Chapter Five

Kurt woke up the next morning and remembered immediately what had happened the last day.

He remembered the audition and the kiss and the second kiss. Then he remembered Finn and the picture that was still lying in the bin. He regretted his behavior towards his step-brother but otherwise Finn’s idea was really ridiculous but Kurt couldn’t get this weird feeling out of his head that something about this picture was important.

Maybe Blaine really is related to that family, he thought.

He looked over to Blaine’s bed and smiled at the sight of his boyfriend. He looked so cute when he was sleeping. His lips were opened a tiny bit and his curls were falling into his eyes. Kurt sat there for a few minutes just watching Blaine sleep.

Then Blaine woke up. His eyes opened and he seemed totally awake after one second. He didn’t look sleepy at all.

His eyes found Kurt’s immediately and he grinned.

“Good morning, sunshine. How did you sleep?” He stretched his arms and got out of the bed.

“Very good” Kurt lied because actually his thoughts had kept him awake for a long time.

“So are you ready for your first day of school at Dalton?”

Kurt sighed. “Probably not but I will have to go anyway, right?” He put on a white V-neck T-shirt and khakis. “Do you know if we have any courses together?”

Blaine thought about it. “Could be. What’s your first class?”

“French with Mr. Howard.”

“I don’t have French but Jeff does.” He put on his Dalton Blazer and so did Kurt.

“Okay, let’s go and have some breakfast. I’m starving.” Kurt nodded. “Okay, just wait a second. I need my bag.” He quickly grabbed it and joined Blaine at the door. Blaine took his hand into his hands and kissed him gently.

When they ended the kiss, Kurt asked,

“Are we telling the others about this?”

“Hm, yes, why not? I don’t think we should keep it from them.” He took Kurt’s hand and opened the door. Right at that moment, Nick and Jeff came down the hallway.

Jeff waved but Nick stared at Blaine’s hand holding Kurt’s.

“Hey guys. We were just about to go get some breakfast. Are you coming with us?” Jeff asked and then he noticed their clasped hands, too.

“Oh my god! Is that what it looks like?” he gasped. “You are so cute together. Blaine, I never thought you could be so cute. I always thought you were a bad boy who’s not made for any kind of relationship to a person—“

“Shut it, Jeff! Stop rambling! Yeah, okay, we are together but that’s not a reason for you to freak out!” Blaine seemed annoyed. So did Nick.

“Okay, whatever. Let’s have breakfast. Classes are beginning in thirty minutes.” Nick started walking away and the three boys followed him downstairs.

During their breakfast they barely talked at all. Nick was pushing his scrambled eggs around his plate with his fork angrily and finally Blaine said,

“Nick, can I talk to you for a minute? Please.”

Nick glanced at Blaine and stood up. They walked over to the windows of the cafeteria.

“What is it?” Nick asked.

“Look, Nick, I’m really sorry. But this is just the way I feel. And I didn’t mean to upset you with this. I know, I said I wasn’t ready for a relationship, but—“

“No! No, you said you weren’t good for anyone, you said it wasn’t just because you didn’t like me.” Nick was not angry. Not anymore. All that Blaine could see on his face was pain and disappointment.

Tears started filling Nick’s eyes but he wiped them away.

“Nick, I’m so, so sorry.” He took Nick in his arms and Nick let it happen. “Tell me what I can do to make it up to you” he whispered into Nick’s ear. “Anything. I will do it.”

Nick looked up into Blaine’s eyes.

“I promised I would leave you alone. You know, I’m happy that you and Kurt are happy. So I won’t bother you two.” He looked down again. “But if you want to do something for me… then you promise me, that you will never – and I mean never – break Kurt’s heart. I know how it feels to be heartbroken and that should never happen to anyone. So… will you promise it?”

Blaine’s head was spinning.

I don’t know if I can promise you that. What if it breaks Kurt’s heart when he finds out about me? I’ll probably break that promise but what am I supposed to do?

“I promise, Nick. I will never break Kurt’s heart.”

I’m so gonna regret this.

Nick nodded. “That’s all I want. Okay, let’s go back. Classes are beginning in a few minutes.” He wiped his tears away once more and they returned to Kurt and Jeff who were still sitting at their table. They were about to leave.

Blaine and Nick grabbed their bags and the four boys left the cafeteria.

“Is everything alright?” Kurt whispered to Blaine.

“Yes, everything is fine. I’m gonna tell you later, okay? Just go with Jeff. He’ll show you the way to French.”

“Okay, see you later.”

Blaine was sitting in History and thought about his situation.

I lied to Kurt, didn’t I? Just being with him is a big lie. And he actually knows already what I am. He just won’t admit that it’s the truth. He’s trying to convince himself that Finn must be crazy thinking of such bullshit. So what would he do, if I told him that Finn’s right?

Would he run away screaming? Would he hate me? Of course, he would. Who wouldn’t, if he found out that he has been living with a vampire?

Blaine sighed and a few heads turned into his direction. He ignored them.

