April 28, 2012, 1:10 p.m.
Finding You: I'm Just Waiting Outside
T - Words: 1,020 - Last Updated: Apr 28, 2012 Story: Closed - Chapters: 4/? - Created: Feb 20, 2012 - Updated: Apr 28, 2012 653 0 1 0 0
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Kurt Hummel was awoken that night by a loud tap at his window. His eyes opened quickly and he jumped up from his pillow. He looked around his room to see if the noise had come from inside. Just then Kurt heard another tap. He looked over at his sleeping sister Rachel to see if she was the one that was doing it. Of course she wasn’t because she was sound asleep.
So Kurt leapt from his bed and quietly walked to his window. He was afraid to open it but he had to make sure everything was okay. He pulled back the white delicate curtains and unlatched the window and opened it quickly. The window liked to squeak a lot and he knew that Rachel hated the way it sounds.
As Kurt stuck his head out the window he was relieved to find nothing but…also sad. The cool air of winter filled the night sky as it hit Kurt’s warm face. Chills ran up his spin and it felt lovely. But as he soaked in that small wonderful feeling of freedom from his bedroom he was disappointed that there was no one outside.
Kurt has had many dreams like this before. He has dreamt of someone knocking on his window, a masked figure because he could never tell what he looked like, and taking him to some far off land where anything was possible and that nothing matter anymore. Oh how Kurt wished that dream would come true sometimes.
He was the only boy who, in his little suburban, thought differently towards life. At his school everyone had the same exact dream of becoming a doctor and a lawyer and a banker. Every child’s thought was set on one thing in life…and that was wealth. That’s what environment that they were taught in and Kurt couldn’t stand it. He often wondered why people would care for one thing in life to make them greedy.
Kurt wanted more for himself and Rachel so much. He hated his school and the people around him. Kurt really wasn’t the most…muscular teenager at his school. He was often made fun of his voice and the way he would fix his hair. All the boys would laugh at him and call him names which Kurt didn’t like. But he kept his head held high. He needed to be strong for Rachel because he didn’t want her to see him cry.
Sadly, Rachel had seen him cry many times before. She just kept quiet about it because she didn’t want to make Kurt upset any more than he was already. But that wasn’t the only thing that made Kurt upset. The one thing that he hated about himself was that he was different, yes, but a much more different person.
He kept this a secret for a long time and when he finally turned sixteen he admitted to himself what he was. Kurt Hummel was attracted to boys. He wasn’t proud of it at all and he knew if anyone found out about it…bad things would happen to him and his family. This was frowned upon in his little community because he remembered well to what happened to one boy he knew. He found out that the boy was just like him, but after everyone found out he never heard from him again.
Kurt had to keep this private. He didn’t want his family to be ashamed of him as much as he was. But one family member wasn’t ashamed. And that was Rachel.
Rachel found out that Kurt was very different from some boys when she caught him looking at this boy named Eric. He was in the same grade as Kurt and he was one of the most attractive boys. When she saw the way Kurt looked at him she began to wonder because that wasn’t the only thing that was interesting about him. His clothes and hair was another thing and he love to song a lot.
But she didn’t want to think about it so she let it roll right off her shoulders. But it came back again when she saw Kurt looking at Eric from afar.
Then it wasn’t until Kurt finally spoke to Rachel about this situation he was in. He cried and cried saying that he was sorry and that he was ashamed, but Rachel just looked at him confused and gently placed her hand on his cheek.
Kurt raised his head up slowly as tears still fell from his eyes. “I love you no matter what Kurt. I’m not ashamed. You’re still Kurt. My Kurt. And that will never change.” Rachel said softly. Kurt just nodded and buried his head into Rachel’s shoulder and cried for the rest of that night.
Since then Rachel and Kurt had been closer than ever. And Kurt would do anything in his power to protect her from anything.
Kurt sighed heavily and went back inside. He closed the window and was about to lock it…but he decided to keep it unlocked just in case this “mysterious stranger” he dreamt about would come someday.
He knew that he probably wouldn’t but he always hoped. Kurt wished that someday he would be taken away from this dull and boring life.
So, Kurt crawled back into bed and dreamt of his stranger once more.
Blaine watched from behind the tree that was in front of Kurt’s bedroom window. He smiled because he actually got to see Kurt’s face tonight. Blaine always told himself that someday he would see Kurt’s face since he had been coming to his window for some time now listening to stories about himself.
He always wondered if Kurt knew if he was real. Maybe he could show himself to him someday. He smiled once more at the window before flying away back to his home in the stars.
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Thanks for reading. I’ll post chapter three as soon as I can. But thanks again. Reviews are awesome. ;)