Kurt and Blaine carried their bags into their hotel room. Kurt felt tired from all the travelling. Blaine jumped next to him on the bed and cuddled close.

“I hate to say this Blaine but travelling really sucks.”

Blaine chuckled and pressed a kiss on his neck. “I'm offended baby. I thought you liked it with me.”

Kurt got a full puppy-eye look. “I hate you.”

“Oh is that so mister Hummel.” Blaine started to press little kisses on Kurt's neck.

Kurt nodded his head slowly.

“Too bad.”

Blaine jumped of the bed and started to unpack. Even if Kurt wanted, he couldn't move a muscle. His eyes followed Blaine around the room. Blaine turned around and winked at him with a smirk. Kurt blushed a little and ducked his head away. How Blaine still had such an effect on him, he would never know.

He felt how Blaine jumped on the bed and cuddled in his side. “Still hate me?”

Kurt looked at him and did like he was thinking. “Maybe a little.”

Blaine placed a hand on his cheek before he kissed him. Kurt needed to pull away after a few minutes to get some air. “Ok, maybe I love you.”

Blaine smiled. “I thought so.”

He lent back to Kurt and went further where they left.

Kurt and Blaine were late in the lobby. Wes was looking at his watch. Jeff and David were looking on their phone. “I'm sorry we're late.”

All boys looked up and smirked knowingly. Blaine just walked out of the hotel with Kurt who was slightly blushing. He looked back to see the boys close behind.

They walked around until they found a restaurant where they could eat. It looked a little like a pub inside and it looked really cosy. The boys decided to eat inside.

They got a menu card and started to choose their food. All boys choose for a spaghetti and as dessert they decided to eat ice cream.

Their spaghetti arrived at the table and Wes started to chuckle. “You know boys, you are real Disney fans. You two should try that scene out of lady and the tramp.”

Kurt blushed a little while Blaine gave Wes a glare. Jeff and David were laughing imagining it.

“That would be hilarious.”

“Not going to happen. Now eat.” Blaine started to eat while his friends tried to contain their laughter.

When they were finally done laughing, Blaine and Kurt their plates were half empty. When their ice cream arrived, some memories came back alive. Blaine looked up at Kurt to see him look at him knowingly. Just like the, chocolate and strawberry.

They paid for their bill and walked back through the lightened city to their hotel, ready for some sleep.

Blaine couldn't believe that they were already halfway through their first month.

He woke Kurt slowly before they went in the city. Today they would look around with Wes, David and Jeff.

They were already waiting on them in the lobby when they arrived. Tired of the breakfast in hotels, they decided to find a bakery. Donuts were bought with cups of coffee. They found a table in the corner and planned their day. They decided to walk around a bit first.

A few pictures were taken next to the canals. They found a street with little typical Dutch shops. They walked inside to see wooden shoes and windmills. David and Wes found two huge wooden shoes. Each one stood inside one and posed for a picture. @WesWarbler @DavidOfficial just bought new shoes. What do you think? They kept on walking through the streets, enjoying the atmosphere.

They came across the march. It looked pretty nice. On the march was AMSTERDAM standing in red letters. Wes, David and Jeff jumped immediately on it.

Blaine looked for a tourist to take a picture of them. He explained an older man how to take a picture with his phone before tugging Kurt along to sit on one of the letters. They all smiled for the first one and did a crazy face for the next one. Blaine jumped of the letter to thank the man and look at the pictures.

He decided to give the fans another picture. You have no idea where we are right now @WesWarbler @DavidOfficial @JeffForReal @KurtHummel. They quickly walked away from the march before the fans found them.

They bought some sandwiches along the way. It didn't take long before they were walking through the shopping street. It seemed fade that Kurt always found them.

They walked around but Kurt didn't go in any shops. He just looked around a bit. After all he had already bought a lot of clothes in London and Paris. Wes stopped midway the street.

A little music store was situated into a side street. They decided to take a look. Jeff looked around the drums while Wes and David looked at all the guitars on the wall. Blaine just walked around a bit.

“I wonder how many instrument you actually play. I've only seen you play the piano and the guitar.”

Blaine looked up with a smile. “Maybe those are the only instrument I can play?”

Kurt stared into his eyes. “No, there is another one. Tell me.”

Kurt pouted a little. “Don't laugh ok? I can play the drums and I also play a little violin.”

Kurt gaped at him. “I'd like to see that one day.”

“Hmm, maybe when we're home.”

They strolled around a bit until they stood next to the other boys. Wes was gaping at the huge expensive guitar on the wall.

“That guitar is a killer, man! I would murder for such a guitar.”

