Chapter 10
Two weeks later the two boys were on Blaine's bed finishing up their English project. Blaine was typing the paper portion of the project, while Kurt worked on the presentation. Blaine was completely focused on the task, typing away at the keyboard. Kurt, on the other hand, was completely distracted. He couldn't stop his eyes from tilting up to Blaine about every two seconds.
The two had been practically inseparable the past two weeks. They never stopped talking or texting and Kurt was getting impatient. It had been two weeks since he had tried kissing Blaine. Blaine hadn't actually rejected him. But he admitted to lying to him and then Kurt found out he was sick and it was a pretty big distraction, for the time being. Now, Kurt was sure that he wanted to be with Blaine, cancer or no cancer. What he wasn't sure about was whether or not Blaine wanted to be with him.
Kurt cleared his throat, trying to get Blaine to look up. When it didn't work in the slightest he sighed to himself. Kurt stared at the boy, thinking he would notice. But when thirty seconds past and Kurt got no response, not even a glance up, he finally shut his computer. Finally, Blaine looked up in interest, "I'm bored. Do you want to put a movie in or something?"
Blaine furrowed his brow in that completely too adorable way before shutting his own computer and signing back, 'I guess. But I thought you wanted to get the project done today.'
"It's not due until the end of the week and we're almost done anyways. It will be fine."
Blaine smiled and nodded in response, placing his laptop on the floor next to his things, 'What movie?'
Kurt crawled off the bed and walked to Blaine's stack of DVDs, picking one out that he thought Blaine might enjoy. He held it up for the boy's reaction and smiled when Blaine gave the thumbs up. Kurt put the movie on and headed back over to lie on the bed next to Blaine.
Blaine grinned and seemed to scoot a bit closer to Kurt before signing, 'How did you know this is my favorite movie?'
Kurt shrugged. "Lucky guess. You just seem like the superhero type."
Blaine raised an eyebrow and looked down at his own pants, pulling into view the waistband of his boxers that had the word "Batman" written in yellow.
Kurt laughed and nudged Blaine's shoulder with his own. "Okay, so I may have seen that earlier when you bent down to get your laptop out... But let's just pretend it was a lucky guess."
'Okay. We'll just pretend you weren't checking me out earlier.' He replied with a smirk.
Kurt was bright red at this point and couldn't look at Blaine without being horribly embarrassed. He looked forward and picked up the remote to press play on the movie screen, waiting for it to start but still feeling Blaine's eyes boring into him. He slowly turned his head with a small smile playing on his lips. "Take a picture. It'll last longer."
The comment didn't faze Blaine. He only smiled cheekily and replied, 'I'm afraid that not even a picture could properly capture your beauty.'
Well, that did nothing to help Kurt's blush. The two had been flirty like this for about two days now and this was one thing that was driving Kurt absolutely crazy. They would do the flirty thing but Blaine hadn't even made the slightest attempt to try and kiss him. And Kurt wanted a damn kiss! "Why do you do that?" He blurted out, thinking out loud.
Blaine looked at him, clearly confused, 'What do you mean?'
Kurt sighed and looked away for a moment. It wasn't like he could turn back now without looking awkward. And he really needed to know... "You flirt with me. Call me... beautiful and cute. But that's all you do." He explained, not lifting his head to look at Blaine.
Blaine shifted on the bed to face him completely head on, obviously interested in the conversation. Kurt looked up at him, waiting for a response. 'What do you want me to do?'
"Do I really need to answer that?" Kurt chewed on his lower lip nervously. If Blaine turned him down again it would be clear that this was just a one sided thing and that Kurt would never have a chance at this guy who could very well be the guy of his dreams.
Blaine shook his head and looked down before replying, 'Kurt, we can't.'
"Why not?" He demanded.
Blaine once again, hesitated to answer. And when he did answer it was short, sweet, and to the point, 'I'm sick.'
Kurt shook his head, "I don't care." He said softly, leaning in to press his lips to Blaine's. But before he could get there he felt the familiar feeling of Blaine's finger stopping him. Kurt opened his eyes to a nervous looking curling haired boy and he pulled back, "Do you not like me? Because if you don't like me then you're kind of really fucked up for flirting with me these past few days."
Blaine shook his head and took Kurt's hands for a quick second before letting go to explain, 'Of course I like you. I like you more than I thought I could ever like someone. But I can't just get into a relationship with you like it's no big deal. Kurt, I'm sick. I'm sick and I'm not getting any better. My parents are trying to save for the surgery I need but I know that they aren't going to make that money in time.'
Kurt couldn't stop himself from crying, but he wished he could. To him, it felt like he was only proving the point that Blaine was trying to make. That he couldn't handle what was happening. But Kurt knew that he could handle it. He just had to convince Blaine of that. "You don't know that. You're stronger than you think you are and you can't just write yourself off as dead. Blaine, just because you're sick doesn't mean you can't live anymore."
Blaine stood up and started pacing, trying to control his emotions. For some reason, Blaine never seemed to want to show them too much. 'You can't handle this Kurt. I'm not going to bring someone else into the shitty life of Blaine Anderson. Everyone around me hurts and it's always my fault. My sister has nightmares. My parents are so far in debt that they can't even see two feet in front of them. They sold our fucking house and it still wasn't enough! And I'm not adding you to that list.'
Kurt stood up and crossed the room to stand in front of him. "What if I want you to?" He demanded, voice cracking. "You don't get to choose for me!"
'Considering the fact that it take two to make a relationship, I think I do.'
Kurt's tears had spilled over as he groaned in frustration. "You're so stubborn that you won't even consider that I'm asking for this! I want to be there for you! I want to be there whether you're laughing or whether you're crying! Why can't you understand that?"
Blaine only shook his head, trying to keep his own tears from spilling over.
Before Blaine could respond or push him away anymore than he already had, Kurt stepped forward and cupped Blaine's face, finally connecting their lips together, a bit more forcefully than he had imagined in the past few days.