Chapter 3: Forgive

As I'm driving to the mall the song Defying Gravity came on the radio, I immediately changed the station the song brought too many hurtful memories. Memories of how I blew the note during the Diva-off just to save my father from the pain of having his son being ridiculed. Memories of Rachel Berry flaunting it in my face of how she is the best and how all the solos should go to her because she was there chance of winning Nationals.

Ugh that girl is the start of all my problems. I thought bitterly. She's so full of herself and thinks she's the best in everything. I could've beaten her during the Dive-off and many more! She's just a wannabe, crush stealer, big nose, and hobbit size bitch! God that felt good!

I felt my pocket vibrate. Stopping on a red light I take my phone to see I have a message from BLAINE?! Blaine is the last person who I thought wanted to speak to me. I quickly look at the message before the light changes.

From:Blaine=)

To: Kurt

Hey Kurt, can we talk? I wanted to apologized Nick made me see things in a different perspective and I treated you like an ass. I hope you can forgive me I don't want to ruin our friendship over something meaningless and stupid. I accept the fact you don't agree with bisexuality and doesn't accept me this way. But I hope we can figure something out.

I stare at the message for what seems to be hours until I hear the car behind me honking and the guy inside it cursing me out. This pisses me off, I quickly start driving away but not without flipping the guy off first. Ha his face, priceless. I would have never that before and it felt good, it felt........rebellious.

I finally arrived at the mall's parking lot and parked my car. Turning off the engine I sit quietly in my seat, thoughts going a thousand miles an hour.

So Blaine apologized for being a dick, but has he apologized for comparing me to my tormentor? He didn't mention him. You know what! If he thinks I will go back to following him around like a lost puppy he is very wrong! Screw him if he thinks that apologizing by text message will make me forgive him then he is wrong again! If he wants to apologize then he better say it to my face!

In my anger, I quickly type up a text message.

To: Blaine =)

From: Kurt

Hi Blaine I'm sorry but you're not forgiven. Call me.

I send the message and wait for him to call me because hey I need to get this out of my system and texting simply won't be enough.

You think I'm pretty

Without any makeup on

You think I'm funny

When I tell the punch line wrong

I know you get me

So I let my walls come down, down

"Hello." I answered calmly.

"Kurt what the hell do you mean that I'm not forgiven!?" Blaine all but shouted. Why is Blaine angry? I should be the one pissed off right now!

"Exactly what it means Blaine! I don't forgive you!" I screamed because as much as I love Blaine I am not in the mood and I will not come off as the bad guy here. Kurt Hummel has never lost a fight (well verbally) and he won't start today just because it's Blaine.

"Kurt I said I'm sorry and but wasn't it you that started going on bisexuality and how it was just an excuse for gay men to feel normal. You are the one that started this argument and you are the one that basically shunned me!" Playing the innocent card are you now? Well after this we will see who the innocent one is and who the bad guy is.

"Oh! So now I'm the fucking bad guy aren't I? I didn't shunned you Blaine I was just disagreed on your sudden decision that your bi! I look up to you Blaine! I admired how proud you were of being gay and then you kiss a girl one day during a game of Spin the Bottle drunk and now your bi! How did you think I would feel!? Huh!" I was seething, he thinks he can make me look bad and insult me!

"Well like I said before not everyone is a 100% sure of whom they are Kurt! I am not you! I haven't known I was gay since I was five! I don't have a supporting father like you Kurt and if I like girls Kurt maybe just maybe my father would accept me!" I could hear his heavy breathing over the phone and know he is just as angry as I am but not as hurt.

"Hey Blaine remember when you were gay and you said you didn't give a shit of what other people thought of you! And how fucking proud you were of being gay and if other people had a problem with it they can fuck themselves! Remember "prejudice is just ignorance"! Because I don't think you do! God you think I have an easy life Blaine huh! Before Glee club I had no one but my dad! And hey at least you have a mother, a mother who accepts you, who loves you and guides you when you're lost. I don't have a mother because she's dead!" I nearly lost it at that point but I got to finish. He must know he's in deep shit because Kurt Hummel never curses.

"So yeah be pissed at me for trying understanding you, for having a father and for admiring you!" I was panting like I just ran a race but god it all had to come out one way or another. I hope I got to Blaine by using his own words against him.

"Kurt I-I don't know what to say. Look Kurt I'm just so confused and I just wanted for my best friend to be there for me." He did not just use the pity card!

"I was never there for you Blaine really?! You make sound like I'm the bad guy here! You think you're the only hurting from our argument well no I am too. Because a person who I looked up to and gave me courage compared me to my tormentor. A person who has made my life a living hell, a person who stole my first kiss, someone who bullied me senseless, someone who shove me in lockers hard and harassed me! Because of this certain person my back, arms, legs and even face has had bruises! I don't take off my shirt because you'll see the different colors sporting on my back. And Blaine, friends don't say that to other friends and making them relive an awful high school experience. So yeah be mad at me because I don't understand your sudden bisexuality but I am hurt Blaine and saying that was really low." Tears again were streaming down my face and again I mentally scolded myself for breaking down so easily.

"Kurt I- "I hung up because after my sudden outbreak I didn't want to hear what Blaine had to say now. Maybe we can talk later but not now. I cried one last good time before looking at myself at my car's side view mirror and thought:

Never again will I be who I was before.

Never again am I getting pushed around.

Never again will I let myself be vulnerable.

Never Again........