Chapter Ten

Blaine grinned.

Kurt wants to be scared then I’ll do him that favor.

His teeth lengthened and he let out a snarl. Then he moved forward, so fast that Kurt wouldn’t see him and stopped only a few inches next to Kurt’s face. His fangs almost touched Kurt’s cheek.

Kurt let out a short but high-pitched scream and jumped backwards. He was gasping for air and his eyes were wide open, staring at Blaine in shock.

“Okay, Kurt. I don’t think this is a good idea. Someone will hear you.” Blaine’s fangs were gone and he slowly walked over to Kurt. “…Are you alright?”

Kurt could tell Blaine was really worried about him but his heart was still racing and although he had told himself that he wouldn’t be afraid this time, he had to admit that he was. He was scared as hell!

“I’m okay.” He lied. He tried to breath slower in order to calm himself down. Blaine watched him. After a minute Kurt cleared his throat and looked up to Blaine.

“Good, let’s try again.” Blaine couldn’t help but laugh.

“Are you serious, Kurt? You want to try again?”

“Yes.” He banned the fear from his voice and stared at Blaine like a stubborn child. Blaine shook his head but then he stepped back.

“Well, if that’s what you want… Let’s just try it a different way.” He ran his hand through his hair. “You know, I can shapeshift?”

Kurt nodded. Where is this going?

“Are you afraid of wolves?” Kurt just nodded again. He didn’t trust his voice.

“Alright then… God, how I hate this.” Blaine muttered. He took a last look at Kurt’s face and then concentrated. He felt the change immediately and in a blink of an eye Blaine was gone and the large black wolf was standing in front of Kurt.

“Oh… my god.” Kurt breathed and slowly moved backwards until he stood at the wall. This wolf was huge. And it glared at Kurt, following every movement with its eyes… its hazel-gold eyes.

Blaine’s eyes. It was still Blaine and Kurt felt kind of relieved. But still his body was tensed and he didn’t dare to move. But then Blaine lay down on the floor still looking on Kurt as if he was expecting him to do something.

Kurt took a deep breath and took a step forward. This is Blaine. This is the guy you love. It’s just him.

He repeated the words in his head while taking the next few steps until he was almost there. Although the wolf- no, Blaine- was lying on the floor, he still was quite big and Kurt swallowed.

Blaine was trying not to move. He didn’t want to scare Kurt. He wanted to be around Kurt without him flinching at every single one of Blaine’s movements. He wanted to help him so they could be, well, together.

Kurt was now standing right in front of him and slowly, really slowly, he got down on his knees. He moved his hand up to Blaine’s head but then he hesitated. Blaine could see his hand shaking.

“Is it… is it okay, if I touch you?” Kurt whispered. Blaine slowly nodded and Kurt laid his hand on his head.

Kurt hadn’t noticed that he was holding his breath until he let the air out. He was actually touching the wolf. He was touching Blaine without being too scared. After all, he was only some kind of giant dog, right? Only more dangerous.

He started to stroke the black fur on Blaine’s neck and Blaine let out quiet whimper before closing his eyes. He was enjoying the way it felt. Kurt was definitely more relaxed than before, Blaine could tell, and that was a good thing. Maybe they would be able to manage the fear problem eventually.

“Well,” said Kurt. “This is okay, I guess. I think I can handle that you can turn into a wolf.” He stopped running his fingers through the thick fur and stood up. “Erm, would you turn back, please?”

Blaine did. He still didn’t like shifting but he had to admit that it wasn’t that bad to be petted. He stretched his arms and sighed. Then he smiled at Kurt. “Well, that was definitely progress.”

“Yes, I guess it was. But somehow the wolf doesn’t freak me out as much as… your fangs.” He tried hard not to stare at Blaine’s mouth.

“That’s okay. I think, you could work on that, too. Only if you want to, of course.” He added quickly.

Kurt nodded. “Yes. Yes, I want to work on that, please. But I don’t know how. It’s just… it’s a lot to take in.”

“I know and I’m sorry, Kurt.” Blaine sighed.” Do you want to go on now or should we just try again tomorrow?”

“Now, if that’s okay. I want to be able to sleep tonight.” He smiled but it was barely visible.

