Jan. 1, 2013, 4:43 p.m.
Who I Am Hates Who I've Been: I Don't Need A Soul
K - Words: 688 - Last Updated: Jan 01, 2013 Story: Closed - Chapters: 5/? - Created: Dec 31, 2012 - Updated: Jan 01, 2013 242 0 0 0 0
I listen to the sirens as they sing me back to sleep
I pray that no one's seriously hurt
It feels like everything is dying at the pivot point of me
I listen to the sirens tell me things could still be worse
Blaine lie there, listening to the ambulance sirens. Why did everyone he loved have to die? First his mother, then his grandfather, then his best friend, and now...no. He wouldn't think about Kurt that way. And even if Kurt did...die... Things could still be worse...
'Cause if you close your eyes and listen close
You can hear the chapter close
And its all rebound and better closed
And you like the way this story goes
Cause the sun still burns the shadows out
And there's nothing to complain about now
Thinking back on it, Blaine knows that everything's for the better. Sure, he doesn't like the fact that Kurt had to die, but that's just the way it is. The sun still burns the shadows out, and there's nothing to complain about. His life isn't perfect, but he has a pretty good life.
'Cause if this was our destiny I'd treasure the fact
And I'd give you whats left of me if I'd held back
Everything happens for a reason. That's what Blaine's mom always used to say. And it's probably true; Blaine just doesn't know what that reason is. He has to take life as it is and treasure the fact. Instead of being upset or getting depressed after Kurt's death, Blaine just looks back and says, "It's destiny. It was supposed to happen."
But I don't need a soul
No I don't need a soul to hold
Without you I'm still whole
You and life remain beautiful
You and life remain beautiful
Kurt remains beautiful in his memory, and Blaine's life is still precious to him. He doesn't need Kurt; Blaine always believed Kurt was his soul mate, but Blaine doesn't need Kurt to survive. Blaine doesn't need his "other half". He's a whole person, not half of a person.
Departing from the hospital
Ill news shows on your face too well
You're trying not to cough at all it hurts
All options are exhausted all your numbered days are numbered small
They all knew the cancer was bad--Kurt struggled to live a normal day. But he kept trying, never gave up, and that's what counted. His days were numbered, and all the options for treatment had pretty much already been tried.
I miss you now
I loved you
And I know things could still be worse
Blaine misses Kurt nearly every day. He loved Kurt so much, and Kurt loved him back. But Blaine's life is amazing, and things could still be worse.
But if you close your eyes and listen close
You can hear the chapter close
And it's all rebound and better closed
And you like the way this story goes
'Cause the sun still burns the shadows out
And there's nothing to complain about now
'Cause if this was our destiny I'd treasure the fact
And I'd give you what's left of me if I'd held back
But I don't need a soul
No I don't need a soul to hold
Without you I'm still whole
You and life remain beautiful
You and life remain beautiful
You and life remain beautiful
If you close your eyes and listen close
You can hear the chapter close
And it's all rebound and better closed
And you like the way this story goes
'Cause the sun still burns the shadows out
And there's nothing to complain about now
Yeah I don't need a soul
No I don't need a soul to hold
Without you I'm still whole
You and life remain beautiful
Yeah I don't need a soul
No I don't need a soul to hold
Without you I'm still whole
You and life remain beautiful
You and life remain beautiful
You and life remain beautiful
No matter what, Blaine knows Kurt would want him to keep living his life normally. He doesn't have to let Kurt's death stop him from living his life. After all, there are people who have it so much worse. Life is still beautiful, and Kurt's memory remains. That's all Blaine could ever ask for.