Oct. 2, 2012, 10:36 a.m.
Not The Boy Next Door : Giving In
E - Words: 2,484 - Last Updated: Oct 02, 2012 Story: Closed - Chapters: 5/? - Created: Jun 02, 2012 - Updated: Oct 02, 2012 653 0 6 0 0
I kissed my student.
I kissed a gorgeous student.
I kissed Kurt.
Those were the thoughts running through Blaine's head as he got back to his apartment that same night. He was reeling with thoughts about the blue eyed beauty in his morning Music History class. The first time he set his eyes on Kurt Hummel, his heart skipped a beat. The striking boy moved from a barely there blimp on Blaine's radar, to centre stage. Blaine hadn't believed in love at first sight until he met Kurt. The first day as he watched the younger boy throughout the class he committed every little detail, quirk, habit, nervous twitch to his mind within an hour. The porcelain skinned boy was mesmerizing and held Blaine’s attention fully any time he was within seeing distance.
Then Blaine made the stupid decision to go to the karaoke bar with Kurt and his overly enthusiastic friend Rachel. Then he watched Kurt sing one of the sexiest song he had ever had the pleasure of witnessing. Not to mention the asshole that had to come up and ruin a perfect moment while giving Kurt his number. Seeing that sparked a load of jealousy inside of Blaine, and he knew that Kurt could see it in his eyes. Trying to get away as quickly as possible so Kurt couldn’t see the obvious want in Blaine’s expressions, he found himself in the washroom. Where he kissed his student for the first time. Kissed him with so much raw and pure passion that it scared the living daylights out of Blaine.
Blaine had never, ever, felt this way about someone. There had never been a person in his life before that entrapped him as well as Kurt Hummel did. Not even any of his former boyfriends were close to what he was feeling for Kurt. Blaine knew that he would be able to give his heart to his student so easily, and that thought alone sent a shiver down his spine.
Pacing back and forth in his small uptown apartment, Blaine considered the facts and possibilities of his immoral temptation. Knowing very well that a relationship would not be illegal with Kurt, his job was still at stake seeing as professors are forbidden to date their current students, no matter the age.
So the question goes down to whether or not Blaine can stand with the torture every time he sees Kurt without being able to touch him, hold him, love him, or does he break every code he knew to be right just to be able to call Kurt his?
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After a weekend full of sleep and constant arguing in his mind and aloud with himself, Blaine knew what he had chosen to do. He hoped that he wouldn’t get into a heap of shit for what he had planned.
Monday morning came quickly and Blaine was ready completely to set the gears in motion. Making sure to grab his guitar on his way out of his apartment, he raced to campus to make it to his classroom before his students for once.
Five minutes before his class was set to start, Blaine watched as Kurt walked through the doorway and took his signature seat in the front centre of the room, perfectly for Blaine’s plan. Sending a hesitant smile to his teacher, Blaine shot a wink at Kurt that he had never had the nerve to do before. The shocked look on Kurt’s face was enough for Blaine to start his class early.
He waited for the tolling of the bell to finish before speaking. “Okay guys, I’m going to speed up the lessons a bit so we can get into some of my all time favourite music. So today, I will be demonstrating one of Rock n’ Roll’s finest.” Seeing the puzzled looks on his students faces, Blaine picked up his guitar from behind his desk. “I will be singing and accompanying myself today and you will all get the pleasure of witnessing me doing so. So sit back, listen well, and enjoy. We will have a discussion about the songs meaning and lyrics when I’m finished. Without further ado, my name is Blaine Anderson and I will be singing Can’t Fight This Feeling by REO Speedwagon.
I can't fight this feeling any longer.
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow.
What started out as friendship,
Has grown stronger.
I only wish I had the strength to let it show.
I tell myself that I can't hold out forever.
I said there is no reason for my fear.
Cause I feel so secure when we're together.
You give my life direction,
You make everything so clear.
