Life has been weird ever since I saw Blaine. It's been a year, and I keep having these dreams about him, about us. I think I can say I'm in love with Blaine again. But I don't think I'm going to run, well maybe into his arms. No I can't do that! I need someone else, someone that knows I used to like Blaine. Mr. Shuce, I told him that Christmas at Dalton. Now I just gotta hope he still lives in Lima and no one see me, last thing I need is to be yelled at by my old friends.

I changed back into my old look I took everything out but the eyebrow ring.

I walked up to the door that I hoped was still Mr. Shuce's

I knocked and after a couple minutes no one answer to a turned around and started to walk away when the door unlocked, and there stood a little girl in a pretty pink dress with red hair.

"Hello?" She asked

"Hello, is your mom or dad home?" I asked

She nodded her head and told me to come in. I laughed and said I shouldn't in less her mother/father say so, and I asked her if she could go get one. She giggled and ran back into the house and yelled for her mom.

The mother comes to the door.

"Kurt?" She asked with eyes wide open

"Hi Miss Pillsbury." I said awkwardly

"Call me Emma." She reached her hand out. I smiled and shook it, "Wait, everyone said you're dead?"

"Yeah, I've heard that." I laughed

"What did Finn say to you? He hasn't been the same since you left, He blames himself."

"You're the only one who knows, well besides from my ex girlfriend who his Blaine Anderson's sister, so he knows, but it's been a year since I've talked to any of them."

"So why are you here and not with your family and friends?" She asked.

"Well I need Mr. Shuces help." I said

"Oh, well he'll be back from work in about half an hour, come in, I'm sure the girls would like to play with you." Emma smiled

"Oh, OK." I smiled and walked into the house. I made it five steps before 4 hands where wrapped around me. Which made me fall to the ground laughing.

I two little girls jumped on me, pulled my shirt up and drew all over my stomach with markers, I was too busy laughing to tell them to stop. I really didn't mind anyway.

Emma came back into the liven room with two cups, when she saw what the girl were doing, she put the cup down and pulled them off.

"Oh God Kurt I'm so sorry. Girls go up to your room till daddy comes home." She said, the girls said they were sorry and left.

"It's no biggy. Really, I don't mind." I said pulling my shirt down and grabbing a cup, "Wait, this is for me right? It isn't for Mr. Shuce?" I asked

She laughed, "No, it's for you hun. It's just some tea. Cause you know old people like me like there tea."

"Oh come on you're not that old." I laughed.

We talk for a while, till we heard the front door open then a bag drop, and the next thing I knew, Mr. Shuce was grabbing my face looked all over it, with wide eyes and a dropped jaw. He pulled his hand back fell on the floor in front of me and whispered, "Kurt?"

I really didn't know what to say, so I laughed and said, "Hey."

"Your- your alive?" He asked still starting at me.

"For the third time, yes I'm alive." I said, "And no one knows, well you Emma, Jazz, and Blaine all do."

"How is Blaine? Once you left he came to Mckinley. He got beat up, pushed around. He didn't talk to anyone, till he joined glee club in his last year on school. Wait do you still like him? Are you guys together yet?"

"He what? That's awful, and yes I still like him but he doesn't know. It's kinda hard, see his sister is my ex girlfriend." I laughed at his face.

"What? Kurt you're gay." He said confused of why I would date a girl.

"Yeah but Dan wasn't... See when I left I changed my life, I dyed my hair lots of colours, dated women. Changed my name. It was going so well till Blaine showed up. Then everything just fell apart. He took his sister home, and I lived by myself. She was the only one I had. Then I hopped on a train here to ask you for help."

"On what?" Will asked

"Well you see Mr. Shuce,"

"Call me Will Kurt we're not in school anymore."

"OK, Will. I need you to hold at party for and invite everyone back, I need to see them. So if you can, please text me who ever is coming. I'm going to see Finn and Carole." I said standing up.

"I'll take your cup." Emma smiled as she took it.

"Well it's great to see you Kurt, I will get right on inviting everyone. And I'm sorry to hear about your dad." He said

"Thanks. It was hard at first, I wanted to break down and cry when Blaine told me, but I wasn't going to make a fool of myself. Every night I cry myself to sleep you know. My dad was there for me when my mom died, when I came out. It's hard, but I'll make it." I said with a sad smile

"Well, take care. I'll text you when I find out more." Will smiled.