Blaine chuckled. “We'll need to play a lot more concerts before you'll be able to afford such an expensive guitar Wes. But who knows maybe one day.”

Wes glared at him. “What a sweet way to check me back in reality. Can't a man dream?”

Everyone started laughing and walked out of the music store, waiting for Wes to follow. Amsterdam started to turn darker. The boys decided to walk slowly back to the hotel. They could eat there for once.

The next morning, everyone had to wake up early. They had to go check out the avenue first. Afterwards they had a whole day full of interviews.

They showered quickly and bought a cup of coffee on the way. Everyone had tired eyes but the coffee made them feel more awake. The avenue looked amazing. They went quickly through the routine. Was everything there, did the stage stood alright, was everything ready for the meet and greets, were there clothes there and did their special effect for the night work. Their management walked with them through everything while Kurt took the time to study a little more from his script.

When they were ready, it was close to afternoon. They had twenty minutes to get something to eat before they had to go from radio station to radio station. They ate a quick sandwich and grabbed a bottle of water before leaving for the first radio interview.

All interview had gone just fine. Until they walked into their last building. They walked into the huge building where people worked every day to make their magazine. Blaine had never heard of it before just like every other stop he had today. He held Kurt's hand while they walked into the building.

At the reception sat a girl. She had a name card pinned on her blazer with the name Angelle. Their manager took the word and they checked in the building. The girl let them through some double doors toward an office room. The windows looked over the canal. The boys settled for the comfy seats.

The girl looked at them before speaking in bad English. “The man who will do the interview will be here soon. You can just wait a bit. It won't take long.”

The boys nodded before settling down. Their manager took an empty seat. Kurt and Blaine started to talk and get into their own bubble while Wes, David and Jeff played games on their phone. It took fifteen minutes before someone showed up.

Kurt and Blaine didn't even notice someone walked in before they heard some speak in shock. “Blaine? What a surprise!”

Blaine looked up confused until he looked into those eyes. He hated them. “Bastian, nice to see you again.”

No words were meant. He felt Kurt squeeze his hand and saw all the confused looks on him. He didn't say a thing and turned back to Kurt who looked at him with worried eyes.

“I'd never thought I would see you like this and for sure not like this. You got out of Ohio I take?”

“Apparently, looks like you did the same.”

He didn't look up to see Bastian nodding. Without a word he sat down at the table and started the interview.

Bastian: So boys, tell me about your tour? How is everything going?

W: Everything is going fine so far. We enjoy meeting our fans in Europe. The meet and greets are a nice way to do that.

J: We wanted this tour to be very personal. That's why we did the meet and greets and the special stage. It's all about the fans and how they experience it.

Bastian: What's the craziest thing that already happened on tour?

D: We were in a restaurant in Madrid and we had to call the police.

W: Yeah man, you had to see that. It was insane. But pretty cool either.

B: We love that the fans are so indicated. They are all unique.

Bastian: What do you miss when you are on tour?

D: I miss my sleep.

W: Definitely sleep. It's exhausting.

J: I miss my dog Dalton. He stays with a friend of mine right now.

B: I don't really miss a thing. All the people I care about most are with me on tour. It's all I need.

Bastian: You guys brought out a new album. What's your favourite song?

J: Animal and words. I can't choose.

D: Words for sure.

W: Words! It's are single for something.

B: Not alone.

Bastian: What's the favourite gift you have ever had from a fan?

B: We're not doing it for the gifts. We're doing it for the music. It means so much more for us if we can make a person smile, relate to us through our music. We want to be something different.

J: But it's always nice nevertheless. In Belgium we got lots of chocolate and waffles. We really could have eaten those for months.

Bastian: Are there any other artists that inspires you?

D: That's a question for Blaine. He writes all our songs.

B: I think I write most of personal experiences. I adore other music of course but I try to be unique. I love all music mostly. But I want it to have a meaning.

Bastian: Who would you like to record an single with if you could?

W: Lady gaga! That would cool.

D: Selena Gomez.

W: We all know you have a crush on her David, you don't need to blush.

J: I would go for P!nk.

B: If I had to choose I would like to choose two. I'd love to sing with Katy Perry one day and with Adam Levine from Maroon 5.

 Bastian: Ok the last question. This one is from the fans. Who of you is still single?

D: I am.

W: Me too.

J: Just like these two others.

B: I'm taken. Engaged even.

Blaine looked at Kurt with lovely eyes. They were leaded into a room where they took a few pictures of the boys for posters and for with the interview.

They were all walking out of the room when Blaine felt a hand on his arm. “We can meet up for a coffee tonight? We have so much to talk about.”

