« That's it. You're going out tomorrow! » declares Isaac when he enters the apartment to see Blaine and Kurt playing with Emily in the living room once again, on a Friday night. Blaine looks up from where he was tickling Emily, and the little girl uses that time to crawl towards the kitchen and try and open the drawers. Before she manages to do that, Blaine gets up and catches her, lifts her into his arms, and Emily snuggles her head on his shoulder. Isaac can't help but smile softly at the image, they really are adorable. You can see that Blaine adores Emily, and that Emily loves Blaine with all her heart. From the corner of his eye, he can see that Kurt also seems to be enjoying the view, seeing as he's looking at Blaine with heart in his eyes in that moment.

The sight brings Isaac back to his mission though. It's time for these two to go out, get a social life, and maybe figure out what they mean to each other and get their heads out of their asses…. Butts. He shouldn't think of the word “ass” in front of a kid. However cute they all are, he's still determined to see Blaine and Kurt going out, and he's not going to let this slide this time.

“When's the last time you guys went out? When was the last time you saw your friends, and enjoyed a night out with other adults and without Emily?” asks Isaac, already knowing the answer. It's like the two men don't have a social life anymore, outside of Emily and well, each other.

Blaine who's still cuddling Emily to his chest starts to frown and protest: “You know, it's not like I have this much of a choice. She's my responsibility, and she can't be left alone. I can't live my life like I did before, because I have a child now, and she depends entirely on me.”

While saying that Blaine realizes that Kurt does have a choice however, and that he still spends all of his free time with him and Emily. Interesting, he'll have to think more about this later.

“Well tomorrow I'm offering you a choice. No, not even a choice, tomorrow, I'm telling you that you two are going out. You're going enjoy a night out with other adults your age, you're going to drink, maybe drink, go a little wild, and I'm going to be the one watching Emily. After all, I am her favorite uncle!”

“Hey!” protests Kurt, but before he has the time to complain anymore, Isaac cuts him off.

“Oh come on, we all know that you're more of a second father to her than an uncle.” Which makes both Kurt and Blaine blush, and Isaac smile knowingly while watching the two men.

“Guys, honestly, when was the last time you went out?” asks Isaac seriously. He has a point to make here after all.

At the question, Kurt and Blaine turn towards each other, and they both shrug. Blaine knows he hasn't really gone out since Emily arrived, apart from a coffee after classes or something like that, and Kurt's social life has also been seriously reduced. They don't even attempt to answer the question, knowing that Isaac is right. Before they have time to think more about this, Isaac starts speaking again.

“I think it's very sweet that you both spend so much time with Emily, and I am certain that that's one of the reasons that she's adapting so well. However, you need to go out, or you're both going to go crazy. So tomorrow, the two of you are the ones that are going out, and I'm the one that's going to watch Emily, this is non-negotiable.”

Kurt turns towards Blaine and says: “Rachel is having a party tomorrow night, and she's been bugging me about going all week long. Do you want to come with me?” he asks, a little uncertainly.

At first, Blaine can't help but feel surprised that Kurt wants to spend his first free Saturday night in a while with him, and not use the time to get away from Blaine. But now that he thinks about it, maybe he shouldn't be so surprised. After all, Kurt has been the one to decide that he wanted to spend all of his Saturday night with Blaine and Emily. He's not the one with the baby, he could have gone out, but he decided not to. At the thought, Blaine feels a warm feeling spreading in his chest, but he tampers it quickly. He doesn't need the complication. He does still turn towards Kurt and with a blinding smile says:

“I would love to come.”

*************

The next evening, Blaine finds himself in front of his mirror, hesitating on what he's going to wear. He feels ridiculous, he hasn't been this nervous since he's been on his first date, and this is not even a date. It's just a party with a friend. He has to remind himself of the thought quite often, and has to stop his mind from running away from him. He once again looks into the mirror, and decides that this outfit will do. Blaine hasn't been out in ages, and so he wants to look good when he does. The fact that he's going out with Kurt has nothing to do with the fact that he took more than an hour picking his clothes, absolutely nothing.

He finally opted for a pair of red pants that hug his figure in all the right places and does wonders for his ass, if he does say so himself. He coupled that with a black polo that is really tight and shows off the little muscle he has. He tugs the shirt into his pants, adds a pair of boat shoes, and puts a bow tie on to finish on the outfit. He thinks he looks good. And with the reaction Kurt has when Blaine finally comes out of his bedroom, Kurt thinks he looks good as well, which Blaine can't help but feel smug about. Kurt looks him up and down discretely, he eyes lingering on his torso, and he swallows.

“You look really amazing.” He says earnestly.

Blaine can't help but smile at the words, and just says: “You don't look too bad yourself.”

