Knock knock knock

Blaine who had burried his head under his pillow when Kurt left the bedroom lifted his head up and frowned. Kurt had left a couple minutes ago to open the door, and Blaine had heard the door open and close again, but still, Kurt wasnt back in bed.

When someone started knocking at the door again, Blaine decided it was time to get out of bed and check what was going on. He pulled up a pair of shorts and tee shirt he found lounging in Kurts bedroom, and made his way out of the bedroom and towards the front door. Approaching the door, he saw Kurt, standing in front of the door and looking like he saw a ghost. Suddenly worried, Blaine made his way towards Kurt and cupped his face in between his hands.

"Kurt, hey Kurt, are you okay? Who was it?" asked Blaine in a frantic voice, worried about the passive state his boyfriend seemed to be in.

Kurt didnt answer, and didnt really look at Blaine, he just continued staring at the door behind Blaines back, and looked lost.

Knock knock knock                                          

Figuring he wasnt going to get an answer out of Kurt for the moment, and knowing he had to see what was happening and stop the knocking before it woke up Emily, Blaine turned towards the door and opened it just as the person standing in front of it was getting ready to knock again.

When Blaine opened the door, he was surprised by the man standing in front of him. He didnt know who he expected exactly, but this man wasnt it, and didnt seem like a man who would knock on a strangers door at 7 in the morning. The man was wearing jeans and brown boots where Blaine could see a little bit of grease. He also had a dark green tee-shirt and a flannel shirt over it, and was wearing a cap over his bald head.

"Can I help you?" asked Blaine irritated, he wasnt sure who this man was, but considering Kurts reaction to seeing him, and his blue eyes which reminded him of Kurt, he had an idea and he felt a surge of protectiveness for Kurt flare.

"Kurt..." The man said, moving to the side and looking straight towards Kurt as if he couldnt even see Blaine standing in front of him.

After turning around and seeing that Kurt still wasnt reacting to the mans presence, Blaine blocked the mans view of Kurt by putting his arm against the frame of the door and turned towards him again.

"Listen, Im not sure of who you are exactly, even though I think I have an idea, but...." Blaine started to explain.

"What are you doing here?" Kurt cut him off sharply, having come out of his stupor. Blaine took his arm away, and moved back a little so he was standing next to Kurt, showing his support silently. The mans identity hadnt been confirmed yet, but Blaine could see how angry and hurt Kurt seemed to be in this moment.

"I wanted to talk to you. Finn told me....Ive been looking for you...." The man started to explain in a soft voice and with a look of anguish on his face, only to be cut off by Kurt.

"I dont care. I dont want to see you. You have no right being there." Kurt said glaring at the man, even though Blaine could see tears building in his eyes.

"I know Kurt... Im sorry, I..." the man started again, but Kurt cut him off again.

"Leave now. I remember you being good at leaving and giving up, it shouldnt be a problem for you." Kurt said loudly and angrily, before turning his back and making his way to his bedroom slamming the door behind him, leaving the man standing at the door, looking sad and lost.

Blaine looked at the man for a few seconds. The man has huge bags under his eyes, stubble across his cheeks and he looked as though he hadnt slept in days. He was looking at where Kurt had stood only a few seconds before, and he looked devastated. Blaine almost felt sorry for him, but then he remembered the story Kurt had told him about his past, and the tears that had come to Kurts eyes just a few moments before and his anger started surging up again.

"You should leave; Kurt obviously doesnt want to talk to you." Blaine said to the man coldly.

The man looked at Blaine for the first time since he had arrived, as if he hadnt even noticed him before. He nodded sadly, and took out a piece a paper and wrote something on it before handing it to Blaine.

"Could you...." His voice shook and he swallowed before continuing his sentence. "Could you give this to Kurt for me please? Ive been a huge asshole, and I understand completely if he hates me, but please, tell him Im not giving up this time and Ill be staying at a hotel close by, if he changes his mind and decides to talk to me."

Blaine hesitated a moment, before reaching towards the man and taking the piece of paper where he could see a phone number.

"Thank you, Im sorry for barging in this early, I just took the first plane I could as soon as Finn told me.." the man started to apologize, but he didnt continue when he saw Blaines closed-off face.

Blaine simply nodded in answer, face hard.