Blaine lost it. “Seriously Bastian? Do you even remember what you did to me! You let me lay there for death. I could have died that night.”

Blaine was fuming and Bastian looked a little lost. “After that stupid dance you just left me there. I saw you walk away while they beat me. I trusted you! And then you started bullying me with them. You remember when you came to me one day after you pushed me into my locker?! You told me I wouldn't make it. You told me I would always be stuck in Ohio and that I would one day be the one to serve you at McDonalds. Well look at me now Bastian. Look how far I came! I'm on a freaking tour through Europe. I'm recognised for my music. You're not worth a single minute of my time. You shouldn't have asked in the first place. It's not like you cared a few years ago. I don't see why you would care now or deserve a talk with me. Bye Bastian. I hope I never have to see your face again!”

With that Blaine turned around and grabbed Kurt's hand before walking out of the building.

The ride back was silent. Everyone was at other places in their mind. Wes, Jeff, David and Kurt tried to figure out what had just happened while Blaine kept replaying that night.

Everything was dark. Blaine was walking with Bastian after the dance. They had become friends as the only out kids in school. They were laughing with a joke when Blaine got all his courage and pressed a kiss on Bastian's cheek.

They both didn't notice the jocks coming closer. “Look who we have here. Our gays. We should learn you that dances from school are no places for you to come.”

The jock played with the baseball bat he was holding. Bastian didn't think twice before he started running. Leaving Blaine all alone. Blaine looked one time behind to see Bastian run around the corner before he felt the smack and everything went dark.

He felt how Kurt squeezed his hands but he couldn't stop the memories now.

Blaine opened his eyes. Everything was turning around. He tried another time to get a steady view. His head was hurting like hell. He tried to move his arm, only to see lots of needles and tubes. He didn't notice how the door opened and a nurse came inside.

“Oh my god! You are awake! YOU ARE AWAKE! The doctors won't believe this.”

She ran again outside. Blaine's mind kept going back to that one night. He vaguely remembered the doctor checking him out.

“Blaine, look at me.” He looked up at the man who looked at him with comforting eyes.  “With a few weeks of revalidation you'll be fine. You were lucky. You waking up was more then we could have wished for! It's a miracle but we're so happy. Welcome back Blaine.”

With that the doctor turned around and Blaine was alone again.

Blaine didn't notice how the tears ran down his cheek now while looking out of the window. Kurt was holding him close and leaded him through the hotel reception to their room. Wes, David and Jeff decided to come along. Blaine didn't notice anything.

First day back at school. All eyes were on him. Still wearing that stupid brace around his arm. Scared, so scared that he'll come back. He walks to his locker, head down. No one will notice you he tried to convince himself. Who was he kidding though. He heard the laughter from far. He felt a pair hands that shoved him into the locker. 

"We didn't learn you enough didn't we?” He looks up to see Bastian with the group. “You'll never make it. You should have died you know. You're not worth it. You'll be the one that will make my burger one night at McDonalds. You'll be nothing.”

They walked away laughing, leaving Blaine on the ground, all alone. Like always.

Blaine felt himself getting tired and fell asleep.

Kurt watched his boyfriend worried. He never had seen Blaine like this. He had no idea who that Bastian kid was, but all he wanted to do was go back and yell at him and slap him. He combed his fingers through Blaine's curls while whispering sweet words in his ear. He felt how Blaine slowly fell asleep.

Kurt looked up at Wes, Jeff and David. No one said a word, but everyone knows it was bad.

Blaine woke up slowly. He felt tired and confused. He can't remember getting into his room. He looks up to see Kurt looking at him with worried eyes.

“Hey.” Kurt looked shyly at him.

“How did I get in the room?” Blaine looked around confused.

No one was inside except him and Kurt. “You were a little out of here when I carried you in. I waited until you cried yourself asleep.”

Blaine felt under his eyes. “I'm sorry. I didn't mean to…”

Kurt placed a gentle hand on his mouth. “Don't apologise. I don't know what happened or what you're history is. I'm just glad you're ok. And no, you don't have to tell me unless you want to. I remember you telling me once the same.”

Blaine nodded thankfully. “I don't know how I ever deserved you but now I have you, I'll never let you go. I love you too much. You're something special Kurt.”

Kurt smiled sweetly at him. “So are you Blaine. I love you too. Now if you are up to it, we get a late dinner with the boys if you're up to it.”

Blaine's stomach growled loudly.

“Looks like we're getting out.” Kurt grinned before getting a jacket and waiting at the door for Blaine.

