July 15, 2013, 9:52 a.m.
When A Skank Plays Games: Chapter 8
E - Words: 3,197 - Last Updated: Jul 15, 2013 Story: Closed - Chapters: 17/? - Created: Jul 31, 2012 - Updated: Jul 15, 2013 588 0 7 0 0
"Okay..At least come wait in the commons so you don't freeze to death.." Kurt said as Blaine got up and got his jacket.
"Fine." Blaine said, walking past Kurt and up the stairs. Kurt watched Blaine and sighed, following him. He felt like he was hurting everyone. Blaine didn't say another word as they got on the motorcycle and headed to Dalton. When they got there, Kurt led him to the senior commons and kissed his cheek. "I'll be back..Okay?.."
Blaine pulled back. "Yeah."
Kurt sighed. "Please..Don't do this.."
"You mean don't pull away when your boyfriend could come out at any second?" Blaine said, rolling his eyes.
Kurt just looked away, shaking his head before turning to walk to the choir room. Sebastian was looking down as his fingers roamed the keys of the piano. Kurt took a breath before clearing his throat. Sebastian looked up and wiped his eyes. "H-Hey.."
Kurt came a bit closer, "Hey.."
Sebastian bit his lip as he saw the bruise under Kurt’s makeup. He slowly lifted his hand, and traced down it. "I am so sorry, Kurt.."
Kurt couldn't help the small flinch as Sebastian touched him. He hoped Sebastian didn't notice. "It's okay.."
"No, it isn’t.." Sebastian said quietly. Kurt didn't say anything, he just looked down. "Come sit.. I want to play something for you.."
Kurt slowly sat down next to Sebastian, looking over at him.
"Really listen..please.."
Kurt nodded, looking down at Sebastian's hands as he slowly began to play.
"There's a place that I know
it's not pretty there and few have ever gone
if I show it to you now
will it make you run away
or will you stay
even if it hurts
even if I try to push you out
will you return?
and remind me who I really am
please remind me who I really am.."
Kurt kept his gaze on down on Sebastian’s hands as he listened.
"Everybody's got a dark side
do you love me?
can you love mine?
nobody's a picture perfect
but we're worth it
you know that we're worth it
will you love me?
even with my dark side?
like a diamond
from black dust
it's hard to know
what can become
If you give up
so don't give up on me
please remind me who I really am.."
Kurt listened closely. What the words said were very true. But could he deal with Sebastian’s dark side.
"Don't run away
don't run away
just tell me that you will stay
promise me you will stay
don't run away
don't run away
just promise me you will stay
promise me you will stay
will you love me? ohh
everybody's got a dark side
do you love me?
can you love mine?
nobody's a picture perfect
but we're worth it
you know that we're worth it
will you love me?
even with my dark side?.." Sebastian finished with a whisper.
Kurt had tears in his eyes as the song ended. He wanted so much to love Sebastian. To not break his heart. But would it be safe? And what about Blaine? Today in the tub.. How they looked at each other and touched one another.. Kurt was so confused. Sebastian looked over at Kurt, tears in his eyes as well.
"I’m so confused..." Kurt said in barely a whisper.
"Why?...Do you..Do you actually have feelings for him?.."
"I don’t know.. I think so.. Just things that he does.." Kurt said quietly. "I don’t know.."
Sebastian nodded, clenching his fists and looking down.
"But then I was lying in bed and I just.. I missed you.."
"I miss you so much.."
Kurt tentatively reached out and took Sebastian’s hand. "I miss you too.. But Bas.. We fight so much.."
"I'll be better..I swear..Please..Kurt.." Sebastian pleaded.
Kurt swallowed hard. "It's both of us.. You have all this anger.. It scares me.. But I need to figure out if I'm even ready for this.."
"I-I'll get help..And I'll give you time..I know I'm angry..It's because I'm scared..I'm scared of losing you, because I'm so insecure..I'll get help..Just..Please..Don't leave me.." Sebastian whispered.
Tears sprang from Kurt’s eyes and down his cheeks. "Let's just work on ourselves.. And see what happens.."
Sebastian couldn't look at Kurt. "I just want you to love me.." he said so quietly, Kurt almost didn't hear him.
"Sebastian please.. We're so young.. I've never had this.. I don't know how I feel.. Please.. Let's take this time. I can't love anyone until I figure some things out for myself.."
Sebastian just nodded, taking a deep breath and trying not to let his anger overtake him. "But you're going home to Blaine..."