"I think you should go." He said.

And the man just nodded sadly once again, turned away and made his way out. Blaine closed the door behind him, and let his forehead drop against the closed door, taking a big breath. He could hear Emily start crying in his room, having been woken up by Kurts outburst a little earlier, and he could hear Kurt pacing angrily in his bedroom. How could such a perfect night end up in such a disaster? Blaine straightened up, and shook his head. He had a bad feeling about all of this, and in a couple of minutes, his and Kurts lives had become so much more complicated.

Deciding that Emily could wait a couple minutes, Blaine made his way towards Kurts bedroom, wanting to check on the man and see how he was doing. He arrived in front of Kurts closed door, and knocked softly before entering.

Kurt was still pacing in his bedroom, and he looked furious. When Blaine entered inside of the bedroom, he turned towards him and he didnt say anything. Blaine could see the anger and the hurt on Kurts face, and he hated seeing him this way.

"That was my father Burt." Kurt finally said, his face closed-off and avoiding looking at Blaine in the eyes.

"I figured" answered Blaine softly, wanting to get closer to Kurt but not knowing how to react with the coldness that seemed to have taken Kurt.

When Kurt didnt say anything more and still didnt look at Blaine in the eyes or make any signs of wanting to get closer to Blaine, Blaine gave him the paper Burt had given him.

"He gave me this to give to you, and he told me to tell you he was staying at a hotel close by, and that he wasnt giving up this time." said Blaine softly.

Kurt automatically took the paper, and looked down towards it. Hearing Blaines words, a look of devastation crossed his face, and even though he hid it quickly, Blaine saw it and felt a pang in his chest and seeing Kurt this way.

"Oh Kurt..." he said getting closer and attempting to hug the man, wanting to comfort him and show him he wasnt alone. Only when he reached for him, Kurt took a step back and pushed Blaine away.

Blaine couldnt help but feel hurt at the rejection, but he took a step back nevertheless and gave Kurt some space.

"I cant right now." Said Kurt, looking a little guilty for a second, before his mask of coldness fell back. "You should go and see Emily, I can hear her crying. Im just going to go back to sleep, and Id rather be alone for the moment."

Blaine looked at Kurt sadly, and even though he wanted nothing more than to come closer and take the man into his arms, showing Kurt Blaine was there for him, and he didnt have to deal with this alone, he decided to give Kurt some space, and made his way out of the bedroom after nodding softly. When he reached the door and before leaving the room, Blaine turned back towards Kurt:

"Im there Kurt if you need me Kurt, you dont have to deal with this alone." He said softly, and then he left and closed the door behind him softly. Behind the closed door, silent tears came out of Kurts eyes and he closed his eyes trying to stop more from falling, wondering how his life could have taken such a turn in a couple of minutes.

*********************

Blaine was sitting at the table and feeding Emily squashed bananas while the little girl was cooing and hitting her high chair excitedly. Blaine smiled softly towards her, but the smile didnt reach his eyes. Every couple minutes, he looked towards the door, hoping to see Kurt return, but it hadnt happened yet and he was getting more and more worried.

It had been 4 days since Burt came and crashed into their life, and since then Kurt had been distant. He often went out and when he was there, he barely spoke to Blaine and Isaac. He went to class and to work, and often came back home late, barely acknowledging Blaine and making his way to his bedroom and closed his door behind him, making it obvious Blaine wasnt welcomed.

The day of Burts visit, after Blaine had managed to calm a crying Emily and had settled her down in her playpen, he had made his way back to Kurts bedroom only to realize that the man had left while he was taking care of Emily, even though it was only barely before 8 in the morning. That night, Kurt had come home while Blaine was putting Emily down for the night and gone straight to his room, without stopping to kiss or even see Blaine and Emily.

After singing Emily to sleep, Blaine made his way to Kurts bedroom and knocked softly on the door, listening for any sound. Not hearing an answer, Blaine sighed, and assuming Kurt wanted to be left alone, he made his way towards his own bedroom sadly.

Now four days later, Kurt was still shutting him out, and Blaine didnt know what to do anymore. At first, he had felt sorry for Kurt and understood that the man wanted to deal with everything alone and had mostly left him alone, but now, he had to admit that Kurt ignoring him hurt, and the fact that he could tell Kurt was hurting, and couldnt do anything to help him made him feel awful.