“Okay. So, I’ll just… What do you want me to do?”

“I— just show them again. Your fangs, I mean. I promise, I won’t scream this time.” Kurt prepared himself and concentrated on breathing in and out.

“Ready?” Blaine asked and when Kurt nodded, he pulled back his upper lip so his fangs were fully visible.

Kurt gasped and looked away. But only for a second. Then he looked at Blaine again and nodded once. “This is fine.” His voice was higher than usual. “Well, almost. Are they very sharp?”

“Yeah, pretty much. I mean they cut through skin and muscles like a knife through butter. Look, I’ll show you.” Kurt immediately jumped back. “Woa, Kurt, relax! I’m not gonna hurt you.”

He held his wrist to his mouth and bit down. He could taste his own blood on his tongue when he pulled back. Then he showed the bitemark to Kurt.

“See, they are really sharp.”

“Doesn’t that hurt?” Kurt asked.

“Not that much. And it’s healing fast. Look, it’s almost gone.” He was right. Everything that was left were two small red spots on his skin.

“How did you do that?” Kurt was obviously fascinated.

“I didn’t do anything. It’s my blood. There’s something in it that heals wounds very fast. It would also work, if you were hurt. You would just have to drink it.” Blaine shrugged. Kurt didn’t seem to like the thought and he shivered.

“And how come that you are so fast? I didn’t even see you approaching me the first time. I just blinked and you were right there.” He gestured at the area next to his cheek.

“I can’t really explain why I am fast. I just am. The same with my strength. I am really strong but not because of muscles. I’m just stronger than humans.”

“Do you know how fast you can go?” wondered Kurt.

“Yeah, well, I’m faster than 100 km/h but I don’t know how fast exactly.  I never tried.” He shrugged. “Does that scare you?”

“I don’t know. Maybe.” Suddenly Blaine was gone and a hand was lying on Kurt’s shoulder. He spun around. “Okay, that was very fast.” Kurt said and looked over to the spot where Blaine had been a few seconds ago and then back to Blaine. “And no, it doesn’t scare me that much.”

Blaine sat down on his bed. Kurt hesitated for a second but then decided to sit next to Blaine. He was his boyfriend after all.

“Maybe I just overreacted. I shouldn’t have been afraid of you.”

Blaine sighed. “Well, you had a good reason to be afraid of me. I’m still dangerous but I would never hurt you on purpose. I hope you know that.”

“Yes, I do. Blaine…” Kurt looked into Blaine’s golden eyes that were always sparkling like diamonds and Kurt was fascinated by them ever since he saw Blaine in the hallway on his first day.

Then he leaned forward and… kissed Blaine.

Blaine was surprised. So surprised that he didn’t even kiss Kurt back. After no more than three seconds Kurt pulled back again and seemed shocked by what he had done.

“Was that okay with you?” Kurt whispered.

“If that was okay with me? I would rather ask if that was okay with you.” Blaine stared at Kurt trying to decide if it was the right moment to smile.

“Yeah, I guess it was okay. But I think… how do I say this? I’m okay with kissing you but I don’t think I’m okay with you kissing me, unless I tell you that I’m fine with it. Okay?” He was unsure but he tried to sound as determined as possible.

“Yeah, totally okay.” Blaine smiled relieved. “Would it be okay right now?”

“…Yes.” Kurt breathed and then he felt Blaine’s lips on his own. They were so soft and he realized how much he had missed this feeling. Even though it was only four days ago that he had kissed Blaine the last time, it felt like years.

He parted his lips slightly and felt Blaine’s tongue darting into his mouth and he let it happen.  He laid his arms around Blaine’s neck and felt Blaine’s hands tightening on his hips. They moved closer together and only broke the kiss after a couple minutes to gasp for air.

They both smiled at each other and Kurt’s heart jumped.  So, this is a vampire I’m making out with. I should be a little more afraid, shouldn’t I?

“So, are you alright with me staying here for the night? I would prefer not to sleep on a roof again.” Blaine chuckled.

“Yes, of course you can sleep here. And I’m sorry that you had to sleep outside.” Kurt rose from the bed. “I’m gonna get ready for bed.”