Glancing up from his hands on the guitar, Blaine caught the expression on Kurt’s face, but it was unreadable. It was as if Kurt was fighting an internal battle with himself. Blaine made sure to focus more of his attention while singing to Kurt, while ensuring that his other students in the room didn’t catch on.
And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the window,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.
And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.
Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crushing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.
The sincerity behind what he was singing, blindsided Blaine. Every word, every lyric, struck a chord and Blaine felt his heart going out to Kurt fully. Blaine wasn’t going to hesitate in his feelings anymore, he’s not holding back. If Kurt will have him, then he will be his. He was stopping the fight inside himself and finally taking the choice to give himself what he wants for once in his life. He was done following the rules and what others set for him to do.
My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you.
I've been running round in circles in my mind.
And it always seems that I'm following you, girl,
Cause you take me to the places,
That alone I'd never find.
And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the wind,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.
A shiver passed through Blaine when he noticed the wet blue eyes of Kurt sitting in front of him. Blaine literally felt his walls collapsing around him and it felt amazing.
And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.
Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crushing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.
Blaine finished his song with a roaring round of applause and some of his students even shouted out, praising him, and whistled. Blaine laughed and set down his guitar before settling the class. “Thank you guys. I doubt I was that good, but I’ll take your word. Now, let’s start that discussion. I’ll ask a question and you can politely raise your hand and everyone will get the chance to express your opinion. Firstly, what do you think the artist was trying to say with the lyrics?”
Blaine looked around the room at the raised hands before landing on Kurt. “Kurt, what are your thoughts?”
“Well, I think that the artist was trying to say that he or she was having feelings for another person that they were trying to repress for a specific reason, but that they finally stopped fighting with themselves and gave into the temptation that they were experiencing. The song says that the artist can’t live without the person of their affection and I find that quite endearing and sweet. The artist clearly has a lot of emotions for this person, and the lyrics tell the listener that they would do anything for the one they love. That right there is the backbone of any relationship, and the song expressed that fully.” Kurt finished with a soft smile that Blaine knew was just for him.
“Well said Kurt, now can anyone top that?” Blaine ran through the rest of his class barely listening to what his students had to say. His mind kept drifting back to Kurt’s previous words and the hidden messages directed to him. Finally the class was over and Blaine could go through with the rest of his plan. He watched as Kurt lingered, knowing the boy wanted to talk to him about what happened.
When the last person left the room Kurt spoke. “So Blaine, any reason for that specific song?” Blaine could see a hint of amusement in his students face.
“Well I’m willing to explain that to you, but not here. How about my place after classes? Say 6 o’clock?” The shock evident on Kurt’s face was enough courage for Blaine to continue. “We can order take out and talk?”
“S-sure. I’ll see you there. Text me your address.” Kurt took Blaine’s phone off of his desk and swiftly added in his number. With one last look, Kurt was out the door.
Blaine was unashamed to admit that he did a happy dance around his classroom and spent the rest of the day in a spectacular mood. At 5:30 he was out of his classroom and practically running back to his apartment. He had sent Kurt a message with his address earlier in the day and received a wink face in response. Nerves and excitement boiled within his stomach and he hurried to set his apartment in some sort of order.
At 5:59 a knock sounded on his door and he dashed to pull the door open. On the other side Kurt laughed at his teacher’s obvious happiness to see him on the other side. “Hi.” Blaine said rather breathlessly.
“Hello there Mr. Anderson. Are you going to let me in?”
“Oh of course.” Blaine said, a little embarrassed.
Kurt walked into the room and looked around, appraising everything in sight. Blaine took pride in his decorating.
The room was warm with open space and tasteful accents here and there. “Very nice Blaine. I approve.” Kurt turned with a wide smirk on his face.
“Well I’m glad. So Kurt, what would you like to eat? I’m up for anything.”
“How about Chinese? It’s quite easy, don’t you agree?”
“Sure, I’ll go order. Any preferences?” When Kurt shook his head no, Blaine went into his small attached kitchen and placed his regular order, doubled, from a restaurant down the street. Going back into his living room, Kurt was seated on his couch watching Blaine’s every movement.
