Kurt and Blaine laid on Kurt's new bed, in a pile of blankets, pillows and limbs. Blaine had his head on Kurt's chest listening to his heartbeat. It had been so long since he had been this close to someone, he had forgotten how comforting it is to hear the heart beat. It was like a lifeline to being alive. The steady rhythm was soothing.

 They spent the entire day swapping stories. Kurt telling Blaine about his dad and Finn, Rachel and Finn, Sam and Mercedes, his time at Dalton, surviving bullying at high school, meeting and falling in love with Adam, basically his whole life story.  Blaine sat and listened, his legs wrapped around Kurt's and his hands buried in Kurt's hair. He had never been so content, at least that he could remember. No assignment to worry about, no other angels to worry about. Just laying here with his Kurt.

Every time Kurt tried to turn the conversation to Blaine's past, Blaine had a way of changing it back to Kurt. It always took Kurt a few minutes to notice that the change had happened. Finally Kurt had enough and asked point blank for Blaine to tell him the truth. Blaine stared at Kurt for a few minutes before giving in. He started by explain how different things where in the early 1900s, then told him about his parents how he was expected to behave. When he got the part of the story about Sebastian, his breathing became uneven. It was the first time he had spoken of Sebastian, and the pain was still very raw. By the end of Blaine's story Kurt had free falling tears and Blaine could feel his heartbeat quicken with every word. He felt guilty putting Kurt into that state, but Kurt had asked and he wanted to honest with him.

After wiping Kurt's tears, he noticed the time. He only had another hour before Kurt was supposed to meet his Rachel and Finn at Niff's Place. They hadn't kissed since that first time seeing each other in the bar and Blaine was missing the contact. He didn't want to hurt Kurt,  and he knew if he started kissing Kurt know he didn't know if he would be able to stop. He took the risk. At first Kurt's lips were hesitant, but they quickly caved in and allowed Blaine's tongue entrance.  Kurt's whole body was lit on fire; it was like Blaine was melting in to him.  Blaine reached up with one hand to cup Kurt's face and deepen the kiss. Blaine moved just slightly against Kurt's body, igniting sparks along his flesh. Kurt slid down the bed, to grant Blaine better access and to keep them on the same level.  Kurt pulled Blaine on top of him, and with a grunt Blaine allowed himself to relax on top of him. Legs were still tangled together, hips were aligning just right, and tongues were exploring.

Kurt broke the kiss to try to take a breath; Blaine couldn't stand the lack of contact and began kissing Kurt's neck, ear, and the part of his collar bone that was peeking out from his shirt. Kurt moaned in spite of himself and tilted his head to give Blaine better access.  Blaine took the opportunity to suck along Kurt's neck, marking his flawless skin. Kurt twirled his fingers in Blaine's curls, pulling on them only slightly to let him know he was enjoying his lips. Kurt let himself get lost in the touch and lifted his hips up against Blaine to give better friction. The movement led Blaine to moan and bite slightly at Kurt's neck. Both men now moaning and grinding up against each other, Blaine moved to the right to give them better access and line up their erections against each other. Kurt reconnected his lips with Blaine's. Both men now sweaty and lost in their own quest for release. Blaine got there first, but it was only seconds before Kurt. The men allowed themselves to come down from the high before looking at the clock.

 Kurt was already running late to meet his friends downstairs and now he would need a shower. He did not want to move, even with the stickiness soaking into boxers which he usually detested. The thought of leaving Blaine left Kurt feeling empty.

“I love you.” Blaine whispered. Kurt was caught completely off guard. He stared at Blaine

“You don't know me. You can't love me.” Kurt heard himself saying even though what he really wanted to say was ‘I love you too.' “When I get out of the shower, you will be gone. I will have to go downstairs and hang out with my friends. They will never know that in 24 hours you put me together in a way that no one else ever has or probably will. I can never tell them that there is a man that I can see myself spending the rest of my life with, but can never be with. Don't say things like I love you, don't. Please don't make this harder for me Blaine. What do you want from me?”