“Yeah, me, too. Have a good night, Kurt.”

“You, too. I’m sorry Blaine. I should have never let you go.” He whispered.

“No, I shouldn’t have let you go.” Blaine smiled. “Sweet dreams.”

Everything is gonna be okay.

The next morning Kurt woke up before Blaine. He saw the smaller boy lying on the other bed with his blanket curled around him. His hair was falling into his closed eyes and his lips were slightly parted. He looked so innocently beautiful.

 And he’s a vampire. I know. But I think that last night changed my view. He may be dangerous but I still love him. And I guess, I’m not that afraid of him anymore. Okay, I have to admit that I’m a little bit scared but I’m still working on it.

He got ready for school. He had a lot of time left and he thought of going down to the cafeteria to get some breakfast for both of them but then he was unsure if Blaine even wanted to eat normal food. He had told Kurt that he didn’t need food. So would he eat it, if he had no need to?

Blaine didn’t wake up while Kurt was getting dressed and Kurt had deactivated the alarm clock. If Blaine wanted any kind of breakfast he would have to get up now.

He walked over to Blaine and hesitated a second before he laid his hand on the boy’s shoulder and shook him lightly.

The next thing he knew was that his back was hitting the floor very hard and Blaine was on top of him pinning him to the ground while a loud growl came from his throat. One of his hands was on Kurt’s neck. Kurt could hardly breathe and he couldn’t scream either.

When Blaine realized who was beneath him he let go immediately. Kurt started coughing and gasping for air.

“Oh my god, Kurt. I’m so sorry. So sorry. Please, Kurt. Are you alright? “ He helped Kurt to sit in an upright position. “Kurt?”

“I’m fine.” His heart was beating fast and he fought the urge to move away from Blaine.

“Kurt, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to hurt you. It’s just… I was acting on instinct. I didn’t know what I was doing.” He truly looked ashamed.

“I’m okay, Blaine. My back hurts but I’m okay. I’ll just remember for next time that I should never wake you up.” He smiled sarcastically and tried to stand up. He hissed in pain when he leaned on his right hand.

Blaine took it Kurt’s wrist into his hands. It was broken.

“Oh my god, what have I done? I’m sorry, Kurt. I never wanted to hurt you. Oh shit, I even promised I wouldn’t hurt you and now look what I did.”

“Blaine, hey, calm down. It was my fault. I should’ve been more careful.” Kurt got up slowly and sat down on Blaine’s bed.

“No, Kurt, none of this is your fault.” His voice sounded as if he was about to cry.

“It doesn’t matter whose fault it is. I’m just gonna go to the nurse and she will probably get someone from the hospital. It will be okay again in a few months.”

Blaine shook his head. “If you want to, I can fix it.” He looked up into Kurt’s eyes.

“…You mean with your blood.” Kurt looked from Blaine to his broken wrist and back again. He swallowed his growing fear. “Okay, do it.”

Blaine nodded and Kurt could see his fangs growing before he bit into his own wrist. Some blood dropped on the floor and Kurt shivered at the sight of the bright red color.

Blaine held his wrist to Kurt’s mouth and reluctantly put his lips around the wound. It didn’t taste as bad as he had imagined. It was kind of sweet but salty at the same time. Certainly not his favorite.

“You have to drink.” Blaine said and Kurt swallowed and started sucking on the bite. More blood came out of it and Kurt couldn’t help but swallow it. Then Blaine pulled his arm away.

“That’s enough, I think. Just try and hold your wrist still for a minute and it will be okay.” Blaine said and watched his own wrist heal. He drank my blood. I’m inside of him in a way. I wonder, if there’ll be the day when I drink his blood.  He suddenly stiffened. That was not him talking. That was the monster inside him. He would never hurt Kurt on purpose.

“Can I move it now?” Kurt asked. The taste of Blaine’s blood was still in his mouth.

“Yes, I think so. Just try it.” Kurt moved his wrist around and was surprised to feel not the tiniest sign of pain. It was kind of amazing.

“Thanks, Blaine. For healing me.” He said and stood up from the bed.

“Well, after all I was the one who hurt you in the first place. “ Blaine mumbled and turned around to get ready for breakfast and school.

