December 13, 2012

The couple was lying down in Kurts bed enjoying the quiet afternoon. They were giving one another lazy kisses with the lights turned down low. It was perfect. Kurt lifted his hand and gently touched Blaines face. He smiled, "I love you."

Blaine froze and looked into Kurts eyes. "Um, thank you."

"Oh god," Kurt sat up, "I said it to soon. I am such an idiot."

"No," Blaine followed Kurt and touched his arm, "I just...you know those words are kind of heavy."

"I know, Im sorry," Kurt said regretting saying those words, but feeling maybe he shouldnt feel regret.

"Dont be sorry," Blaine groaned, "I am bad at this. Look if you want to say it, then you can."

Kurt shook his head, "No, because apparently you dont feel the same way."

Blaine sighed, "Its not that Kurt, its just like I said. Saying the L word is kind of heavy."

"The L word?" Kurt asked raising an eyebrow, "I have heard you tell your sister you love her." Now he wasnt only feeling regret, he was mad.

"Shes my sister," Blaine waved his arms around. "But saying it to someone who isnt family, its heavy."

"Would you quit saying that word. We arent in some 80s film," Kurt climbed off of the bed, "I just remembered I have some homework I need to have done by tomorrow."

"Kurt," Blaine said with a whine in his voice, "Please can we talk about this."

"I dont know what we have to talk about. Im fine. Were okay," Kurt said giving his boyfriend the best fake smile he could. "Ill walk you out."

Blaine stood up, "Please Kurt."

"Dont worry about it," Kurt said as they walked through the apartment. "I promise its okay."

Staring in his eyes, Blaine knew it wasnt. "Do you promise youll talk to me if you need too?"

"I dont know why I would have too," Kurt said crossing his arms across his chest to close himself off.

Blaine just gave him a look, "You talk to me about anything Kurt."

"I know," Kurt sighed, "I have to get moving on my homework. Im frustrated I forgot."

Leaning over, Blaine pressed a kiss to Kurts lips, "Ill see you later."

"Okay," Kurt said a bit breathlessly. "Bye."

"Bye," Blaine said leaving and shutting the door behind him.

Kurt banged his head on the door as soon as he shut it. "Thank you? He says thank you?"

Later on, Kurt was sitting on the couch when Rachel came home. He was working on some homework, but it wasnt due tomorrow. "Hello dear," she smiled, "How was your day?"

"Blaine said thank you," Kurt said.

"Um, okay," Rachel said setting her bag down. "That scoundrel," she said with a smile.

"After I said I love you," Kurt sighed trying to slip further in the couch.

Rachel froze, "Oh. Are you sure?"

"Pretty sure," Kurt stood up, "I said I love you to my boyfriend of five months and he couldnt say it back. He said thank you."

"Dont worry about it," Rachel said rubbing his arm giving a small laugh, "My brother is an idiot."

"This isnt funny Rachel," Kurt said, "I am being serious. Should we just break up now?"

"Why are you thinking of breaking up with him?" Rachel asked taken back.

"He obviously doesnt feel the same way as I do," Kurt shrugged. "Maybe I should just end it all. Break it off, quick like a band aid."

"Is that what you really want?" Rachel put a hand on her hip understanding where Kurts feelings were coming from now.

Kurt shook his head, "No, but what the hell else am I suppose to think?"

Rachel sighed and grabbed Kurts arm dragging him over to the table. She had him sit on one of the chairs, "First off, you arent breaking up over this. I know for a fact that he feels the same way or felt it sooner."

"Am I supposed to believe you?" Kurt asked as he watched her put the kettle on the stove and turn on the pilot light to warm it up.

"Yes," Rachel said grabbing two mugs from the cupboard. "Another fun fact we both know, is that my brother is an idiot. Did you two at least talk about it?"

Kurt sighed again, "He wanted too, but I just wanted to be alone."

Rachel lifted an eyebrow, "You should have talked."

"I didnt want too," Kurt shrugged and looked away from his friend.

"I probably wouldnt want to either," Rachel said thinking.

Kurt stared at her, "This hasnt happened to you has it?"

"Finn and I said I love you right before we started dating," Rachel said, "I mean, we knew each other longer than you have Blaine have. But that is one relationship. Dont let that determine when you said the L word."

"Oh god," Kurt groaned, "Just say love. Just say the word. What is wrong with saying the word?"

"Its a special word," Rachel smiled as she put a tea bag in each mug. "It took Blaine a long time to say it me again. And for awhile to say it back to our dads."

"It did?" Kurt asked.

Rachel nodded, "I mean, with everything that happened to him. It was hard. I was always saying it and then they would say it to him. He would shut down. Its complicated for him I think."

"Now I feel bad," Kurt let his head fall down to hit the table, "I dont know what to think."

"You love him thats why," Rachel giggled, "And why didnt you tell me before? Isnt that supposed to be a best friends first right?"

Kurt picked up his head and glared at her, "Not funny."