I walked down the path to my old house, my home. I flicked the end of my smoke, took a few more puffs then put it out. I sighed and looked up, right in front of me was my childhood, everything that ever ment anything to me. I walked up the path and walked right in. It was dark and quiet. Then again in was getting pretty late. I closed the door and locked it behind me. I froze when I heard Finn's voice from downstairs.

"Puck I've told you before, if you want to come over fine, but at least text or call me."

A took a deep breathe a walked to the top of the stairs and said, "Hey Finn."

I heard some stuff moving around then Finn stood at the bottom of the stairs with tear filled eyes. Which widen once he saw I was really here. He ran up the stair and tackled me into a hug. Carole must of heard the bang from when we hit the floor because she was standing over us with tears falling down her cheeks.

"Kurt? Is it really you?" Finn cried into my shoulder

"Yeah, it's me Finn." I smiled as I stoke his hair. Carole went to make some coffee for us.

"What- What happened? They told me you where dead, I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you. God Kurt I love you, please don't leave me again." I held onto Finn for dear life. I felt loved, that's really all I ever wanted.

"Finn honey let Kurt breathe," Carole said, as Finn rolled off of me then helped me up. "I know there's no easy way to say this, but your father passed away soon after you left." Carole said with tears in her eyes.

"I know, Blaine told me. I'm so sorry Mom, this was all my fault. If I didn't leave he'd still be alive, you'd still have a husband, Finn and I would have had a dad. I'm so sorry." I broke down, crying in the arms of my family.

"Kurt it's not your fault, and we don't blame you or hate you. God when you left I broke, I know you have only been my step son for not even 6 months, but I care for you, and I love you." Carole said crying

"Me too bro." Finn hugged me.

"I love you guys." I smiled.

It's been a week since I've been back in town. I told Carole and Finn my plan and they promised not to tell anyone. Mr. Schue had got in touch with everyone, and we planned to met up with everyone on Friday, which is tomorrow.

I'm freaking out, it's been years since I've seen them and they think I'm dead. What if they hate me? What if they were happy I was dead? Oh God, that's it, they don't want to see me, I should leave. Yes, leave. Where's my suitcase?

"I hid it." Finn said from behind me. Shit I must of said that out loud.

"I'm not letting you leave again." Finn said with watery eyes. I felt like my heart was ripping out, "Please don't."

"Oh Finn." I hugged him. He started sobbing, "I'm not. I can't, even though I'm scared I can't do that to you and Carole."

"What are you scared of?" Finn asked me

"That they're not going to like me, I mean everyone thinks I'm dead, what if they wanted me to be dead anyway. Like what if their happy with their life's now that I'm not in them anymore?" I asked

"Kurt, listen to me, after you left no one was the same, all those Warblers, they were lost, they all switched school, so that they could be with us, the ND and Warblers became a family, and each one of them lost someone they loved, I lost someone I loved."

"I'm so sorry." I cried into his chest.

"Kurt, Finn, Carole! Time to go" Mr. Schue yelled when he opened to door.

I ran up the stairs, and grabbed my coat and followed them out the door.

"Oh God!" A said when I saw all the cars parked at the school which Will got a hold of to be the meeting place.

"So how are we going to do this?" Finn asked

"I have no idea." I said sheepishly.

Carole rolled her eyes, "Kurt dear, you'll hid up on stage, after Will, Finn and I, get everything set up and everyone starts to ask us why the sudden call out of the blue, we'll get you to come out. And since we're a glee club after all, yes you may sing a song, cause I know you have some on your mind." Carole laughed

I blushed, "After 21 years you still know me."

"Yup." She smiled.

"I don't think singing would be a good idea." Finn said

"And why not Hudson?" I asked

"Because, they think your dead, and if you just walk up singing, they'll probably attack you."

"Like you did to me?" I asked with a grin on my face

Finn blushed, "I missed you."

I laughed, "Well OK, but how are we going to do this? We should of thought this through." I sighed

"To late to back out now Kurt." Will said as he pulled into a packing space and hopped out of the van, followed by the rest of us.

