Dec. 3, 2011, 5:31 p.m.
Bluebird: Chapter 23
E - Words: 3,254 - Last Updated: Dec 03, 2011 Story: Closed - Chapters: 31/? - Created: Sep 09, 2011 - Updated: Dec 03, 2011 443 0 0 0 0
Blaine left on Sunday evening, after dinner and because of the amount of people in the house, they hadn't had another chance to experiment with their new agreement. Kurt and Blaine had planned on sleeping in the living room, using the excuse that they were going to have a marathon of the Scream movies, but Burt looked at them semi-suspiciously and said no on the grounds that Sunday morning was his morning to watch the "fix-it" shows on HGTV and didn't want to wake them up, only to send them back to separate rooms to sleep. So, they watched a couple movies in the living room and cuddled on the couch when everyone was asleep and kissed and played and said sweet nothings to each other until they could barely keep their eyes open.
Neither Kurt or Blaine argued about sleeping in separate rooms because they were supposed to be holding up the fa�ade that they were still just friends and not a couple. They'd never had a problem with sleeping separately before, so why would they start now unless they had a reason to want to sleep together? Blaine had a feeling that Burt wasn't buying it, but Kurt seemed think that he did.
Blaine had left and Kurt had gone downstairs to take his usual Sunday night snack: two cookies and warm milk, up to his room. "Good night, Dad," Kurt called out as he walked past his father on the couch.
"Kurt, come in here, please?"
Kurt didn't think much of his father's request because Burt often called Kurt in the living room with him to chat about this or that. He brought his snack into the living room and placed it on the coffee table. He offered one of the cookies to his father and he obliged before talking. They both dipped their cookie in the milk and then took a bite. It was a sweet picture: father and son, sharing a glass of milk and two Oreo cookies. It was the one non-organic luxury Kurt awarded himself.
"So what's up?" Kurt asked, taking a sip of the milk and sloshing it around his mouth to rid his mouth of the black cookie.
"Can you look me in the face and tell me that you and Blaine do not have feelings for each other?"
Kurt stopped moving. "What are you talking about?" Kurt shifted his eyes around, doing everything he could to avoid eye contact..
"Kurt, look at me." The fair skinned boy forced himself to look at Burt. "Do you have feelings for Blaine?"
Kurt sighed. This was a conversation he could have. Talking about his feelings for Blaine? That was like talking about the weather. It was clear and obvious, so he didn't have to lie about this part. "Yes. I have feelings for Blaine."
"Do you think it's fair to Derek that you two act the way you do around each other when he's not around?"
"What do you mean?" Kurt really wasn't sure what his father was asking. He understood the part about Derek, but he didn't understand the part of how they acted toward one another. He thought that they acted exactly the same as they always did. Friendly, not flirty.
"The staring, the lingering glances, your proximity when you stand next to each other. Seriously, you're almost on top of each other. If Carol was like that with one of her friends, I'd be extremly jealous and put off. Do you think it's fair that you're allowing that to happen?"
Kurt thought a moment. He couldn't give away that Derek and Blaine not being together, but he also wanted to be as honest as he could. "Derek and Blaine are big boys. They can handle their own problems. And if they can't then they shouldn't be together. Blaine can make his own decisions on what he does. Besides, what does it matter if Blaine is developing feelings for me? Wouldn't that be a good thing? I'd be happy because then my feelings for him would be reciprocated and then maybe I'd get a boyfriend out of it that you like and respect."
"I like and respect a boy who doesn't cheat on his significant other or go behind his boyfriend's back to line up a new boyfriend before he leaves him. And you shouldn't either. I admit. I like Blaine, but if that's what he's doing, I don't want someone like that for you. I want someone who will devote themselves to you alone and be honest with you."
"That's not what he's doing. I promise that's not what he's doing."
"Does he have feelings for you?"
"I'm starting to get that idea."
"Me too."
"You are?" Kurt hadn't known that their affection for one another was so obvious.