Kurt had opted for a pair of gray jeans that look painted on, and a blue shirt that looks amazing with his skin tone and makes his eyes pop. He also wore a pair of black boots to complete the outfit. He looks amazing. His hair is styles perfectly, as it always is, and Blaine can't help but think that he looks lickable. Of course, he chases the thought before it goes any further, and Kurt is able to read it on his face. He can't afford to think like that, he can't afford to lose Kurt. Blaine decides to change to safer thoughts, and turns towards Isaac who is holding Emily in his arms. Blaine takes her, and cradles her to his chest.

“Daddy is going away for a little while. But I'll be back soon okay? You'll be asleep, but I'll see you tomorrow and I'll make it up to you then. I love you baby girl, don't forget it.” He says, kissing her temple.

“I'll take good care of her Blaine, don't worry.” Says Isaac

“I know that Ise, I'm not worried.” Answers Blaine. However, he can't help the tight ball in his stomach. This is the first time he's leaving Emily when he doesn't have to. Sure, he still goes to classes, but that's because he really has to, and he's always back in the evening and is always the one to put her to bed. He can't help but feel a little sad that he won't be the one doing this tonight. Before he starts getting too emotional about leaving Emily, he feels a hand grip his shoulder and squeeze gently. He turns towards Kurt and smiles gratefully.

“Come on, let's go Blaine.” Says the man gently. Blaine nods slowly, and kisses Emily one last time before passing her back to Isaac. He's right after all, he knows Isaac loves her and would give his life for hers, and he knows that what he's doing tonight is important. So he's going to go out with Kurt, and have fun, and he'll be back tomorrow to have as much Emily time as he wants to. With these thoughts, Blaine and Kurt exit the apartment and make their way towards the party.

They share agreeable conversation, and Blaine relishes in it. They both have an easiness in between them now, and they can't speak easily of share comfortable silence, without it ever being awkward, which Blaine loves. He loves the relationship he has with Kurt right now, and he's so afraid he'll mess it up if Kurt discovers his feelings.

Rachel lives in a loft a little further from the center than they do, so they have to take the train to get to her apartment. They spend the 30 minute train ride just speaking about their classes, and about all sorts of stuff. They laugh, and speak. Neither of them sees the time fly and before they know it, they find themselves in front of Rachel's loft, where the party is already going full swing. They can already hear loud music and laughter from where they are standing in the street.

“Are you ready for this?” asks Kurt “Rachel's parties can get a little… wild.”

“I'll be okay. Maybe just… stick with me a little at first?” Blaine feels awkward asking this, but he doesn't really feel like going to a party where he knows no one and instantly being left alone.

“I'll be right there” says Kurt easily, like it hadn't even crossed his mind to leave Blaine alone and go and mingle with his friends. When they enter the apartment, they see that about 30 people are already there scattered around the loft. Some of them seem to be drinking in the kitchen area of Rachel's loft, while others are already dancing. Blaine also sees a couple heavily making out and averts his eyes quickly when he realizes that they probably won't just be making out for long.

Rachel suddenly arrives in front of them and she's already fairly tipsy in Blaine's opinion. She has a huge smile on her face and when she looks at Kurt and Blaine, she looks like a kid on Christmas morning. She's obviously very excited for Kurt to be there, and that makes Blaine wonder how many parties Kurt has missed in order to stay with him and Emily.

“I'm so happy you both came!” she screams excitedly, before hugging Kurt and then Blaine, which surprises his immensely. Blaine hesitates before putting his arms around her and hugging her back briefly, and when they untangle themselves, he can see Kurt looking at him with a knowing look and an amused smile on his face, having picked up on his uncertainty.

Once Rachel is gone, Kurt looks towards Blaine and points toward the kitchen where some people are sitting around and drinking. Blaine smiles and follows Kurt towards the area. Kurt fishes a beer from a cooler and hands it out to Blaine, and they both take a seat. Blaine can't help but laugh when Kurt takes the first swing of his beer and makes a disgusted face, but still keeps on drinking. In spite of the reassurance, Blaine had been a little afraid that Kurt would leave him alone during the party

Blaine is by no means shy, but they are so many people here, and a lot of them are already drunk. He doesn't know how comfortable he would have been at the party if Kurt hadn't been by his side. To his surprise and pleasure however, Kurt doesn't leave his side at all during the evening. People come and go and Kurt introduces Blaine to some of his friends. The first person to come up to them is a woman named Santana, she's apparently one of Kurt's closest friends and she's very crude, although hilarious in Blaine's opinion. Blaine listens to Kurt introducing him to his friend, curious about what he'll call him and he's happy when Kurt introduces him as his friend, and not just his roommate. 

