"Hello, is it me you're looking for? I can see it in your eyes. I can see it in your smile. You're all I've ever wanted, and my arms are open wide." - Hello : Glee Cast Version

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Monday, January 16, 2012

Dear Kurt,

Do you believe in love at first sight? You're probably saying no, I mean come on who believes that chick flicky shit? Yeah, well, I didn't believe it either. I mean it's highly impossible that you're going to see someone for the first time and go "I'm in love with that person!" I mean this is real life! This isn't Sleeping Beauty and some stupid Disney movie. (Dear Disney Movie collection at home, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!) But then, Kurt, but then I saw you.

You know, I was forced to go to the mall today. My friends Wes and David just HAD to go and get some video game I've never heard of. They are playing it now and the graphics are HORRIBLE. Anyways neither of them have a car so the begged and pleaded for me to give them a ride. I'm just coming of a cold and I didn't feel good enough to go out, but they seem to always know how to get me to do things. –insert dramatic eye roll here- As the rushed into Best Buy to find the game I decided to do some window shopping. I probably went by 5 stores before I hit Borders. I wasn't even going to look inside but that one quick glance I took I spotted this tall man handsome man in the CD section looking at Soundtracks. He wore a Marc Jacobs jacket, skin tight black skinny jeans and knee high Doc Martens. And honestly he, well you, took my breath away. And for some reason, I just had to meet you. I remember looking down I wore a pair of old jeans and a Dalton sweater. Yes I know, how attractive for someone who is about to hit on a very attractive man, but as I said I was just coming off a cold. I noticed that when I entered the isle you seemed a bit on edge. You even left the isle and walked to a bookshelf a little bit away. I followed you. ;) I looked at the sign and say "Gay/Lesbian" I remember thinking at that exact moment, "Oh, so he is gay? Yes! Progress!" I felt tension in the air as you picked out a random book, open to a random page and started "reading." Did you know that book was upside down? Dead, give away.

Your scared of something, I just know it.

But then, my cell phone went off, ugh. But you, you laughed ... at my ringtone! But before I could say anything to defend my ringtone, YOUR PHONE WENT OFF! And you thought my ringtone was bad! Ha-ha. You stopped laughing as blush crept up your neck to your face. I laughed, and complimented how cute you were when you blushed. But that only make your face redden and you giggled.

Oh my gosh, your laugh was soooooooooo adorable!

And that is how our conversation started. You talked about how you were the only open gay in your school and when i said i was gay, I've never saw someone's eyes lit up like your gorgeous blueish greenish eyes did that minute. We talked about how were both in a Glee club. We also talked about how you were here to buy a new wicked soundtrack because yours was ruined earlier this day. But when I asked you why, you froze and your eyes turned blank. I felt sadness wash over me as you spoke said "It dropped and broke." I could hear that sentence drip with lies. I knew that wasn't true and you knew I knew it wasn't. But for some reason I let the subject drop. I figure when I get to know you better you'll eventually tell me.

I've never seen someone so gorgeous, so broken before in my life. At that moment I promised myself to fix you.

Just when our conversation was getting good. David and Wes interrupted us with a text saying it was getting late and we had to make it back before our damn curfew. God, I didn't care if I was late as long as I go to talk to you. But here I am writing this letter listening to Wes and David complaining in the background about the stupid game they brought. But it was a fantastic idea that they wanted to go to the mall, now that I think of it. I mean I met you, didn't i? While i sit here writing this letter debating on if I should text you the information about Friday to the number that you gave me. I'm so afraid that it's fake. That you gave me a fake number just so I'd leave you alone and never speak to you again. But I'll never know until I try right? Alright, I guess I'll give that number a try. Here goes nothing.

Blaine :)

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"Dad! I'm home but I have to go to the mall. I have to go get something." My screamed echoed through the house while I stood at my front door. The door was wide open for I just walked in. I knew Carol wasn't home, for she had told me she would be shopping today and Finn was at Glee practice. Where I should be right now but I couldn't stand to be there today. I was on the edge of breaking down from what happened earlier. I waited for an answer. "Dad?" I paused. "Must still be at the shop." I spoke to myself. I sent him a text telling him where i would be and walked out the door and locked it. Then headed off to the mall.

Entering Borders I kept my eyes peeled, not wanting to run into any unwanted and unfriendly visitors, well more like shoppers. I slowly made it to the CD section, glancing around every few seconds. Once I realize that there was no one around that had any potential reason to bully me (or possibly kill me,) my body relaxed and I began to look for the Wicked soundtrack, which I needed to buy. Mine, had met a very unfriendly death earlier today.