"Blaine is living with me right now. That doesn't mean I'm going home to him. But yes I'm going to think about both of you and what you mean to me." Kurt said softly.
"Are you still fucking him?.."
"Really?" Kurt asked, feeling like he had been slapped. "Are we back to making me feel like you think I just fuck anything that walks?"
"I'm asking you Kurt..It's a simple yes or no.." Sebastian said quietly. Kurt bit his lip as his gaze dropped to the floor. Sebastian took a deep breath in and released in slowly.
"I-I'm sorry.." Kurt said in barely a whisper.
"Just don't.." Sebastian said, his voice edging on being dark. Kurt’s hands trembled as he pulled back.
Sebastian took a minute to calm himself before looking up at Kurt. "I'm sorry.."
Kurt just shook his head, not daring to look up.
"Baby..I'm trying.." Sebastian said quietly.
"I know.."
Sebastian grabbed his hands, sighing softly. "Kiss me?..."
Kurt looked up in shock. "W-What..?"
"I just want a kiss..I haven't seen my boyfriend in three days.." He said timidly. Kurt took a deep, shaky breath before slowly leaning in. Sebastian laced his fingers with Kurt's, pressing a feather light kiss to Kurt's lips. Kurt sighed softly. He knew it was wrong but he missed Sebastian. Sebastian felt Kurt lean in again, pressing their lips together harder. The longer he kissed Sebastian, the more confused Kurt felt. Sebastian sighed, cupping Kurt's cheek and deepening the kiss. Kurt scooted closer, squeezing Sebastian’s hand. Sebastian pulled Kurt so their bodies were pressed together. Kurt pulled back slowly, tears in his eyes. "Bas.."
"What?.." Sebastian asked, caressing Kurt's cheek.
Kurt looked down and shook his head. "I-I'm so confused.."
"I know baby..I'll give you your time..As long as you give me a chance to change.." Sebastian said softly.
Kurt nodded. "I will.."
Sebastian nodded back, resting his forehead against Kurt's.
"I'm sorry.." Kurt whispered.
"So am I.." Sebastian said, kissing Kurt's bruise. Kurt closed his eyes, trying not to flinch away. "I'll never forgive myself.." Sebastian said in a broken voice.
"It wasn't on purpose.." Kurt said, trying to rationalize everything.
"Please don't..It was my fault and I was being angry and dumb.." Sebastian sighed.
"I don't blame you.." Kurt said honestly.
"Why would you say that?.."
"Because it's true." Kurt whispered.
"No it's not Kurt..You didn't deserve that.." Sebastian said, kissing Kurt again.
"Yes I did.. I hurt you.." Kurt said, letting the tears fall.
Sebastian pulled Kurt close. "That doesn't mean I can hurt you.."
Kurt shrugged, laying his head on Sebastian’s should. "I feel like I deserved it."
"You didn't Kurt..I see I was wrong and I'll never do that to you ever again..You're so beautiful and perfect..I love you.." Sebastian whispered.
Kurt shook his head. "I'm nothing close to that.. I really just feel like.. A dirty, cheating, lying slut.."
Sebastian turned his head to look into Kurt's eyes. "You're perfect to me.."
A new round of tears sprang to Kurt’s eyes. Why did Sebastian love him after everything he had done?
"I'm sorry.."
"What for?"
"Making you cry..H-Hitting you..Everything..." Sebastian whispered.
"You're not making me cry.. I-I am.." Kurt said quietly.
"I love you, Kurt.."
Kurt’s body trembled as he cried. "I'm so sorry.. Bas.. I want to say it back.. I do.. But it's not fair.. U-until I know.."
Sebastian nodded, wiping Kurt's tears away.
"Thank you.. For the song, Bas.."
"Thank you for coming.." Sebastian said softly. Kurt nodded, leaning in for one more kiss. Sebastian kissed Kurt back lightly squeezing his hand before pulling away.
"Bye Bas.."
"Bye Kurt.." Sebastian whispered, releasing his hand.
Kurt sighed heavily as he walked back out, wiping his tears away. Blaine looked up as Kurt walked in, standing at the sight of the tears. "What happened?.."
"Nothing, Blaine.. We just.. Talked.."
"I will go in there and kick his ass Kurt, did he touch you?" Blaine asked quickly.
"Blaine, no.." Kurt said, grabbing his hand. "He sang for me and he was just... Sweet.."