"Yeah. It's the look in his eyes when he looks at you. It's that puppy love look. Look, I don't know this Derek kid all that well, but if you and Blaine end up together, I don't want it to be because Blaine lied to Derek and went behind his back. And I certainly don't want it happen because he cheated on Derek. Once people cheats, they're labeled a cheated for the rest of their lives and they can't take it back. Think about it. If Blaine cheated on Derek with you, what's to say that he would cheat on you with someone else?"
"Blaine's not like that. He's too honorable."
"You sure?"
"Yes. Absolutely. Blaine is so stuck on doing the right thing that if he really wanted to be with me or anyone else, he'd tell Derek first before even making a move on that other person." That was true. In fact, that's exactly what happened, so Kurt wasn't even lying.
"Alright. I'll believe you. You know I'm just looking out for you."
"I know."
"I just want the best for you. You remember what I said about not throwing yourself around?" Kurt nodded. "I'm not saying that Blaine does, but in general, I don't want you with someone who does that either. I want the best kind of person for you. You should strive for love, not dangerous excitement."
Kurt took another sip of his milk and put the glass down. "I will, Dad. Thanks for checking though." He made motion to get back up again, but Burt stopped him with another question. "It's not easy being the one on the outside is it? Him being in a relationship and seemingly encouraging your affection, but still out of reach?"
Kurt blinked a few times and took another sip of water. He though back to how it was before at Dalton. "Yeah, Dad. As a matter of fact, it kind of sucks. I'm watching him be happy because someone else is making him that way and I'm watching him do all the things to someone else that I wish he'd do with me. He really is a great boyfriend. He's the romantic type. Surprise gifts, hand in hand walks, dates, little compliments here and there that are so cute you want to throw-up. Yeah. It sucks being on the outside looking in."
"Is that why you tried dating Zach?"
"Yeah. It's part of the reason Blaine and I started fighting, to be honest. He was jealous of the attention Zach was giving me and I yelled at him for trying to keep me in his pocket while I had to watch the Derek and Blaine love-fest 24/7. But Zach and I didn't work out because I can't forget my feelings for Blaine."
"So, you stopped dating Zach and Blaine come back in the picture?"
"It's not like that. Zach's the one that actually got us talking. I was refusing to talk to Blaine while he'd been trying to talk to me and it's actually really very confusing, Dad. Do you really want to hear all this? Teenage drama."
Burt smiled. They hadn't had a talk like this in a while. "No. It's all right." He leaned back in his chair and looked back at the television.
"Dad?" Kurt asked. Burt looked back at Kurt with his eyebrows raised. "What if Blaine did decide to leave Derek for me? Would you be okay with that? I mean, with Blaine as my boyfriend?"
"As long as you didn't stir the pot up on purpose and Blaine left Derek willingly because he really did care for you more. Then, yeah. I'd be okay with it. Blaine is a good kid and I like him. I like him that way I see him now and I don't want to get a different impression of him. I like the idea I have of him in my head as a boy who holds you in high regard and cares more about his relationship with you than anything else. He doesn't seem to ever want to hurt you. That's what every parents wants for their child: someone who won't hurt them."
Kurt's lips were turning up at the corners slightly. "Cool. Thanks."
"You're welcome."
They exchanged 'good night' to each other and Kurt went upstairs to bed, feeling very content with where things stood with his dad. He was happy. He had Blaine, he had his father's consent, in a sense, and he had his happiness. All was good.
Monday morning came and he was forced to explain his giddiness to Dave. They were alone in the bathroom, the place they had all their on campus conversations, and Dave looked genuinely pleased that they were now together.
"Does that mean that you'll stop going on about the woes of Blaine?" Dave asked with a grin.
"Definitely. Blaine and I are going full speed ahead. I mean, it's only been a few days, but I feel like it's going to be good. Like, nothing can touch us, you know?"
The door to the bathroom opened and Dave's facial features changed. "Next time, if I'm running late, don't leave, wait for me," Karofsky said, pretending to be keeping things with Kurt strictly business.
Kurt rolled his eyes and felt a hand on his shoulder. Zach was at his side. "Didn't hear from you. Good weekend?" Zach winked then flashed a look at Dave and saw his unsteady eyes. He looked nervous.