"I'll take Kurt around back so no one sees him." Carole said taking my arm.

"Wait, Kurt you said Blaine knows about you. What if he's told everyone by now?" Finn asked

"I know Blaine, as much as he wants to tell everyone, he won't. That's one of the things I love about him." I sighed. I needed to get over this stupid crush.

"Kurt you need to tell him how you feel, or your lose him forever." Finn said

"I know." I sighed.

"Come on hun, let's go around back." Carole said dragging me away.

"So Mr. Schue why are we here? We meet up last year." Quinn said. Puck, Mike, Wes, and Arite nodded they head

"Well, because this year's different." Mr. Schue said

Blaine raised his eyebrow. "Why did you ask if I could bring Jazz with me?" He asked

"I just wanted to met her."

"How did you know she was my sister?" Blaine asked

"Yeah, Mr. Schue. How did you know? Do you have some sort of video watching us every minute?" Brittany asked

"That's creepy Mr. Schue!" Rachel said

"Yeah man."

"This party's going well."

"SHUT UP." I yelled, regerting it as everyone's eyes turned to look at me. They were all shot opened, and some started tearing up.

"Dolphin?" Brittany asked the same time Jazz, and everyone else asked "Kurt?"

"Hi." I said awkwardly

"White boy I'm going to cut you!" Mercedes yelled tackling me to the ground crying. Soon everyone was hugging me. All crying

"I- I thought you were dead." Jeff cried. Everyone nodded their head in agreement

"No, he left. He moved to a place three hours away, dyed his hair, changed his look, and started dating girls." Blaine said, starting at Kurt

"You knew he was alive and didn't tell us?" Wes asked angerly and shocked

"Yeah, he kinda dated my sister." Blaine said taking a couple steps back.

Before anyone starting yelling at Blaine, Nick cut in, "Before we yell at Blaine. Let's get back to the guy whom should be dead." He looked over a Kurt

"Why?" Puck yelled looking at Kurt, "Why? Why did you leave? The last past 21 years have been hell. And here you are, perfect as always. Why Kurt, why did you have to go, we could of helped you." Puck cried

"Ron wasn't the only reason I left." I said, taking a deep breath, "I- I fell in love with someone, I knew would never like me back."

The girls have me sad looks because they knew I liked Blaine. Mr. Schue nodded his head saddly remembering the last thing they talked about before he left. Finn smiled I little and mouthed 'Now or never'. I smiled and walked over to Blaine.

"I'm sorry." I said, before he could respond I kissed him. My tears soaked both of our faces. I pulled back and passed him, and sat outside in the rain looking up at the sky wishing it would just eat me up. I knew everyone would be looking at me and mad, but I just needed some air. I pulled out a smoke and lit it.

I heard some nosises but didn't bother looking up, the owener of the nosies sat down beside me

"Smoking a cancer stick I see." Jeff sighed

"Hey Jeffery." I said

"Hey. It's nice to see you again." He smiled, I smiled back. "Blaine's looking for you."

I sighed, "Let me guess so is everyone else."

"No, I texted them all I found you, there making Blaine look over here. I'm gonna go before he comes, but please don't run, we can't take losing you again, and sorry about your father. He was a great man, I guess you take after him." Jeff smiled hugging me.

"I won't, now go before Blaine gets here." I smiled and pushed him back to the school. After he left I sighed and put out my smoke.

"Kurt?"

I sighed and turned around to Blaine, who had red eyes from crying.

"Oh, Blaine." I sighed and pulled him into a hug.

"I can't lose you." He hugged me tighter, "I love you too!" He kissed my neck.

I pulled back with a grin and said, "I never said I loved you."

"Oh, um.... Sorry." He tried to pull back but I didn't let him go

"I love you too!" Their lips pressed together for a moment, softly and sweetly. They could feel the other's mouth turned up into a smile, even as their lips meshed and twisted. My arms wrapped around Blaine's neck, pulling him closer, nearly every body part was touching each other in some way.

I pulled back smiling, "I've wanted to do that forever."

"Me too." Blaine smiled and kissed me again.

I felt like I never wanted to run away again. This is home, it's where I belong.