Kurt sat on his bed his head was spinning it was all so vivid in his head and he just couldn’t get rid of the conversation from earlier that day.
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“Hey guys”, called Sebastian as he walked over to Blaine and Kurt who were sat down together in the lima bean their favourite coffee shop. Sebastian had taken over most of the Warbler solos when Blaine transferred to Mckinle to be with Kurt.
“So crazy... I’m sitting over there checking and this guy and all of a suddenly I’m like wait a second I know that hair” Sebastian continued sitting down next to Blaine midsentence. “What’s up buddy I haven’t seen you online”…. “Hi Kurt”
“We’ve been really busy with Glee club” Blaine explained
“Practicing for sectionals… together” Kurt cut in.
“Congratualtions on the Warbler win at your sectionals.” Blaine said honestly “We’re up this week” wiggling his eye brow at Kurt
“Yer well if there’d one guy that can whip New directions into a legitimate threat its Blaine Anderson right?” Sebastian compliment already knowing the answer to his own question
“Right” “I need another coffee” shaking his empty cup and getting up from the table. He left Kurt and Sebastian alone.
That’s when it got serious between the two boys and there hatred for each other came out
“I don’t like you” Kurt said calmly
“Fun I don’t like you either “ Sebastian said with a smirk
“I don’t like the way you look at my boyfriend, I don’t like your smirk little meerkat face” the one he’s pulling right now Kurt though to himself . “I don’t like your obnoxious CW hair, I’m on to you!”
“Lets get a few things straight” Sebastian retorted staring Kurt straight in the eyes. “Blaine’s too good for you, new directions is a joke! And one of us has a hard luck case of the gay face and it aint me” he said in a demeaning tone.
Then he sunk to an all new low, as he said calmly and plainly “Odds are by the end of the year I’ll have Blaine and a nationals trophy and you’ll have cakeys and a Lima Bean apron and that gay face”
Kurt laughed half-heartedly “you smell like greggs list” finishing his sentence just in time so Blaine didn’t hear it as he returned, coffee in hand.
“what are you guys talking about?” Blaine said retaking his seat
“Dur the next time were all going out drinking, killer” Sebastian said way too casually as if his and Kurt’s whole conversation hadn’t happened.
“uh oh” was all Blaine could say, he still felt guilty for what had happened last time Kurt, Sebastian and himself went out drinking at the gay bar.
Kurt shrugged with a smile towards Blaine.
“Well I gotta run, but you take care of the Warbler Kurt” Sebastian said with a quick wink that only Kurt saw. And he got up and left
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It was about the tenth time Kurt had replayed the whole situation in his head. And he was really feeling like most of it was true, really true. Why exactly did Blaine love him, he was such a Handsome and dapper young man and he chose a failure like me. I’ve got no prospect of going onto collage with nothing on my NYADA application why did I even bother to send it in he thought to himself.
But there was thing more than the rest that he couldn’t get out of his head. “by the end of the year I’ll have Blaine”, “by the end of the year I’ll have Blaine”, “by the end of the year I’ll have Blaine”, “by the end of the year I’ll have Blaine”. He just couldn’t get rid of it.
Then he realised how self he was being, that’s all he was a useless selfish idiot, who was holding his boyfriend back. The love of his life was too good for him, and he made Blaine dad hate Blaine. That’s not what a boyfriend does he thought, I’m no boyfriend, I’m just idiotic gay Kurt Hummel. From that second onward he knew what he had to do, he had to let his angel go, he had to let him make something of his life even if he couldn’t. So he sent Blaine a text plain and simple.
We need to talk; I don’t think this is working. Kurt. He didn’t bother putting anything else none of the normal kisses he would do nothing. It was just a text that was to the point.
His phone buzzed, Care to elaborate as I have no idea, and your kinda worrying me x x
Kurt thought for a minute before sending a reply and it was simple and to the point I don’t want to make you unhappy anymore. He gave it no second thought before hitting send.
The reply came so quickly is actually surprise Kurt. What the hell are you talking about Kurt? You are the LOVE of my life and you make me the happiest man alive where are you, your worrying me I want to talk to you face to face x x
Kurt thought for a while wondering whether or not to tell Blaine where he was he decided to for two reason, one he would probably come looking for him anyway and two he wasn’t a coward he was gonna end this properly. I’m at home. Blaine I’m never going to be good enough for you. I am just Kurt, no one special. You on the other hard are amazing, your brilliant at everything and you look amazing all the time, and you’re so strong, in more ways than one. I can’t expect for you to stay with me forever when I know only too well that I’m punching way above my weight. I cant give you happiness people such as your family can. Kurt finished the text with tears streaming down his cheeks he loved Blaine in a way he had never loved anyone else.
Blaine received the texts not having a clue what Kurt was talking about, not knowing what had brought this on. The only thing he knew for sure was that this wasn’t his normal boyfriend talking something had happened or been said to make him feel like this he just wished he knew what. He sent a text that was both clear he was kind of annoyed with Kurt actions but that he also hoped gave across how much Kurt really mean to him. KURT HUMMEL STOP IT NOW I DON’T KNOW WHATS COME OVER YOU BUT YOUR CERTIANLY NOT PUNCHING ABOVE YOUR WEIGHT IF ANYTHING I AM WITH YOU. I’VE SAID IT ALREADY AND I’LL SAY IT AGAIN YOU MAKE ME THE HAPPIEST MAN ALIVE KURT HUMMEL, YOU GIVE ME A HAPPINESS NOONE ELSE CAN. I’M ON MY WAY OVER STAY WHERE YOU ARE.
He grabbed his coat and keys ran out of the door locking it behind him and jumping into his car. He was in such a rush he pulled out of his drive before he even put his seatbelt on, no something Blaine was usually in the habit of doing but he needed to get to Kurt. He knew it was a good while ago, but Blaine still had thoughts about what happened last time got like this. He drove slightly above the speed limit all the way to Kurt’s flawing it at times to get through amber traffic lights.
Meanwhile Kurt was just slumped on the floor against his bed head in his hands. He didn’t know what was going on in his head other than the words were ring in his ears again. . “by the end of the year I’ll have Blaine”, “by the end of the year I’ll have Blaine”, “by the end of the year I’ll have Blaine”.