Dec. 18, 2011, 3:05 p.m.
The Epic Love Affair
Ambassadors Abroad: Chapter 42 - Nightmares
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Kurt was having a nightmare. “NO!!! Stop, please!!” Tears were streaming down his face. Blaine turned on the light hoping that it would wake Kurt from his horrible nightmare. He wasn’t sure what to do. He didn’t think you should ever wake someone up from nightmares, or was that sleepwalking? Either way, Kurt continued in terror. “Please don’t! I promise.. won’t tell!!” Blaine knew what this nightmare was about. “NO!! Please..don’t!!”
Blaine couldn’t stand to hear it. He quietly spoke. “Kurt. Please wake up.”
No recognition. Kurt’s arms were hugging his body so tight all the while continuing to sob in anguish as he relived the nightmare. In this nightmare, he was begging. “Only Blaine.. leave me alone please.” Kurt was sobbing loudly. “Blaine..Blaine.. help me..”
Blaine cried and rubbed Kurt’s arm hoping to awaken Kurt gently. “Kurt, baby. I’m here. Please wake up.” It broke his heart to see the pain that Kurt was going through. He wasn’t there when it happened. He only knew what Kurt had told him.
“Only want Blaine.” Kurt whimpered and he looked so small and broken.
Blaine leaned a little closer. “Kurt. Please wake up. It’s Blaine, baby.”
He shook Kurt a little bit and suddenly his eye flutter open and he jumped into Blaine’s arms crying harder than he had cried today. “Blaine, you’re here.” Kurt was sobbing into Blaine’s chest and hugged him so tight. Blaine wrapped his arms tightly around Kurt and clutched him to his chest.
He rocked Kurt gently “Shhh. I’m here. I’m here Kurt.” Kurt continued to cry, but soon it became softer sobs as his tears subsided. Blaine slowly ran his fingers through Kurt’s hair soothing him. “Shh. I won’t let anyone hurt you. I love you, baby.”
“Why is he in my dreams, Blaine? I just want to forget.”
“Let’s not confuse a nightmare with a dream, baby. I don’t know why, but maybe we should have slowed down tonight.”
Kurt began to cry a little more. “I wanted that Blaine.. So badly, I wanted that and it was so good, so don’t say I wasn’t ready.”
Blaine brought Kurt’s face to meet his caring face. “Baby, I didn’t mean that you weren’t ready, just maybe it wasn’t the right time yet. You still need to heal and get through this.”
Tears were streaming down Kurt’s face. Blaine wiped them away as they kept falling. He laid them both down holding Kurt tightly to his chest. Kurt knew that he needed Blaine with him if he was going to get through this. “Blaine, we need to figure out the rest of the trip. I am certain that I won’t make it through without having you with me at night. Is Puck seriously going to be able to deal with this?” Kurt was gripping Blaine tighter. “Maybe I should go home.”
“I will talk to them again in the morning. If you go home, it will be ‘WE’ going home. I won’t be without you.” Kurt took a deep breath and seemed to calm. Blaine knew that Kurt loved to hear him sing and it would calm him more, so after a few seconds of quiet, Blaine began to sing, hoping Kurt would fall asleep.
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
Blaine stroked Kurt’s back continuing to hold him tight. He could feel all the stress leaving Kurt’s body as he melted into Blaine slowly but surely. Blaine wanted all the pain to go away. Tomorrow would be another day and another night that Kurt would worry about.
And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
And you're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive, and not dead
And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I`ll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
And I dropped out, I burned up, I fought my way back from the dead,
I tuned in, I turned on, remembered the thing that you said.
And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
Kurt was finally asleep soundly. One hour of this night was given to Paul. That was unacceptable to Blaine. Paul didn’t even deserve a second of Kurt’s thoughts or mind. He pledged in the darkness holding his love close. “I will make you better Kurt. This will go away and I will never let anyone hurt you ever again. Ever.” Blaine slept lightly the rest of the night waking often just to make sure Kurt was still pressed tight to him.
At 7:00, the alarm woke them both up. Blaine looked tired. As soon as Kurt sat up and saw Blaine’s condition, he became extremely upset. “Blaine, you look terrible. How are you going to perform? You can’t keep worrying over me.”
“I’ll be fine. Don’t worry about me.”