Five minutes later they reached the cafeteria and walked over to Nick, Jeff and Wesley. The three boys were having a loud conversation about their life after school.

“I’m telling you that I’m not gonna be a lawyer!” Wes said angrily.

“No, of course not, Wes.” Jeff tried to calm Wes down but with very little success.

Kurt and Blaine sat down at their table and Kurt started eating the yoghurt that he had picked up from the counter. Blaine didn’t eat anything. Kurt thought that he was probably still mad and disappointed in himself because he had attacked him but Kurt had to admit that he didn’t care.

Blaine was the boy he loved; the only boy he would ever love and he wouldn’t dare living without him and it didn’t matter what he was.

“So, what about you, Kurt? What are you going to do after you’re done with school?” Nick asked.

“I don’t know, yet. My father’s got a car shop and I know how to fix cars and stuff but I would like to go to New York some time. Broadway and stuff like that. Or I would like to do something that involves fashion.”

Jeff nodded. “Yeah, that suits you. And you Blaine?”

“I have no idea. Maybe I’m going to travel a little bit around Europe.” He stared down at the table.

“Aren’t you going to do something together with Kurt? I always considered you as endgame.” Wes said looking at Kurt and Kurt blushed.

“Well, maybe I’m just gonna go travel with him.” At this sentence Jeff choked on his toast and even Blaine looked shocked.

“You would?” He asked.

“Yeah, I would. Let’s discuss this later.” Kurt whispered over Jeff’s coughing and a few minutes later the boys left the table and went to class.

It was in the early evening when Blaine returned to their room. Kurt was there already. He was working on an English assignment and he didn’t hear Blaine entering.

Blaine cleared his throat so Kurt would notice him and the boy turned around. “Hey. How was your day?” Kurt asked.

“Miserable.” Blaine fell on his bed and buried his head into his pillow.

“Don’t tell me that you’re still feeling bad about this morning. Because I won’t accept it, Blaine. I’m totally fine and I know you didn’t do it on purpose. And you know what? I meant what I said at breakfast!” Blaine’s head shot up from the pillow. “Yes, I would like to travel with you wherever you are going. I would have to explain that to my dad but I could manage that.”

“You are aware of the fact that I won’t be travelling anywhere, right? I just said that so they wouldn’t search for me when I suddenly disappear. I will probably stay at my old house and I don’t know for how long. And I don’t know, if you could stay there, even if you wanted to. But I honestly can’t imagine why you would stay there with me.” Because someday you will be gone anyway and I don’t want to watch you die.

“Because I love you.” Kurt simply said. “I love you and I don’t care what you are and I would stay with you in whatever house you’re talking about. I don’t care!”

Blaine sighed. “But your family would and your friends, too. You can’t just disappear or how would you explain me to them. You would have to keep me a secret. That’s not how you want to live your live, believe me.”

“Why? I don’t understand—“

“Kurt, I don’t age. You will be seventy-five and I will still look like this. You can’t spend your life with me. That would never work. And I’m telling you that I wish it was different because when you die, I wouldn’t want to spend eternity without you.” A tear rolled down his cheek and Kurt realized what that meant. He just couldn’t be with Blaine. They were living in two different worlds. He would have to let him go after this school year- but what if…?

“Then I’ll just become a vampire, too.”

“No!” Blaine shouted and that made Kurt flinch. “I would never let you become a vampire. Never! You wouldn’t want that kind of life.”

“Well, I know what I want. I want a life with you! And if that’s the only way then I’ll do it.”

“But you don’t understand that that isn’t a way! It’s not a way to spend eternity; killing people to stay alive and feeding on them. That’s not right and I don’t want that for you.”

“But I want to!” Kurt said angrily.

“What about your family and friends them? Did you forget how my father ended? You could never see them again!”

“I don’t care—“

“Look, how you’re talking. You clearly haven’t thought this through. You would give up your whole family for a monster.”

Kurt saw a blur, heard that the window was opened and Blaine was gone. And everything in a blink of an eye. The cold wind came through the open window and Kurt sat down on Blaine’s bed, pulled the pillow that still smelled like Blaine to his chest and starting crying quietly.