13 November 1979

Its not fun being here, my room is small. There is a bed and a closet in it. Noting more. But it helps me. The people here help me. I still have trouble eating. But Im not that skinny anymore. Yesterday I had a breakdown though. Because of Jim, he came to visit me and it was horrible. He started talking about how selfish I am, how stupid and ugly I am. I hate him, I really do. But Im better than that. He cant tear me down anymore. Im getting stronger everyday and Im proud of it. I need to go, dinner starts in a few. 

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Blaine walks into my room the moment I finished this part of the diary. "Hey Babe, you ready to move to the city Saturday?" He asks, smiling at me.

"Yeah, Ive never been more excited!" I tell him. Blaines mom is helping me a lot, she makes delicious dinners and doesnt mind when I dont eat everything. I eat enough though. Im getting better step by step. But its still hard. "Did you know your mom had an eating disorder?" I ask him carefully.

He nods. "Yeah, she told me a while ago, she doesnt have any more struggles with it. Thats great. But she still cant stand bad food, like pizza." Blaine finished.

"But we ate pizza a few days ago, why would she do that. Its sweet of her though. When do we leave Saturday?" I get off my bed to walk over to him. Blaine is still standing at the door. I take his hands in mine and give him a small kiss. At the moment I pull away he grabs my neck and pulls me closer.

"I love you." I hear him whisper against my mouth. He lifts me up and I wrap my legs around his waist. He walks to the bed and lies me down softly. "I love you so much." He tells me again.

This time I pull him away for real. "I still didnt get an answer Blainey-Boo." I tell him pouting. "I want an answer, I wont kiss you until I get one."

He is still on top of me, each leg on a side. Slowly, he let his body rest on mine. He start to try to kiss me. I turn my head so he reach my cheeck. "Youre being mean, Kurtie-pie. But Ill give you an answer only because I miss your lips on mine. We leave at noon. Now kiss me again." And I do, I kiss him until we fall asleep together.

Soon enough it is Saturday. We went to New York a few days earlier to check out the apartment and already took a little stuff with us. Blaines mom decided we should live on our own. So she got us a small apartment. Two bedrooms, a small bathroom, a kitchen and of course a living room. It is cozy and gives you a warm feeling. Blaines mom lives a few streets further. Blaine is finishing his last year in high school and I am going to NYADA. We still have two weeks of summer left and its gonna be amazing. I just know it will.

"Babeeeeeeee, can you help me out for a sec please?" I hear Blaine yelling from outside. I run towards him and see he is to short to get something. I laughed out loud and he pouts at me. "Dont laugh at me, you are mean." He says.

"But Honey, its funny. You are just a little short." I say, grinning at him. I step toward him to help him.

"You know, not every part of me is short." Blaine suddenly says ten minutes later when we are inside sitting on the couch. "I know, I know." I say, well I laughed. I couldnt stop laughing. My boyfriend is such a dork.

After a few hours the unpacking is done. I settle down on the couch next to Blaine with a cup of thea. "You want some?" I ask him and give him the cup. He drinks a little of it before handing it back to me. The moment I finish my thea Blaine puts an arm around me to put me closer. I love these little things he does. My heart flutters everytime he does it. "Hmmm, I love you." I say to him.

When I dont get an answer I turn my head to see Blaine fell asleep. I get up and put an blanket over him. I decided to make some more thea. The water in the kettle is still warm. I put the tea in my cup and walk back to Blaine. But suddenly I trip and fall on the floor. I feel heat coming all over me and scream before I black out.