“How can I not worry? It’s because of me that you look like this.” Kurt was shaking his head at himself for letting himself have the nightmares. “Wes and David will know it’s my fault. Maybe I should go home. That way, you won’t have to worry about me.”
“Kurt, do you really think that you traveling home by yourself and not being here with me is going to make me stop worrying about you?” Blaine hugged Kurt. “I will be fine. I just need a coffee. Now, let’s shower and get some coffee. We have to be at the hotel at 9:00 ready to perform.”
In the shower:
“Blaine. Do you think that they will let us sleep together? Should I call my dad?”
“Let’s just see what happens today. I have no intention of continuing on this trip if we can’t room the remainder of the trip. I will think of a way for them to understand how important it was. I’m sure I was getting through to them yesterday. Let’s hope for the best.”
“I don’t want to ruin it for the others. They were all looking forward to this trip. Especially Finn.”
“Even if we left, which we aren’t going to do, they would still be good and they would have fun.” Kurt didn’t look convinced. His friends were the most loyal of friends and this would hurt them. Especially Finn. “We can ask to pay for our own room and it would be outside of the school event?”
That suggestion was met with a huge grin from Kurt. “Would you really do that for me?”
“Kurt, I hope you know my now that there are probably only a few illegal things that I wouldn’t do for you, and those I might even consider. You know I can’t say no to you.”
Kurt pressed close to Blaine with the warm water from the shower flowing down both of them. Blaine felt Kurt’s heart beating against him and kissed to top of his head.
Back at the hotel:
Finn and Rachel met Kurt and Blaine in the lobby. Rachel gave Finn a look as soon as she saw them. Finn pulled Blaine aside while Rachel distracted Kurt by asking him about dinner the night before. “Blaine. You don’t look too good. Are you okay?”
“I’m fine Finn. Just a little tired.” Blaine did not want to have to tell Finn, but on the other hand, Finn should know. He was, after all, Kurt’s stepbrother.
“You are hiding something. Did something else happen last night?” Finn was giving Blaine the death stare.
Blaine looked around to make sure Kurt was not in earshot. “He’s having nightmares Finn. Last night was bad, but we got through it, but now he is panicked about Shue and Royce not letting us room for the rest of the trip. They would not give me approval yesterday to have us room together and that has Kurt panicked beyond belief. He is considering going home.” Blaine was concerned. “I just really couldn’t sleep after the whole nightmare woke him up. All I could do was think about how I was going to convince them to let us room together the rest of the trip. I thing that the decision is causing additional stress on Kurt and may have even caused him to have this nightmare.”
“Let me have a go at it. I am his brother. Maybe I have some cards to play in this.” Finn smiled. “We’ll figure this out.”
Wes and David came up to Blaine noticing the serious stance of the conversation with Finn. “Blaine. Are you okay? Whoa. You look like death buddy.” Wes was feeling Blaine’s forehead.
Blaine batted his hand away. “I’m fine. Quit touching me. I just didn’t sleep well last night.” Wes was not convinced. “Ugh.. Okay, let me explain, but can you please let all the Warblers know why I look like crap so I don’t have to explain it a millions times.”
Wes backed up putting his arms up in surrender. “Sorry Blaine. Wake up on the wrong side of the bed?” He laughed trying to lighten up.
Blaine wished. He went forward and explained the entire evening with Kurt’s nightmares and the possibility of leaving. “Finn said he was going to try talking to them. The New Directions don’t care about us being in a room together. They are used to us being alone in a room together.”
“If there’s anything we can do, let us know Blaine. You know we believe in the two of you as a couple and would do anything for both of you.” Wes was genuinely concerned for two reasons. One was what he just said and the second was losing his star singer. “Do you want the council to talk to them too?”
“I guess it couldn’t hurt, but why not wait until Finn has a go at it.”
They all loaded onto the bus. Kurt sat close to Blaine leaning his head on his shoulder clearly full of worry. Blaine fell asleep on the short ride to the school they would be performing at.
What both boys did not know was that Finn had texted all the New Directions and the Warblers to let them know what happened and that they needed to help him with getting Shue and Royce agree. Wes and David had been sitting across from Finn and Rachel and they were able to plan a discussion with Mr. Shue and Dean Royce as soon as they got off the bus. These 4 were the decided spokespeople for the entire group.
The group arrived an entered the school building while Wes and Finn asked Mr. Shue and Dean Royce for a moment. David and Rachel stood behind in support of the two leaders of the groups.