But I like to think that Kurt’s different. He’s not like anybody else. He wouldn’t run away, right? Well, there’s only one way to find out.

The week went by pretty fast and Blaine was thinking about the way he could tell Kurt. The only classes they had together were English and Biology, so they barely saw each other during the day. In the evenings though, Blaine would often kiss Kurt, ignoring the fact that it was extremely dangerous.

On Thursday night Blaine went hunting again. This time he chose to hunt animals because he couldn’t stand the thought of Kurt’s reaction to him killing humans. Animal blood didn’t taste good. In fact, it was really gross. But it helped against his hunger so Blaine was willing to pay that price.

It was on his way back to Dalton when he decided to tell Kurt the truth. He couldn’t live with the lie anymore.

“I will tell him. I will tell him about it tomorrow.” He repeated it like a mantra; again and again. But it didn’t get any better. For the first time in about 200 years Blaine was afraid. Afraid of losing the one that he loved.

Friday came and Kurt woke up early. School would start in one and a half hours. That meant that Blaine and him could have nice, long breakfast together.

“Blaine, wake up. I want to have breakfast.” But when he looked over to Blaine’s bed, he found it to be empty.

“Blaine? Are you in the bathroom?” No answer. He got up and then he saw a piece of paper lying on the table in the middle of the room. He picked it up and read.

Dear Kurt,

I’m sorry that I left so early without you. I’m downstairs in the cafeteria.

Please come whenever you’re ready.

Love, Blaine

P.S.: You better hurry. I made breakfast for you J

Kurt smiled. So Blaine had the same idea about having an early and nice breakfast when no one would be there.

He quickly got dressed and hurried downstairs.

Blaine sat in the cafeteria waiting for Kurt. He had decided he would tell him after school. This breakfast was only an excuse to spend more time with him. And it was also his last opportunity to show Kurt how much he really loved him before he would reveal his secret.

When Kurt arrived, Blaine’s heart jumped. They kissed each other and Blaine breathed in Kurt’s scent once again.

“Wow, this looks like an amazing breakfast. You made that by yourself?” Blaine nodded. “We won’t be able to eat all of that, though.”

“That doesn’t matter as long as we’re having a nice breakfast together. And coffee. Everything is better with coffee.” Blaine took a deep breath.

“Which is why, I would like to meet you at the Lima Bean after school. We can have some coffee and then we can go for a walk because I need to talk to you.”

“I would love to have coffee with you but what do you need to talk about?” Kurt was scared.

Maybe I don’t want to know what he wants to talk about. Oh my god, he wants to break up with me.

“Kurt, I know, I’ve been very distant this whole week but I want you to know that it had nothing to do with you. I t was more about me. But I would like to talk about it. So will you have coffee with me after school?”

Kurt relaxed a little bit. It had nothing to do with him. Maybe Blaine wasn’t going to break up with him. “Of course. I’d love to.”

After finishing their breakfast they went to their classrooms. Blaine was nervous all day. During the lunch break he returned to his room. For a few minutes he just sat on his bed, breathing in and out. Then he reached for his guitar…

Kurt went back to their room when he couldn’t find Blaine in the cafeteria. As soon as he opened the door, he heard him. He stood at the door and didn’t say anything. He barely dared to breathe. He just listened and hoped that this moment would never end.

Life’s too short to even care at all oh

I’m losing my mind losing my mind losing control

These fishes in the sea they’re staring at me

oh oh Oh oh oh oh

A wet world aches for a beat of a drum

Oh

If I could find a way to see this straight I’d run away

To some fortune that I should have found by now.

So I run now to the things they said could restore me,

Restore life the way it should be.

I'm waiting for this cough syrup to come down.

Life’s too short to even care at all oh

I’m losing my mind losing my mind losing control

If I could find a way to see this straight I’d run away

To some fortune that I should have found by now

So I run now to the things they said could restore me

Restore life the way it should be

Waiting for this cough syrup to come down

One more spoon of cough syrup now

One more spoon of cough syrup now oh oh oh

“How long have you been listening?” Blaine turned to Kurt. He heard the heartbeat of the boy getting faster when he blushed.

“I didn’t mean to… I mean, I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have listened…” he stuttered,

“Don’t worry Kurt. I don’t care. I just wanted to know if you heard the whole song.” Blaine smiled.

“Almost.” Kurt came closer to the bed Blaine was sitting on. “It was sad. But it was so beautiful. You… are beautiful.”

“I love you so much. I will never leave you. I couldn’t leave you.” He kissed Blaine. Blaine kissed him back. He was desperately hoping that this wouldn’t be their last kiss.

Don’t you forget what you just said. In a few hours you might think about it again.

A tear rolled down his cheek. Kurt didn’t notice and Blaine was glad he didn’t.

I still don’t know how I am going to tell him. I JUST DON’T KNOW! I can’t stand this anymore. I want him to know and I hope that he will accept it.

For only a second he was tempted to tell Kurt right here and now but he couldn’t. Because kissing Kurt was one of the most beautiful feelings in the world.

Something he might never feel again.