Chapter 1

When Kurt left for Dalton he was wondering what he was going to say to Blaine. He shouldn't have made that comment about Bi individuals wanting to feel normal for a change but he had been so upset that Blaine appeared to be willing to date anyone that wasn't Kurt and he had snapped without thinking of what he was saying. He didn't like being compared to Karofsky either which was a low blow from Blaine, since Blaine had been the first one he had confronted to about the topic. However in saying all that it had only been 48 hours since that Friday afternoon argument at the Lima Bean, and Kurt would be lying if he said he didn't miss Blaine.

He was tired. He barely had any sleep the last couple of days thinking about it. Blaine didn't text or call and Kurt didn't initiate conversation either. He had tossed and turned over wondering if he had been wrong to be upset. His father was worried because he wasn't eating properly either, and he didn't even eat that much to begin with, but Kurt didn't want to lose Blaine over something so insignificant. He really really cared about Blaine, and it shouldn't matter if he wanted to be with someone else. Even if that someone else was meant to be his best friend, so why did it hurt so much?

He kept driving through unlike usually when he stopped by the Lima Bean to grab a coffee, but he knew Blaine always met him there, and he wasn't ready to speak to Blaine yet. He wanted to, but he wanted to do is in a less crowded environment and one where he could actually escape to other places if he needed to. Dalton was huge, and there was the beautiful study room that Kurt sometimes went to for some quiet time.

Rain started to pelt down. Kurt used his window wipers to keep a clear vision, but he was blinking from his tired state and maybe he should have gotten that coffee and just ignored Blaine because it would have woken him up at least. His vision out the glass window was blurry and a loud sound frightened him as a huge car came out of nowhere and was about to crash into him. The car was screeching it's horn and Kurt quickly skidded his own car in a different direction pushing down hard on the breaks. As his car came to a stop, it twirled on the road as there was a massive puddle of water. He felt sick in the stomach and his heart was pounding at the fact he almost died.

He texted his dad considering that he almost died, he should be thankful he could still do that.

I love you dad – Kurt.

He got a reply back in seconds

I love you too kid, have a good day - Dad

He got out of the car in a wobbly state, thankful he was still in one piece.

The boy that had been in the other car got out and came up to him "Oh my god, are you okay? I'm sorry I had been turning the radio station and wasn't watching as well as I should have, what's your name?"

"Kurt Hummel. I…I got to get to school,"

Kurt needed to see Blaine.

He almost died. His fathers face had been the first on his mind when he was stopping his car, and then it had been Blaine's smiling face afterwards that made him realise he was in love with the boy for sure.

That's why he had been so mad.

He loved Blaine, and Blaine didn't love him back, but right now Kurt didn't care – he needed to see Blaine.

He needed to hear his voice. He felt dizzy. "Woaaah easy tiger, you can't possibly go to school like this," The boy with the meerkat face was looking at him with concern.

"I – I have to. My friend Blaine's expecting me,"

Kurt then noticed something. The boy was wearing the Dalton blazer "You go to Dalton?"

The stranger nodded smiling "Yeah, I'm a new transfer from Paris, my family moved here. I just got here yesterday actually, was thinking of signing up for the Warblers,"

"Why were you going in the opposite direction?" Kurt asked. He felt rude for sounding so nosy but it didn't add up. He really didn't feel well. He held his hips with his hands feeling like he was going to faint. He was feeling very light headed, and things were blurry. He must have hit his head pretty bad, but he didn't want to go to the doctor either and worry his dad.

"I was heading to the Lima Bean since it was still an hour before school, and that's where everyone goes right?"

Kurt nodded.

"Yeah. My names Sebastian by the way. Kurt can I give you a lift? You don't look well,"

"Thanks Sebastian I'd appreciate that but my parents are working, and I need to come back for my car and school's just 40 minutes from here by car, I can walk,"

Sebastian looked sorry for causing all the trouble and Kurt added "It's okay, I know it was an accident, I don't blame you,"

"Please, at least let me give you a lift the rest of the way, considering I'm going there anyway, and you're in the Warblers right? I'll ask Wes to come get your car for you, he won't mind,"

How did he know he was in the Warblers?

The Warblers Are Like Rockstars … Well he guessed it wasn't that hard to figure out who was in the Warblers if you went to Dalton.

Kurt considered his face for a moment, he genuinely looked sorry and concerned.

