Various POVs

Ok! This casting has a deadline and its approaching fast! 

I ask Artie to come in and cast with me - its callbacks and lets face it, he knows what hes doing! His eye for the perfect person for a role is undoubtedly the best on broadway right now. 

"Hows Amy?" 

"Shes good, home with Amelia, you know she starts pre school soon. Amy doesnt know what to do with herself."

I forget he has a child, a family. We rarely get to see them. I see him mainly if we have a crossover during production or casting. Or if I need a casting favor, yes I know how bad that sounds. We all do wish we were closer with him, Amy and Amelia.

"Well we would love to see more of her, of all of you. I know youre married and our singles lifestyle doesnt fit into your life, but Santana and Dani are having a daughter soon and I know they want her to know Amelia. Blaine and I will have a kids soon enough and we want her included in our family. Big sis figure."

"I know, and Im sorry weve grown distant. I just thought all of you guys would stay single and crazy forever. I kind of felt me having a family of my own put a strain on our friendship"

My heart sinks. True, when he was having his princess we were all in different places. But never did I want this.. Distance!

"Im sorry Art, we may have been caught up, selfish even, and I apologize for all of us because I know we all miss you, without a doubt"

He smiles and I know its genuine. Hes accepted the apology. 

"Were having a welcome party for Isa, our new addition, Isabella, as soon as they get a date. It would feel absolutely empty if you werent there, If Amy and Amelia werent there"

"Of course!" He replies and thats all he has to say because I know hell be there.

"Okay - Ms. Rose? Youre up. Any relation to Marley Rose" Artie says joking. She pauses and looks at us as if we asked an extremely inappropriate question. 

"Are you serious? Its me, Marley. I assumed you guys read my info and knew"

Oh my - oh my

"No. We read accomplishments but we just breezed thru the rest. Your voice was just so amazing we didnt think twice" I say

We walk down and have a brief convo to catch up. Shes in NYC now, went to Dartmouth on scholarship, took classes at NYADAs extension program, and living with a roomie she hardly knows and shes still as amazing as she was in high school. How did I not notice?! From what Ive heard thru Sam and Artie, she was the next big thing after we all graduated. Weve met once or twice but no real relationship /friendship was formed.

"Ok, back to work, give us your best. And remember if you arent chosen, its just because this isnt a right fit for you, but there will be, somewhere. Not a question!" I say to the beauty that stands before me

She belts out a classic. One I have a personal connection with. Blackbird! I doubt she knows the story, shes 2 years younger than Me and we didnt attend Glee club together. This song is perfect! Its the first time Blaine looked at me different. When I sang this solo in remembrance of Poveratti, its the first time he realized Im his missing puzzle piece. 

"Ms Rose, that was breathtaking" Artie praises. "We will be in touch"

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Sebastian is here! In my office! I havent seen him since he left on his habitat for humanity mission a year ago. 

"Really?! No hello kiss"

"How? When?" I stutter

"Sunday night. Had some loose ends before I came to see my sexy piece of ass"

Sebastian and I had a brief, ok not so brief, private fling. Kurt hates him because hes arrogant and full of himself, tho he does all this good for others. Kurt thought we may have hooked up but kept it a secret because, well, because Kurt was riding around town with Adam, and tho I knew what it was, just company, but I wAs jealous, and Sebastian is a hot piece of ass. I needed release and he was there. Over and over, and over again! 

"Sebastian. No. You cant be here."

"What? Are you kicking me out?"

"No, just - well, me and kurt made it sort of official recently"

"Sort of?"

"No! Official - we just purchased a townhouse in Brooklyn"

"Together? Brooklyn?"

"Yes, I plan on subletting my pent until the lease is up"

"Blaine, listen, Im happy for you. I would never intrude. As a matter of fact I wouldnt mind, maybe, helping with the sublet. I need a place for a while til my next mission."

I pause. I know this makes sense financially. But kurt! He would be livid. Or he doesnt have to know. Its only a sublet. As long as I get my check it doesnt matter who its from. I wont see him and vice versa. 

"Let me think about it and get back to you, right now I have to get into this meeting, leave your info with my assistant Monica" I say rushing away

Im distracted the entire meeting. Hes never been one to let up even if he seems genuine, theres always a catch. But I can use this opportunity to move to The loft, spend more time with Kurt and I will literally never have to see Sebastian, just his check. I dont know what to do.

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I have to be at Blaines office at 10am. Students come in at 10:15 sharp and I have to put my Rachel Beery Broadway Star face on. The students  attend the the private schools near by, St Jude school for boys, and Constance school for girls. This counts as one of their extra curricular activities that looks amazing on college applications. Most of them will attend the best of the best - Yale, Harvard, Princeton, Columbia, NYADA, NYU, and Im proud to day Ive contributed.

"Hello gorgeous" I say in my Barbara voice. Blaine turns and he has a Face as if he has a lot going on.

"Is everything ok?" 

"No, Sebastian showed up. Its not what you think. He didnt know about Kurt and I. We havent spoke since he left last year. He says congrats but then mentions hed be interested in subletting"

" and Kurt? What does he say?"

"It literally just happened, cant you still smell the craigslist?"

"Well I think it should be fine. I know you and Kurt are endgame and its happening. So why not? Its not like you guys are roommates"

"Youre right. No ties, just a check" he says not so confidently.

We head back to work. I look around at the mini mes and the mini Kurts and the baby Blaines. Its such a good feeling. 

I have a very eager student who just shines. I usually dont like kiss asses but she reminds me of me when I was at McKinley, annoying, but confident with good reason! Shes talented and we all see it! Im preparing her for NYADA. Still very young, but its never too early to start shining.