“Well now that that’s done, Blaine. Care to share your reasoning behind the song you sang today in class?” Kurt asked with a teasing tone to his magical voice.
“Remember everything you said in class when I asked the meaning behind the lyrics?” Kurt’s nod encouraged Blaine to continue. “What you said tore the words right out of my mouth. Everything you said is what I feel. I’m stopping the fight I’ve been having with myself. I’m giving in to the temptation. I want to try this Kurt, but only if you want me too.”
“Oh Blaine.” In that instant both men were out of their seats and flying at each other, trying to reach the other first. Blaine grabbed onto Kurt’s arms and pressed his lips onto the countertenors. Kurt’s hand went directly into Blaine’s hair and started playing with his loose curls. Blaine felt his hands moving down Kurt’s arms to grasp onto his hips and pulled him towards his open bedroom door. Pulling each other into the room, Blaine pushed Kurt down on his bed and crawled on top of him.
“What about the food?” Kurt asked, out of breath.
“I’ve got something much more appealing underneath me right now, I’d rather take that.” Blaine surged forward attaching his lips to the other boys yet again. The two kissed frantically and Kurt opened his mouth allowing Blaine to slide his tongue in along with Kurt’s. Rolling so they were on the bed fully, and not dangling off, Blaine reached down to start undoing the buttons on the alabaster beauties shirt. Keeping their mouths together the entire time, both found themselves able to take their shirts off without difficulty. Blaine peered down at Kurt below him. His chest was beautifully defined and as white as the rest of his body. “You’re gorgeous Kurt.”
“So are you Blaine.”
The growing hardness in Blaine’s pants was starting to get out of hand. Pressing his hips down, he could feel Kurt’s bulge in his pants as well. Ghosting his hands down Kurt’s chest, Blaine ended up with his hand hovering right over the belt of Kurt’s pants. “Go ahead.” The other boy told him. The belt was surprisingly easy to get undone and Kurt’s zipper followed. Pulling down Kurt’s skin tight jeans proved to be a problem, but when they were finally on the floor Blaine gasped at the sight in front of him. Kurt had gone commando under his jeans and his erect cock was one of the most beautiful things Blaine had ever seen, next to its owner. Blaine leaned down and licked up Kurt’s length. A shudder came from Kurt’s mouth and a slight moan that sent the blood rushing down to Blaine’s erection.
Moving his tongue around the head of Kurt’s cock, Blaine worked his way down, taking Kurt whole. He relaxed his throat and hollowed his cheeks and sucked for all he was worth. Blaine bobbed his head up and down and drank in all the glorious noises that came from the withering boy beneath him. Kurt’s hand shot out and grabbed a hold of Blaine hair, pulling and tugging as Blaine did something he liked. Blaine licked at Kurt’s slit and let out a soft moan, which sent Kurt over the edge. The taste and feel of Kurt’s release in his mouth sent Blaine to his finish as well.
Crawling back up Kurt’s body, he kissed Kurt as hard and passionately as he could. Blaine relaxed and rolled off of Kurt, lying next to him.
“Do you want me to take care of you…?”
Blaine blushed insanely. “Um.. I’m fine. In fact, you didn’t need to do anything and I was gone.”
Kurt laughed and leaned in to kiss Blaine once more before setting back on the pillows. “Well that was pretty interesting? Don’t you agree?”
Blaine couldn’t help but laugh.
Comments
I loooooove it!!!!I really love it.If the following chapters are gonna be this good and exciting update soon!!!
I'll try my best :)
loved this chapter...
I actually love these two. There was definitely a build up before admitting their feelings for each other and the age difference is fine. Looking forward to the rest. Thanks!
I still enjoyed reading it. First times between new can be rushed and awkward;-)
It was not rushed I love that it went that fast I don't have patience waiting for it ;). I loved this chapter and Blaine's song was also perfect. Great chapter