Aug. 6, 2011, 6:15 a.m.
My Life Has Changed Since I Found You: Drunken Mess
T - Words: 1,012 - Last Updated: Aug 06, 2011 Story: Closed - Chapters: 5/? - Created: Aug 06, 2011 - Updated: Aug 06, 2011 526 0 0 0 0
Aria was only a freshman in high school when she found out and ever since then it had only gotten progressively worse. Before it was only once or twice a month but now it had gotten to be almost every day. Some days she would come home and find him drunk on the floor, completely knocked out. Kurt had gotten Blaine's mother involved and while at first she was pretty upset she finally got her act together and tried to help. It obviously didn't work since here we are today.
She silently crept into her father's office hoping to find him there and was in the greatest of luck.
"Dad, can I talk to you for a little while?" she asked hesitantly harshly wringing her hands together.
He replied with a melancholy smile "Of course, Sweetheart, you know you can talk to me about anything."
She chuckled a bit and sat down across from him. "I know dad but this is a bit hard to talk about…"
"What is it?"
"It's father. I don't know what to do anymore. I cry myself to sleep every night and while Aiden knows all about it because his mom is the same way I just can't help but feel helpless about it. I want it to stop!"
"I know and I do too but he has to agree to go to therapy. Try not to think about it and head up to bed. Just relax."
"Thanks Dad maybe I will."
Aria walked up the stairs to her room, lay down on her bed and thought of all that had happened in the past few years eventually ended up crying herself to sleep.
The next morning she woke up and slowly walked downstairs listening to her parent's hushed yells.
"Blaine you need to go to therapy! Do you have any idea what it's doing to both me and your daughter? We're so upset by this, why can't you get it into your head that we love you?"
"I'm sorry Kurt, I know this is hurting you both but it's hurting me too to know that I'm the one that caused all this hurt." He sobbed into his husband's shoulder, clinging onto him as if it was the last thing he would ever do.
"Blaine if you don't go to therapy and stop this I'm seriously thinking of filing for a divorce." His eyes were cold as they bored into his husband's and other halves anguished ones.
"You wouldn't really do that would you? We're soul mates Kurt!"
"Soul mates or not I cannot continue to deal with this."
"I'll go to therapy and I'll get better. You'll see."
Aria couldn't believe her ears…divorce? Oh my god what was she going to do she wouldn't let that happen, no matter what.
A few months went by without an incident and both her dad and herself were much happier. While Aria had told some other people about this happening at home she had not told her father about it…she couldn't bear to see what would happen to him if she did.
However one day she let slip that she had told people and who she had told and he didn't speak to her for a week, sending icy glares at her whenever she came near him.
She couldn't bear the thought of him never speaking to her again but somehow they managed to work through it.
Another month flew by and she was talking to her cousin Ned more than ever. Ned was her favorite cousin and while he was much older they were super close. Over the years however, they had lost contact for awhile and he never knew about her father.
Aria was under a lot of stress from school and work now that she was a senior and decided to take a visit to facebook which she hadn't been on in a few months.
Once she was logged on several people bombarded her one being her cousin Ned whom she had recently become friends with hoping that they could salvage what relationship they had had left after all those years.
They started to talk.
Ned: Hey cuz how's it going?
Aria: Hey! I've been better. How about you?
Ned: Good. Still working a lot but what else is new? lol. What's wrong?
Aria: A lot of things Ned. Just I wish that we would see each other as much as we did before. What happened to us?
Ned: Work, school and of course the family conflict. But really a lot of things have happened over the past few years.
Aria: You too? Yeah you don't know the half of it.
Ned: I know. You know you can tell me right?
Aria: Yeah but…
Ned: Come on tell me what's been going on.
Aria: Umm…if I tell you can you promise not to tell anyone?
Ned: Who am I going to tell?
Aria: Just promise ok?
Ned: Ok…
Aria: My father (Blaine) drinks like no other.
Ned: Wow I had no idea.
Aria: Yeah and I just don't know what to do about it anymore.
Ned: Has he gotten better?
Aria: Yes but still I never know what's going to happen.
Ned: I hope it continues to get better for your sake.
Aria: Thank you Ned.
Ned: You're welcome.
After that they continued to talk about other family issues and eventually signed off and went to bed.
The next day after dinner both Blaine and Kurt questioned Aria about how much she had told anyone she had talked to. She repeatedly said she had not talked about "family business" when in fact she had.
She couldn't believe she had lied to her parents and had to keep it a secret from them for the rest of her life. She already had enough on her plate. How much longer could this all go on?
Years down the road Aria had still kept that secret from her parents and even after they both died she held that heavy burden and carried it with her to her own grave…50 years later.