Borders kept there cd section neater then Wal-Mart did, but it was still a mess. I probably took me 10 minutes before I found a Wicked cd. I smiled, but after examining it, my smiled faded in to a frown. I small crack traced down the center of the back of the cd case. Got to find another one, I thought, here we go again, another 10 minutes to find one. While I began to look for another, this guy about 2 inches shorter to me, wearing very old jeans and a sweater with the word "Dalton" written a crossed it walked into the isle and stood next to me. My body tensed as all he did was stare at me out of the corner of his eyes. My hands began to shake, not knowing why this guy was standing next to me or why he was staring at me intensely. I noticed a different Wicked cd behind a Miley Cyrus cd, mentally rolling my eyes, I quickly picked it up and half ran out of the isle to the one place I knew someone like him wouldn't follow.

The "Gay / Lesbian" book section.

I've done this before. I'll go straight to this isle if anyone is bothering me in any way while I'm shopping in Borders. Anyone who usually bullies me wouldn't have the balls to be caught dead in this section. But to my surprise this guy followed me into the isle. No one has ever done this before, I thought, maybe this guy is different, but I can't be too safe. I reached for the first book I saw, opened to a random page and began to "read". I watched him out of the corner of my eye. He was looking at the books laid on the shelf in front of him but he didn't seem too intrigued by them. He glanced at me and I froze as we made eye contact. I waited for a sexist comment to slip out of his gorgeous lips or a quick shove into the book case when no one was looking. But what happened next I was shocked by.

"You make me, feel like; I'm living a Teenage Dream. The way you turn me on. I can't sleep. Let's runaway. And don't ever look back, don't ever look back." I started to die with laughter as Teenage Dream by Katy Perry screamed from the guy's pocket. He shook his head as he reached for his phone. For some reason I just couldn't stop laughing. This guy, looked so manly, but his cell phone tells me otherwise.

"Let's have some fun, this beat is sick. I wanna take a ride on your disco stick. Don't think too much just bust that stick. I wanna take a ride on your disco stick. Let's play a love game, play a love game. Do you want love or you want fame? Are you in the game? Doin' the love game!" My eyes went wide and i stopped laughing as soon as I heard my ringtone blaring from my pocket. I quickly silenced my phone. I felt blush creep up my neck. How embarrassing! I thought, mentally rolling my eyes at myself.

"You're cute when you blush, by the way." I felt my face become even warmer and I giggled. Giggled? I JUST GIGGLED, what. the. fuck. "So, Lady Gaga and gay, huh?" he smirked at me. I rolled my eyes.

"Yes." I placed the book back on the shelf. "Only opened gay at my school to be exact!" I semi snapped at him. Kurt, stop. This nice man doesn't need your built up anger from earlier today. "So what are you going to do? Throw a book at me?" His eyes filled with confusion but soon became crystal clear.

"I'm gay, too." He chuckled. I felt my face light up at this fun fact. "I'm not going to throw a book at you; why would someone do that?"

"It's happened before." I murmured and examined the Wicked cd. He stared at me in amusement.

"I'm Blaine, by the way." He smiled.

"Kurt." I matched his smile. "Can you please tell me why your ringtone is that awful song? I mean, Katy Perry? Really? Come on!" he laughed. Did I mention he has a wonderful laugh?

"She's amazing! And I sang it lead in my glee club back at school and it's just stuck with me since them." He shook his head. "Please, don't get me started on your ringtone? Love game? Lady Gaga?" he paused. "I want to take a ride on your disco stick?" There was question in his last statement, but I ignored his banter on Lady Gaga because the thing that stuck out the most was: Glee Club, Lead, and Sing. I'm in love with this guy already! Eeepp! I must have had never answered because he started a different topic. "So what bring you here to this lovely Borders store?"

"I am buying a new Wicked CD." I plastered a fake smile. "Mine broke today."

"Oh..?" I looked back at the cd, double checking the case. I hate buying a cd and the case is already broken. "And what happened to yours today?"

A frown appeared on my face and my mind traveled back to today's earlier events.

*flashback*

I stood at my locker. I grabbed a few books I need for homework. Since I'd be going straight home after my next class, which was Glee. I reached for my Wicked soundtrack, for we would need it today in class. Musical week! My fave! I was feeling confident; no one touched me today at all. But then, the worse had begun.

"Hello, my fairy princess." I squeezed my eyes closed hoping that what I just heard was a figment of my imagination. But something's are too good to be true. Before I knew it my body was slammed into my locker, my face going inside of it, my head hitting the side of the inside of my locker. Anger boiled inside me. I pulled my face out, anger rising fast. I grabbed the cd then slammed my locker door shut.

"What do you want, Karofsky?" I screamed in his face. He looked at me amused.