“Ask me to stay.” And when Kurt had no response Blaine was gone.

Kurt allowed the tears to flow freely as the suddenly loss of Blaine laying on top of him was almost too much for him to bear. After a few minutes Kurt forced himself out of bed and into the shower. Even in the shower he couldn't stop the tears from flowing. He knew he needed to man up and get to meeting with his friends, but he just didn't know if he had it in him.

Kurt usually took at least an hour to get ready, but now he had 10 minutes. So he coiffed his hair as much as possible, pulled on his tightest pair of black jeans, put on his famous red knee length sweat, and his combat boots. He checked himself in the mirror one last time, approved of the look. He grabbed his jacket, and started to walk out of the apartment. He stopped right before he got to the door, look around, and whispered “If it matters, I wish I had the courage to ask you to stay.” He said to the empty apartment and walked out.

Meanwhile

Blaine knew he was being creepy by watching Kurt, but he wanted to make sure he is going to be okay. Blaine wanted nothing more than to be with Kurt, however the rules stated that the human also has to agree to the decision. Blaine knew he couldn't change Kurt's mind, even though he hadn't known Kurt very long he knew him enough to know Kurt could be stubborn. He thought he would be hurting Blaine, and he knew Kurt would never want to do that.

Anna came over and sat next to Blaine.

“I know you are hurting, but you can't force him.” She spoke softly and she allowed Blaine to cuddle up close to her.

“I know, and I don't want to force him. But why would I be sent to help if him, if this was the plan? I think I fell in love with him the moment I saw him. But it makes no sense.” His voice had a whiny edge, but he couldn't help it. He knew he was acting like a spoiled teenager, but he wanted Kurt and he wanted Kurt to want him.

At just that moment Kurt's voice floated up to him. ‘If it matters, I wish I had the courage to ask you to stay.'

“Anna did you hear that? Is that enough?” He asked almost excitedly.

“No Blaine, he must actually say he wants you to stay.” Her tone was apologetic but her face remained as stoic as always.

Niff's Place

When Kurt returned to the world of the living, Rachel and Finn were waiting for him at the bar. Niff's Place was already packed with college students. Kurt guessed they needed to place to go now that finals were finished. He looked around but only saw Rachel and Finn, but he still approached with caution. He didn't want to be ambushed by all his friends at once. After losing Adam, his job, Blaine, and his life as he knew it he wasn't up to the challenge of hanging out with all his friends. Finn spotted him before Rachel and wrapped him in a bear hug.

“You know me and Nick can kick his ass, right? You just saw the word.” Finn said, half joking but half serious. Kurt assumed Rachel had already told him the story, and Kurt was actually grateful that he didn't have to repeat the pain.

“I know and I appreciate it big bro, but I'm alright. I promise. It was a lot easier to cut the cord then I thought it would.” Kurt said with sincerity.  

After that Finn funneled Kurt drinks all night, while Rachel kept the conversation flowing. Granted it was mostly about her, and her role in Funny Girl but Kurt was grateful he didn't have to talk much. He was content on just sitting, drinking, and listening to Rachel.

Rachel even talked him into getting up and singing a few songs at the Karaoke bar. He was really starting to loosen up and enjoy himself by the time Rachel talked him and Finn into singing ‘Born this Way.' This was one of their favorite old glee club performances, and while it wasn't the same singing it without Tina, Mercedes, and the rest of the club Kurt still enjoyed himself. He was swinging his hips in a sinful way that made all the girls and guys scream for him. Rachel even caught herself staring however; Finn was too busy trying to concentrate on not injuring himself or others to notice how everyone in the bar was mesmerized by Kurt. Nick and Jeff watched from the bar, the Kurt they always knew and loved was coming out up there on that stage. That was the Kurt they knew and loved, even though they were still holding grudges from the New Directions beating them at Regionals their sophomore year.