Finn started the conversation. “Mr. Shue, we would like to talk to you and Dean Royce. The Warblers and the New Directions have held a meeting to discuss Kurt and Blaine’s situation.”
Wes cut in. “Blaine told us about his request to room with Kurt due to the incident that happened 2 days ago and that the request was denied. We would like you to reconsider.”
“I’m sure you have seen Blaine this morning and Kurt doesn’t look much better. Kurt had a nightmare last night and according to Blaine it was really bad. We are asking you to allow them this.” Finn continued with conviction. “Mr. Shue and Mr. Royce. Kurt and Blaine are different. Not just they are gay. They are different from most teenagers. They really have something. I see it almost every day because the practically live out our house on the weekends. They sleep together in our own house. They are special because they are uhh…. I guess I would call it soul mates. I never believed in something like that, but I do now. They are it for each other. I know you think they are young and Burt did too, but it’s because Blaine and Kurt are so special that even Burt understood and felt it. Mr. Shue, you know Burt. He wouldn’t let them be together alone in a room if he didn’t see it. They are going to get married someday and they are going to have a family and I am going to be the luckiest Brother-in-law on the face of this earth because I will have them to remind me every day what true love is. They have a deeper and more caring relationship than I have ever seen.” Finn put his head down out of exhaustion. It was like he just fought a battle.
Wes knew that Finn was done. He said his piece. “Blaine advised us this morning that Kurt is considering going home and that he would accompany Kurt home if the decision was made to not permit them to room.”
Rachel stepped forward to speak. “Mr. Shue. It really wouldn’t be right to continue without the 2 of them. Blaine is such a strong performer for this show and Kurt has his important solos too. We understand why your initial decision was ‘no’, but we can assure you all the New Directions and the Warblers are behind this 100%.”
Mr. Shue finally responded to all of what the leaders of the two clubs were doing. This was an ambush! “Okay! Ladies and Gentlemen, Dean Royce and I have already made our decision.”
Just then all four of them were responding with different objections. Wes finally took over the small group. “Mr. Shue, Dean Royce. How are we going to face them if we can’t support them through this? We are their family. We have shared their happy times and sad times and we are doing the right thing by demanding you let them room. It is the right thing sirs.”
“Okay..Okay. Now let me and Dean Royce talk it over. We will let you four and Blaine and Kurt know at the end of the concert.”
Even though Blaine looked tired, he was a true performer. He went out there and gave a hell of a performance even being tired. The audience would never know. In fact, things were better today and the French group to perform was incredible. All in all, today was a much happier performance. They mingled with the other group over cookies and pop. Blaine and Kurt were together talking to a few of the girls. They were smiling, holding hands and genuinely content looking. Occasionally, they would split up but it was clear that they seemed to be tethered together. They were always aware of each other’s location making sure to nod or smile at each other. They were talking without actually talking to each other. They were letting each other know that they were okay and not alone. I wondered if this was what Finn was talking about. They did seem to have a much more keen sense of awareness of each other than most teenagers their age. Mr. Shue witnessed Blaine excusing himself from his conversation and made his way to Kurt. He took Kurt’s hand and excused he and Kurt from conversation to go and sit alone on a bench. Blaine looked at Kurt and asked him something and Kurt was replying. He brushed Kurt’s hair out of his face and kissed him. Nothing obscene, just a sweet kiss on the lips. They continued to just have a regular conversation waiving and smiling to others as they walked by or stopped to congratulate them on their performance. They sat holding hands not even talking, just enjoying each other’s company. Mr. Shue caught the small glances and, yes, he did understand.
Blaine must have sensed someone approaching because he turned to see Mr. Shue. Immediately, Blaine and Kurt’s smiles disappeared. “Blaine and Kurt. I want to talk to you about the question you asked yesterday. Dean Royce and I have had a long discussion and with the input from Finn, Rachel, Wes and David, we have decided to let the two of you room together for the remainder of the trip. You friends really gave us an earful this morning. It’s seems that you 2 are the poster children for all that is good in the world.” Kurt smiled for the first time today, well first genuine smile. There was always the performance smile.
Blaine looked at Kurt. There was no need for words. A tear fell down Kurt’s cheek and Blaine wiped it away. Kurt rose from the bench with a smile on his face. Blaine knew they were going to thank the 4 amazing people that stood by them and stood up for them.