Kurts Pov
I lay on my bed staring at my ceiling. "You okay? You seem kinda sad." Chandler pouts sitting down on the bed next to me giving me a small kiss on the forehead. I bite my lip and nod slowly. I cant get Blaine out of my head. Blaine probably thought I looked so stupid. Dancing on a pole... Psh he probably is some crazy fashion designer with paparazzi staking him like hungry wolves. Why cant I have that? "Kurt..." I snap back to reality...sadly. "Oh ya sorry... Just a lot on my mind." I whisper holding back tears. Chandler nods looking concerned lingering out of the bedroom. I just started dating Chandler a year ago. Yes I love him... But inside I have accepted that Blaine was... My soulmate. Honestly I still haven't figured out if I have forgave Blaine for cheating on me. I never gave Blaine time to explain. I guess it was just shock seeing him. I sit up slowly wincing from a pain in my back and move towards the shower turning it on. I step in allowing the warm water to slide across my skin. My mascara and makeup wash of covering the shower floor with glitter. I sigh turning the water off and wrapping a towel around my waist. "I want your ugly, I want your disease, I want your everything as long as its free, I want your love." I sing quietly to myself changing into my PJs. Once again Blaine pops into my head. What if I went back to work and Blaine was there? I cant see him again it hurts to much. I need to get my mind off of things. I plop on the bed."Chandler!" I shout teasingly hearing him scramble to the door. I motion him to come over seductively with a grin and Chandler catches on straddling me on the bed. Chandler attacks my mouth our tongues rubbing against each other I groan loudly as he pushes his hips down. "I-I need to g-go study for m-my tes-st." Chandler pants grinding on me. Suddenly Im thinking about Blaine again. Blaine held me in his arms stroking my arm gently singing to me. He would brush my hair out of my eyes covering my face with gentle butterfly kisses whispering to me he loves me. A tear slips down my face and Chandler stops and stares down at me. "Oh my god, did I hurt you?" Chandler asks wide eyed. "No...no. I just need to be alone." I whisper not giving eye contact. Chandler nods slipping off of me leaving the bedroom. I sigh. Why does everything have to be so difficult? I bolt up and walk out the door with a jacket. "Im going to go take a walk." I shout into the other room. I walk around aimlessly the city still moving, running ,and shopping. I linger into a small park and sit one of the benches. I sigh and lean back looking up at the stars. I remember that In high school Blaine got me a star of my own. I don't remember which one it was. "Kurt?" He hears a soft voice whisper. Oh shit. I slowly turn around making out a shape in the dark. Short with curly hair. No...shit...no. The figure comes closer and sits on the bench beside me. I look away no knowing what to say. "Im sorry... I never should have followed you into the bathroom... Or spilt that drink on you." Blaine whisper staring up at the tree above him. I don't answer. "Kurt, I was drunk...wasted and I kept throwing up and I tried to call you but you didn't answer me-" I cut him off. "Oh so now its my fault." I hiss. Blaine looks away for a second before looking back. "A guy said he would drive me home. I told him the directions but I was to drunk to notice I was not heading home. When we pulled up I tried to tell him this wasn't my house but he ignored me... He dragged me into im guessing his house and told me I could just spend the night here tonight... He gave me the guest room but in the middle of the night he crawled into my bed... And... I-I was drunk." Blaine starts to break down putting his head In his hands. "Being drunk isn't a excuse." I whisper noticing the sun was pecking. Blaine nods still sobbing shaking his head. "Im so sorry... Im so sorry... So sorry." I hear Blaine stutter. I slowly put my hand on his shoulder rubbing up and down slowly. Blaine looks up at me with love in his eyes and I freeze. He shifts so our faces are only a inch apart. He slowly leans in put puts a light butterfly kiss on my cheek. I gulp closing my eyes. "I miss you, Kurt." Blaine whisper to me kissing my neck gently. Shit. "Stop." I say pushing him away. God but it felt so good. "I have a boyfriend..." I say looking down at my hands. I tell Blaine I have to go and rush out of the park. When I walk in Chandler is sitting on the island. "Kurt, Where were you?" Chandler exclaims eyes full of anger. I ignore him running into our room plopping on the bed. Was I still in love with Blaine. When I was with him it felt so... Right. Suddenly a buzz comes from his phone. I pick up. "This is Kurt." I say waiting for an answer. "Hey, beautiful. I guess you haven't changed your phone number." I hear Blaines voice say sweetly. "Why are you calling me?" I whisper checking Chandler wasn't close. "I wanted to make it up to you." Blaine mumbles. Kurt falls back on the bed and sighs. "When and where?" I whisper brushing my hand through my hair. "Our place, tonight 5 pm." Blaine says before hanging up. Our place? Ohh... Our place. That means I have an hour to get ready. I get up and look through my rather large closet. I pick out some black skinny jeans with a dark purple v neck. "Where are you going?" Chandler asks as I open the front door. "Just getting some coffee." I respond truthfully... Well not the whole truth. Chandler nods looking back down at his computer. When I get to the coffee shop Blaine is already at a table. I slip into the chair and greet Blaine. I take a sip of the drink he got me. "Grande nonfat mocha... You remembered." I ask surprised. "Of course." Blaine answers smiling sweetly his eyes glowing. "So... Whats happening? I haven't seen you for awhile..." Blaine asks taking a sip of his coffee. "Oh nothing much... Just you know working at the club." I joke laughing darkly. "Oh well... I don't have a job. Remember Wes? From the warblers? I live with him now." Blaine says simply looking down at his coffee. I nod looking around the small coffee shop. I remember after high school they moved into a apartment together. We both haven't gone to college yet. We found this small coffee shop close by our apartment and started coming here everyday. "Wow... This place looks much nicer then the last time I came here." I say breaking the awkward silence. Blaine nods in return. "So... Uh... Do you have a boyfriend?" Blaine asks staring into my eyes. I gulp. That question caught me off guard. "You don't have to answer the question." Blaine adds. "Yes... I do... His names Chandler." I respond. "What about you?" I ask shyly. "If you want the truth." Blaine says playing with his empty coffee cup. "I still haven't got over you." Blaine whispers so only I and Blaine could hear. "Oh." "Ya." After catching up with Blaine for awhile we finally say our goodbyes. "Thank you for the coffee." I whisper hugging Blaine. "For you... Anything." Blaine whispers back.

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