Blaine sighed, turning and walking towards the door. "Fine..Come on.."
Kurt silently followed Blaine, getting in behind him and carefully wrapping his arms around his middle. Blaine was quiet as he drove again, pulling into the driveway and silently walking into the house. Kurt sighed as he followed Blaine downstairs. Blaine took his jacket off and climbed into bed. Kurt changed and crawled into bed in front of Blaine. Blaine turned around, sighing softly. The taller chewed on his lip before finally breaking the silence. "Are you mad at me?"
Blaine didn't say anything for about a minute. "No.."
"Alight.." Kurt replied in barely a whisper.
"I'm just..I don't know..I feel like a whiny bitch.." Blaine sighed.
Kurt’s eyebrows scrunched up as he turned to look at Blaine. "What? Why?"
Blaine kept his back to Kurt as he spoke. "I just..Felt upset..When you told me you wanted to go see him.."
"He said he had something to show me. I-I'm sorry. I shouldn't have asked.."
"No..It's not your fault..It's me..I just..I've been feeling weird lately.." Blaine said quietly. "He's your boyfriend..You can go see him if you want.."
"What do you mean..? Are you.." Kurt paused for a moment. "Jealous...?"
Blaine didn't say anything as he fidgeted a bit. "What?..That-That's..N-No of course not.."
Kurt had to bite back his growing smile. "Well if it helps.. I haven’t gone back to him because you're the one confusing me.."
"How am I confusing you?.." Blaine asked turning around. "You're the one making my stomach feel weird and making my heart speed up when you give me those damned little kisses." He said accusatively as Kurt smiled at him.
"And you’re the one that’s making me think I can actually have feelings for someone.. Like real feelings." Kurt said, scooting in a little.
"R-Real feelings?.." Blaine asked, swallowing hard.
Kurt brought his hand up to cup Blaine's cheek. "Real feelings.." he whispered softly. And even though it started as nothing but a bet, Kurt knew he what he was telling Blaine was true.
Blaine's heart sped up as he looked up at Kurt. "Why do I feel like this?..."
"You don’t like it..?" Kurt asked.
"I do..It's confusing.." Blaine said softly.
"I am too.."
Blaine looked over at Kurt. "I like you.."
Kurt's thick lashes fluttered, smiling at Blaine. "I like you too."
"Like..Like, like?..." Blaine asked quietly.
"Yes," Kurt said softly.
Blaine swallowed audibly. "M-Me too.."
Kurt leaned in, pressing his lips to Blaine’s. Blaine gasped, his hands shaking as he grabbed Kurt's hands. Kurt intertwined their fingers, pulling Blaine closer. Blaine moaned softly, squeezing Kurt's hands. Kurt pulled back slowly, bringing Blaine’s hand up and kissing his knuckles. "I’m glad you’re here."
"Me too.." Blaine said quietly.
Kurt cuddled up to Blaine. "I really am sorry about asking you to take me.."
"It's okay..You have a right to see your boyfriend.."
"I’m just confused.."
"Me too.." Blaine whispered.
Kurt sighed heavily, not sure of what to say.
"I'm sorry.." Blaine said.
"Why?" Kurt asked.
"I don't know what to do.."
"What do you mean?" Kurt asked.
"I really like you..But you're with him.."
"But I'm not really," Kurt said. "I told him I need to see how I feel about both of you."
Blaine nodded, biting his lip.
Kurt groaned, turning back over. "I don’t even know why I'm trying."
"Why do you say that?.." Blaine asked.
"It's not like I could make either of you happy.." Kurt whispered, sniffling.
Blaine wrapped himself around Kurt, holding him close from behind. "Shh..It's okay.."
"How can you say that? When I'm upsetting you?"
"I'm just upset that you're forcing yourself to deal with him.."
"H-He loves me.." Kurt whispered.
"Do you love him?.."
"I've never been in love.." Kurt admitted quietly.
"You don't need to stay with him just because he loves you.." Blaine said against the back of Kurt's neck.
"But I'll hurt him.."
"He hurt you.."
"Because I cheated on him.." the taller tried to rationalize.
"That's not an excuse." Blaine said seriously.
"Well I deserved it."
Blaine sat up, running his hands through his hair. "No you didn't Kurt." He groaned.
Kurt turned to look at Blaine. "Do you know how much shit I put him through?"
"It doesn't matter! He has no right to lay a hand on you! If you were mine I would never even think about doing that." Blaine got out.
