I Will Remember You, 

Will You Remember Me? 

Don't Let Your Life Pass You By, 

Weep Not For The Memories.

~*~

The morning came and Blaine never realized he'd fallen asleep, and when he opened his eyes panic ran through his veins and struck his heart. He was alone. He jolted up and ran to the bedroom, his breathing instantly became heavy and laboured as his panic attack took over and when he busted through the door he was nearly hyperventilating.

"Blaine!" Kurt screeched when he saw his panicked eyes from his place by the closet and abandoned the shirt in his hands to rush over and wrap Blaine in his arms "Hey, hey, I'm still here, it's ok, it's ok" Kurt cooed into his ear as Blaine clung to him for dear life "Blaine, I would never leave without saying goodbye" he said quietly and Blaine nodded against him.

"I just had to get started packing and you looked so tired, I'm sorry" he apologized and Blaine hugged him tighter "It's ok, I shouldn't have freak'd out" Blaine amended and pulled back, and Kurt gave him a sad smile before kissing him gently.

Blaine went to the bathroom and Kurt went back to packing, when Blaine saw himself in the mirror he nearly startled himself, his eyes were red and bloodshot and had heavy circles under them, and his skin wasn't quite the right color. He sighed and washed his face hoping it would make him feel better, it didn't.

He made his way back to the bedroom and noticed for the first time all the open suitcases around the room, most already half full. Blaine pulled himself heavily onto the bed and crossed his legs as he sat in the middle of it, he would have liked to put on a happy face, or at least a less miserable one, for Kurt but he just couldn't, he didn't have the strength.

Kurt packed with Blaine watching quietly for a little while, and finally decided their last day wasn't going to be spent in silence like the day before "I'm gonna have a lot of adjusting to do when I get back to the city" he joked and Blaine smiled a little, ok different tactic, "I bet Don will be happy to get you back to work" he said with a smile, that was fake but still, "Ya" Blaine said despondently as he picked at his nail.

"Blaine" Kurt said softly and Blaine looked up when he felt the bed sink down next him, and found Kurt crouched at his side "Please, talk to me, I know it hurts but it hurts more not to" he pleaded with a hand on Blaine's cheek "I know, I just.." he let out a shaky breath and leaned into Kurt's touch "Pick a topic, I won't stop talking till you, leave" he said with a smile and Kurt hugged him fondly before sliding back off the bed.

"What's your favorite flower?" Kurt asked as he went back to packing "Stargazer lilies" he answered "White chrysanthemums" Kurt said and Blaine smiled a tiny, but real, smile, they played this game all the time, and it was one of his favorites, because it was getting to know Kurt. "First memory of life?" came Blaine's question.

"I was probably two, two and a half, and we were at the beach, and I got stung by a jellyfish, it hurt really bad" he laughed and Blaine laughed too "god that's terrible!" he commented and Kurt was so glad to hear him laugh.

"Mine, is pretty vague, just of me and Coop playing a board game" Blaine answered and thought for a moment "You know I'm really glad he found me" he added and Kurt smiled "Me too" anything that made Blaine happy, made him happy.

"If had to choose between a farmer, an electrician, and a carpenter, what would your profession be?" Kurt proposed.

"Eeek, am I straight too?" Blaine asked making a face, "No!" Kurt laughed "There are gay farmers" Kurt informed him and Blaine gave him a doubting look "Can't be too many of them" he laughed and thought about the question "Ok, I'd be a carpenter, I think, it's smells less and lower risk of death" he reasoned.

"Hmm, electrician for me, they make the most" Kurt shrugged "If you had to give up hats or scarves?" Blaine asked with one eyebrow raised "Ok, now that's just mean" Kurt scowled at him "But it'd have to be hats, I honestly don't think I could live without scarves" he laughed "Mmh, me too" Blaine agreed and Kurt turned to look at him "Blaine you don't even wear hats" he pointed out "Hey, I've been known to wear a beanie or two during the winter" he defended.

Kurt stopped what he was doing for a moment and just started at Blaine with warm eyes "What?" Blaine asked after a bit with a crooked smile "You would look adorable in a beanie" he smiled and Blaine blushed little.

"Oh! If you could have sex with any celebrity!" Kurt asked with big eyes and a playful smile "Oh aarrgh" Blaine bit his lip as he thought about it, that was a tough one "Ugh, it'd have to be Ryan Reynolds" he answered and Kurt laughed "Well maybe we can have a threesome cause he's my pick to" he giggled and Blaine raised his chin a little "Would you ever really consider having a threesome?" Blaine asked and watched Kurt carefully. 

"Uh, I think it would depend on my partner" he answered "And you?" he turned to look at Blaine who looked a little sheepish "Well, um ya, I mean of course, if you know, the uh, timing and stuff is, like right and-" he rubbed the back of his neck and avoided Kurt's eye contact "You've already had one haven't you?" Kurt said flatly and Blaine laughed nervously "Yeah" he admitted and Kurt shook his head with a grin "Man, maybe I should have gone to Dalton" Kurt said and reveled in Blaine's loud laugh that followed, he'd found over his time there that it was one of his favorite sounds.