What hurt worst of all, was the not knowing. Blaine understood Kurt was hurting, but he hated not knowing what the man was thinking. Kurt had barely been acknowledging him for days now, and Blaine didnt even know if they were still together. He didnt know if Kurt just needed time to process everything alone, or if he was simply done with Blaine and Emily.

A loud squeal and banana being thrown on his face brought Blaine out of his thoughts, and he turned towards a giggling Emily, smiling towards the little girl while taking a napkin to clean his cheek.

That moment, the front door opened and Emily started squealing excitedly again, seeing Kurt coming through the door. She had barely seen him in days, and going of the loud excited noises coming out of her right now, the fact that she had missed Kurt was hard to miss. When he saw them sitting at the table, Kurt made his way towards Blaine and Emily.

Blaine lifted his face towards Kurt, and smiled softly at the other man. He could see that Kurt looked exhausted, with dark rings under his eyes, and his wrinkly clothes, which wasnt in Kurts style at all.

"Hi" said Kurt softly, with a fake smile which didnt reach his eyes, and not making any other moves to greet Blaine. Once again, Blaine felt a pang of hurt in his chest, but he ignored it.

"Hi" he answered quickly.

Oblivious to the tension around her, Emily kept making loud noises and lifted her arms up towards Kurt, banana forgotten and wanting the other man to lift her up.

Seeing the little girls excitement, Kurt got closer to her, and took her out of her high chair and into his arms, aiming a smile at the little girl, the first real one he had since Burt had come four days earlier. Emily cooed happily and nuzzled into his neck happily, and Kurt kissed her head softly, closing his eyes and taking comfort in the little girl hugging him.

Blaine just looked at the exchange silently for a few minutes, happy to see a smile on Kurts face but a little disappointed that only Emily was able to prompt this answer and he had only managed to get fake smiles from Kurt every time he saw him lately.

Thinking that maybe Kurt was ready to speak to someone and that he seemed a little more open today, Blaine took a few steps and put his hand on Kurts shoulder, only to take it back off when he felt Kurt tense up under the weight of his hand.

"Kurt..." he started, attempting to catch the other mans eyes, which he wasnt able to do seeing as Kurt was still avoiding looking towards him.

"I cant do this Blaine. Not now." Kurt answered wanting to cut short any questions Blaine might have. He understood Blaine had the best of intentions, but he couldnt do this now, and seeing his father again had just reminded him of the pain, and that every person he was close to could just up and leave him anytime.

"Ok, ok" Blaine said quickly, not wanting Kurt to go back to his bedroom quite yet, and just wanting to spend a little time with the man, even if they didnt speak about the elephant in the room.

"Do you want some dinner?" he asked softly instead of any other questions he had, not wanting Kurt to feel pressured into speaking about something he obviously didnt want to right now.

Kurt shook his head, and put Emily back into her high chair, kissing her forehead softly and caressing her hair gently. Still avoiding Blaines eyes, he turned towards his bedroom and started walking towards his door.

"Stay" said Blaine behind Kurt, making him stop. "We dont have to speak about it, but just stay with us for a bit. I havent seen you in days."

Kurt turned back towards Blaine, but still couldnt look him in the eyes, and just shook his head.

"I cant, I have a paper to finish. Sorry." He said softly, before he turned back around and started walking again.

"I miss you" he heard Blaine say softly, just before he entered his bedroom but he pretended not to hear and just closed the door feeling guilty for pushing Blaine away, but feeling vulnerable and not wanting to stay with Blaine and Emily right now, even though he missed them too.

After Kurts rebuttal, Blaine kept looking at his door with tears in his eyes for a few seconds hoping the man would change his mind and come back out, but he didnt and Blaines shoulders slumped sadly, before he turned back towards Emily and took her into his arms, hugging her closely to his chest.

The little girl was completely oblivious about what was going on, but she nuzzled into Blaines chest happily and patted his cheek. She frowned in surprise when she felt water on her hand. She took her little hand off his cheek, and looked at it curiously, which had Blaine smiling softly again in spite of the weight he could feel in his stomach. Blaine kissed her cheek; glad Emily seemed to be doing ok at least, even though Blaine could tell that she too missed Kurt.