Kurt couldn't believe the way the stage, even just the small stage at Niff's Place, made him feel alive again. He was enjoying being the center of attention again and making everyone, even the straight guys, swoon by swiveling his hips. He felt young again, and he had missed this feeling. He used to feel like if you gave him a stage he could conquer the world, but as he had gotten older and gotten more responsibility he had lost that wide eye innocence. Tonight on that stage Kurt was on top of the world. All his troubles forgotten. 

After his 3 song solo set, he found his way back to the bar and his seat beside Rachel. Both her and Finn were grinning like idiots, they knew this was exactly what their friend needed. They always knew what Kurt needed, and they were the friends to help him in his time of need. Kurt was always lucky, even in the worst of times he surrounded himself with people who loved him. He never let anything get him down for too long and this wasn't going to be any different. Kurt Hummel was strong. Kurt Hummel was fabulous. Kurt Hummel needed to sing. Kurt Hummel needed the applause.

Without any hesitation Kurt swayed his way back up on the stage and gave Nick his next song choice. He was going old school Katy Perry, Teenage Dream it was. Nick and Jeff couldn't resist getting up there and singing it with him. When they were on the second chorus Kurt suddenly noticed Blaine in the audience of the bar. He was staring at him wide eyed. Kurt couldn't help but play it up. He danced around the stage, showing off his skin tight jeans. When the song ended, Kurt paid no attention to anyone else but Blaine. The drinks Finn had supplied him with the whole night had left behind his inhibitions. He jumped down off the stage, grabbed Blaine by the hand and dragged him back to Nick and Jeff's apartment.

They didn't say a word until they were in Kurt's temporary bedroom. Kurt was busy taking off his boots while Blaine was trying to explain his presence.

“I saw you singing, and the way you lit up the stage Kurt and I couldn't stay away. I just couldn't.”

“So my swinging hips and tight jeans had nothing to do with it?” Kurt said with a smirk, his boots where now off and he had taken a step closer to Blaine.

“Well maybe...” Blaine started to say but he was cut off by Kurt's lips attacking his own. This kiss was different then their previous kisses. Those had been sweet and simple. This was full of passion and lust. Blaine usually controlled their kisses, but not this time. Kurt controlled every movement as his tongue explored Blaine's mouth. He pushed Blaine down to the bed and took off his sweater revealing his flawless skin beneath. Blaine was in awe of this man standing in front of him. He grabbed Kurt's waist and pulled him closer to him. Kurt's mouth found Blaine's lips, while Blaine hands explored Kurt's back and chest. He wanted to rub every inch of his skin, he wanted to explore with his tongue. Kurt let go of Blaine's face long enough to remove Blaine's shirt.

What he saw made his breath hitch. Blaine's olive skin shone with the moonlight shining through the window. His muscled rippled with every movement of his hands across Kurt's back. Kurt settled himself on Blaine's lap, straddling him, pushing their chests together. That contact alone was about to drive Kurt wild. He bucked his hips and noticed Blaine was having the same problem. He decided they needed to get rid of their pants as soon as possible. He stood up and pulled Blaine up with him. He reached for Blaine's jeans and started to unzip.

“Kurt, wait.” Blaine practically begged, he wanted to make sure Kurt wanted this.

“Blaine, I know I know. But I need you. I need this. Please.” Blaine looked into Kurt's eyes and saw nothing but love. There was no hint of possible regret, just love.

Blaine wasted no time in rejoining their lips and allowed Kurt to continue undressing them both. Once they were completely undressed, Kurt showed his first signs of being shy. He ducked his head his face flushed crimson. He wasn't used to being completely naked in front of anyone but Adam, and he was never completely comfortable with being this vulnerable. Blaine stood up kicked his shoes and pants off to the side and turned around to pull back the covers on the bed. He climbed in and patted the empty side for Kurt to join him. Kurt slide in beside him, and the kissing became softer, slower, more sensual.  Kurt reached out to touch every inch of Blaine, he continued kissing Blaine down his neck and across his collar bone. Kurt knew this would be his first and last time with Blaine, and he wanted him to enjoy every single second of it. He started moving his kissed further downward, pausing at both nipples and giving them each attention. Blaine bucked his hips up from the bed, surprised by the sudden attention.