The tea kettle let out a low whistle and Rachel filled the mugs carefully with the hot water. She set one down in front of Kurt and herself. "Do you want my advice or not?"

"Go ahead," Kurt said dipping his tea bag in the hot water.

"I think you honestly need to give my brother time," Rachel gave him a smile, "I know you love him and Im positive he loves you too, just dont count him out just yet. I mean if he ever doesnt say it, then yes break up with him. But talk to him. There really is no worse case scenario here."

"We could break up," Kurt took a drink from his cup, "Thats the worse case scenario."

Rachel took a drink from her own cup, "And if you do, thats okay too."

"I dont want too," Kurt said. He could feel a tear starting to fall down his cheek.

Rachel set her cup down, "Then fight for the bastard. My brother is a catch and so are you, my friend. Do what your heart is telling you."

"I want to see him," Kurt twirled the tea bag in his cup.

"Then go," Rachel said.

Kurt stood up suddenly, "You know what, I am. I should talk to him and just tell him. And I will tell him over and over again, because its how I feel."

"There you go," Rachel said, "But wait for me because I really want to be there for this."

Kurt rolled his eyes as he let out a laugh.

"Thank you? I said thank you?" Blaine could not believe what had just happened between him and Kurt.

Blaine knew saying thank you was probably one of the worst things he could say in that moment, but it was such a surprise. But was it all really a surprise? They had been dating for five months now. This was also one of the most serious relationships Blaine had ever been in.

Walking through the streets of New York was for people who were confused. Blaine was confused. Did he love Kurt? He knew he had strong feelings for Kurt, but was that love?

Without realizing it, Blaine had walked back to his own flat. He walked up the stairs and when he walked in Derby and Kyle were playing a video game. Maddie was walking out of the room and instantly knew something was wrong.

"What happened?" Maddie asked.

Blaine looked up, "That obvious?"

"Dude, it looks like you need some major help," Derby paused the game, "Have a seat. Tell the old Derbs whats going on?"

"Really?" Blaine asked him and then he groaned. "I feel like an idiot."

"So nothing new then," Kyle said with a nod.

Blaine picked up a pillow and threw it at him. "I dont really want to talk to you about it."

"Come on Babs," Maddie said, "You can tell us anything. We promise we wont laugh or anything. And if these two do, I will smack them for you."

"Its just..." Blaine was trying to find the right words.

"Did you have a little trouble in the bedroom department," Derby said pointing down.

"No," Blaine glared at his friend, "God, Kurt said he loved me." He waved his arms in the air.

All three of the friends stood still, they looked at one another before bursting out laughing all together.

"Great thanks," Blaine said taking his jacket off and throwing it near the hooks, "Forget I said anything."

"No," Maddie said trying to cover her laughs, "Its just, how is that a problem?"

"I said thank you back," Blaine said. "My boyfriend told me he loved me and I just said thank you. I feel like an asshole."

"But if you dont feel the same way dude, and then you shouldnt say it," Derby shrugged, "I have said it one to many times without meaning it and none of those times ended well."

"I dont want to end it," Blaine reached up and pulled on his hair, "I mean Kurt is my world and I feel a lot when Im around him. Is that what love is?"

"Oh sweetie, havent you ever said it before?" Maddie asked him.

Blaine shook his head, "No. All my other boyfriends, we werent like this."

"Like what?" Kyle asked.

"Serious," Blaine shrugged as he paced around the room. "I mean what is love anyways? This is so stupid. Why do three little words carry so much?"

"Because of what they stand for," Maddie smiled, "Its definitely not an easy thing to say, let alone to feel. And as for what love is, its different for everyone."

"What the hell does that mean?" Blaine asked.

"She means that what you consider as love, may be different for others," Kyle explained, "Such as if you love someone who walks by with green hair, then thats your thing."

Blaine couldnt sit, so he just kept pacing around the room. "And when I asked him if he wanted to talk about it, he just pushed me out. Wouldnt you want to talk about it?"

"No," Derby said with a laugh, "Come on, think about it. Your boyfriend just said thank you after you say I love you. I would want some time to process that. I mean its sort of taking a step back in your relationship and wondering if its worth it."

"What?" Blaine stopped moving, "What do you mean worth it?"

Maddie walked over to Blaine, "We are here for you through anything Blaine, trust us."

"Kurt wants to break up with me?" Blaine said as he started to cry, "He wouldnt do that would he? I mean he knows how I feel about him, right?"

"How do you feel about him?" Maddie asked.

Blaine opened his mouth and then closed it. "I dont know. I mean, I honestly dont know."

Kyle stood up, "How about you go lay down and think about it. You look kind of exhausted."

"Sure yeah," Blaine said in a haze. He walked into his bedroom area and closed the curtain behind him. Pulling his shirt off and letting it fall to floor, he kicked his pants off and put on a pair of sweatpants.

After he climbed into bed, he started thinking. He thought about his relationship with Kurt. How he feels when he is around Kurt. The look on Kurts face when he first saw him after all those years of not, he was adorable.