Kurt blinked back tears. He didn't understand why the sound of Blaine raising his voice made him feel like this. "Y-You want me..as..yours..?"
Blaine looked away. "I have feelings for you Kurt..Feelings I can't explain..But I do know that if you were mine..I'd do everything in my power to make sure you were happy..."
Kurt stared at Blaine for a moment. "You would..?"
Blaine nodded slowly, not looking up. Kurt carefully got up and wrapped his arms around Blaine. "I don't understand what you're doing to me.."
Blaine held on to Kurt's arms. "I-I don't know either.."
"You make me feel.. worth something.."
"You're worth everything.."
"Oh Blaine.." Kurt breathed out, reaching up and cupping the shorter's cheek. Blaine was surprised by himself as leaned in, kissing Kurt sweetly. Kurt smiled , kissing him back. Blaine pulled Kurt close so their bodies were flush together, whimpering softly. Kurt gasped, slowly and gently sliding his hands down to Blaine's hips. Blaine shuddered, kissing along Kurt's jaw.
"So beautiful.." Kurt whispered.
Blaine blushed, looking up at Kurt as they laid back on the bed. Kurt climbed on top of Blaine, pressing their bodies together as he stared into Blaine's honey eyes. "I..I want you.." Blaine whispered.
"You mean..?" Kurt asked softly. Blaine nodded, biting his lip. Kurt pressed a sweet kiss against Blaine's lips. "Want me to use a condom?"
Blaine thought for a moment before shaking his head. "No.."
Kurt couldn't stop the small moan in the back of his throat as he slowly lifted Blaine's shirt. Blaine gasped, his back arching. Kurt sat back to admire the olive toned skin, tracing down to Blaine's abs. Blaine closed his eyes, humming softly. Kurt made his way down the shorter's body, starting to unbutton Blaine's pants. Blaine sighed, moaning Kurt's name. Kurt bit his lip at the way his name rolled off of Blaine's tongue as he slid his pants down. Blaine was already half hard, panting lightly as he looked down at Kurt. The taller smiled down at Blaine as he pulled down the thin fabric of Blaine's briefs. Blaine whined, closing his eyes. Kurt nuzzled against the perfect nestling of hair that surrounded Blaine's growing member. He breathed in, moaning at the smell that was purely Blaine.
"Kurt.." Blaine whispered, gasping softly.
"Yes baby?" Kurt asked quietly, trailing kisses up Blaine's perfect cock.
"Fuck, I need you.." Blaine got out. Kurt smiled, sinking down around Blaine. Blaine moaned deeply, tangling his fingers in Kurt's hair. Kurt hummed, watching Blaine as he sucked him.
"Baby..Oh god..So good.." Blaine groaned.
The taller pulled off with a loud pop and kissed up Blaine's body. "You're sure, right?"
"Positive.." Blaine whispered. Kurt pressed their lips together in another kiss as he slipped out of his clothes and reached for the lube. Blaine kissed Kurt back, spreading his legs eagerly. Kurt slicked up his fingers, slowly pressing one inside Blaine. Blaine gasped harshly, arching his back. "Fuck.."
"You okay?" Kurt asked, curling his fingers.
"Been a long time.." Blaine whispered. Kurt slowed his movements as he kissed Blaine. Blaine started to moan softly as he got used to the stretch. The taller curled his fingers, rubbing against Blaine's prostate. Blaine's toes curled as he let out a loud moan, digging his blunt nails into Kurt's shoulders. Kurt gasped at how beautiful Blaine looked. "Blaine.."
"More..Please.." Blaine panted out. Kurt complied, pulling out and gingerly adding another. Blaine whimpered at the burn. It hurt, but it felt so good.. Kurt kept going until Blaine was writhing with need. "You ready baby?"
"Yes..Yes, yes, oh god please.." Blaine gasped. Kurt couldn't help but chuckle lightly as he pulled out and got between Blaine's legs. "Tell me if it's too much."
Blaine nodded, wrapping his legs around Kurt. Kurt leaned in, his hands on either side of Blaine as he slowly pushed in. Blaine whined, his eyes squeezing closed. Kurt's breathing sped up as he moaned in Blaine's ear, making sure to go slow.
"Ohmygod.." Blaine whispered.
"You're so..so tight.." Kurt gasped. Blaine kissed Kurt deeply, pulling him closer. Kurt moaned as he pushed in to the hilt. Blaine pulled back, his forehead against Kurt's as he panted. "Y-You're amazing..S-So perfect.."