I head back to Brooklyn after, I have a dinner date with Brody. Its not that I dont see potential, its that after Finn, I dont know who can complete me. Blaine and kurt know, they know that they are meant for each other. And I knew that too. But now that thats over, how do I go on? I do I let go of everything I knew was perfect? 

"Another date" Kurt says

"Yes, please dont read too much into this" 

"I know, I know"

"I dont know if its gonna last after tonight or for another year or forever! Im just enjoying it while it lasts"

"I know a little about that. So hes coming to Brooklyn?"

"Yes, theres a place he wants to visit but wont tell me any details. It sucks because how do I dress?"

"Rachel youre stunning in pjs"

"Well thank u Mr Hummel. Lets see how it goes" I dismiss myself and head to get ready. 

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I have a lot going on. Work is kicking my ass. Blaine is moving back in soon, while we wait for the townhouse to be done. 

My phone rings - its Blaine

"Hey baby"

"Hey. Dinner?"

"Just tell me where"

"Ill have James pick you up"

"Sound suspicious"

"No. Just a surprise"

I refrain from asking any more questions. 

We get to the location. Its a nice restaurant with covered outdoor seating. I know he only takes me to the best of the best. 

"Hey baby" I say as I lean over the table and kiss him.

"Im happy you didnt ask too many questions. I wanted it to be a surprise."

"Well - Im happy too. Whats the surprise?"

"You know I love you. You are my one and only and I will only do what benefits us as a couple" he says, but i panic because why the reassurance.

"Yes, so??"

"Well... Sebastian came by"

"WHAT!???!!"

"Relax babe, he didnt know about us, I quickly told him and he backed off"

"Thats hard to believe"

"Yea, I thought the same thing. But he hasnt called, or texted, so maybe his time away was good for him"

"Still hard to believe"

"Okay. So this is going to be a touchy subject, but please think logically not emotionally"

I look at Blaine with my WTF face because I know nothing good is coming.

"What?"

"Well, in the brief time he was there, I quickly mentioned I was subletting my apartment because we purchased the townhouse and he said hes here for only a few months and wouldnt mind subletting. It makes sense financially. I mean just think, i wont ever live there again. I never have to deal with him, just his checks.... Please say something"

I stare at him speechless.

"Fine! No communication - just transactions!"

"Yes!" He says breathlessly

I know he wouldnt let Sebastian get between us, but Blaine isnt the one who worries me. I know Sebastians persistence and from my understanding he was after Blaine for years. I always suspected they had a fling but Blaine was too embarrassed to admit it. Doesnt matter now, hes mine, Im his. Let Sebastian temporarily stay at his old place - because his new and permanent place is with me!

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Kurt was more than understanding. But now I feel bad he doesnt know the complete truth about me and Sebastian. Does it really matter? I mean, its been over, it was never serious and I love kurt! N only Kurt! 

I get home and who do I see laying on my couch? Ms Berry.

"Rach, I dont mind you crash here from time to time but what if I was walking in half naked with Kurt?"

"Oh shut up, Ive seen you both naked, in compromising positions, in every position really. I dont care and honestly I dont think me being here would cramp you guys in any way. Youd go right up and bang each others brains out as if I werent here"

"Rach - whats up? You seem on edge and youre here, not I your own bed"

"Its nothing, but I am exhausted and wasnt up for the travel. I have a meeting a few blocks away in the morning and I was already here. Do you mind?"

I know something up - but I also know not to pry, shell crawl into my bed and spill beans come midnight.

"Only one condition"

"What?" She says tiredly 

"Movie night"

"Should we call Kurt? Hes probably still in the city"

"No, I have a feeling this night is a me and you night"

She hugs me and we crawl into bed and watch Dirty Dancing.

She doesnt spill anything but that doesnt mean theres nothing on. I can tell. Shes like my sister. I can tell!

The next morning my assistant gets Sebastian on the phone

"So I want the check the last day of every month! You know the rules of the building, but I have a manual for you. Also I have a lease you can pick up at any time and please read it before signing, no questions later."

"Hello to you too Sexy"

"And no sexy talk, you said you would respect my relationship"

"Youre right, sorry. Ill be by today. The sooner the better."

4 pm rolls around and hes here.

"Ive signed in all appropriate places, you can take this home or wherever you live and read it. No rush."

He looks at me and smirks, takes the pen off my desk and signs away.

"How soon can I move in?"

"Give me a week and ill have my things out and ill give you a call. Bring the deposit check then."

"Perfect" 

He turns and walks out, that was smoother than I thought. 

A week passes, I move my things over to the loft. Everything seems smooth. 

I stop by to just run threw the last few things with Sebastian, he is now my tenant. 

"No loud music after 11 on weekdays-"

"Blaine I know the rules."

He serves himself a drink and offers me but I decline. He brings me one anyway.

"You know, I really did care for you, it wasnt just about sex with us. You just couldnt see it because you were all caught up in whatever it was you and Kurt were doing"

"Are doing" I correct him "We love each other. Hes my best friend. I cant imagine any part of my life without him"

"Ok. I respect that. So tell me about him. How is he? Im assuming hes ok with me being here. You wouldnt make any moves without consulting with him Im sure"

"Youre right. And hes fine. He has me and my heart." 

"That must be nice. So be with someone you cant be without"

"It is, its comfortable"

"You know, with all due respect, I thought that we may have been headed in that direction at one point. Was I imagining that?"

"No, I guess I gave off that impression and that was my fault. Im sorry"

"So it was all a lie? Hard to believe it was ALL a lie!"

He takes a step forward and before I know it his hand is on my waist. I back up 

"Sebastian-"

His lips find mine. Were kissing!

What the fuck? 

Im not pulling away! 

What the fuck is wrong with me?