Blaine rolled over and smiled as he remembered Kurt freaking out the first night he slept over here. It was by accident, but Blaine talked him through it. They hadnt had sex or anything, they both just fell asleep during the movie that they had been watching. Kurt was breath taking when he was sleeping.

Kurt always had a way of making Blaine feel things he never thought he would feel. Blaine felt his heart skip a beat as he thought of when Kurt took care of him when he was sick. He was so sweet and caring.

And whenever Blaine saw Kurt in the crowd while he was playing a concert, it always made him want to play better. He wanted Kurt proud of who he was and what he did.

Blaine then thought of the time, they had finally seen each other naked for the first time. Kurt was freaking out and so was he to be honest, but it was amazing. It was amazing because it was Kurt and him. "Oh shit," Blaine shot up in his bed.

Reaching over, Blaine grabbed his guitar and started to play a tune that came into his head. He started to write some lyrics too. He didnt know how long he was in his daze, but he knew his friends wouldnt mind.

When the sun started to rise, Blaine knew it must be morning, but he kept working. He needed this to be perfect.

Kurt was walking back from trying to visit Blaine. Kyle had told him he was sleeping and that he looked exhausted. This information had made Kurt worry. He said he could try and wake him to talk to him, but Kyle didnt think that would be a good idea.

Rachel told Kurt not to wake Blaine. He will think better with a good nights rest and so would he. She dragged him out of the building

Walking down the street, Kurt sighed. He wanted cake. Cake always made things better. He found a small bakery and ordered one of the cakes to bring back for him and Rachel.

When they got back, Rachel stayed up with Kurt and they ate the entire cake. It was late when they finally went to bed. Kurt couldnt really sleep though. He kept thinking about everything and hoped to talk to Blaine tomorrow.

The next day, Kurt realized he didnt have anytime to talk to Blaine. He had school and then work that night. It was his busy day. He hated these days especially when him and Blaine werent talking.

Kurt went to school and he realized that today just wasnt his day. His coffee spilled on his good shirt before he left for school. He tripped walking up the stairs which put a small hole in the knee of his pants. And finally when he made it to his first class, he realized that he did have homework and he didnt do it.

Kurt was sitting on the bench and wondering if he should even attempt to get lunch when he felt someone sit next to him. He looked to left and saw Derby. "What are you doing here?"

Derby just gave a small shrug as he set down a small box Kurt had seen him play on occasions.

All of a sudden, there was strumming of a guitar and Kurt looked around. "Derby what is going on?"

Derby gave a small nod in the opposite direction.

Kurt turned and saw Kyle and Maddie walking towards him. Kyle had a guitar and he wasnt playing. Kurt was looking around, "Um."

And then he saw him, Kurt saw Blaine walking and strumming his guitar. He gave him a questioning look, but Blaine just smiled and started to sing.

Boy Id steal the Mona Lisa
But I know I wouldnt keep her
Cause I wake up next to you everyday
Id buy the Taj Mahal,
Never visit it at all,
If thats the only price I gotta pay.
Cause Ive never loved anything like I love you.

Kurt froze as he heard the words come out of Blaines mouth. Had he just said, what he thought he said.

Id go and catch the moon
And Id drag it down to you
But I know youd be brighter anyway
Id walk the whole Great Wall
And every brick Id count em all
Then Id start over the next day
Cause Ive never loved anything like I love you.
Like I love you.

Like I love you

Blaine was walking right up to Kurt. Kurt felt Derby pull his arm to lift him up as Blaine went straight to him smiling.

Turn on every light in New York City,
Id still be blind if you werent with me.
Youre the only one who opens up my eyes.
Cause Ive never loved anything like I love you.
Like I love you
Like I love you

Lowering his voice, Blaine smiled as he sang to Kurt. They both were now looking at each other as if no one else was around.

Id steal the Mona Lisa
But I know I wouldnt keep her
Cause I wake up next to you everyday.

A crowd had formed around as the performance drew people in. Some even had their phones recording the event. Everyone around them started applauding for them at the end of the song. The crowd was on their feet as they waited for Kurts response.

Kurt didnt know what to say honestly. He was standing there not sure what to say, he was just smiling.

"You can say something," Blaine whispered.

"Thank you," Kurt said not realizing what he said.

Blaine let out a laugh. "I guess that works, huh?"

"No, I didnt mean to say that," Kurt said, "I mean, thank you for the song."

"I know," Blaine said lifting his guitar off of him and handing it to someone.

Kurt felt Blaine reach over and take his hand, "You realize I didnt need all this."

Blaine used his other hand to cup Kurts face, "I would give the moon to you if I could because well because I love you."

Kurt knew he felt a tear fall down his face and he smiled, "I love you."

"I knew that," Blaine gave a playful shrug.

Kurt let out a laugh and pulled Blaine towards him, pressing their lips together in a kiss. The crowd around them cheered happily as the couple kissed.