"Dave......Wait......."

"Whats wrong?"

"Im not ready."

"What do you mean ‘Im not ready.?"

"Thats exactly what I mean. Now get off"

Kurt pulled himself out from underneath his jock of a so called boyfriend.  As he started to put his shirt and pants back on he heard a growl behind me.

"Kurt, baby. What are you doing? You told me an hour ago you were ready and now youre not?"

"I cant do this for the first time with someone who isnt even proud enough to come out yet."

"WHAT?!?! Thats the reason you wont have sex with me? Its because Im not out at school about my sexuality?"

"DAVE YOU ARENT OUT ANY WHERE!!!! I mean you are out  right now."

A small blush appeared on Daves face as he turned around on his bed and fixed himself.  

"I cant believe this weve been together for a half a year now, and you decide in this moment, the moment I want to show you how much I love you, to be picky about me coming out?"

Kurt crawled onto the bed and wrapped his arms around Daves waist.

"Its not just that. I know you love me. I really do. Its just. Im not ready yet. Its been a tough week with the bullying. My dad is getting sicker. I have other things on my mind and I want to be able to focus just on us when we finally do it. okay?

All of a sudden Dave ripped out of Kurts arms and started gathering his clothes and mumbling under his breath.

"David whats wrong?"

"Im gonna kill ‘em" David said under his breath just barely audible to Kurt.  Kurt got up lunging towards the door and standing in front of Daves path.

"What are you going to do?"

"Which ones? Im gonna kill them!"  Dave said looking right into Kurts eyes.

"Dave youre scaring me calm down. Take deep breaths. There you go." Kurt said as Dave took a cleansing breath. "Now sit on your bed and explain this to me." Kurt said pushing Dave down onto the bed.  When Dave finally calmed down enough he started to talk at lightning speed.

"The Bullies Kurt which one of those stupid guys this time. Im going to punch there face in for making you feel this way. With all the shit youre already going through. I stopped why cant they? I dont understand why the-" Kurt cut Dave off with a soft kiss on the lips. When Kurt pulled back he saw in Daves eyes love.

"You cant do anything about the bullies. You know you cant. If you told them off or started beating them in my honor you would be out before you know it." Kurt sat down next to him on the bed and put his head on Daves shoulder.  

"Unless you want to come out."

"Im not ready. You of all people should know that. Kurt I love you and I wish I could hold your hand in the halls but Im not strong like you were. I still cant apologize enough for what I did to you. It kills me thinking I hurt someone I love so much now." Dave grabbed Kurts hand and stayed like that for a while in a comfortable silence they were so used to. Until Dave broke the silence.

"Its okay youre not ready yet. I can wait. I would wait forever for you. And who knows maybe Ill be ready to come out next year.  Just know I love you. Okay?" Kurt looked back up into Daves eyes seeing the hope and sorrow in them.

"You know you dont have to apologize anymore. Thank you for understanding. I love you too." Kurt said giving Dave a small kiss and pulling him onto the bed to cuddle.  Thats how they spent the rest of Saturday. Until Kurt had to follow the routine of sneaking out the window and to his car down the street so Daves dad wouldnt see him. Kurt realized something on that walk though. That routine was too familiar.