Chapter 9


"Tell me Kurt." Burt begged, and Kurt shook his head.

Blaine was sitting beside Kurt at the kitchen table, his hand protectively on his boyfriend's knee.

"I don't want to." Kurt mumbled.

"Honey, it's okay. We need to talk about it. It'll be alright, I'm right here." Blaine told his boyfriend, and wrapped an arm around his waist comfortingly.

"Did you get someone pregnant?" 

Both Kurt in and Blaine looked in disgust. "Ummmm no. Not even close..." Kurt chuckled.

"Did you kill someone or go to jail?"

"What? No. No dad just listen..." Kurt let in a long breath before beginning. "So you know how...um Connor...Connor was hitting me?" Kurt could feel the tear price his eyes.

Blaine put an arm around him noticing this was hard for Kurt. 

"Kurt please just tell me." Burt begged again. "Your starting to scare me."

"Well I had had no one to talk to and-and I was Isolated. I kept all my feeling bottled up and I didn't know what to do-" Kurt broke off a sob. 

Burt ran over and wrapped an arm around him as Blaine held his hand giving him a reassuring squeeze.

"I can't do this!" Kurt sobbed. 

"Yes you can sweetie! You have to tell him. This is for the better remember?" Blaine said kissing his boyfriends head.

"I can't."

"Want me to?" Blaine asked gently.

Kurt nodded somberly. 

"Kurt's um..." Blaine had no idea how to say it so he just went with it. There was no sensitive way of putting it. "Kurt's...um...Been cutting himself." 

Burt looked like he just saw a ghost. Cutting? Was he serious? "Kurt, do you realize how dangerous this is?" He couldn't help loosing his temper. "You could die. This is such a stupid thing to do." Burt said, looking as if he was lost.

"DON'T YELL AT ME!" Kurt sobbed angrily as he fell into his boyfriends chest.

"Shhhhh I'm sorry." Burt cooed as his eyes melted. He went over to his son rubbing his back. "Hey, I shouldn't have yelled. But you can't be doing this. Come talk to us, Come down and Stay with us for a week, but this?" Burt said taking his scarred wrist. "Is not the answer."

"I don't need to...I'm not crazy." Kurt said, nearly a whisper. Just like that, his insecurities were visible.

"Oh sweetie. No, you are not crazy. We know it better than anyone. You are so amazing. Everyone breaks down sometimes." Blaine said, his eyes watery and his voice dripping with guilt.

Kurt looked at him for a moment and then turned back to his dad.

"Kurt, I lost your mom. I can't lose you as well." Burt said as his voice cracked. 

"I know." Kurt cried. "That's why I told you. I can't stop. I'm...I'm weak and I can't help it. It's an addiction. It consumes you."

"Kurt Hummel you are NOT weak." Burt said sternly. "You are the strongest person I know. Just like your mom."

Kurt smiled at the mention of his mother. He hoped he was like her. She was so sweet and beautiful. He never wanted to let her down ever and he constantly thought about her. "She's probably so disappointed in me." Kurt said looking at his lap.

"No she's not Kurt. She's understanding. Everyone has there boiling point and this is yours. Well get past this. Just remember that your not alone. Not now, not ever." Burt said putting a hand in his back. "You have Carole, Finn, Rachel, Blaine, and me to talk to. We all love you so much and want to see you happy." 

Kurt smiled before pulling his father into the biggest hug as possible. "I love you so much."

"I love you too kiddo."

Blaine couldn't help getting emotional at the fatherly son moment. He maybe a male but he had the heart of a teenage girl...