"Okay, that'd be great thanks,"

Blaine had left the school to meet Kurt at the Lima Bean. It's where they always met for coffee. Even though Blaine rented a dorm at Dalton, he still liked getting up that little bit earlier just to see the other boy. The coffee was just an added bonus. He had hoped Kurt would be there so he could start apologising, because hell he missed Kurt. Not talking to him for 48 hours had been hard, and it hit him – he can't live without the other boy now that he knows all about him, but when Kurt didn't arrive. Blaine waited. He waited some more.

Rachel was there that morning. She walked up to him and kissed him.

All he could think of were Kurt's lips. Kurt's face came to mind as Rachel tried to push harder but he let go with a smack and he realised for sure – that maybe he more than liked his best friend, because he shivered thinking about Kurt kissing him. Whilst Rachel's kiss had done nothing

"Uh…aha, yep. I'm gay, I'm 100% gay, thanks for clearing that up for me Rachel – hey do you mind waiting in line, I got to go to the bathroom?"

Blaine went to clear his head. He noticed some girls giving him looks of appreciation on the way to the toilet, and Blaine still felt nothing looking at those girls, but when a guy winked at him as he came back out after washing his face. He blushed.

Kurt was right. He was definitely gay.

Not only that, during the weekand Blaine had time to reflect on himself considering Kurt wasn't communicating with him. He had never liked watching those…well you know those…videos were guys and girls were being intimate, but he always found guys being with guys hot, so why did he suddenly think he could be bi?

Yeah the kiss felt good, but now thinking about it. Kurt had been right on that too, it felt good because he had been wasted. They were both stubborn when it came to winning arguments, and whilst he still didn't like Kurt's comment on Bi's wanting to feel normal for a change… he had a feeling there was something more Kurt wasn't saying. Kurt only got defensive like that if something was upsetting him. "I look up to you," He had said.

Oh god.

Kurt was the only out gay kid in his old school…and Blaine is the only gay friend he has.

Of course he'd be upset.

He'd feel alone wouldn't he? Blaine scolded himself. There were gay students at Dalton, but Kurt doesn't have that …opportunity to meet other students like himself. Students don't just come up to you and say, hi I'm gay, want to be my friend?

Previously to that kiss, he remembered hoping when it was his turn for the bottle to spin on Kurt. . At the time he thought it was only because he felt safe kissing his best friend, and that perhaps he could help Kurt's memory of Karofsky's kiss have a brand new memory.

Besides, it'd be weird if Finn had gotten the bottle on his brother.

Ew, no.

He had wanted to text Kurt or at least call him, but felt a proper apology should be done in person. Kurt had the right to be upset. He thought he was going to lose Blaine.

When he got back Rachel was sitting down and frowning. Blaine decided to get her a coffee, considering it was the least he could do.

"Rach?" He asked when the order was ready and he placed it down in front of her. "I'm really sorry I lead you on,"

Rachel shook her head "I'm not mad about that, I can actually use this for my song writing, and I'm glad you're gay. Kurt needs someone like you to be friends with, I've been kind of selfish. He likes you, and here I am throwing myself at you, what best friend does that?"

Blaine looked at her sympathetically and put a hand on hers. "Rachel. It's not your fault, I shouldn't have agreed to that date. I had been confused but I think I have feelings for Kurt, so…you've helped me recognise that and I appreciate it,"

Rachel's eyes lit up "You like Kurt?"

Blaine's ears turned red. "Who couldn't? He's … he's special,"

"He is indeed. You know Mercedes threatened to knock you on the head if you didn't come to your senses,"

Blaine laughed "I probably need a bit of a knock on the head…hey is he alright by the way? We haven't spoken, and I'm a little worried he will avoid me at school, considering he's not here,"

He had waited behind to see if Kurt would show and because he felt bad about Rachel, but he was glad he talked to her, he felt better knowing she's fine with it.

"That's kind of why I'm here. He was supposed to meet me here this morning as moral support for whatever reaction might happen when I kissed you,"

Typical of Kurt to think of others before himself. It'd hurt watching someone else kiss your crush. Blaine's heart warmed at the thought and then his brain was going a mile a minute.

"Why have I been so stupid?" He groaned and Rachel laughed "Don't be dramatic, or you might have to move to McKinley, you'll fit in nicely there,"

Blaine smiled. "Well… you guys seem like a nice bunch, so I guess it wouldn't be the worse idea. Have you tried calling Kurt?"

Rachel nodded "Not answering,"

Blaine frowned. "Do you think he's mad at you too?"