Kurt place his hand on Blaine's hand to keep him still. Blaine let out his first of many moans of the night, biting his lip and reaching for Kurt. He wanted to touch him, but Kurt batted his hands away as he worked his way further south. When he reached Blaine's happy trail, he paused just briefly to regain his courage. Kurt slowly wrapped his hand around Blaine's swollen and throbbing cock.

“Oh Kurt” Blaine moaned loudly into the room.

Kurt started pumping Blaine gaining momentum with each upward thrust. He started peppering kisses along Blaine thighs, causing Blaine to against start thrusting up into Kurt's hand. Kurt pushed his hips still with his free hand and with no hesitation sank his mouth over Blaine. Taking him in completely, until the head of Blaine's cock was hitting the back of Kurt's throat. Blaine didn't want to hurt Kurt but he couldn't help but rock his hips. The warmth of Kurt's mouth was too much for Blaine to handle. Kurt was doing things with his tongue that Blaine had never felt before. He was swirling his tongue around Blaine's tip. And Blaine was starting to lose control and quickly. He started bucking his hips and this time Kurt let him fuck his mouth.

“Kurt I am not going to last…” Blaine groaned. With that Kurt popped off Blaine and slide back up the bed to kiss him once again.

“I want you to make love to me Blaine.” Blaine took that as his cue and flipped Kurt over where Blaine was on top of him.

“Do you have anything?” Blaine asked and Kurt reached into the drawer beside the bed. He pulled out lube and a condom and handed them both to Blaine.

He spread Kurt's legs with one hand while opening the lube with the other. After his fingers were slicked up, he started to press one finger into Kurt's tight hole.

“Oh god, oh god, that feels so good Blaine.”

He took his time spreading Kurt, not wanting to hurt him and not sure what he could handle. The tight ring of muscle around his finger was enough to send Blaine over the edge but he had to hold on for Kurt's sake. He began concentrating on controlling his breathing while he added another finger. He started scissoring them. Kurt was thoroughly enjoying the slow stretch.

“More Blaine.” Blaine started to add a third finger. Kurt hissed at the slight pain, but he didn't want Blaine to stop. He pushed himself further onto Blaine's fingers. Blaine started crooking his fingers looking for that little nub he knew would drive Kurt completely crazy. When he found it, Kurt bucked up so quickly Blaine's fingers almost fell out.

“Now Blaine, now. Please.” Blaine ripped open the condom and rolled it on without any hesitation. He lined himself to Kurt's hole, and started to enter. He got the head in and waited for Kurt to adjust. Kurt took a second to get used to the pain, and then forced Blaine completely into him. The shock of it drove Blaine to lay his forehead down on Kurt's shoulder. They laid there for a minute to get used to the feeling.

“Move Blaine. Please” And Blaine did. He started kissing Kurt's shoulders and rocking his hips sharply into Kurt. Kurt responded by keeping in time with Blaine.

“I am not going to last long.” Blaine almost whined. The attention from Kurt's mouth earlier and now his tight hole had him weak and on the edge.

“Me neither” Kurt admitted. The both kept up their fast pace and Blaine grabbed Kurt's erection to bring him closer to the edge. Within minutes Kurt started spilling over Blaine's fist. The spasms from Kurt and his muscles tightening caused Blaine to follow shortly after.

Afterwards they laid spent, the breaths heavy in the air. Blaine didn't want to pull out but knew he needed to, before him and Kurt both became over sensitive. He slid out and pulled out the condom, throwing it in the trashcan near the bed. He reached down to grab his t-shirt. He cleaned up Kurt's chest and stomach as best as he could.

He pulled the almost asleep Kurt towards him. “I love it when you say my name.” He whispered.

“I love you Blaine.” And just like that Kurt was asleep.