They continued the game until Kurt was finished packing and had all his bags stacked by the door and he turned to face Blaine with a deep breath "Well, that's it" he said with a sad shrug and Blaine glanced at the time "It's only 1:30" he said quietly and moved closer to Kurt "That's enough time" 

"Enough time for what?" Kurt asked looking at him with a slanted head "This.." Blaine caught his lips in a passionate kiss and Kurt wrapped his arms around him immediately. After a few minutes Blaine broke the kiss and led Kurt to the bedroom, he turned around and undressed him slowly and reverently and Kurt returned the favor. They slipped into bed and their kiss stayed slow and meaning filled, this was one time they didn't want to rush.

Everything was slow and filled with purpose, every touch counted, every kiss lingered. They worked hard to commit every sound and feeling to memory, this was the last time they would ever make love, it had to be remembered. 

Once slick, Blaine's hand slid down to slowly and gently open up Kurt, who moan softly into his mouth and Blaine swallowed every one, desperate for every bit of Kurt he could get. When he was ready Blaine removed his fingers and slowly slid into Kurt, dropping his head down lay against Kurt's heart and listen to it beat in his ear, and Kurt fingers wound into his hair holding him close.

Blaine rocked slowly into Kurt and never picked up his head, and never sped up his pace, they just stayed locked in a tight embrace, every movement filling them and burning itself into their memories. 

They both fought down their orgasms for as long as possible, never wanting this moment, and this feeling to end, but it couldn't last forever, and when Kurt's body began to shake Blaine picked up his head and pressed his face against Kurt's "It's ok baby, let it go" he whispered and Kurt was coming between them instantly, his muscles tightening around him and send him over the edge right along with him.

When they were both spent they didn't move, and Blaine didn't pull out, they just lay there wrapped up together and trying to force the world away. Eventually Kurt knew he had to get up if he was gonna make his flight and ran his fingers through Blaine's hair "Take one last shower with me?" he asked and Blaine nodded against him.

Their shower was long and hot and filled with many more last kisses, until they couldn't stay in any longer. They dressed and hauled all of Kurt's luggage out to his car. Blaine closed the back window when they were done and turned to Kurt who had his phone in his trembling hand and tears in his eyes.

"It should be a... It should be a clean break" he said quietly and when Blaine saw his contact information up on the screen, he knew what Kurt meant "Uh, ya" he agreed in a choked voice and pulled his own phone out, and pulled up Kurt's number. He looked up and Kurt's eyes locked into his "Ok" Kurt said in a water voice and they both hit the red delete button at the bottom, and that was it, they were gone. Blaine knew it was for the best, the last thing they needed was one of them to drunk dialing the other some night and make all of this awkward and tainting everything that had happened between them, but it didn't make it any easier.

"Well, I should uh, get going, I don't wanna miss my flight" Kurt said sadly and Blaine couldn't stop the words that poured out of his mouth "I wanna go with you to the airport" he blurted out and Kurt looked at him with sad eyes "Blaine I have to return my rental car" he said regretfully "I'll follow you in my car" he said quickly "I just, I wanna see you off at the gate" he said quietly and Kurt agreed, he couldn't deny he wanted every last second he could get with Blaine too.

They drove to the airport and Kurt returned the car and they checked his bags, and went through security, and that was it, they were standing in front of Kurt's gate, that was currently boarding as people filtered through the door toward the plane.

They stood there for a moment, and the air was tense around them, and they weren't in their little town anymore, they were at the airport that was full of tourists and businessmen, and all manner of people from the world who didn't look kindly on homosexuality. 

"Well, I guess this, is goodbye" Kurt said biting back tears and Blaine nodded not daring to open his mouth for fear of what might come out "You, have a great life Blaine" he said quietly and turned to leave their fingers slowly slipping apart, and Blaine decided he didn't care where they were.

He gripped Kurt's hand tightly and pulled him back toward him, crashing their lips together, and if anyone said anything they didn't hear them. The kiss was hard, and desperate and open and, goodbye. They gripped each other hard as their tears mixed together, and Blaine pulled back to press his watery face into Kurt's.

"I will always remember you" he promised fervently "I could never forget you Blaine" Kurt whispered back and the reality of what was happening spread through their bones and threatened to choke the life out of them.

"I'm sorry sir, but you have to get on board now" the woman behind the desk taking tickets said apologetically and Kurt pulled away "Goodbye Blaine" he uttered in a broken whisper and handed his ticket over to the woman.

He took a few steps down the tunnel to the plane and paused, he wanted to look back, he wanted to look back so badly, but he knew if he did he wouldn't be able to stop himself from running into Blaine's arms and confessing his love, so he just kept walking.

"Goodbye Kurt" Blaine breathed once he was out of sight, but he didn't look away or move from his spot, frozen in place. And after some time the woman behind the counter looked at him with sad eyes "He's not coming back" she told him in a regretful tone and Blaine looked at her, "I know."