"Mmhmm." Kurt felt like he was grinning like an idiot and now knew what it felt like to be a giggling teen girl in a locker room.
"Tell me about it later."
"Sure. We gotta go. See you in class."
Zach started heading for a stall and looked back at Kurt's direction who was walking out the door and Dave turned his head back and locked eyes with Zach. It was only a moment, but it was enough for Zach to get an idea in his head. His expression is curious, Zach thought.
At lunch Kurt was sitting at their usual table and Zach walked up to the table and put his tray down. "Kurt, I have to talk to you."
Kurt looked up at the tall blonde awkwardly. "Okay."
"Can we go to another table?"
Everyone at the table was now staring at the duo and Kurt just stood up and followed Zach over to an empty table. "What's going on? Is everything okay?" Kurt racked his brain in the thirty seconds it took to make it to another table and couldn't come up with anything or reason as to why Zach might be this serious.
Zach looked around and lowered the volume of his voice. He was trying to sound conversational. He had a hunch that Kurt was in on a secret. "What is your relationship with Dave?"
Kurt laughed. "Karofsky?"
"Yes. What's going on with the two of you?"
Kurt laughed harder. "Nothing. He's my escort between classes."
"No. There's more. I know it."
Kurt stopped laughing, but continued to smile. "There's nothing more. He walks me to my classes. I'm his charity."
"He seemed way too nervous when I walked into the bathroom, like I was interrupting something. Was I?"
"Why? If you were it's none of your business."
"Oh my God! He's capitol G isn't he?"
"What?" Kurt exclaimed. "No. Well, maybe. I don't know. Why the hell would I know?"
"No!" Zach exclaimed silently with a smile. "You do know. He is." Zach gasped again.
"Look, Zach." Kurt turned his expression to serious and firm. "You need to stop. It is none of your business and I'm not into outing, so If you want to know then go ask him."
"Outing?" Zach asked. He felt bad about going to Kurt about this now, but he didn't really want to tell Kurt the real reason why he wanted to know. "Gosh, Kurt, I'm sorry. I wasn't trying to- I just wanted- I thought it would be okay to ask because both of us are in the gay club, you know. Sorry."
"It's fine. Just… I told him I'd keep it a secret and I don't think it's fair to let you in on the secret when he didn't want anyone other than me to know. He's not ready to be out yet. I actually don't think he'll be ready to be out for a while." Kurt looked off into nothingness as he recalled a memory from his past.
"Is he the one you kissed before me?"
The question struck a cord with Kurt. The look on his face gave away the truth.
"Oh. My. God. Seriously?" Zach smiled. Clearly there was more to Zach than what Kurt thought. Zach was a gossip whore. "Is he a good kisser?"
Kurt looked around the room, eyeing the distance between them and other people. "You need to stop. Really. We're not having this conversation with people around. Also, where did this come from? You're acting all diva-esque and gossip girl all rolled into one."
"I'll tell you about it later. I promise."
Kurt dismissed the whole thing, not knowing what had just happened and feeling really bad that he had just let go of Dave's secret. They returned to their friends who were now all curious about their conversation because Zach was so excited and animated from afar, while Kurt looked like he was about to tare Zach's head off, but the two boys were tight lipped about the whole thing.
At 7:15 in the evening, Kurt was on the phone with Blaine, discussing plans for the weekend after Regional's and he heard the doorbell downstairs. Two minutes later his door to his bedroom swung open and Zach was standing in the doorway with a great big smile on his face. "You've been holding out on me!" he said.
"Blaine, I gotta go."
"Why? What's wrong? Who is that?"
"It's Zach and he's being intrusive." Kurt made a face at Zach and pointed to his desk chair. Zach shut the bedroom door and took a seat, but looked like he was all fidgety. "I'll call you later."
"Okay. I love you."
"Love you too." He ended the phone call and put his cell on his desk.
"Oo. The I love you stage," Zach mused with a smile.
"You are bugging the crap out of me today. What are you doing here?"
