When Blaine finally sees Kurt n the hall later he can feel his cheeks heat right up because he knows things now, about Kurt that he hadn’t before. More than that though, Kurt knows things about him. Things he normally would relegate to the bedroom and not bring into the hall outside his class. Kurt must be thinking something similar too because he steps closer to Blaine and his voice is a low whisper, just for Blaine’s ears.

“We should talk.” He says, and even though his cheeks are adorably pink, his tone is very matter of fact. Actually it works to soothe Blaine’s nerves a bit and Blaine is surprised that while he always thought he would be the one soothing Kurt in a situation like this, things are entirely the other way around. “Meet me after school and we can drive out to the Lima Bean together.” Kurt adds.

“Wait, what if we run into your friends there?” Blaine asks, because obviously this is not a conversation he’d want his friends overhearing.

Kurt just smiles down at him with a wry twist to his mouth. “I doubt we’ll be getting into too much detail, Blaine, and if we do the sudden arrival of other people into our little bubbly will probably be very welcome.”

“Oh, right, of course.” Blaine murmurs, but he can’t help but feel just a tiny bit disappointed.
“Don’t make that face, we have to get to class and you have to stop worrying so much about everything. This is still us Blaine. Go learn things; I’ll see you at lunch.” Kurt reached out and squeezed Blaine’s hand briefly and then he was gone off to his own classes leaving Blaine with nothing to do but turn and go into his morning English class with way too many thoughts and much too much worrying going on in his head.

The day passed much like any other despite Blaine’s mind’s instance that this was an important day with things to be discussed and decisions to be made and wow their relationship was actually going there and were they both really ready? Blaine concluded that the only way for him to be comfortable with things progressing was to know that Kurt was and the only way to know what Kurt was comfortable with was to talk to him. So he went from class to class, took notes, read passages from his books until they made sense, and didn’t even mention it at all during lunch.

When the school day was over he waited outside for Kurt and the two of them drove together to the Lima Bean, still their favorite haunt despite its distance from Dalton. Kurt ordered for them both and refused Blaine’s money, Blaine had paid last time, and Blaine felt himself relaxing into their usual routine. When they sat down at last, facing one another over the little round table, Blaine felt completely at ease. This was them, after all. Nothing could change that.

“I made some notes,” Kurt began. Blaine just wrapped both hands around his coffee and waited.

“First of all I think we need to talk about what happened last night.” His eyes flicked up from his paper and Blaine nodded his agreement, so Kurt went on. “Then we need to talk about what limits we both still have.” Kurt looked again at Blaine. This time Blaine spoke.

“I think you’re absolutely right.” He smiled his encouragement at Kurt so Kurt continued. “After we understand the limits we can talk about things we are comfortable with.” Kurt tucked the little piece of paper back down in his bag and took a sip of his coffee.

“All of that sounds good.” Blaine said, and it did. As usual Kurt was well organized and it made Blaine smile to think that even their sex life could be mapped out much the same way Kurt would tackle anything else from choosing what to wear for the day to keeping his father on a strict low sodium low fat diet. His logic was more comforting and familiar than anything else and Blaine was grateful that Kurt had moved past the point where this topic would cause him to ask Blaine to leave his room. Blaine had always respected Kurt’s boundaries and he would continue to do so, but it was pretty great to know that Kurt felt he could trust Blaine with all of this.

“So Blaine, first things first. What brought you to my room last night? You don’t have to be sorry you were there or for anything else that happened, because I’m not, I’m just curious about what brought you there.” Kurt folded his hands neatly on the table and waited for Blaine. Oh, okay, they were going to talk about that. Blaine wasn’t sure why he hadn’t thought they would cover that, of course they would, but for some reason his mind had been focused entirely on other aspects of their night together. Actually he wasn’t sure what he wanted to say about it, but he knew he needed to say something and he knew he would never lie to Kurt. So he took a quick breath and dove right in.
“I had a nightmare last night, about you.” Blaine started; his voice steady despite the images talking about it conjured. “It was pretty bad, and felt really real and I just thought, there you were just in the next room so to speak and I just had to see you, to make sure you were really right there, and safe.” Blaine paused and licked his lips absently. “I know it doesn’t make a lot of sense but I couldn’t go back to sleep without seeing you with my own eyes so I ended up using the spare key you gave me to sneak into your room.”

Saying it like that, out loud, and to Kurt, made it sound a little creepy. More than a little creepy even. Blaine wanted to say he was sorry and the words were half formed on his lips when Kurt brought one hand up, index finger raised as if to remind Blaine not to apologize and Blaine just licked his lips again and smiled crookedly.

“What was the nightmare about?” Kurt asked, curious.

Blaine bit his lip but answered all the same. “Karofsky.” He said, hoping this would be enough for right now. He did make a silent promise to himself that before they left the coffee shop that day, he would make another appointment to talk to Kurt and that he would tell Kurt everything that had happened that led him to Dalton in the first place.

It was enough for Kurt. He nodded thoughtfully to himself and Blaine wondered what sorts of memories or personal nightmares were racing across Kurt’s mind. After a couple of quiet minutes the boys filled with drinking their coffee, Kurt spoke again. “But you didn’t find me asleep in my bed.” He said, a small smile tugging the corner of his mouth.

“No, I didn’t.” Blaine answered with his own smile.

“Alright, let’s move on then.” Kurt sad and his voice had a slightly higher breathy sound at the end of his sentence. Somehow this was something of a relief to Blaine who was beginning to feel nervous again. “Limits.” Kurt said, and Blaine was glad he didn’t seem to be ready to take notes right now.

