Not much later Kurt and Blaine are cuddled up on Kurt's bed. After having a cuddle with Blaine straight after seeing Sarah Kurt wanted to get as far away from the prison as was physically possible.

"I'm so proud of you Kurt. I can only imagine how hard it was going in there and facing her but you did it. It just goes to show just how strong you really are." Kurt can’t help but smile, just knowing Blaine is proud of him means so much.

"Thank you Blaine. It means a lot, and thank you for being there for me."

"I wouldn't have it any other way sweetie," Blaine says, carding his fingers gently through Kurt's hair.

"I think I'm about ready to go back to New York now. Seeing Alaxander tomorrow then we are going home. I know it sounds crazy but I just can't wait to get some normality back in my life,” Kurt says a hint of sadness in his voice, as deep down he knows nothing will really be the same again.

"I know, I don't want to sound solemn or anything but just don't expect it too quickly baby. I don't doubt that things will get back to normal but it will take time. You still have a lot of important things to decide about. No one is going to rush you so just let everything go at the right pace."

Kurt turns so that he can look directly into Blaine's eye. "I know darling, but just being home in New York will add some normality back if you know what I mean. I know I have a lot of thinking to do but I know I can't do it here. Whatever decision I make doesn't affect us here is affects us back in New York. I need to be at home to think about these decisions." Kurt moves his hand up to gently cup Blaine's face, "I do know one thing though, that I am a very lucky man to have such a supportive fiancé, most people would have run miles." Kurt lens forwards and places a soft kiss against Blaine's lips, before pulling back to rest his forehead against Blaine’s.

"I plan on going nowhere babe; I'm in for the long haul." This time it’s Blaine who presses his lips against Kurt's. Kurt is glad that Blaine has initiated a kiss, ever since the news that he was raped Blaine seems slightly unsure when it comes to insinuating any physical contact beyond hugs. Kurt, particularly to his own surprised leans in and deepens the kiss. After a few moments of their lips moving together, Kurt swipes his tongue across Blaine's bottom lip asking for access, which he is quickly granted. He moved his tongue slowly into Blaine's mouth just allowing him to taste everything about the other man. There is a strong taste of coffee, along with a subtle hint of cinnamon and something else that is just entirely Blaine. All too soon Kurt is pulling back for air, and once again resting his head against Blaine's, "I love you," he states simply.

"I love you too. Do you want to talk about tomorrow, I know how big it is for you and I want to be here for you in any way I can," Blaine says while wrapping his arms around Kurt's waist.

"If you don't mind Blaine, it would be nice to get a few things off my chest." He really did in a way h feels more nervous about see Alexander then he was about seeing Sarah.

"Of course not sweetie, go ahead I'm all ears." Kurt slowly turns around in Blaine's embrace so that they are spooning, with him as the little spoon.

"I'm pretty scared to be honest. I know I have seen what Alaxander looks like and I know that he looks like me, but I think everything is just going to become so much more real tomorrow, if you know what I mean. Right now he is just a photo, something still unmoving, but tomorrow I will really see him. I'll hear his voice for the first time, I'll see for myself how tall he is, and all the things like that that just can't be conveyed in a photo."

Kurt is comforted by the gentle rub of Blaine's fingers across the top of his chest. He lets his eyes fall close as Blaine begins to talk. "I can't begin to imagine what that is like Kurt. Yes he will become real but I think it's a good thing. As we both know you have some important decisions to make regarding Alaxander, and I think seeing him will help with that. As you said at the moment he is just a picture, you don't know what kind of personality or anything he has. Meeting him tomorrow will help you know what he is like, that will allow you to better imagine what our lives would be live if he was back with us in New York. At the moment all you would be able to imagine would be a picture. Just don't go there with any expectations, that way everything that does happen is a positive," Blaine reasons.

Kurt lies there breathing in the scent of home just letting Blaine's words sink in. He has to admit he agrees with everything that Blaine is saying, but something is bothering him. "You're right Blaine I know that but there is just something I can't get out of my head, and it's really bothering me," Kurt confess.

"Turn round and talk to me about it," Blaine suggests.

Kurt decides that he should do just that, if he can’t share his worries with Blaine who can he share them with? He turns around in Blaine's arms once more, before he fells Blaine shifting them both so they are sat up slightly against the head board. Kurt has to admit it is easier to look at Blaine this way; he needs to be able to see the expression of Blaine features as much as her his words right now.

