all knowing point of view

"Don't throw yourself around like you don't matter. Because you matter Kurt."

When Burt got quiet, and Kurt thought he was done, he asked, "Is that it?" Burt nodded, and said it was over for now, and offered to make Kurt some toast.

Kurt accepted the offer and was honestly kind of interested in taking it to his room so he could read his pamphlets.

"Thank you dad." Kurt said. It was torture, but he was glad to have had the conversation regardless.

As Burt welcomed him, he was relieved. He shut his eyes and thought he definitely deserved a beer after that. He hoped he wouldn't have anything to worry about with Kurt.

At Dalton the next day, Kurt approached Blaine after Warbler practice and asked him, "I'm still up to having that conversation if you are."

After going over his pamphlets last night, Kurt realized that talking about sex with the guy that he liked and was crushing hard on, should have been something that he was lucky to do. Even if Blaine didn't feel the same way about him.

Last night, he had information overload with all of the reading that he was doing. After he finished reading, he even went online and watched a few of "those movies' or at least he tried to find one that was romantic rather than... annoyingly pornagraphic... but he didnt have much luck. But he got the gist of it. the mechanics, and the details. Sex no longer seemed scary, or gross. Now... it seemed... Nice. Like he would enjoy it with the right person.

The warblers were all leaving the common room, and Kurt and Blaine stayed behind. Blaine sat down on one of the couches and crossed his legs, waiting for Kurt to initiate the conversation. He didn't want to say anything that might make Kurt uncomfortable, so he figured he would let Kurt start.

"You say you're not good with romance. Well I'm not good with things like …. Sex."

"Okay. Let's make a deal then. I'll teach you what I know, and you can teach me what you know." Blaine smiled.

He is always so confident.

"Sounds good." Kurt smiled and sat down across from Blaine on the couch. They were such a perfect match, and Blaine was starting to realize this too.

"So what do you know?"

"Well," Kurt said, scratching his chin. "My dad got me a stack of pamphlets from the teen center yesterday, and he tortured me with the talk. I know about STDs and that when you are gay, sex is not the same as it is with people who are straight. But I don't know- What's so great about it? Have you ever... had sex?" The last part came out in a whisper.

Blaine was shocked! How did Kurt not know that sex felt good? "Um.. well…." He was looking for the right words to say. He didn't want to scare Kurt away again by being too forward or something, but then again, Kurt askedhim to have this conversation. He might as well say what's on his mind. " No. I've never had sex... But," Blaine sighed. How could he put this... "Don't you ever get, excited? Like if you see a hot guy on a show or like a sex scene in a movie or on HBO or something?"

Kurt began to blush. Yes, absolutely. He got excited sometimes. He was a teenage boy after all. But he couldn't tell Blaine that. Tell them that he felt excited every time Blaine danced. Tell him that he had woken up several times with a morning hard on after he had had a dream about him. Tell him that sometimes when Blaine was near him, his jeans would get just a little bit tighter. He would never be able to tell him that. That would be way too embarrassing.

"Well yeah, I get excited. I mean. I AM a guy. And sometimes I can't control it. But I think about something else quickly, and then it's not a problem anymore."

Kurt was so innocent. Blaine wondered if he had ever even…

"Have you ever even... Played with yourself?"

Kurt's eyes bulged up. Kurt just shook his head embarrassedly.

Blaine chewed on his cheek for a moment. "Ok so, you said you havent really watched... Porn. Right?"

Kurt paused before answering. "I mean, i have, but they're all really kind of... vulgar.. they don't seem like they're realistic. There is no passion... Or romance."

Blaine smiled. Kurt is such a romantic. Its adorable. "That's not what 'making love' is supposed to be like." Although Blaine had also never had a boyfriend, he knew that there was a big difference between porn, and sex in real life. Like movie scenes on TV where the couple really love each other. "A better example would be like... Cruel intentions! the sex scene at the end between Reese and Ryan. That's what sex is supposed to be like. The love of it, not the paid porn stars who are totally fake."

It was quiet for a moment, with Blaine caught in his thoughts until Kurt spoke up."What about you?..." Kurts shifts on the couch. "Do you ever-... play with yourself?"

Blaine looked up at Kurt, a telling look in his eyes and a tiny one shouldered shrug.

"Do you do it a lot?" Kurt asked, extremely curious now.

Blaine was a little surprised with himself that he didn't seem uncomfortable in this conversation. "When I get the urge. Or when I've seen something that really turns me on. I won't lie, it feels really good Kurt."

Blaine seemed comfortable in this conversation, so that was making Kurt more confident to ask questions. The boys talked for a while longer about sex before they both went home. They hugged goodnight, and although Kurt knew that Blaine didn't have feelings for him like he did, he couldn't help but feel like not letting him go. He felt like he and Blaine were definitely best friends but he still couldn't help himself! Dang it he wished that they were more!

He was still happy that they were close enough to talk about anything, but gosh it was so bumming that they weren't boyfriends.

Back at Blaine's house, he couldn't help but start to feel like maybe he and Kurt should be more than friends. He had always seen Kurt as nothing but a best friend. Maybe because at the time that they met, he was in need of a friend and someone to mentor him. And because of that, Blaine has always been what he felt like Kurt needed to be. But now, after tonight, for the first time, he was thinking about Kurt as more than just a friend. He was thinking about Kurt as a boyfriend. Thinking about cuddling with him, and maybe kissing him. He couldn't even escape the memory of their conversation tonight, when Kurt said, "Maybe i need to... To try that."

And Blaine agreed with him. "You'll enjoy it. Trust me. And besides, you wont know how it feels until you... well... Feel it for yourself."

Thinking back on that thought made his heart warm. Maybe he and Kurt are meant to be something more than just best friends.