"You are such a skank. You made out with him multiple times and didn't even tell me! And for the record, he is not as chubby as you might think. He's mostly all muscle. He works out a lot, you know."
Kurt picked up his messenger bag and pulled out a text book. "I did know that. He takes me to work out with him when I'm pissed off." He started flipping through pages, trying to avoid having this conversation with Zach, but Zach was amped up about something. "Wait… How do you know that?" Kurt looked up and saw Zach's pleased expression. Kurt's eyes went wide. "You didn't?"
"He is sensational. I've always been a sucker for muscles." Zach bit his lip, still smiling.
"What did you do? Where? How?" Kurt put the book down and was suddenly all ears.
Zach was still sitting smug across the room. He crossed his legs and wagged his dangling foot. "I saw his car still at the school and I found him practicing wrestling pins in the gym. I told him that I knew about him and he got angry, of course. I flirted a bit and then told him that if he was so mad, then he should take his aggression out by pinning me instead of the dummy. Do you know that he gets really horny when he's angry?" Kurt just stared in shock. "Yeah. The more aggressive he gets the more handsee he got. He is sooo strong."
Kurt started to smile. "Bitch, get to the good part. What happened?"
"We started making out and then went into the locker room and, boy, did he not really know what he was doing, but that was okay because I'm an excellent teacher." Zach winked. He got out of the chair and moved over to Kurt's bed. "I sucked his dick and told him to do it just like I did. He was a fast learner."
Kurt had his hand over his heart and felt that the color had left his face. "Oh my god! Seriously?" The question was rhetorical.
"Then we fucked. He was much better at that."
Kurt's entire body jolted. "Wait, what?"
Zach started laughing. "We fucked. Dave Karofsky and I had sex. Do you want a diagram?"
"Holy…" Kurt felt his heart thumping hard. He was in shock. He took a few breaths. "What was it like?"
"You mean, him? He's was okay, but he was a virgin, so I didn't really expect excellence."
"N-no. I mean the actual act, not his technique."
"Oh! It's was fun. Normal. Nothing out of the ordinary. Lots of touching and grunting, some instruction, but definitely not boring. It's kind of hard to be boring when you're being held by a left tackle. Man, is he strong!"
"D-did he top or bottom?" Kurt got the question out nervously.
"Well it was more like a behind or in front type deal." Kurt lightly slapped Zach on the chest with a smile. Zach giggled. "I'm kidding. Well, not really, but you know what I mean."
"Actually, no. I don't."
"You mean, you and Blaine haven't yet? Didn't you spend the night at his dorm?"
"Yeah, but we're taking things slow."
"You don't sound too happy about it."
"I'm just fine with it. We've talked it over and we just waiting until we both feel we're ready."
Zach looked at Kurt with an eyebrow raised. "You are such an innocent."
"It's not me, but I'm happy with our decision. It takes a lot of pressure off. Besides, Blaine is what I always wanted, so the wait will be worth it."
"You don't know what you're missing."
Kurt shifted his mouth to the side while he thought. "W-What am I missing?"
"Oh Honey…" The look on Zach's face told him that he was missing a lot. "Do we need to have the sex talk?"
"Um… I've have the sex talk with my dad." Kurt shifted on the bed uncomfortably. "He gave me some pamphlets that told me the, um, mechanics of how things work, but…"
"But a piece of paper from a clinic isn't going to give you a blow by blow instruction. Forgive the pun," he grinned.
"Right. I know Blaine knows what he's doing, but when we do get around to being physical, I'd like to know what I'm doing."
Zach thought for a few seconds. "Okay, I think I have a plan. I'm going to come over tomorrow after Glee practice and I'll help you out."
"Really?"
"Sure! It can be fun. Plus, when you do punch in your V-card, you can thank me for it being awesome and better than the normal person who loses their virginity."
"What's the norm?"
"Uncomfortable, awkward, and usually not exciting."
"Was that how it was with Dave?"
"Oh God no! Like I said… he's sooo strong!"
"What does that even mean?"
"Put it this way, if I have a hard time moving tomorrow, you'll know I had a good time."