Santana hangs around with them for a while, and Blaine can't remember laughing this hard for a while, when he listens to the woman imitate some of her teachers or people in her class. After a while, Blaine starts to feel more comfortable, he sees a couple of people he shares classes with and they end up talking for a bit, but Kurt still doesn't leave his side. They both speak with different people, but always stay in close proximity to one another, which Blaine can't help but feel happy about. He's also immensely happy when he sees a couple of guys eyeing Kurt, and the man not even noticing them, or caring. Although Blaine knows he shouldn't feel this way, he feels a little jealous of the guys trying to get close to Kurt and he's happy that Kurt isn't really paying any attention to them. 

Later on, both Blaine and Kurt and pleasantly buzzed. They have spent the entire evening speaking and laughing with all kind of people and both of them are enjoying their night out. Neither of them is too drunk, but they've both had a few beers and did some shots with Rachel when she came around announcing that it was shot time. Both boys are having fun, and just enjoying their evening. Kurt suddenly turns towards Blaine and says:

“We should dance!” and he sounds so excited and happy, that Blaine, despite his reservations of earlier in the evening, doesn't even hesitate before following Kurt towards the improvised dance floor in the middle of Rachel's apartment. Both boys start dancing close, and they just get lost in the beat of the music. They dance for a bit and Blaine can feel Kurt so close to him. With the proximity between them, Blaine can feel the heat coming off of Kurt's body, he can feel the hard edge of Kurt's well defined torso, and he can't help but want to get even closer. Throwing caution in the wind, Blaine advances even more and puts his arms around Kurt's muscled shoulders, and Kurt answers by placing his hands on Blaine's hips, where they seem to fit naturally. Blaine loses himself in the music and the feeling of Kurt's body, and in that moment, he can't help but be happy. He loves being so close to Kurt. After denying what he's been feeling for so long, he loves having the opportunity to touch Kurt, and just be close to the man. For a while, they both dance so close to each other without caring or noticing the jealous looks they are getting from other people. Blaine would normally feel self conscious about dancing this way, but seeing as so many other people are doing the same around them, he doesn't have it in himself to care.

After a while, the music slows and so does their dancing. Naturally and without thinking about it, both boys start dancing slower and get even closer to each other. Blaine doesn't even think about it and just rejoices in the fact that he gets to be this close to Kurt for a moment, and that it all seems so natural, so right. Blaine turns up his head and looks into Kurt's eyes to find them hooded with desire and warmth he can't seem to place. He doesn't know who makes the first move, but they both come closer and their lips finally make contact for the first time. It's like an electric shock is sent to Blaine's body. He grabs Kurt's perfectly coifed hair and he deepens the kiss, opening his mouth to let Kurt's tongue enter. When their tongues finally make contact, Blaine can't believe the feeling twirling inside of his body; he's never felt this connected, this good, with a simple kiss. It's everything he's ever imagined, and so much more at the same time. Kurt's lips are soft, but firm at the same time. Blaine tightens his hands around Kurt, and he tousles Kurt's hair with one of them while the other descends to rest on Kurt's neck and he caresses Kurt's jaw line with his thumb. Blaine gets lost in the kiss and he can feel Kurt's hands caressing his sides, which sends Goosebumps to Blaine's body. It feels so good that Blaine doesn't know why they've never done this before, why he's never let himself feel this before until… Emily.

This is why they haven't done this before, this is why Blaine hasn't allowed himself to think about Kurt this way. Blaine suddenly pulls back from Kurt, Emily coming back to the top of his mind, and Kurt sends him a worried look.

“Are you okay Blaine?” he asks and he sounds so worried and vulnerable, that Blaine hates what he's about to do.

“We can't do this” answers Blaine, even if it's breaking his heart to say these words. Blaine is suddenly sober and he can see the hurt that crosses Kurt's face before the man manages to hide it. 

“What do you mean we can't do this?” Kurt asks, voice a little desperate, and Blaine hates that he can see Kurt already pulling his mask back on, something he hasn't done with Blaine is such a long time. He hates that this will probably change their friendship, but he just can't. “I was under the impression we were both enjoying ourselves here, I don't…”

Before he can go on, Blaine cuts him off and says with a defeated voice: “We just can't Kurt, I'm sorry” before pulling completely away and making his way towards the exit of the loft.

This was a mistake, and Blaine should have never kissed Kurt. It doesn't matter that this was probably the best kiss Blaine has ever shared in his life, it doesn't matter that it was perfect and made Blaine feel warm to the core, he just can't risk losing Kurt, for Emily's sake. The little girl loves Kurt so much, and he can't risk her losing Kurt, not when she's lost so many people already. Blaine leaves the party without an explanation to Kurt, heavy heart and lips still tingling with the sensation of Kurt's on his. He wants to go back there so bad and just forget everything he just said and kiss Kurt until neither of them can breathe anymore, but he knows that he can't. He had to be responsible, he has to think of Emily and he can't risk it.