The group decided to eat dinner at the same place as yesterday. This time they all ate some meat with fries and a tiramisu to end the night. They walked back through the lighted streets to their hotel room. No one asked Blaine I thing. They were just glad to see he was ok.

Concert day arrived. Blaine and Kurt got ready quickly and grabbed a cup of coffee with the boys before heading to the venue. Blaine hadn't said anything about what had happened. Kurt still waited for him to come but knew he needed to respect his privacy. He decided to leave Blaine alone for a bit and went with Jeff, David and Wes for a last tour through the venue. They decided to play baseball inside for a while.

Meanwhile Blaine sat in the backstage room with his guitar. He was slowly strumming around when the words flew from his mouth. He never wrote down lyrics or notes. He would always remember. The  boys on the other hand always needed something to base on. Blaine took a paper and started to write the lyrics and the notes.

He didn't notice how his best friends came back and his boyfriend. They stood in the doorway and looked at Blaine who gave his full heart. When he was done playing, they all applauded.

Kurt walked to Blaine and sat down next to him. “That was really good Blaine.”

Blaine nodded. He hadn't meant for them all to hear.

“We should play it tonight, man. You wrote down the notes?”

Blaine wanted to make out an excuse when Wes took the paper.

“Common, let's try and play this. Blaine knows the words already anyway.”

Without waiting for Blaine's opinion, they ran out of the room to their instruments.

Kurt and Blaine sat in silence. Kurt waited for Blaine to take the next step. He was the one who was in pain after all. Blaine lifted up Kurt's arm and wrapped it around him before cuddling close to him.

“Bastian was with me the night of our school dance. I got attacked after it. He just ran away and left me to die. I was hit by a baseball bat. I was found a while later with lots on injuries. They never expected me to wake up from it. When I woke up, they told me it was a miracle. The doctors didn't expect me to recover fully but I did. When I would go back to school, Bastian became popular. He shoved me into my locker and told me some stuff like I would never make it. I changed schools a little after that.”

Kurt was holding him close and brushed his hand over his back a few times. “I can't believe he did that to you. If I had known that yesterday, he wouldn't be here anymore today.”

Blaine chuckled lightly. “He isn't worth it I guess. He just took me by surprise yesterday.”

Their management told them that it was time to go to the sound check. Everything went fluently and they even tried their new song. After the sound check, they grabbed a sandwich before heading to the meet and greets. Before they knew it, they stood on stage and were rocking the whole place. It was their last number when Blaine started speaking. “Tonight has been amazing! Thanks for coming and joining us tonight. We would like to end the show specially with a new song. I hope you all like it and thank you again Amsterdam! We see you next time.” The music started playing and Blaine got lost in the song.

If I could write to the kid I was before, 
Id tell him youll get everything you ever wanted, 
But you will still want more.
Someones going to tell you
Who should want to be 
So youll forget the vision that they didnt want to see
And when they give up, cause they will give up say
Here I am alive.

They say you dont grow up
You just grow old, 
Its safe to say I havent done both 
I made mistakes, I know, I know
But here I am alive.
So many people close to me cut me down, 
This is supposed to be a bad luck town
I jumped, I fell, I hit the ground.
But here I am alive.

If I could write to myself
When I was on top of it all, 
Id say youre going overboard 
and when youre falling 
Youre gonna feel so small, 
Someones gonna tell you that you deserve the worst, 
Theyll say youre never coming back
And tell you that youre cursed.
And when they give up, cause they always give up.
Say, here I am alive.

They say you dont grow up
You just grow old, 
Its safe to say I havent done both 
I made mistakes, I know, I know
But here I am alive.
So many people close to me cut me down, 
This is supposed to be a bad luck town
I jumped, I fell, I hit the ground.
But here I am alive.

And when they give up, cause they will give up
Say: Here I am alive! 
When they give up, cause they always give up
Say: Here I am alive! 

They say you dont grow up
You just grow old, 
Its safe to say I havent done both
I made mistakes, I know, I know
But here I am alive.
So many people close to me cut me down, 
This is supposed to be a bad luck town
I jumped, I fell, I hit the ground.
But here I am alive.

Here I am alive! 
Here I am alive! 
Here I am alive! 
Here I am alive! 

If I could write to the kid I was before

The boys left the stage and gave each other a hug. The day had been a success. They left to their hotel and straight to their bed. Blaine was being spooned by Kurt. He loved the safe feeling.

Kurt pressed a kiss on his bare shoulder. “I love you Blaine. You were amazing tonight. I hope Bastian saw you tonight, I hope he was there and saw how amazing you became! I'm so proud of you.”

Blaine just turned around and gave him a kiss. “I love you too.”

And with that he felt asleep, ready for their next stop.