Kurt walks over to the door and Blaine quickly stops him from walking out the door.

 

"Why are you pushing me away?" Blaine asks, trying to understand this.

 

 

"You dont want me," Kurt shakes his head and opens the door, leaving. 


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