“Maybe you should go first; I don’t really know how to explain my limits.” Blaine said. Kurt looked at him thoughtfully for a moment.

“Okay, but I don’t want to feel like my limits set the pace for everything all the time.” Kurt said almost sternly and Blaine hurried to respond.

“No, it isn’t that exactly, it’s just, I know I can’t be comfortable doing anything you’re not comfortable doing.” Blaine offered.

“Well, we won’t be doing anything we’re not both comfortable with anyway, right?” Kurt asked, and Blaine nodded. “Even so, that doesn’t mean I don’t want to talk about it, okay?”

“Okay.” Blaine agreed.

“Right, well I’ve thought a lot about it and I have my limits pretty much figured out.” Kurt twisted his cup of coffee on the table between long fingers. “I don’t think I’m ready to do naked things again, right now. Last night was sort of the heat of the moment and it was great and I don’t regret anything, but I just don’t want to rush into everything because of it. So for now, let’s keep our clothes on.” He didn’t look up to gauge Blaine’s reaction so Blaine reached over and took his hand for courage.

“I know I’m not anywhere near ready for sex.” Kurt looked up and his cheeks were reddening and his mouth pressed into a tight line. He looked like he wanted to say something but he just sat there staring at Blaine.

“What else? Was there something else?” Blaine asked cautiously. Kurt surprised him by chuckling softly.

“It’s just that, ever since last night, sex is all I’ve been able to think about.” Kurt ducked his head but the laughter was still there. “But I know I can’t do that right now, you know?” Kurt’s shimmering blue green eyes were back on his.

Blaine smiled because he knew that exact feeling. “Yeah, I do, but that’s why they invented masturbation.” The two of them laughed a little and Kurt’s blush faded and then Blaine knew he was up.

“I’m not ready yet for sex yet either, I don’t think, but I’m pretty open to just about everything else.” He shrugged lightly at Kurt and continued. “I don’t have any real experience or anything with any of it but I think when we’re both ready it’s going to be pretty great.” Blaine tried to sound nonchalant but he could tell Kurt was thinking really hard about something.

“Everything else?” Kurt asked softly. His eyes growing a little wider.

“When we’re both ready.” Blaine reiterated.

“So I guess that mostly takes care of you for part three of this discussion, but I had a couple of ideas of what I might be okay with if that’s alright?” Kurt was back to fiddling with his coffee and sipping it repeatedly.

“That sounds great.” Blaine said and then he added, “This isn’t about you setting the pace for us or me having to wait on you for things, Kurt, we’re right in this together and even though it sounds like I’m ready for anything that comes up, I’m not going to be ready until I feel it’s right and not everything feels right just yet, okay? I’m just open to it, that’s all.” Kurt seemed to relax a little as he nodded at Blaine.

“Okay, then, well, here’s my list.” Kurt took a breath and then leaned forward a tiny bit. “Since I was thinking of clothes on type stuff I thought that we could do what we did last night, but just keep our clothes on. I also thought it might be okay to touch each other, under our clothes if we weren’t looking.” Kurt finished and then he leaned back and waited for Blaine’s reply.

Blaine’s mind should not have been so preoccupied with the idea of touching Kurt under his clothes. Not after that blow job Kurt had given him or the way they’d rubbed each other off, naked, but for some reason the idea was short circuiting his brain.

“Blaine?” Kurt was saying.

“Sorry, what?” Blaine shook his head and looked over at Kurt who was wearing a look of concern.

“I was asking if that sounded okay? Kurt’s eyebrows drew together.

“Yeah, yes, I, yes, Kurt, that sounds good. Fine.” Blaine laughed then because what else could he do? He sounded like an idiot, but Kurt just joined in and they laughed quietly together until they were spent.

“So, I think you should come by tonight?” Kurt asked, surprising Blaine again. Blaine couldn’t think because this forward Kurt was something of an echo of the Kurt he’d glimpsed last night, and he liked it.

“Okay.” Blaine answered, his voice taking on a lower pitch. This seemed to please Kurt who just smiled and drank his coffee.

“Good, then, see you at eleven?” Kurt was offering eleven obviously because it was past the first hall check, their student advisor wasn’t exactly subtle about his schedule, and also because eleven was still early enough that they wouldn’t be sacrificing too much sleep to see each other. F Blaine didn’t know better he might think Kurt had been planning this all day. Then again, maybe he had.

“It’s a date.” Blaine said, cheekily, and they both dissolved in to giggles once more. The rest of their time at the Lima Bean was spent catching up on their regular topics of conversation and they were never interrupted by any of Kurt’s friends from McKinley. Just before they left, Blaine remembered his promise to himself.

“Kurt, I was wondering,” Blaine began in all seriousness. “Do you think we could do this again, I mean, come here to talk, maybe this weekend? I have something I wanted to tell you, but it has nothing to do with us or our relationship…it sort of needs its own day.” Kurt looked concerned so Blaine decided not to keep the topic of conversation a secret.

“It’s about my past, about what happened; before Dalton.” He absently ran a hand over the back of his neck. “I think it’s why I had that nightmare and I want to talk to you and tell you about it, if that’s okay.” Blaine finished.

“Yes, of course Blaine. It’s a date.” He said, softly and he smiled so Blaine relaxed and the two of them left the Lima Bean and headed back to Dalton. Blaine somehow felt that even though they’d been intimate the night before, he had never been closer to Kurt than he was right then.