*********************

Later on this evening, Blaine was sitting on the couch sipping from a glass of red wine when Isaac entered the apartment. Kurt had only stayed an hour or so earlier, before he had made his way out of the apartment again, with a quick goodbye towards Blaine, but not stopping to hug, kiss or even pat Blaine on his way out. He had left for work hours before, and he still hadnt made his way back home since.

Isaac entered the apartment, tugging his shoes and coat off in the entryway, and making his way towards Blaine when he saw him sitting on the couch, looking sad and lost.

"Hey B, how are you?" he asked, once he was sitting next to Blaine. The other man simply answered ok, looking lost. Even though Isaac could see that he was far from ok, he decided not to say anything for the moment and just wait until Blaine wanted to talk to him, knowing the man would open up eventually and tell him what was on his mind.

"What are you drinking? Pinot Noir, nice!" he said, faking enthusiasm. Blaine simply nodded in answer, and got off of the couch and came back a few seconds later with another glass in hand which he handed to Isaac. Blaine didnt drink often before having Emily, and now with the little girl in his life it was even rarer, but tonight he felt like having a nice drink while he thought about everything.

After a few minutes of silence, Blaine bent forwards putting both of his elbows on his knees, and took his head in between his hands, sighing loudly.

"I dont know how much longer I can do this Ise." He said in a small voice.

Isaac looked at his friend sadly, and asked "do what?" even though he already knew the answer.

"Stay like this. Kurt hasnt looked at or really spoken more than a few words to me in four days, its almost like hes mad at me and done with me, and I know hes not mad, well... not mad at me at least, but it still hurts each time, and I hate that I cant help him. I feel so useless right now, and I just... I dont know what I can do." He said in a broken voice. "I dont want to make this about me, and I know Kurt is hurting more than I can understand now, but I feel like Im losing him and I dont know what to do."

"Youre not losing him" said Isaac, trying to reassure his friend who looked devastated. He put one of his hands on Blaines shoulder, and squeezed softly, showing his support.

"I dont know the whole story, but... Kurt told you about his father didnt he? At least some of it?" Isaac asked quietly.

Blaine nodded in answer, tugging softly at his hair but staying silent.

"Then you know. I think he just needs time B, hes feeling hurt, angry and vulnerable right now, and if there is one things Kurt hates, its being vulnerable in front of other people. Hes changed since you two got together, but seeing his father would remind him of his past and bring up all of these negative feelings."

"I know that Ise, I understand that, and Im here for him. Im just starting to feel like maybe Im not really what or who he needs. Its obvious he doesnt want anything to do with me right now, hes been cold and distant, and Ive tried to get him to open up, or just to spend time with me and Em, but he just keeps pushing me away. Its almost like he was before Emily came into our lives, only now its worse because I know how loving and kind he can be. And seeing him that way, it guts me and I feel like Im doing more bad than good at this point."

"Youre not, youre good for him. I need you to hang on B, I know hes being cold and its hard for you to see this way, hell, I hate seeing him that way as well, but he just needs time, hell come around."

"How much time though? And am I hanging on to a relationship that doesnt even exist anymore?" Blaine asked, turning towards Isaac with tears in his eyes.

"I just really hate Burt Hummel right now." Blaine said softly, getting up from the couch and making his way towards his bedroom quietly.

"Me too" thought Isaac. He stayed sitting on the couch for a few more minutes, watching the half-full glass of wine Blaine had left behind. He hated seeing both of his closest friends being this miserable. He knew Kurt was hurting and only pushing Blaine away because he couldnt stand to be close to anyone he cared about right now, but Blaine didnt know Kurt enough to know that yet, and he knew Blaine felt like he was losing Kurt.

Isaac sighed and took the glasses of wine and the bottle into the kitchen, sighing loudly. If things werent better tomorrow, he could have to track Kurt down and talk to him about Blaine, before Kurt pushed away the person that loved him the most in the world. He thought Kurt needed time, but maybe this time, what Kurt needed was someone to force him to talk about what he was feeling. Remembering how Kurt was when they first met, Isaac could only imagine the mess of emotions and feelings Kurt was probably experiencing right now. Tomorrow, Isaac thought decidedly. Tomorrow, he would help both of his friends, and they would sort this situation out.