I heard the door closed, meaning Blaine's here already. I've been thinking a lot of things for the past months, I love my life, I love my job everything around me seems to be perfect. But there is one thing I'm not sure anymore.

"Hey," Blaine distracted me from my thoughts as he gives me a kiss.

I flinched away from his touch.

"What's wrong?"

I took a deep breath and told him the thing that has been bugging me for months.

"I think we should see other people" I said softly.

"You're breaking up with me?"

"I can't see you stuck with me."

He laughs sarcastically at my comment.

"maybe it's the other way around, maybe you can't see yourself stuck with me."

I did not respond, I stared at Blaine he looked exhausted and sad. He was taking deep breaths, like he's calming his self.

" so I am right, you don't want to get stuck with me."

"We have been each other's first don't you want to experience other's company?" I asked irritatingly.

"being each other's first is what makes it special." He interjected.

"maybe it isn't special for me anymore." I avoided his eyes as I said these words.

"That's bullshit!" he swears loudly, Blaine rarely talk like this. Between the two of us, he is more impatient and he easily gets mad. But he rarely curses. Probably it is because he studied at Dalton where students were thought to be respectful and well mannered.

"Blaine, please"

"I followed you here because I know we will work out." He told me as he begins to cry.

"we're not in high school anymore, people are changing. I am sorry" I was on the verge of crying also. I didn't know that break up will be messy just like this.

"You're not sure if you still love me, does it? It's the main reason of this break up." He searched his bag and got a red box.

"I feel like an idiot now, you know that?" He sat across me while holding the box.

I was watching him closely, careful not to make this break up harder than it was.

"Remember last November when I told you I'm having a business conference in Chicago for 2 days? I lied, I was in Ohio that time asking for Burt's blessing in marrying you. But I think it doesn't matter now, looked like you've decided about our relationship."

Blaine throws box in the nearest thrash can then he looked at me, the same look he had given me when I was ignoring him because of the pressure in getting into NYADA while were in high school. I didn't thought I can lose him that time I was too selfish that I forgot about him.

"I'm giving it to you, the freedom that you want. I just hope the best for you; you'll never see me like this again. If you have someone new when our lives crossed again I'll be happy for you." We're both in tears as Blaine said these things.

With that Blaine silently leaves our flat. I can't help but cried, I know I shouldn't ask for this but I did. And he gives it to me even it hurts him like hell.

Blaine's POV

I don't know where to go when I left the flat. My mind was clouded by a lot of things, the reason he's been cold to me was because wants a break up. He falls out of love with me. How did it happen? As I can remember were in love and in good terms but he suddenly changed treating me. There's no more goodbye or hello kiss, cuddle before sleeping or having dinner together. Whenever I tried to touch him he would push me in way that I wouldn't suspect anything, like he was tired or not in the mood. I thought it was because of work but I was wrong.

End of POV

Blaine left after fight with Kurt he was now sitting quietly at the park it was 2 am and there are few people around.

He started to cry again knowing that the 5 years they shared together ended like that. Ended because Kurt had fall out of love with him he didn't know what to do but he's sure he needed to get out of that place, he can't blame Kurt for not loving him anymore. Kurt's right people changed. He keeps asking his self what he did for Kurt to make that decision.

At 4 am he went home to pack his things, he silently arrange his clothes and boxed the other things. He'll pick it up when Kurt's not at home. He decided to check in a hotel for the meantime while he talked with his dad about the apartment he had given him when he went to New York.

At 6 am Blaine finished packing, and writes a letter for Kurt then he left.

At 9 am Kurt woke up expecting to find a cuddly Blaine but then realize all is done between them. He went in the living room to find a letter addressed to him.

"Dear Kurt,

I am sorry if I did something that made you falls out of love with me and sorry if I'm not the guy you needed anymore. I still love you despite all of this, but I can't force you to love me again so I'm letting you go. I hope you'll find the right guy that you need and love." –Blaine

After reading the letter he didn't know what to feel. Sadness because he had hurt the most wonderful guy he had ever met or regret because he ask for a break up with the guy who had been with him throughout his ups and downs and the guy who love him despite his imperfections.

He goes to the kitchen for a cup of coffee then he remembered Blaine preparing their breakfast even he's running late for school.

He saw stack of boxes at the hallway it must be Blaine's.

When he saw their closet he opened the other side to find it empty. His boyfriend's clothes were no longer there Blaine left for good and it's because of him.

At 10 am Blaine came back to pick up his remaining things, Kurt's in class up to 4 pm so he knows he can take things slow, just to memorize everything before leaving it all behind.

He saw their picture in the living room it was taken on Kurt's high school graduation they both looked happy and satisfied.

After gathering all his things he looks around one last time before putting his keys on the table and leaving the house he shared with Kurt.

At 5pm Kurt arrived home he was alone now, there's no music blaring out of their speakers or someone preparing dinner. The stacks of boxes were all gone now and Blaine's personal key of the house was on the table.

That hits Kurt; Blaine's not going back anymore, he knows he should be happy because this is what he wants.

Next Day

Rachel went to visit him; she's still unaware about what happened about him and Blaine.

"Where's Blaine?" Rachel asked as they sit on the sofa.

"Blaine's not here"

"Why does your place look more spacious now?" He's soon to be sister in law asked again.

"Blaine's not coming here anymore." Kurt stated with a shaking voice.

"What do you mean?"

"I broke up with him, and he's gone."

"Why did you do it Kurt?"

"Because I don't want the two of us to be tied together, I am not sure if I still love him Rachel."

He can see the sadness in Rachel, he knows she expect that they'll end up together but it turned out differently.

"Do you know he's going to propose on your graduation?"

"You know about that?"

"Finn and I went with him to look for a ring, and we made a promise to him not to spill it or drop a hint to you about the proposal." Rachel sighed and holds his hand "I have to tell you this because I am your best friend even I don't know the real reason why you did it I hope you'll not going to regret this decision because you know that guy you broke up with is one of a kind. I hope you have good reason Kurt."

"I don't want us to end up hating each other"

"Blaine doesn't hate you even you asked him this. He'll give anything to you even you didn't asked him too."

"I just feel that I lose him permanently and there's no turning back on this. It's all done were through and it was because of me." Kurt was crying as he confessed to Rachel.

He wants to explore New York more without someone holding him back. He wants to experience being with other's company.

In simple words, he became selfish again, thinking about his self, his feelings and not considering what will Blaine feel about this.