"So are you.. Fuck, Blaine.."
"Please move.." Blaine said, his voice more vulnerable than Kurt had ever heard it.
Kurt buried his face in Blaine's neck as he started to thrust slowly.
Blaine gasped softly, whimpering as he ran his hands down Kurt's back.
Kurt tangled his hands in Blaine's curls as he sped up lightly.
"Oh god..yes!" Blaine moaned, tightening himself around Kurt. "Ungh..Kuuurt.."
"Blaine..oh god.." Kurt panted. They moved together, sweat slick skin sliding over skin, pants and moans and desperate pleas filled the room. Kurt balled his fists in the sheets as he thrust harder.
"Kurt..I'm so close!.."
Kurt turned his head, nibbling on Blaine’s ear. "M-Me too.. Come for me, Blaine.."
Blaine moaned loudly before crying out Kurt's name and shooting himself between them. Kurt gasped, his eyes screwing shut as he felt Blaine tighten around him, causing him to come hard, deep inside him. Blaine whimpered as he felt Kurt fill him. Kurt slowed his thrusts as they came down and carefully pulled out of Blaine. He pressed light kisses on Blaine's neck, waiting for his breathing to calm.
"You're amazing.."
"You're perfect.." Kurt said, barely loud enough for Blaine to hear. Blaine tilted his head down, kissing him deeply. Kurt gasped, moaning into the kiss. Blaine pulled back, looking into Kurt's eyes. Kurt batted his lashes at Blaine, letting his fingertips dance across the shorter's skin.
"So beautiful..Perfect.." Blaine said quietly.
Kurt sighed softly, resting his head on Blaine’s chest. "You really think so?"
"I do...That was amazing, Kurt.." Blaine said. Running his fingers through Kurt's hair.
Kurt hummed softly. "It was for me too.."
Blaine smiled, kissing Kurt's forehead.
"I don’t want to move.." Kurt groaned. "But my dad will be here soon.."
Blaine nodded, sighing softly.
"Thanks Blaine.." Kurt whispered.
"For what?.." Blaine asked softly.
"Telling me the truth.."
Blaine nodded, kissing Kurt softly. Kurt kissed Blaine again before getting up and getting dressed. Blaine got dressed as well, smiling at Kurt. Kurt wrapped his arms around Blaine as he looked into those gorgeous honey eyes. Blaine started to lean in to kiss Kurt when the taller's phone started to ring with a call from Quinn. He sighed, picking it up. "Hello?"
"How's it going with loverboy?" Quinn asked.
"Now's not a very good time Quinn.." Kurt sighed.
Blaine bit his lip and looked at Kurt. "Umm.. I'll be upstairs.."
"Okay.." Kurt said softly.
Blaine slowly walked up the stairs. He knew it was wrong. But he had to know if Kurt was going to mention what they had just done. He silently sat on the top stair, listening closely.
"Spill." Quinn said, becoming more and more impatient.
"What do you want me to say?.." Kurt groaned laying in the bed.
"Tell me what's going on."
"Well..We've been having sex.." Kurt said.
"Any feelings? I mean you are living together."
"Well yeah..He told me he wants me to be his..And he bottomed.." Kurt said softly. "So, I guess I won the bet.."
Blaine froze, his mouth falling agape. What bet?
Comments
I completely understand how you feel. I'm nervous to write it but kind of excited too
poor blaine.... the next chapter im going to dread reading :/ but this one was good
Please please please update!!! I just want them to be together!
NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! :( Poor Blaine!!!!!!!
did u just re-post this chapter because ive already read it
no. i posted a chapter of the wrong story and deleted it.
OOMMGGGGG NOOOOO! PLEASE EXCUSE ME WHILE I JUMP OUT MY WINDOW HEAD FIRST! WTFFFF THEY HAVE FEELINGS FOR EACH OTHER, THEY SEEM SO GOOD TOGETHER AND KURT SHOULDA DROPPED THAT BET ALONG TIME AGO! BLAINE BETTER GET THE WHOLE STORY CAUSE I KNOW KURT LIKES HIM BUT BLAINE IS ONLY GONNA HEAR THE BAD PART AND LEAVE THE ROOM RIGHT :/AND YOU HAD TO USE THE SAME SONG BLAINE SANG (DARK SIDE) I MEAN I LOVE IT BUT FOR SEBASTIAN NOO :/