Rachel also had thought about that as she looked pensive "I think he could be, and I don't blame him. I'm going to try call Finn, he'll know,"

Blaine agreed that it was a good idea "Do you mind if I wait with you to find out if he's coming?" Rachel rolled her eyes. She had a muffin in front of her "Want to share? I can't eat when I'm worried, and considering you got me coffee,"

Rachel could be sweet when she wanted to be. "Okay, you know Rachel, whatever guy does get to go out with you, will be very lucky," Blaine commented and Rachel smiled sadly "Thank you Blaine, and if you get together with Kurt, I'll throw a big party, without alcohol involved,"

Blaine laughed. "Well…we'll see,"

Rachel put her phone on loud speaker since Blaine wanted to know what was going on as well. "Finn, is Kurt there?"

"No, Burt said he left an hour ago," Finn commented and Blaine's eyebrows furrowed An hour ago?

"He must have went straight to Dalton," Blaine added and Rachel sighed. "Is he okay?" She asked Finn.

"Not really, he's been…not acting himself since Friday,"

Blaine's stomach turned uncomfortable at the thought. That's when the argument happened.

He hated thinking Kurt was upset.

"What do you mean not acting himself?" Rachel asked. That just wasn't enough information.

"Like…not eating, not sleeping. He looked like hell this morning, and he almost forgot to walk out in his tie until Burt reminded him,"

"Kurt never forgets details about fashion," Blaine responded and Rachel agreed. Finn sighed heavily "I don't know what's going on with him, but can you look out for him Blaine? Since I can't,"

Blaine nodded although Finn couldn't see him. "Yeah, of course. Look I better go anyway, my first class is starting soon, but I'll call you when I see him and give you an update,"

"Okay, thanks Blaine, Rachel…are you two dating?"

Blaine immediately answered "No, I'm gay,"

Rachel was grinning and he gave her a look. "I helped him work it out," Rachel said and Blaine rolled his eyes. "Yeah, she did,"

"Oh, okay. Cool. I mean whatever, but that's cool for Kurt…anyhow I got to go, Rachel you better head back, I'll let the teacher know you had something to do,"

"Thanks Finn,"

"Bye,"

"Bye Rach, and thanks Blaine,"

"No problem Finn,"

When she hang up she looked at Blaine who got up and grabbed his satchel "Thanks for the chat Rachel, I'll see you sometime,"

"Can you also let me know if he's angry with me?" Rachel looked hesitant to ask but Blaine smiled at her kindly "I'll ask him," Blaine offered and Rachel beamed. "Thank you, have good day!"

When he left the Lima Bean he sent Kurt a message, not able to hold back anymore.

Kurt, can we please talk? I'm on my way to Dalton, and I know you're mad at me…but I have something to say. I would really…really appreciate it if you talk to me. I hope you're okay – Blaine

Blaine got a reply within 10 minutes.

Just leave me alone – Kurt

Blaine sighed.

He'll wait till he gets to Dalton before trying to reach out to Kurt again, but that message stung a little.

On the rest of the way to Dalton, he frowned. Kurt's car was on the side of the road. He parked his near Kurt's car and decided to investigate.

Oh god…please no…Kurt didn't get in an accident did he?

His heart was pounding, but as he looked for Kurt, there were no signs of him.

He called his dad.

Burt picked up on the second ring "Hello?"

"Mr Hummel hi! It's me Blaine, Kurt's friend at Dalton" Blaine said breathless as Burt added "Yes I know who you are, what's up?" Blaine didn't wait as he asked "Is Kurt okay? Is he with you right now?"

"He didn't look okay, but…he won't say anything. He should be at school with you, why are you asking me that?"

"Kurt's car…I found it on the side of the road, and his tire is flat…and there's blood on the side door,"

Burt swore. "I haven't heard anything from him, are you at school?"

"No, I was on my way there,"

"Okay… okay…I'll get of work and see if I can find what happened to you…do you think…"

"I don't know Mr Hummel, I hope not,"

"Me too kid,"

Blaine was panicking now. He rang Finn and Rachel to tell him what he had seen and Finn immediately said he was on his way. Rachel said she'd check in the Lima hospital and the Westerville Hospital to see if Kurt had been injured. Mercedes was going with her.

Blaine called Dalton to let them know of the situation. The person at the front desk said she understood why he was coming late, and that no Kurt Hummel had not arrived at school yet.

Nobody knows where Kurt is.

Blaine looked in his car to see if there were any clues. Maybe a suicidal note. God he hoped not.

He found a journal under the seat, and flipped it open. On the front page was a drawing of a red love heart and the words Kurt + Blaine inside it.

"Oh god," Blaine felt himself wanting to be sick as he ran his fingers over the red marker.

What had he done?