"The usual." He said and walked closer to me. Face inches away from mine. I turned my face so it faced down the hall mentally looking for someone, anyone, who could be walking down the hall at this exact moment. No one. I breathed angrily out my nose.

"What's this?" His breath suffocated my neck. I took a step back, but before I completed that step my Wicked cd was stolen from my hand.

"Hey! Don't touch that!" I yelled. "I need it!"

"Wicked, eh? Never heard of it. What trash." He said and rolled his eyes. His eyes met mine, and then he smirked. Uh oh, this cannot be good. He slammed the cd to the ground, the case braking to pieces. I let out a yelp. My eyes began to sting as he stomped his foot down on top of it. I heard the cd brake. Anger over flowed me, and I flung at him. But he saw it coming and shoved me against the lockers again, hitting them on my side. My shoulder ached. I placed my back against the locker and gripped my arm. Tears decided to fall from my eyes. I slid down the lockers until I sat on the ground completely. Cd smashed and broken in front of me. I looked up at Karofsky.

"Why?" I paused, swallowing some of my tears. "Why do you do this to me?" he shrugged and responded, "Because it's fun." And then he left. I sat there for about 10 minutes crying to myself, before I decided I was skipping Glee and going home.

*flashback end*

"Kurt?" I heard Blaine's voice and came back to reality. "What happened to your cd?" His voice was drowning with concern.

I shrugged, "It dropped and broke." I hope he would take that answer and not ask anymore. I wait for him to speak and when he did he asked.

"So what are you doing Friday night?" My eyes widened at the dramatic change in the conversation.

"I, uh." I swallowed and took a breath. I pretend to think. "Um, nothing. Why do you ask?"

"Oh, um, well I perform at this caf� every Friday night, and I was just wondering … well I mean, if you like coffee and entertainment … if um … you'd come and watch me perform?" My stomach screamed with excitement. Oh My Gaga, did he just ask me out? But before I could answer, his phone went off again. I frowned. He read his text message, and his face fell.

"I'm so sorry, but I have to go. My friends just texted me, I'm their ride." He rolled his eyes. "Got to get back before my curfew, here," he held out his phone. "Give me your number, and ill text you the details, if you want to come, of course." I typed in my name and number and handed him back his phone. He smiled. "Okie dokie then. Ill text you. And again I'm sorry that I'm leaving so fast. They'll get mad if I don't go now. Bye Kurt, it was lovely meeting you." He said with a waved and smile and he was off.

"Bye," I whispered to myself. I smiled and went to pay.

When I reached my house, every light was on. Aka, everyone was home. I skipped to the door and entered.

"Hello, my wonderful family!" I yelled to everyone and walked into the kitchen. Carole was making dinner. I sat down at the table, still in a daze of meeting Blaine today.

"You seem extremely happy." Carole questioned while placing some finishing touches on dinner. My smile grew. "Care to share."

"I met a boy, today." Carole stopped and looked up at me.

"Do tell!" she exclaimed in excitement.

"Well, his name is Blaine, he's sweet, and kind, and totally gorgeous. He performs every Friday at this caf�. And he invited me to see him on Friday!" I squealed and Carole joined with me. "Oh My Gaga, what if never texts me! I gave him my number but i never got his! What if he's just messing with me! What if.. what if..!"

"Kurt, honey, he'll call or text. He will." Carole reassured me. "I just know he will, I have a feeling." Hearing Carole's comforting words made my squeal again.

"What is going on here?" My dad walked in. I looked at Carole, with pleading eyes. My mind repeated Don't tell Dad, Please, not yet! She smirked at me and went back to finishing dinner, then responded, "Just girl talk. You know the spring collection is coming out soon." And this is why I love Carole. She knows everything right to do.

"Right. Girl talk." My dad responded looking between me and Carole. I laughed.

I tapped my foot throughout dinner, waiting for my phone in my pocket to vibrate. I sat nervously, while my family talked. Finn asked why I didn't show up at Glee but I didn't answer. My mind buried deep into my pocket waiting for it to vibrate.

But sure enough, as soon as I finished helping Carole clean the kitchen after dinner. Just like Carole said, my phone vibrated with a new text message. I ran to my room and closed the door.

I flew opened the message on my phone, my heart was racing and was begging that it was a text from Blaine and sure enough, it was and it read:

hey, this is Blaine. You know that gay guy who practically stalked you in borders? Yeah, anyways.
L'amour du caf� at 6! Hope you see you there :]

I fell on to my bed and squealed, "THIS IS THE BEST DAY EVER!"

Snow began to fall again as tears ran down my face for the 100th time this night, as I remember the day we met. That day was the turning point in my life. I had nothing till that day. I felt nothing till that day. That day is marked on my calendar, it's written on my heart. Written as a scar that will never go away.

Because that was the day, I met my lifesaver.