Kurt is glad that Blaine restarts the gentle rubbing, this time on his back instead of his chest. "I am going to see Alaxander for the first time in my life. It's over three years too late compared to when I should have met him, but nothing I can do will change that, so I know I will just have to come to accept that. What I don't like however is the fact I have to go there tomorrow and interact with my son, knowing he is my son, yet being unable to tell him. The first time I meet my son I have to lie to him and tell him I'm a friend of his mother's. A mother he could well ask about seeing as he hasn't been allowed to see for over a week. I'm worried that I won't be able to say anything about his mother without freezing up, but most of all I really don't want to lie to him the first time I see him. How is that for a good start to our relationship if I do decide I want to take it further?" As he finishes speaking he can’t help the sight that escapes, he is happy to have so much off his chest. All those fears and worries have been building up since he spoke to Alaxander's social worker about wanting to see him, and her telling him that he couldn't tell the truth of who he was.

Kurt watches Blaine running his lip thought his teeth repeatedly, knowing it is a sign that he is thinking he leaves him to it, knowing Blaine will speak when he knows exactly what he wants to say.

After a few minutes Blaine tightens the grip he has around Kurt with the arm that isn’t stroking his back, and begins to speak. "I know you, being the moral person you are, will find tomorrow very difficult if you have to lie to Alaxander. However I can understand why they want you to. Please don't take this any of the wrong way, I'm just trying to help you understand," Blaine says gently. Kurt can tell he has the best intentions from the look in his eye, so he nods so Blaine knows to continue. "Alaxander is 3 and you have no idea whether he thought someone else was his dad, or whether he knew nothing about you, or whether he did in fact maybe know some things about you. Can you imagine if either of the first two options was correct and you suddenly turn up and tell the little boy you're his father? That would be confusing for anyone, let alone a three year old. That is I'm guessing the first reason they don't want him knowing. Secondly I will say this, and I'm not making any guesses as to what you are going to do here, but they will have to have all the options covered. What if you see Alaxander tomorrow and then tomorrow or in a few weeks or months even decide you want nothing to do with him. If you do decided that everyone knows under the circumstances you are well within your rights, however the poor boy is already facing the foreseeable future without his mother, if you tell him you're his father and then have nothing to do with him he's losing two parents not just one." Kurt shudders at the thoughts, he knows what it’s like to lose a parent, he is slowly beginning to understand where Elaine, Alaxander's social worker is coming from. He should have known to air these feelings with Blaine as soon as he came off the phone with her; Blaine always knows just what to say. Blaine obviously felt his shudder as his next words are ones of comfort.

"Shhh it's alright Kurt, I know you have so many thoughts running through your head now, but no one will judge you for the choices you eventually make, they will know you're doing it for the right reasons. Lastly and this is one I'm speculating the most about but in regards to having to tell Alaxander that you're his mom's friend; can you imagine just how much turmoil that boy has been through this past week and a bit, nothing had been the constant he is used to, I am guessing that by getting you to say you know his mother, that he will one feel he has a bit of something he can relate to in his life, and two I'm guessing they are thinking that his mother will be the easiest topic that he will start talking about. If he thinks you are her friend maybe they are hoping this will help you with conversation to start with?"

Kurt doesn’t even need to think about what Blaine has said to know he is right. "How do you always know what to say?" Kurt questions moving his forehead so it is resting against Blaine's.

"Because, I have had many years getting to know you and just what you need to hear to feel comforted." Kurt feels Blaine place a soft kiss on the tip of his nose, before only a split second later their foreheads are resting together again. "However I must also say, it's getting late and it's a big day tomorrow let's get some rest."

Kurt knowing Blaine is right starts to shuffle back down on the bed, he notices that Blaine never once loosens his grip on him and they ended up lying down once more.

"I love you so much Kurt, I am so proud at how you are handling all of this, and I can't wait to be able to call you my husband. Goodnight love." Blaine says voice laced with love, before placing a kiss on Kurt’s cheek.

"Love you too, good night Blaine," Kurt punctuates his sentence by placing a chaste kiss against Blaine's lips before allowing sleep to overtake him, knowing that Blaine loves him and cares for him, beyond anything else.

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